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in the dark i thought i saw you by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-09-28
Ilya knows this room. He’s woken up here before, more mornings than he could count. He is here again, which means he failed. Again.
He begins to write. The memories are sharp in his mind now, but soon they'll start to smear and dissolve across his consciousness, leaving only faint impressions that will disappear altogether in a day, two at most. This note, printed on cheap hotel stationery, is the only thing that stands between him and oblivion.
1. You will meet Shane Hollander today. Don't be an asshole.
2. June 2009, Draft Day - go to the hotel gym at 11pm. Use the bike. Bring water.
3. July 2010 - CCM photo shoot. Make sure Hollander is also there.Or, mom said it was my turn with the time loop/time travel trope.
- Language:
- English
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- 70,005
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- 12/15
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82772496
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How I Learned to Stop Worrying (but Didn't Love the Bomb) by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-09-06
“Mom?” His mother moved the tea and plate of cookies closer to him, but Shane didn’t let himself get distracted. “I think I’ve had another memory lapse. Why wasn't Ilya in the play-off games? Did something happen?”
Mom dropped her phone.
Why does she have such a weird look on her face?
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Shane has memory gaps and keeps journals. Then, after the seventh game of the playoffs, he discovers they can send him back in time.
At first, he only wants to fix his relationship with his team.
Every attempt makes things worse.
Shane tries again.
And again.
- Language:
- English
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- 5,955
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- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #92103291
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During a game against the Boston Raiders, the Metros’ star center Shane Hollander sustains a concussion. Six months later, he still has no memory of his life before the injury.
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- English
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- 9,777
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- AO3:
- #88984096
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Shane As It Ever Was by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-05-22
Ilya wakes with no memory after an eventful night. Or maybe it wasn’t eventful. He doesn’t remember, that’s the problem.
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- AO3:
- #85342996
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When a feral alpha collapses on Shane’s doorstep, instinct collides with fear. Marked by scent, drawn by something neither of them can name, they circle each other in a fragile truce that feels dangerously like fate. or: Shane is an omega with a complicated past, Ilya is a feral alpha who is way too obsessed with him, and what follows involves scent-marking, unresolved feelings, sexual tension, buried secrets and so much emotional damage.
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- English
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- 83,779
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- 11/11
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- 1
- AO3:
- #79381371
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“Why are you so sure he’ll reject you? He was already fucking in love with you, Roz, literally all of us knew it, it was clear just from how he looked at his fucking phone—”
“That was— That was a fucking miracle, Pike. Miracles don’t happen twice.”
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shane doesn't remember his relationship with ilya after the hit. ilya was going to break up with him anyway.
- Language:
- English
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- 10,412
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- 1/1
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #84823276
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The display lights up blue with a simple first name: Lily. Shane pulls over without thinking, smacking ineffectually at the dashboard for his hazards as he scrambles to answer the phone before the chance slips through his fingers.
Once he manages to hit the answer button, he calls out, “Um, hi?” into the staticky silence.
A beat later, Ilya replies, “Hello.” Shane can hear the impish smile on his face as he tugs out the vowels, from the sneaky quirk of his brow to the teeth chasing his full bottom lip. “I am coming to your cottage. Will be on the next flight to Montreal.”
“What?” Shane asks.
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Shane goes to his cottage.
- Part 5 of kill me (romantically)
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- English
- Words:
- 2,364
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- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #84641796
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NHL Updates @NHLUpdates
Montreal captain Shane Hollander begs for information about a mysterious “Boston Lily” who he’s been secretly dating for six years, sparking a viral movement to reunite the pair. Full story below.metrooos @hockleberry
guys I think we might have to lock the fuck in????? #FindBostonLily--OR--
Amnesiac!Shane knows that he's in love, but not who he's in love with. The internet vows to assist.
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- AO3:
- #84347726
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Shane had lost his memory after being injured during the Montreal/Boston game. Now, his memories are coming back - and why is Ilya not there with him, why did he pretend that they don't know each other at all?
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- AO3:
- #82070776
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“Look,” Shane began, hitting the edge of the basin with the flat of his palm. “I don’t know if I did something to piss you off, or…or what, but you’re being fucking weird. The phonecall? And this? What is this?”
Before he’d even really processed Shane’s words, Ilya was standing directly in front of him, grabbing his lapels, pulling him closer. Then his shoulders sagged and their foreheads met. Ilya could feel Shane shift, moving away, but Ilya kept him still. It felt so good just to have Shane near again. “You would not believe me,” Ilya murmured.
