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The thing is, Morgan muses as she zips up the adaptable sports bra over her mosquito bites that definitely don’t need the support, is that she still can’t shake the belief that a part of her died that day.
- Part 3 of The recognition so richly deserved
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the toughest part is that we both know (what happened to you, why you’re out on your own) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-09-20
Ilya wasn’t trying to kill himself that night. Suicide is something that belongs to his mother- he’s just lazy, and he wishes Shane would stop making excuses for him.
Shane has everything under control. His body is a tool, the one that’s given him both his career and his relationship, and he wishes Ilya would stop prying into the way he maintains it.
or: Ilya learns a whole lot more about his mother, Shane remembers a whole lot more about his childhood, and they both get diagnosed.
- Part 3 of Merry Christmas, Please Don't Call
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- 9/19
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- AO3:
- #79324761
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Ilya tries to kill himself. In the following weeks, they move forwards, as best as they can.
(12 glimpses at the never ending state of being in recovery.)
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Hard to Breathe by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-08-03
Sequel to Breathing Room
Ilya Rozanov has spent five years holding Shane Hollander at arm’s length - not because he didn’t love him, but because he loved him too much to ask him to risk everything for something that could fall apart. He was good at that: the careful distance, the walls that looked like indifference, the way he’d learned to be close without being close. He’d had a lot of practice.
What he didn’t have practice for was what came after he was done lying to himself. He didn’t have practice for this - for something warm and bright and absolutely terrifying. Something that fits in the spaces between games and cities and the distance between Boston and Raleigh. Something that makes Ilya think, for the first time in a long time, that maybe the risk is worth it.
He just needs to figure out what to do with it all before their careers swallow them whole
He doesn’t get the chance to think about it for very long.
- Part 2 of The Distance Between Us
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- #85730431
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Sidelined for three weeks with an injury, Shane Hollander is driving himself—and everyone around him—completely insane. He can't play, so he micromanages everything, pacing the apartment and vibrating with an anxious energy that his brain can't turn off. Ilya Rozanov has a remarkably efficient solution for a captain who doesn't know how to rest. If Shane won't relinquish control voluntarily, Ilya will strip it from him entirely. Under a strict protocol of sensory deprivation, forced helplessness, and free-use, Shane is forced to learn exactly what it means to be quiet.
- Part 3 of Free-Use Shane
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bad case of lovin' you by imbihesgay
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-26
“Okay, give me five minutes. This patient will not take long.” Luca nods in thanks and scurries off to busy himself in the meantime. Ilya huffs another sigh, shaking his head as he finally pulls up the digital chart. Shane Hollander Age: 27 Height: 177.8cm Weight: 88.5Kg Temp: 36.6 BP: 118/75 -Patient presented with syncope, nausea and vertigo. -shane hollander comes into ilya rozanov's ER, two months after they had a wild one-night stand)
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Hostile Ice by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-05-16
Shane Hollander has spent his entire career in careful control - of his image, his privacy, and the parts of himself he wasn’t ready to share with the world. One leaked conversation strips all of that away overnight, and what’s left in its wake is a locker room that’s turned on him, a coaching staff that wants him gone, and an organization that has decided the easiest solution is to make him disappear quietly.
Ilya has been in the league now long enough to understand that some things are too dangerous to want. He has his career, his team, and the laws of his home country to think about. He has very good reasons to keep his distance from Shane Hollander and the storm currently surrounding him. But he’s never been good at doing what he should do.
A story about what it costs to have everything taken from you - your privacy, your safety, your right to tell your own story - and what it looks like to slowly, painstakingly, build something real in the wreckage. About two people who have been circling each other for years finally running out of room to keep pretending. About found family, hostile ice, and the difference between the life you survived and the one you actually get to live.
- Part 1 of The Ice Between Us
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- 8/8
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- AO3:
- #84813271
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Shane Hollander, Ottawa Centaur, is struggling to settle into his new team. He also has more support than he knows.
Or
Five times the Centaurs noticed something was off and one time they did something about it.
(A companion piece to UNDER REVIEW)- Part 2 of After the Whistle
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“I’m sorry,” Shane chokes, closing his eyes. Rozanov draws his hand, pulling Shane’s with it, to his face and wipes his cheeks.
“There is nothing to be sorry for, любовь моя, it is okay,” Rozanov murmurs, tugging at Shane’s hair again. Shane exhales, letting him clean his cheeks. “You got overwhelmed, yes? It happens.”
“I can’t be fucking normal,” Shane says quietly, whining, head falling back, pressing into Rozanov’s hand.
“No, if you were fucking normal, you would not be my Shane.”
// shane is a liar, and he's tired of it all. his life falls apart, and he finds that he doesn't actually mind.
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Come Back Home (The Porch Light Is On) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-11
ROZANOV DOWN: Ottawa Captain Carried Off Ice on Stretcher After Third Period Hit. Rozanov unconscious on impact. Fencing response observed. Cervical collar applied. Transferred to hospital by ambulance. Shane Hollander received game misconduct following altercation and did not return to the ice.
