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Shane Hollander was perfect; the perfect son, the perfect boyfriend, the perfect friend. He had spent years refining perfection, making sure he was the picture of it. It was second nature after all these years; a suit that didn’t quite fit, but that he’d gotten used to.
Enter Ilya Rozanov.- Language:
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You Have a Little Life in You Yet by OrYouCouldHaveMine
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-12
PLANE CARRYING OTTAWA CENTAUR’S HOCKEY TEAM, COACH, PERSONNEL, REPORTEDLY LOST CONTACT, PRESUMED MISSING - Shane’s eyes scan over the words, once, twice. It’s not true. It’s some mistake. He knows it. “Lost contact?” Hayden asks, his tone a mix of concerned and confused. “What’s that mean? Like they lost their ability to communicate? Won’t that make landing hard?” J.J. frowns. “I do not think they will be landing,” he says solemnly. -- The Ottawa Centaurs plane crashes in the Canadian wilderness. Shane tries to get answers while Ilya tries to stay alive.
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- #80745021
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The Stars Fell For You by SuburbanRhythm
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-10
Pop star Shane Hollander is no stranger to crowds and success, but when an anonymous gunman at a press appearance threatens his life, the safety of his upcoming tour is called into question. Desperate to keep their cash cow not only safe, but happy, League Records hires former Spetsnaz operative Ilya Rozanov to provide 24/7 personal security for Shane. As the two spend time together, Shane Hollander realizes that the real threat to his life, to his career, is his own heart...and the way that he feels for the very man he is depending on to keep him safe.
- Part 1 of Game Changers Pop Star Universe
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He's getting good at this game: sneaking his questions between advances, keeping Shane in that warm state of mind where he'll actually answer them, and stifling the panic rabbiting in the base of his skull.
“So, this is thing?” He asks, tilting his head to try and catch Shane's eye. “You are most charming murderer.”
“Don't be a dick,” Shane huffs.
“Me? Never.” Ilya ducks to kiss Shane's cheek, then his nose, then the opposite cheek, pressing their faces together. He can't help kissing Shane again, on the temple this time, before he continues. “I must be lucky,” he says, “to know you are most boring man alive.”
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Ilya goes to Shane's place for the first time since discovering he's a murderer.
- Part 2 of kill me (romantically)
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Safer in Chains Than to be Free by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-09
The name of your soulmate only appears once your realize you are in love with them.
"Shane Hollander" appears on Ilya's chest before the Sochi Olympics. He tells nobody, and then he disappears.Six months later, Shane gets a call from an unknown number. Ilya. In Montreal, and completely different.
It doesn't matter, though, and the next morning there's a line of Cyrillic across his chest.Timeline goes back and forth.
- Part 1 of This is Love
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- #80627716
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Shane Hollander is the youngest Commander in ISS history; straight-backed, closeted, and so tightly on his own leash that seven months in orbit with Ilya Rozanov have not produced a single crack in his composure. Ilya Rozanov is the Russian cosmonaut who should have had his job, won’t stop bouncing a tennis ball off the walls, and is still looking for a fissure. Thankfully, a solar storm finds it for him. or: Near-death, zero gravity, and the wrong man’s hands in exactly the right places. A Cosmonaut!Ilya x Astronaut!Shane AU 🚀
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When the canary sings by gsmaxwell
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-03-08
“Promise me one thing, okay?” “Anything,” Ilya replied, squeezed reassuringly. “Don’t beat yourself up over these things, okay? It’s not your job to fix it.” Ilya wanted to argue. Of course it was his job to fix it. It was what he did. It was what he was good at. That was what he was good for. Or: Ilya visits Shane, and they're both still going through it. Companion piece to There have been threats and If you're afraid of wolves. June 2014.
- Part 3 of Kidnapped AU
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Shane Hollander sends a courtesy text to the wrong number.
Ilya Rozanov answers.
What starts as an accident turns into a habit — late-night messages, honesty, and a version of Shane that exists without an audience.
Ilya figures out who he’s talking to long before Shane does.
He doesn’t say anything.
Instead, he keeps replying.
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Men do not cry. Ilya knows this, as much as he knows that being strong is only part of the battle ahead of him; being seen to be strong matters more. Ilya is twelve years old, and no longer a child. It has been four long, brittle days since his mother— since her accident.
