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  1. We've Got The Keys To Open Paradise by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
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    2026-10-26

    His whole life, Shane has relied on systems. The system provides a constant, to help him cope with changes. But what happens when the wrong things become constant and the system no longer works?

    OR

    The arrival of 2 rookies makes Shane second guess his future with the Voyagers.

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    6/8
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    1
    AO3:
    #93019606

  2. Too Close to Hide by

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    2026-10-18

    Shane is hiding something that could end his career. Ilya is the kind of person who doesn’t stop until he finds it. What starts as rivalry turns into fixation. Because something about Shane doesn’t make sense, his control, his scent, the way he reacts. And Ilya doesn’t like unsolved patterns. He likes breaking them open. Even if it breaks Shane with it. Not instinct. Not luck. Not being an alpha. Control. So when he watches Shane play, he sees it immediately, something precise, something careful, something just out of reach. Something hidden. And Ilya has never been good at leaving things alone.

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    52/52
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    1
    AO3:
    #83557726

  3. Store-bought is fine by

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    2026-10-15

    Ilya Rozanov does not come pre-installed with good communication or healthy coping skills. Is he going to seek out help on his own? Hell no! But when a family member kills himself, fellow Boston Raider and friend Cliff Marleau decides that Ilya is going to therapy come hell or high water. And Ilya... well, Ilya is just playing along to keep the peace. Right? He doesn't need therapy. But if it helps his friend be less worried, so be it.

    OR

    Therapy helps Ilya upskill enough to diffuse the tuna meltdown. Things get better after that. And then they get worse, because mental health is a bitch not linear.

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    6/12
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    2 versions
    AO3:
    #78436336

  4. The New Plan by

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    2026-10-14

    “Boys, I appreciate the thought you’ve put into this so far,” Yuna said. “But there’s no way you're hiding this for ten years. It is going to leak. We need an actual reasonable plan for you to come out safely and be happy so you can do this on your own terms and not be miserable.”

    --

    The ten-year plan was never going to work. Fortunately, thanks to Yuna, Shane and Ilya now have a new and improved plan that could have them safe and happy in just a year or two's time. They just have to want it bad enough.

    Ottawa a year early. Support from friends and family. Therapy. Rebranded images. A more confident and secure Shane. A public friendship hard launch. A relationship soft launch.

    There's a lot to do. It's time to put in the work.

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    Chapters:
    12/12
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    4 versions
    AO3:
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  5. the furthest one by

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    2026-10-13

    You did not say last. Pilots did not say it. You said krainii, the furthest one. Then you came back, and there was another one after it.

    The Long Game, Ilya, the plane, the messages, and the one he takes back.

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    AO3:
    #94599946

  6. What would I say? by

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    2026-10-09

    Shane Hollander runs from Ilya’s penthouse like he’s escaping a crime scene. Ten days later, he’s dating Rose Landry. Shortly after that, a gay scandal in the NBL ends a man’s career overnight.

    Ilya takes the hint. Being Ilya Rozanov, he takes it personally.

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    Chapters:
    14/?
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    2 versions
    AO3:
    #85470856

  7. Lie Down with Dogs by

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    2026-10-08

    Shane Hollander enters his rookie season focused on one thing only: playing the best damn hockey he can, and earning a spot in history as one of the greatest players in the league. Standing between him and his goal is Boston’s own promising young rookie, Alexei Rozanov.

    Shane doesn’t particularly care about having a rival, but Rozanov seems as good a choice as any. He’s rude, arrogant, obnoxious off the ice and frustrating on it. And he’s pretty damn good at hockey.

    Unfortunately, he also has a younger brother, who Shane finds much more interesting.

    The Hollander-Rozanov rivalry is alive and well. And caught in the middle of it, is Ilya.