A grade-3 concussion leaves Ilya Rozanov trapped in a "slow" brain, struggling to reclaim the elite hockey instincts that once defined his identity. Within the sanctuary of their darkened apartment, Shane Hollander anchors their life, managing every medical detail while privately bracing against his own silent terror. It is a portrait of the grueling, quiet patience required to wait out a neurological fog, hoping the person on the other side eventually finds their way back.
- Part 2 of Shake off the shackles my love
- Part 7 of A Formal Study of the Heart
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if you ever try to leave me again by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-04
Shane heard a strangled shout tear free from his mouth, and then his body was moving without his brain’s input. He flew across the ice, ripping his gloves off and reaching for Ilya’s throat. He wrapped his fingers around the warm skin, feeling the flow of blood pulse harder with each beat of Ilya’s heart. His eyes raced across Ilya’s face, desperately looking for a sign that his boyfriend was still with him. Ilya’s eyes were wide and glazed, staring past Shane instead of at him. His face was losing color rapidly, turning a sickly shade of white that mirrored the ice beneath him. His mouth was open, loose and slack, mouthguard still jammed into his upper jaw. Shane watched in terror as Ilya grew limper in his arms.
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During a Boston-Montreal game, Ilya's neck is cut by a skate, and Shane is forced to witness the love of his life bleeding out on the ice in front of him. All of the plans they have made seem to be slipping away before his eyes, right when they were so close to finalizing Ilya's transfer to Ottawa. As they race against the clock to save Ilya's life, Shane reckons with the secrets they have been forced to keep and fears that they might never get to live their truth out in the open.- Language:
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When the storm is gone When we're weathered and worn When you're looking at the lighthouse on the shore Don't forget about me Don't forget the one who threw the anchor down And kept you from the sea Svetlana has complicated feelings about Ilya's new boyfriend, and how he seems to be changing Ilya's life.
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The Consort of Crown and Blood by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-07
When a human head of state publicly insults the ancient Vampire King, the price of peace is a political union. Shane Hollander, high school teacher and assistant hockey coach, is one of the only humans in the world with a rare bloodline. He’s given an impossible choice: become a Tribute Consort to vampire Crown Prince Ilya, or watch the human race burn.
Their union is meant to be a symbolic gesture to prevent war. Shane tells himself he can survive the vampire court's deadly politics, the centuries-old intrigue, and the weight of being a living apology for his species' mistakes.
What he doesn't expect is the way Ilya looks at him when no one else is watching.
When a secret society abducts Shane to drain and auction his rare blood to the highest bidder, the carefully constructed facade shatters. The vampire Crown Prince the world fears isn't cold at all, he's been holding something far more dangerous in check. And what Ilya is willing to destroy to reclaim his Consort will reshape the balance of power between their worlds.
- Part 1 of Stories from the Kingdom of Rozanov
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- English
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- 15/15
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- AO3:
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Let me take your hand (I'll make it right) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-20
Ilya is recovering after the brain surgery but recovery rerely is a straight line. And Ilya, done with hospitals, is up to mischief. Fortunately, Shane is there to make sure Ilya stays alive.
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This is set between "Hold On (I Still Want You)" and "Come Back (I Still Need You)" and focuses on Ilya's recovery after the brain surgery he underwent. It can be read as stand-alone but I think it's probably best to read at least first part of my series to get some context!
- Part 3 of Hold On (I Still Want You)
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The Hands That Made You by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-20
Ilya has been watching hands his whole life. His father's hands taught him that touch meant pain. His mother's hands were the only gentle ones—until they went cold. Now he has his father's hands, and he's terrified of what they might become.
- Part 1 of Shake off the shackles my love
- Part 3 of A Formal Study of the Heart
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“Why are you out here alone?” Ilya asks. “Who left you here?” Hesitantly, Shane’s eyes cast up at the apartment building. Ilya follows his gaze, confused. “I’m sorry,” Shane says softly, “I went home with someone.” Ilya’s head snaps in his direction. “What?” -an episode 4 au where shane goes home with the bartender instead of rose, and it goes very, very poorly-
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What if it were you (and then it was) by Nituaii
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-01-05
Oh god. Did Shane even have a will? 𝘐𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘥 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘐 𝘣𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘦𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘐𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘬𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘵𝘪𝘣 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘺𝘶𝘳 𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘴 𝘗𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 Or: What if it were Shanes plane that went down
- Part 1 of
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know it's for the better / no, it's for the better by selfishambition
Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-03
Ilya Rozanov has been carrying his mother's ghost since he was twelve years old. Sochi is where the weight finally breaks him. Russia is eliminated in the most humiliating loss in their history, and their captain sits on a twelfth-floor balcony railing thinking about letting go. Shane Hollander has a gold medal game in fourteen hours. He comes anyway.
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- English
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- 1/1
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- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #77026136