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  1. After the Tuna Melt Incident, Shane and Ilya gradually started drifting apart. Texts became more scarce, hook-ups less frequent and feelings pushed aside until, in the moment of absolute panic, Shane ghosted Ilya fully.

    Now, three years later, Shane Hollander and Rose Landry are engaged. Shane's life finally seems to be going in the right direction. No distractions, great girl, lots of hockey.

    And then the new season starts and trades between teams happen.
    And Ilya Rozanov, whom Shane promised himself to forget, is suddenly on the same team.
    And, worst of all, he becomes the Alternate Captain.

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  2. Shane accidentally destroys his phone during the 2014 MLH Awards in Las Vegas. When Rozanov refuses to kiss or speak with him after they hook up, Shane decides to stop trying to make their not-relationship work. He doesn’t bother telling Rozanov. After all, Rozanov won’t care—he’s made that very, very clear.

    (Ilya cares. A lot.)

    or, shane drops his phone down an elevator shaft. it changes everything.

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  3. Ilya was glowing, and wild, and so bright he was almost blinding. Beautiful, Shane had known, even back then, when he was still too young to know much of anything at all.

    Ilya Rozanov belongs to the summer, and the summer belongs to them.

    (Or, two childhood best friends spend a summer by the lake, before the rest of their lives begin.)

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  4. Cliff watches him squeeze the phone between his cheek and shoulder, lifting the jersey over his head as he continues to talk, a bit distracted now by the multitasking.

    “And was good practice, you know, for when I am your husband."

    Immediately, the locker room goes dead silent. And so does Rozanov, in fact.

    In which Ilya accidentally calls himself Shane's future husband in the middle of the Bears locker room. Worse still, they're not even dating yet.

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  5. “Shane has boyfriend?"

    “Mom thinks so. He’s dodging my texts, but it definitely seems like he’s seeing someone.”

    Ilya's whispered "No" was drowned out by a loud snort from another teammate, who said something like, "Good for lil' bro."

    Ilya shouldn’t feel like dying. Should have expected this to happen at some point. Deserved it, even. He had been ghosting Shane for months, after all.

    In which Ilya knows he's not good enough to be with his best friend's little brother. He spirals over Shane possibly dating someone else nonetheless.

    Alternatively, Ilya will always be the one Shane will still run to.

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  6. MONTREAL VOYAGEURS PASS ON HOLLANDER FOLLOWING FINALS INJURY
    Despite being projected as at least a top-three pick, Shane Hollander slips to 57th overall after a Grade III ankle ligament tear sustained in the World Junior Hockey Championships earlier this year.

    BOSTON BEARS SELECT ROZANOV FIRST OVERALL, HOLLANDER IN SECOND ROUND
    Boston bets on two of juniors' most electric players; one a sure thing, one a gamble. The Bears have never minded those.

    Shane Hollander did not get drafted to Montreal. He gets drafted to Boston, fifty-seventh overall, after #1 draft pick, Ilya Rozanov. He has a plan for that. The plan does not account for Ilya Rozanov being the way that Ilya Rozanov is.

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  7. “Don’t marry her. Don’t leave me.” Ilya Rozanov has planned dozens of perfect weddings. This one just happens to belong to the man he's been in love with for his for years. *Reuploaded after random deletion a while back*

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  8. “Are you – sick? Or…” Hayden trails off, tilting his head in a small shrug. “Or do you have a case of the… y’know. Flowers?”

    “What?!” Shane yelps, louder than he means to. “No way. And I’m not sick – it’s just allergies.”

    “Allergies?” Hayden repeats incredulously. “Dude, it’s October. In Montreal.”


    Having a physical manifestation of repressed feelings should make it easier to deal with them. Unfortunately, Shane still has to figure out what his body is trying to tell him – or if it’s just a seasonal affliction after all.

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  9. Scott was speaking again before he could gather himself enough to back down. You fucking heard me, Hollander.
    Next thing he knew, he was fighting Shane Hollander. Or, more accurately, being fought by Shane Hollander, because Scott was so stunned by the fact that Shane fucking Hollander was fighting him to even really do anything to defend himself.
    And now, at whatever stupid time of the night, Shane Hollander is standing outside his hotel room door, having just knocked softly.
    "Get in here, kid," Scott says. "Let's talk."

    After his fight with Shane on the ice, Scott learns more about the soft spot he'd hit, and Shane realises he might have found a safe space to talk about what's going on with him and Rozanov.

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  10. daisy chain by

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    Shane goes back to his hotel after leaving Ilya's house, and he immediately spits up a flower petal.

    Within a week, he has his mother schedule the surgery.