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    1/?
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    1
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    #94197561

  8. The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows by

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    2026-10-07

    There was no “No Son of Mine” lecture, no slurs were ever thrown around, and neither Shane nor Ilya were ever banished from Yuna and David’s house or life. Instead, a quiet questioning began, where all of Shane’s choices were investigated for motive and reason.

    When did this start? When did it become serious? Are you sure about this?

    When David first walked in on Shane and Ilya kissing, and Shane had to make what felt like a walk of shame to his parents house with Ilya in tow, he assumed that all he had to do was rip the bandaid off. There was no more hiding, there was no pretending this didn’t happen. The truth was out there whether he liked it or not, and he was vocal with Ilya about not liking it at all. But, he told himself, he just had to man up. He could do this. Rip the bandaid off, tell the truth, and tomorrow will be better.

    He was really incredibly wrong about that.

    Or: When Shane’s parents find out he’s gay and dating Ilya, they don’t accept it – instead, they push back. What follows is two of the most difficult years of Shane’s life. AU after Book 2/Season 1.

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    10/10
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    1
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    #89939276

  9. soft the landing, hard the fall by

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    2026-10-06

    There’s still a big part of him that wants all the same things he used to. The hockey, those other interests, the simplicity of the smaller circle. But there’s a twinge of something else now beside it when he considers it for too long, a bruise he can’t place the origins of. He’d been able to put somewhat of a name to it, after Rose.

    He only wishes he hadn’t filled in the rest of the blanks staring down at a grainy photograph of Svetlana Vetrova in a convenience store parking lot in Boston, a bag hanging off of her manicured finger just transparent enough to make out the logo of a First Response as she’d ducked into a sleek, black sports car, driving away with Shane's best worst would-have-been and, presumably, Ilya Rozanov's baby.

    Shane feels no particular way about this turn of events. He really, honestly, mostly is somewhat close to believing that, too. It's progress.

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    14/15
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    1
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  10. I Got Him by

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    2026-10-04

    Now, for the first time in years, he found himself praying. Not caring who listened. Not caring if anyone listened.
    Take anything.
    Take the game.
    Take my career.
    Take whatever you want.
    Just let him wake up.
    Because Shane couldn't be gone.
    ~~~~
    Cliff Marlow isn't the one who sends Shane Hollander to the hospital.
    Ilya Rozanov is.
    And when the worst thing Ilya can imagine happens, keeping their relationship a secret becomes impossible.

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    94/94
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    1
    AO3:
    #87164261

  11. Gatorade Galas & Moscow Mules by

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    2026-10-04

    Shane Hollander is worried about everyone and everything.

    Ilya is mostly just sick of air travel.

    Or:
    Shane and Ilya are having trouble balancing their very private relationship and their very public lives.

    A slice of life.

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    4/4
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    4 versions
    AO3:
    #76866546

  12. Miles to go before I sleep by

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    2026-10-01

    On February 17, Ilya goes through with his plan to break up with Shane.

    On April 18, the MLH announces an expansion team in Arizona.

    On June 21, the Phoenix Coyotes draft both Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander, who were left unprotected by their teams.

    On Monday, Ilya decides he doesn't want to live anymore.

    On Thursday, Shane asks if he wants to drive to Phoenix with him.

    Huh.

    —

    This is a love story.

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  13. on winning and losing (and ilya rozanov) by

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    2026-09-28

    Twenty years after everything fell apart, Shane Hollander is on the cusp of becoming MLH Commissioner when Ilya Rozanov walks into his office and back into his life.

    "I don't know, I’m pretty late to the game," Shane says.

    “Everything good happens in third period,” Ilya counters.

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    28/28
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    4 versions
    AO3:
    #82087191

  14. All Eyes On You by

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    2026-09-21

    Summer, 2021. Shane Hollander is Major League Hockey's hottest free agent. MLH fans and organizations alike must grapple with their expectations: Hollander is not the young man the league discarded in 2017, for better or worse. There is more to his life than hockey, even if he says frustratingly little about his boyfriend, another player known only as Lily.