Shane let his shoulders slump in acquiescence. He gave a little shrug. “I’m already having a tough time believing that you’re acting like this.” He laughed weakly, and Ilya envisioned what it would be like to tilt his head just slightly and press his lips to Shane’s. Would he reciprocate? Pull away? The latter. The latter. Obviously.
Or, after Ilya takes the girl from the club in Montreal back to his hotel room, he falls asleep wishing that he and Shane had never been anything at all, and wakes up to a world in which that’s true.
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- AO3:
- #79414061
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There is a strong scent of antiseptic in the air, the kind that always haunts hospitals and morgues. Ilya thinks it is fitting. He thinks, perhaps, that some vital organ of his is failing irreparably, and he is only waiting for a doctor to call out his time of death.
“You have lost your memories.” It’s not a question. Ilya’s burning hand drops from Shane’s cheek.
“Yeah,” Shane says easily. “Wait, shit, did no one tell you?”
“Is it temporary.” Ilya’s voice is hoarse, pleading. “This memory loss, is it… tell me that it is temporary.” Please, please, God. I know I promised to give anything up, but-
Shane looks at Ilya with wide eyes. “They don’t know,” he says gently. He seems to be catching onto Ilya’s distress despite the drugs in his system.
Ilya feels cold all over. Yes, any moment now, they will cover him with a white sheet and take him away.
Shane's concussion in S01E05 leaves him missing his memories from the last decade. Ilya is now the only person in the world who knows the truth about him and Shane, and is forced to question whether to burden Shane with their complicated relationship or to walk away.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 28,332
- Chapters:
- 8/8
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78908881
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a sound is still a sound around no one by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-12
Shane lifts one eyelid again to look at Rozanov. His eyes are red-rimmed. Like he’s been crying. “Why…why aren’t you in Boston?”
Rozanov’s brow furrows. “Why would I be in Boston?”
“You, you’re captain. Raiders. Boston.”
The room is silent except for the beeping of monitors.
In 2023, Shane takes a bad hit on the ice. When he wakes up, the last thing he remembers is a tuna melt.
There’s a lot to get used to.
- Language:
- English
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- 43,230
- Chapters:
- 9/9
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #79391171
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Both Shane and Ilya had gotten concussions before. It was part of being a hockey player, but neither of them had ever woken up thinking they were seventeen. Of course, Shane had to change that.
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- AO3:
- #76764096
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“You don’t…?” Rozanov trails off. “You don’t remember?” “Nope.” Shane says, popping the ‘p’ sound. “Amnesia. Oh my god, when I woke up, Rozanov, I thought we were filming that commercial. Do you remember it? Apparently it was a long time ago but to me it’s today. Fucking crazy.” or, after Shane's injury he wakes up with no memories of his hockey career or of his relationship with Ilya.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 12,807
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #76145091
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To Be Remembered, Is To Be Loved by BrokenColors
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-01
Shane Hollander forgets his marriage. Ilya Rozanov doesn’t forget how to love him. As Shane recovers from a concussion that fractures his memories, the life they built together resurfaces in quieter ways. Through routine, touch, shared space, and an intimacy that refuses to disappear. Love, it turns out, doesn’t always need memory. Sometimes, it just needs time. -------- tl;dr - Hollanov's Amnesia AU in which Shane's last memory is July 2010, a.k.a the first time they hooked up in Toronto after shooting the commercial. Problem is, it is 2022, and they have been married for almost a year, but Shane cannot remember the past 12 years of his life with Ilya.
- Part 1 of To Be or Not To Be
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 13,876
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- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #76882061
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Who Am I (to be loved by you) by llewellynprince
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-31
The last thing Ilya remembers is being five, back home with Svetlana and his mother, the only two people who ever loved him there. But this freckled boy in front of him is someone Ilya would know even with no memory or sense.
- Part 3 of Song of Achilles
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 6,317
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #76605191
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Opposites Attract by attackattackattack
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-30
After his accident, Shane doesn’t remember Ilya Rozanov. Why does his rival visit him in the hospital? And who is this “Lily” in his phone? or an alternate story where shane forgets ilya but ilya makes shane remember this is canon compliant because it fits right after the accident and before the cottage
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,219
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #76660991