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  11. It's not something that they ever talk about. They don't need to acknowledge it, and no one else ever needs to know. Or, no one else needs to know until suddenly Shane is in the hospital and no one will let Ilya see him. (Ilya and Shane are soulmates. It doesn't change everything, but it changes enough.)

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  12. Shane Hollander is ready to climb the publishing ladder and land the job that could completely change his life—even if it means working for the despotic and insufferable Ilya Rozanov.

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  13. Stars by

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    Ilya lies on the ground and looks up at the stars and waits to die.
    The pavement is cold.
    Ilya wonders if his mother was cold when she died. He thinks maybe not, since she didn’t die in a deserted alleyway in Vancouver. But she did die at home, and maybe that was even colder.

    In a world where the Cold War ended but the Iron Curtain never fell, Ilya Rozanov is the most promising figure skater in Russia. At only 19, he’s an easy candidate for gold at the 2010 Olympics in Vancouver, one of the only times Russia allows its citizens to leave the USSR.
    And then one mistake means Russia will never let him come back. Hollander won’t stop trying to talk to him, but the last thing Ilya wants to do is talk to the man who ruined his life. He might be stuck in Canada, a refugee, for the rest of his life, but that doesn’t mean he has to talk to Hollander ever again.
    He wanders Vancouver aimlessly and doesn’t think about Russia, or Hollander, or the ice that can never be home again.

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  14. “Why not strip poker?”

    Shane blinks. Over the roars of the rest of the table, Ilya has to lean over so that Shane can hear him. His hot breath tickles across Shane’s cheek.

    “Hollander? This is okay with you?”

    Shane opens his mouth to say no are you all crazy there is no way I could get naked in front of you without you being able to see how desperately I want you, but swallows it down.

    “Sure. Yeah, it’s fine. I’m okay.”

    Or: the boys gang up on shane during strip poker and ilya is going to kill them dead

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  15. In which Shane Hollander acquires a baby and Ilya Rozanov loses his fucking mind.

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  16. “Were you sleeping with Rose Landry?” LeClaire asked, and Ilya felt his entire world flip upside down. Ilya scoffed and sank into the chair. He stared at his lap and, for a second, wished he could just say yes. It would have been easier. A simpler explanation. Something everyone else could swallow. “No,” he answered instead. “I was not sleeping with Landry.” Coach sighed, the weight of it settling uncomfortably in the office. “So it was Hollander, then.” Or Ilya gets called into his Coach's office after Rose and Shane start dating and an uncomfortable conversation takes place. Ilya realizes some things. Also he may need to stop reading his thesaurus.

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  17. Shane didn't know what he should say, what he could say. They hadn't talked since that night, hadn't been in contact much. Which at first hadn't worried Shane. It wasn't unusual for them to go longer periods of time without contact, and especially with the Olympics looming so close, with them both being chosen for their teams, it had only seemed logical to focus on their duties. He hadn't worried. Had lived in that blissful state of finally knowing what it felt like to be taken, of sharing the arguably most intimate part of himself with someone he trusted. Knew he could trust. Thought he could trust. OR: What happened during those 6 months when Ilya ignored Shane? How did that time change things for Shane?

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  18. “Why are you here?”

    “You see,” Rozanov drawls, “twenty-two years ago, my parents decide they fuck and –”

    “Ugh. Shut up.” Shane scowls. “No, I mean – why here?” why now? 

    The smirk slides off Rozanov’s face. “They want –” he swallows, bringing one arm up to drape over his eyes. “The team I play for. During lockout. They… disagree about rest of season. Tell me I stay.”

    “But they can’t do that!”

    Rozanov gives him a sardonic smirk.


    When Rozanov’s Russian team doesn’t want to let him return to the MLH after the 2012-13 lockout, Shane finds himself pulled into a harebrained scheme to make sure his rival is safe – and it might just work. Now he only has to navigate a secret pretend relationship while also facing the condensed MLH season. But needs must, right?

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  19. my love's ugly bloom by

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    Shane sends him a text that says 'thinking about your cock' with a picture of his rippling abs, and even though Ilya really appreciates the abs, all he can think about is the faint bruise blooming on Shane's ribs, and whether it hurts him very badly, and whether there's anything Ilya could do to make it hurt less, if he were there. He wants to be there, he realizes. He wants to be there for the rest of his life.

    He has to duck out of the team weight room so he can cough up a fistful of petals.

    So.

    -

    Or: Ilya gets Hanahaki disease.

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  20. “Fuck you Rozanov.” He smirks. Even in the dark, Shane can feel it. The way his mouth quirks up and his eyes widen. “If you ask nicely.” or shane hollander and ilya rozanov are roommates in college who hate each other. until they don’t. ft. reddit, letterboxd, RA scott hunter, tuna melts and late nights.

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