Summary:

“What did you actually think?” He can’t help it. He looks at Ilya. Ilya only stares at him. “I say that now, in hindsight. Back then, I wasn’t thinking. Not really. It would come to me in waves, the anxiety, the fear. Most of the time,” he says. “I was just…” “Waiting for me to speak?” Ilya offers. Shane shakes his head, “I was trying to make it to tomorrow with you alive.” or, Ilya and Shane work to find themselves, and each other, again after Ilya's suicide attempt.