The practice rink is busy, tonight. Under the stern tutelage of Coach Baranov, everyone here is fighting to justify their time on the ice. Hockey, Baranov tells them, often, is not a team sport. Hockey is an act of violence, and of endurance.
Ilya believes he is practiced at both.
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Six times Ilya gets his teeth knocked out (not metaphorically), and learns to heal a little trauma
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Jackie suddenly appeared behind Hayden. She was smiling widely as she took her place next to Hayden, slipping her arm round her husband. "Shane, Ilya, so glad you guys made it!"
With one arm, Rozanov pulled her out of Hayden's embrace and twirled her around. "Ah, I have missed you Jackie. You are looking very sexy today, well done."
Patrice's jaw dropped.
Surely even Ilya Rozanov wasn't flirting with another man's wife in front of her husband and his own husband?
Pat glanced at Kate, giving her his 'I told you so' look.
But Jackie just laughed. "Thank you, Ilya."
"You are very welcome. Is tragic for you now your husband is so old. Anyway, here is gift for old man. I wanted to give Viagra-"
"Oi!"
Jesus, this guy didn't know when to stop, did he?
"-But Shane said was 'inappropriate'," He made finger quotes with his fingers as he spoke and then shrugged, a shit-eating grin on his face. "Sorry, Jackie, I tried to help."
Asshole.
(hayden's birthday party sees 3 metros, and their assumptions about hollanov, corrected)
- Part 8 of from the outside
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“Yes. In recent games-” Ilya paused. Hollander didn’t interrupt him. “Have you read what they said about you?”
“Who’s they?”
“People. Hockey people.”
Hollander stared Ilya down. “Is this supposed to motivate me?”
“No, um, I-”
“You should see the shit they say about *you*.”
Ilya most definitely did see it.The NHL adds another team, resulting in an expansion draft. Shane and Ilya, both nearing the end of their careers at age 35, find themselves on the new team. Can they both prove that they’re not “too old” to lead a team to victory? And can they be honest with each other in the process?
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Ilya hadn't responded for several hours. Just before warm ups, at the last possible second, Ilya had sent two photos.
The first was the nightstand beside Shane's bed, where his boring hockey book and sexy glasses sat arranged with a strip of condoms and the bottle of lube. The second was Ilya's suitcase open on the floor.Shane had seen it. He had told Ilya, when he'd skated up to him during stretches, that leaving the suitcase open there was a tripping hazard. Ilya had laughed him back to the Metros bench.
He wasn't laughing now.
OR: Shane gave Ilya the code to his condo before the game. With Shane hospitalized and his status uncertain, Ilya embarks on a quest to get his stuff back.
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do wolves mourn? (i leave that up to you.) by hcneymooners (romqntics)
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-04
“And because—” Ilya stopped. He was not a man who stopped easily, who lost words, whose tongue failed him. Shane did this to him: removed his fluency, made him reach for things that were not in their usual places. “Because, Ilya?” Shane stepped closer, and Ilya could smell him—the scraping tang of metal and stretched leather and beneath that, something faintly sweet—and this, in combination with the use of his name, made him dizzy, weak. “Because I would rather be known by you than survived by you," Ilya managed. “And if I am to be killed, I would rather it be by you than by another stranger.” Shane went very still. “I’m still a stranger,” Shane said after a moment. “Less now,” Ilya answered. ⋆ or: shane, as part of the winter soldier program, and ilya as the son of its creators. ( you do not need to know a single thing about marvel, the winter soldier, or any of its associated media to read this. )
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if you ever try to leave me again by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-04
Shane heard a strangled shout tear free from his mouth, and then his body was moving without his brain’s input. He flew across the ice, ripping his gloves off and reaching for Ilya’s throat. He wrapped his fingers around the warm skin, feeling the flow of blood pulse harder with each beat of Ilya’s heart. His eyes raced across Ilya’s face, desperately looking for a sign that his boyfriend was still with him. Ilya’s eyes were wide and glazed, staring past Shane instead of at him. His face was losing color rapidly, turning a sickly shade of white that mirrored the ice beneath him. His mouth was open, loose and slack, mouthguard still jammed into his upper jaw. Shane watched in terror as Ilya grew limper in his arms.