    When the Ottawa Centaurs lace up for the 2021-2022 season with a stacked lineup, failure is not an option. What the world believes to be the newest iteration of a longstanding rivalry just might be hockey's greatest love story.

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    26/35
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    1
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    #83150341

  15. Growing Outward by

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    2026-09-17

    “Good, well then that brings me to the real topic of conversation.” Another sigh from Coach Wiebe, “As I’m sure you’ve already guessed, those highlighted names have been offered rookie contracts and they’ve each expressed interest in living with a vet for their first year.”

    Ilya felt his heart fall into his stomach, afraid of the next words to come out of his Coach’s mouth.

    “We asked the rookies who they’d like to live with and, well, LaPointe wanted to board with you, Chouinard. And Young with you, Bood,” Wiebe then turned to Ilya who had frozen on the spot, “And Roz, Haas wants to live with you.”

    Bood and Chouinard chuckled as they watched Ilya’s eyes widen in horror.

     

    OR

     

    Luca Haas was drafted 2nd overall by the Ottawa Centaurs in 2018. Two years later, he anxiously moved halfway across the world to play his rookie season with the team. He requested to live with Ilya Rozanov and they slowly became family.

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    #78592636

  16. Loving You Is A Losing Game by

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    2026-09-16

    Box office manager Gabriella Marchaud returns from vacation to find her work best friend Ilya Rozanov spiraling into a playoff-induced depression.

    To pull him back from the brink, she devises a ridiculous plan: lure him back to Ottawa for a night of glitter, drunken chaos, and the transformative power of Eurovision.

    But she can't do it alone. She needs a team of hockey players willing to learn the sacred art of Europe's greatest cultural event—through 67 pages of history, two semi finals of training, and the kind of ridiculous joy that might just save Ilya from himself.

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    Gabriella recruits the Centaurs into watching Eurovision so she can save Ilya from playoff depression.

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  17. those lovely myriads by

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    2026-09-15

    Irina is beautiful and funny and smart.

    Irina is a good mother. She does all the things good mothers are supposed to do.

    And she is so, so bitter.

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  18. the dominoes cascaded in a line by

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    2026-09-14

    Ilya's been taking care of himself for so long, and not always doing a very good job of it. It would be understandable, Ilya thinks, if Shane didn’t really know how to do it yet. Not when they’re only a month into being married and three months into being honest and less than a year since that hotel room in Tampa, where Shane had climbed into his lap and let Ilya cry into his shoulder and held him like no one had held Ilya since he was very small.

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    #92172556

  19. How I Learned to Stop Worrying (but Didn't Love the Bomb) by

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    2026-09-06

    “Mom?” His mother moved the tea and plate of cookies closer to him, but Shane didn’t let himself get distracted. “I think I’ve had another memory lapse. Why wasn't Ilya in the play-off games? Did something happen?”

    Mom dropped her phone.

    Why does she have such a weird look on her face?

    ...

    Shane has memory gaps and keeps journals. Then, after the seventh game of the playoffs, he discovers they can send him back in time.

    At first, he only wants to fix his relationship with his team.

    Every attempt makes things worse.

    Shane tries again.

    And again.

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  20. disappearing act by

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    2026-09-01

    “Ilya?” his voice is thick and heavy on his tongue. He's so agonizingly beautiful, his face tender and red from the impact of his helmet hitting the ice moments before. “I’m okay,” he insists, blinking slowly.

    And then, starting at his fingertips, Shane starts to fade away, just like St-Simon and Marlow and Pike moments before. Eyes soft, Shane gazes at Ilya, not seeming to realize what’s happening at all. And Ilya, overcome with terror, can only watch as Shane’s whole being simply disintegrates into thin air.

    __

    Half the universe is snapped out of existence, including Shane.
    Ilya struggles to cope.

    Or, a character study on grief, ending with reunion.

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    6/6
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    #91546936
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