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“What the fuck is this?”
“Ahhh, is where I can see all my ratings and reviews from rides I’ve given,” Ilya said, winked, “rides on my dick.”
Shane blinked at him. “What.”
“Is silly app,” Ilya said, turned the phone back to himself, and then clicked into Svetlana’s latest review - just the preview of it in which it showed she’d given him five stars and a tip, as well as leaving a photo - and then turned the phone back to Shane. “My friend made for me as silly present. Sometimes I share with people I fuck, and they rate me. Is funny.”
This is a silly fic that takes itself seriously. Ilya has a app to rate him in bed, and Shane is mad, horny, and also going to fill out his ride reviews every single time with dedication and focus.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 259,336
- Chapters:
- 36/36
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #88653956
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There is something from an Ottawa Centaurs email, titled 'conversation.'
For a moment, he strongly considers deleting it. Shane no longer owes a single part of the MLH a damn thing, nor does he expect anything from it. His exit from the league is -- well. People aren't motivated to bring it up.
The sender is listed as Wiebe, B.
Shane clicks on the message.
Ten years ago Shane lost everything but Ilya. He has to decide what, if anything, he wants back.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 27,824
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #88445016
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the third option by sevdim
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-29
A teenage Ilya arrives at an elite six-month development programme already planning to kill himself. Shane keeps accidentally interrupting his suicide attempts because he’s obsessed with rules, routine, and following proper protocol.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 56,099
- Chapters:
- 13/13
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #84680606
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with my eyes i see your war by spider_boy42
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-08-18
It's Shane and Ilya's first playoffs together, and Ilya keeps finding Shane's food in the toilet. It's probably nothing, right? He'll ask Galina just in case.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,149
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #90781371
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Slow Dancing in the Dark by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-08-18
There were things about Shane Hollander that existed only in the dark, and those things were most of him.
or; a moment of vulnerability at a team gathering turns into a viral scandal overnight when a video of Shane coming out is leaked to the press.
Suddenly, everyone is watching. Everyone is talking. Everyone is judging.
It all goes to hell—until maybe it doesn't.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 155,505
- Chapters:
- 7/11
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #85806666
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Heal Deal by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-07-30
It’s his Person.
Missed you missed you missed you, he tries to convey with no mouth and no voice and all his heart. He’s reborn the way he died; the name of his Person nestled safe against his tongue.
“Ilya,” Shane gasps, and his heart beats again.
Shane Hollander dies the second Ilya Rozanov’s plane goes down. It just takes a while for his body to catch up.
Thankfully, death isn't permanent — for either of them. Their tangled souls have been given a second chance at life, and they’re going to act like it. Which means never separating again. Ever.
After all, death can’t part them. Why should hockey?
(Shane's POV of BOGO, can be read as a standalone.)
- Part 2 of Double Dipping
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 18,922
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #89531501
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BOGO by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-07-22
A fiery plane crash claims Ilya Rozanov’s life in January. By April, Shane Hollander is dead of a broken heart. The truth dies with them.
Yuna Hollander will do anything to get her son back, including hiring a shady shaman to resurrect him. There’s just one complication — Shane isn’t coming back alone.
Now there are codependent (not)zombies in her house wearing Ilya and Shane’s faces. When they inexplicably act more like a married couple than the bitter rivals she expected, Yuna is convinced that they came back wrong.
It’s easier than admitting she never understood them from the start.
- Part 1 of Double Dipping
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 41,605
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #87599691
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The week before the 2017 All-Star Game, Ilya Rozanov is placed on IR. Ten days later, he disappears from the league entirely. Boston says nothing, and for once, a notoriously fickle league closes ranks.
Every attempt Shane makes to find him hits a wall. In one last desperate, life-altering bid to reach him, Shane comes out to the world, only to be met with Ilya’s silence.
By the time the 2020/21 season begins, Shane has nothing left but hockey and regret. He builds a dynasty, guts his life, and pins the last scraps of his hope on the Metros’ newest transfer, the dangerously hot-headed Cliff Marlow.