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During a Boston-Montreal game, Ilya's neck is cut by a skate, and Shane is forced to witness the love of his life bleeding out on the ice in front of him. All of the plans they have made seem to be slipping away before his eyes, right when they were so close to finalizing Ilya's transfer to Ottawa. As they race against the clock to save Ilya's life, Shane reckons with the secrets they have been forced to keep and fears that they might never get to live their truth out in the open.- Language:
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Ilya googles Scott Hunter in his hotel room at night. He reads some interviews too.
Scott Hunter is an orphan. He lost his parents when he was twelve. A drunk driver killed them both.
Twelve.
Ilya’s stomach tightens into a knot. He can’t keep the memories away. They’re rising from the grave he tried to bury them in so many times. Mama.
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Ilya, Scott, and the transformation of their relationship(s).
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Marital Martial Mayhem by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-03-03
Shane never fighting was a known fact of the hockey world. So well-known that it was essentially a universal truth at this point. It was one of the first things new fans of hockey learned, right up there with, ‘The Chuktka brothers can’t read’, ‘Mrad Barchand is a rat, reincarnated’, and, ironically, ‘Ilya Rozanov tries to pick a fight with anything that moves’.”
A Hollanov wedding featuring:
- several judo takedowns
- a notable lack of chairs (steel or otherwise)
- an abrupt and bitter goodbye to yesterday
- a teary hello to tomorrow- Language:
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Ilya lies on the ground and looks up at the stars and waits to die.
The pavement is cold.
Ilya wonders if his mother was cold when she died. He thinks maybe not, since she didn’t die in a deserted alleyway in Vancouver. But she did die at home, and maybe that was even colder.In a world where the Cold War ended but the Iron Curtain never fell, Ilya Rozanov is the most promising figure skater in Russia. At only 19, he’s an easy candidate for gold at the 2010 Olympics in Vancouver, one of the only times Russia allows its citizens to leave the USSR.
And then one mistake means Russia will never let him come back. Hollander won’t stop trying to talk to him, but the last thing Ilya wants to do is talk to the man who ruined his life. He might be stuck in Canada, a refugee, for the rest of his life, but that doesn’t mean he has to talk to Hollander ever again.
He wanders Vancouver aimlessly and doesn’t think about Russia, or Hollander, or the ice that can never be home again.- Language:
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“Aren't you gonna- you don't have questions? You're just…” Shane trails off when Ilya kisses the inside of his knee. “...fine with it?”
“I have many questions,” Ilya drawls, cheek still pressed into Shane's leg. “I am fine? Mm, probably.” He quirks his lips in a smile that doesn't reach his eyes. “I will know for sure after we talk.”
When Shane starts to sit up, Ilya lowers his legs onto the mattress and slinks up beside him. He hasn't taken off his sneakers yet. “I'm not gonna kill you, or anything, if you're worried.”
“Comforting,” Ilya rumbles.
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Or, Ilya finds out Shane's pre-game ritual involves murder.
- Part 1 of kill me (romantically)
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If you’re afraid of wolves by gsmaxwell
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-03-01
Shane was on the mend. Really. Ilya had pulled him out of that icy river before there was any lasting damage. It didn't matter that he couldn't just fucking forget what had happened. Ilya wasn't okay, but he wasn't going to tell anyone that. Telling people would mean dealing with it. And he had Shane now, which was enough. Or: Shane and Ilya deal with the fall out of being kidnapped and traumatized by the Montreal mafia.
- Part 2 of Kidnapped AU
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Please don't leave (I won't ever) by 17darwinism
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-01
“What did you actually think?” He can’t help it. He looks at Ilya. Ilya only stares at him. “I say that now, in hindsight. Back then, I wasn’t thinking. Not really. It would come to me in waves, the anxiety, the fear. Most of the time,” he says. “I was just…” “Waiting for me to speak?” Ilya offers. Shane shakes his head, “I was trying to make it to tomorrow with you alive.” or, Ilya and Shane work to find themselves, and each other, again after Ilya's suicide attempt.
- Part 2 of Please, God, I'm finally loved
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