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  1. (Not) The Last Time by

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    2026-10-28

    They got to the bed before Hollander got weird again-
    "What?" Ilya asked. "You are pregnant and is mine?"
    "What?" Hollander shot back, his eyebrows lifting. He let out a single laugh, and shook his head. "No. Shut up. I'm trying to - What? No. I just. Wanted to, uh, ask something."
    "Okay?" Ilya looked around as if he might find the reason Hollander was not just asking already, written on the door or something. "So ask? You want new position?"
    For a moment Hollander didn't respond, was staring at the crumpled bedspread between them, his jaw working slightly, an easy tell Ilya didn't think Hollander knew about, that he was chewing on the inside of his lips. Sometimes when they kissed Hollander's mouth was tangy with blood.
    "I wanted to," Hollander said, slow and even, "ask. If this was our last time hooking up, what would you want to do?"

    A fic in which both Shane and Ilya consider themselves the dogs that are about to be put down, and act accordingly.

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    Chapters:
    4/4
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #94575111

  2. Jane Rated You by

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    2026-10-08

    “What the fuck is this?”

    “Ahhh, is where I can see all my ratings and reviews from rides I’ve given,” Ilya said, winked, “rides on my dick.”

    Shane blinked at him. “What.”

    “Is silly app,” Ilya said, turned the phone back to himself, and then clicked into Svetlana’s latest review - just the preview of it in which it showed she’d given him five stars and a tip, as well as leaving a photo - and then turned the phone back to Shane. “My friend made for me as silly present. Sometimes I share with people I fuck, and they rate me. Is funny.”

    This is a silly fic that takes itself seriously. Ilya has a app to rate him in bed, and Shane is mad, horny, and also going to fill out his ride reviews every single time with dedication and focus.

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    Chapters:
    36/36
    Files:
    3 versions
    AO3:
    #88653956

  3. Bite The Hand by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-10-01

    Outside, bugs swarm around the porch light. A half-moon hangs over the dark swath of lake, spider-spun white daubed across the oil-spill surface. That perfect day on the water was less than a week ago. The scabs on Ilya’s ankle haven’t even healed. He knew the rest of their lives would be an uphill battle; he just hoped they could lie in the grass for a little longer.

    There’s a hitch in Shane’s breath, a catch that brings Ilya’s attention back to him. He’s seen the ice tilt, analyzed the offense, and realization freezes across his face.

    The whistle blows. Ilya’s been caught.

    “You don’t want to figure this out,” Shane says finally. “You want him to billet with you.”

    Last season, Ilya broke his jaw. Next season, he'll break from Boston for Ottawa and a shot at making an impossible relationship work. This season, he breaks every promise he’s ever made.

    (aka the sequel to Alligator Bites Never Heal)

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    Chapters:
    4/13
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #82560311

  4. Between a Rock Climber and a Hard Place by

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    2026-08-04

    There, in an overhung area that had been initially blocked from view, was what could only be described as a Greek god in Adidas track pants and La Sportiva Solutions. The god was hanging off a purple sloper with his left arm, shaking out and chalking up casually with his right. Shane barely noticed himself taking a few steps forward as he squinted at the grade. V9. Shane watched as the climber matched his hands and then carefully rotated on his toe to dip his left hand back into the chalk bag swinging at his hips. A little puff of chalk exploded out onto the man’s bare lower back, an area Shane had been trying to ignore, as he always tried to ignore the muscled backs of the bros who tore off their shirt as soon as they got in the gym. His eyes drifted upward, taking in the impressive lats, flexing and glistening with a sheen of sweat, and all the way up to the tousled blonde hair...

    What the fuck. Was that…? Shane blanched as he realized that he recognized the climber. He wasn’t a Greek god at all. He was Russian. And not a god either, but that was besides the point. It was Ilya Rozanov, the top male youth boulderer in Russia, winner of last year’s IFSC Youth World Championship, where Shane had gotten 4th place.

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    Chapters:
    23/23
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #82153141

  5. Heal Deal by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-07-30

    It’s his Person.

    Missed you missed you missed you, he tries to convey with no mouth and no voice and all his heart. He’s reborn the way he died; the name of his Person nestled safe against his tongue.

    “Ilya,” Shane gasps, and his heart beats again.

    Shane Hollander dies the second Ilya Rozanov’s plane goes down. It just takes a while for his body to catch up.

    Thankfully, death isn't permanent — for either of them. Their tangled souls have been given a second chance at life, and they’re going to act like it. Which means never separating again. Ever.

    After all, death can’t part them. Why should hockey?
     

    (Shane's POV of BOGO, can be read as a standalone.)

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    1/1
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    1
    AO3:
    #89531501

  6. It’s Kind of a Funny Story by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-07-17

    His stomach takes a sharp, screeching left. His heart stalls and then shifts into gear, zero to 180, every tired tract of him seizing and squealing to go, run, leave.

    “Hey, I found him,” Tony says, finishing a conversation Ilya wasn’t in, easy like all conversations without Ilya are. Easy like the world isn’t ending. Like Ilya isn’t standing there, wishing every time he tried to self-destruct or kill himself had worked.

    Greasy black hair. Sallow freckled skin. A turned head and horror-widened eyes taking in the big bad monster who finally arrived onscreen.

    “Shane, Ilya; Ilya, Shane,” Tony says, totally oblivious. “You both like hockey, right? So that’s something in common. I’ve got to take lunch, but I’ll check in on you both before my shift is over.”

    Nobody knows if Ilya Rozanov tried to kill himself before the draft. Nobody sane goes first overall. And nobody knows if Shane Hollander is going to survive another mediocre season with the Boston Raiders.

    Isn’t it funny how a single nick in the ice can change the entire game?

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #88732591

  7. Ilya; My Ilyusha by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
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    2026-07-04

    He could still feel it now, the warm-wet slide of Ilya's tongue as he licked a stripe from the sensitive skin on Shane's palm to the tip of his middle finger, shocking a laugh out of him. The head-rush of feeling how quickly his cock hardened against the warmth of Ilya's bare ass, Ilya's full weight bearing down on Shane's hips. The heat of the blush traveling from his cheeks all the way down to his chest in response to the smoulder in Ilya's eyes.

    Мой любимый, this is excuse to put sunscreen on my naked body, yes?

    Shane gnawed at the memories like a dog with a bone, allowed himself to get lost in them until he felt physically sick, at which point he realized that he needed to switch lanes to avoid hitting the fawn, still unmoving, still unblinking.

    —

    After the Raiders v. Metros accident, Shane comes back different.

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    Chapters:
    14/14
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #85558796

  8. Everything is definitely not fine by

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    2026-05-17

    “You handled it well. You flunked a bit the questions we had prepared, but you did well.”
    “Flunked?” Shane asked, voice pitching up as the words salted over the open wound, the infected gutting from the top of his throat down to his stomach.
    “You should have rectified and make your position clear about Scott Hunter. We don’t want you to sound like you’re antagonizing him,” Yuna added, matter-of-factly, her eyes narrowing on the knot of his tie, adjusting it like it still mattered.

    Shane’s body shook violently against his will, dislodging from under her touch. Yuna looked up, surprised by his reaction.
    Surprise that shifted to horror immediately.

    “No, that’s not what I meant–”
    “I need to–” he gasped, bringing a hand to cover his mouth, while Yuna tried to grab his arm. Any other time, he could have avoided her, but Shane was falling.

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    Chapters:
    4/4
    Files:
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    AO3:
    #84590841