Stepping back into the public eye after the worst three years of his life, all Ilya wants is to find some kind of purpose. Shane is done with him, he made that much clear. Ilya isn't about to try to convince himself otherwise. He just wants to prove he still has some use left in him.
Fortunately for both of them, they're still fucking stupid for each other.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 279,247
- Chapters:
- 36/36
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #81325346
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If it’s one thing Zane Boodram was sure about himself, it’s that he was prideful. Annoyingly so to his dissenters and remarkably so to his supporters. Pride was engrained into him as a small child, growing up in the streets of Trinidad. It’s how it pushed him to climb the largest mango tree to get the big mango at the top, it’s how he dominated the street matches of football and cricket, it’s how he would walk with stride when any adult yelled his name whether it was out of correction or praise. Pride led him to hockey.
Pride is also the reason he was losing his mind when Ilya’s appearances become less notable and his mood more irritable. Pride was also the reason he noticed that when the Voyageurs were in town and a BBQ aligned with it, Shane wasn’t eating the food he cooked anymore. It was driving him crazy.
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Zane Boodram notices that his friends are going through things - his pride pushes him to fix it.Inspired by: Lean on Me by Bill Withers and Count on Me by Whitney Houston and Cece Winans from the Waiting to Exhale Soundtrack.
- Part 5 of Shane and Dem Boyz
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 6,077
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85871321
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“Oh my god, oh my god. Seriously, this is the best. I can’t believe you’re my neighbour. I’m calling it now, Hollander. This right here is the beginning of a friendship that will go down in history.” Ilya is 10 years old when his family moves from Jacksonville, Florida to small town Ontario. There, he forms an unexpected friendship with Shane, the boy living on the ginseng farm across the street. As they grow up and grow apart, their paths continue to cross at high school hockey games, in tabloid articles, and at one particular intimate Muskoka cottage. OR: A childhood friends to strangers to lovers AU in which Shane Hollander (up and coming indie rock star) and Ilya Rozanov (brooding artist) take nearly fifteen years to figure their shit out.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 157,018
- Chapters:
- 33/33
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #77742121
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The "Get Out Of Jail Free" Clause by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-05-24
In Monopoly, a "get out of jail free" card is a card that, as the name implies, lets the player get out of jail without paying for it. When you have that card, you don't have to play it immediately. You just hold onto it in case it's ever needed.
The Montreal Metros had a rule in their contracts nobody really followed. It was stupid so everyone broke it, and it was just kind of an open secret. They'd never FIRE you for breaking it, so who cared?
Well, a Shane Hollander who knew he was already doing something a lot worse that he couldn't legally be fired for and didn't want to give them a different excuse. That's who cared.
Or: A post-game press conference gets very honest in a way that reflects a hell of a lot worse on his old team than it does on Shane.
- Part 1 of going off on journalists
- Part 1 of HR surprises/reveals
- Part 2 of ways the Metros traumatized Shane
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,299
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85467661
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Staring at the Sun by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-05-20
The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating.
The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice.
“I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”
Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.
“Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"
Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little.
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Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 90,785
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81902146
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5 times people believed Shane is trapped in an abusive marriage and the 1 time Shane sets the record straight ft. misunderstandings, good intentions and a bisexual Russian menace who loves his boring Canadian husband
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- English
- Words:
- 21,982
- Chapters:
- 5/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81709466
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The Discipline Of It by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-24
Shane was fourteen the first time a number felt like safety.
The nutritionist worked out of an office in Kanata, framed certificates, a calm voice, laminated charts with columns. She explained it simply: fuel in, output required, timing of each. She said it was a starting point.
Shane took notes in the margins the way he took notes on everything—completely, past what was required. Yuna had found the nutritionist herself, sat beside him, and took notes too.
Like mother, like son.
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Or: Shane’s system works until it doesn’t; Ilya notices first.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 28,472
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #83666366
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“Do you want that problem to go away?” Ilya smiles sadly, “It probably would make things easier, wouldn’t it?” Shane doesn’t know how he keeps his expression neutral. He doesn’t know how the heartbreak doesn’t bloom vividly across his features. His entire chest feels as if it’s caving in on itself. He knew this moment was coming. He knew it was only a matter of time. That doesn’t make it hurt any less.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,906
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82803536
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So what is the plan now, Mr. Spreadsheet?
