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  1. the third option by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
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    2026-08-29

    A teenage Ilya arrives at an elite six-month development programme already planning to kill himself. Shane keeps accidentally interrupting his suicide attempts because he’s obsessed with rules, routine, and following proper protocol.

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    Chapters:
    13/13
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    2 versions
    AO3:
    #84680606

  2. Sweet Child Of Mine by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-08-24

    Shane returns home from Canada's loss to Russia in Saskatchewan at the International Prospect Cup. He finds out his soon-to-be ex-girlfriend is pregnant, and the baby is his. But he has no memory of ever being intimate with her. It doesn’t help that before he even left, he had caught her cheating on him with his best friend. Shane decides that if the child is his, he will step up and be a dad, but he wants nothing to do with his ex-girlfriend after what she did to him.

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    Chapters:
    40/40
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #78219426

  3. to the tempo of your uptight (he flickers through your damage) by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-01-29

    It didn’t really click for Shane until his boyfriend nearly broke down their steel-inforced bathroom door to get to him; Something Is Wrong With Ilya.

    or: Ilya goes off the deep end. Shane doesn’t realize he’s already down there with him.

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    1/1
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    1
    AO3:
    #78552791

  4. The Weight of the Quiet by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-01-02

    WARNING: the Long Game spoilers WARNING: Depression and (passive) suicidal themes Ilya navigates grief, isolation, and the weight of holding himself together, until he learns to let himself be supported when he can’t hold everything together alone.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #76900701

  5. you know this moment, don’t you? (time is strangely calm now) by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2025-12-25

    It’s dark, and Ilya’s not quite sure where he is. His entire body is numb. His shoes are soaking wet from trudging lazily through the snow. His nose is running, and his lips are chapped. Selfishly, he wishes Shane would fuss over him now. Pull him close, whisper “I forgive you” even though he shouldn’t, because Ilya would never change, because something inside him- in his family line, in his soul- was broken. Ilya wondered how long ago it had clicked- when Shane had realized that Ilya wormed his way into this country and tricked the Hollanders into caring for him, then returned the favor by botching their language and leaving a trail of mess in his wake. He still can't help but wonder if that will be part of his punishment- being doomed to miss him in death, too. or: Ilya’s mostly been able to cope with the fact that he’ll never be able to articulate himself fully in this country- but he’s also never been good at talking about feelings in the first place. "I'm tired" is the best he's got. It definitely doesn't capture what's going on in his head, and Shane can't read minds.

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    English
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Files:
    3 versions
    AO3:
    #76389551