“Honestly I was kind of hoping your consciousness would just click back into your body once I touched you.” Shane scratches the back of his head.
You treat me like slap bracelet, Ilya complains.
After a bad hit knocks Ilya’s consciousness out of his body — literally — Shane finds himself sheltering the soul of his decade-long situationship in the back of his head. Turns out it’s a lot harder to keep secrets when you share a body.
(They definitely still try, though.)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 33,974
- Chapters:
- 7/7
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #80586441
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depollute me, pretty baby by writer_in_theory
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-31
It wasn’t his first hockey fight, not by far. After decades of playing, it was impossible to avoid the occasional scrum. It just wasn’t something that Shane purposefully tried to get involved in. He wasn’t like Ilya, he didn’t find joy in pushing and prodding at the other team until one of them snapped and threw a punch. When a scrum did break out, he hardly ever joined the fray, preferring instead to focus on managing the refs and trying to get his team out of the fight with as few penalties as possible. When Shane’s fist connected with Comeau’s cheekbone, Shane grinned. -- Or, the moment Shane realized he played his last game as a Montreal Metro and has to come to terms with everything that means after. Featuring Shane realizing he's not as okay as he seems, and Ilya trying to figure out how he can help.
- Part 4 of i can't seem to not need to need you
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 40,006
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79051901
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hanging by a moment by frozenmorningdew (goldenboygate)
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-29
Ilya starts calling Shane boring regularly after that, not cruelly but persistently, the way you press a bruise you know is there just to confirm it still hurts. Shane's cereal is boring, Shane's training schedule is boring, Shane's shoes lined up by the door are boring, and Shane responds with variations of "fuck off" and "you're an asshole" that become increasingly creative and occasionally surprising. They do not talk about anything that matters. They talk about groceries and whose turn it is to take out the trash and whether Ilya's music is too loud at midnight, which it is. On the ice, Shane is someone else entirely. Ilya watches him from the upper stands every morning with vending machine coffee going cold in his hand and doesn't tell anyone. Or: Shane asked Ilya once how you know when it's the right person. Ilya described Shane to him, and Shane didn't recognise himself.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 187,218
- Chapters:
- 44/44
- Files:
- 4 versions
- AO3:
- #80126256
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You Have a Little Life in You Yet by OrYouCouldHaveMine
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-12
PLANE CARRYING OTTAWA CENTAUR’S HOCKEY TEAM, COACH, PERSONNEL, REPORTEDLY LOST CONTACT, PRESUMED MISSING - Shane’s eyes scan over the words, once, twice. It’s not true. It’s some mistake. He knows it. “Lost contact?” Hayden asks, his tone a mix of concerned and confused. “What’s that mean? Like they lost their ability to communicate? Won’t that make landing hard?” J.J. frowns. “I do not think they will be landing,” he says solemnly. -- The Ottawa Centaurs plane crashes in the Canadian wilderness. Shane tries to get answers while Ilya tries to stay alive.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 38,306
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #80745021
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Come Back Home (The Porch Light Is On) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-11
ROZANOV DOWN: Ottawa Captain Carried Off Ice on Stretcher After Third Period Hit. Rozanov unconscious on impact. Fencing response observed. Cervical collar applied. Transferred to hospital by ambulance. Shane Hollander received game misconduct following altercation and did not return to the ice.
A grade-3 concussion leaves Ilya Rozanov trapped in a "slow" brain, struggling to reclaim the elite hockey instincts that once defined his identity. Within the sanctuary of their darkened apartment, Shane Hollander anchors their life, managing every medical detail while privately bracing against his own silent terror. It is a portrait of the grueling, quiet patience required to wait out a neurological fog, hoping the person on the other side eventually finds their way back.
- Part 2 of Shake off the shackles my love
- Part 7 of A Formal Study of the Heart
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 37,110
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80582376