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To know the sun by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-10-27
It's Fall of 2014 and Ilya Rozanov has cut all ties with Russia. But there's no such thing as a clean break, and leaving isn't as simple as never going back.
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Basically a very self-indulgent fic about how hard it would be for Ilya to actually move on from the pain of the past and to go no contact with his family in a timeline where Grigori is still alive. Also, Ilya deserves to be known and loved by more people than just Shane and Sveta. Forced/Found Family here we come.
*Sequel to my canon-divergence fic "To only ever know the cold" (go read that first or this won't make sense!)- Part 2 of To know the sun
- Language:
- English
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- 29,609
- Chapters:
- 10/12
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #82537176
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Rose volunteers for a nonprofit that rescues sex-trafficked omegas, and Shane thinks it's a great cause. He even attends their fundraising galas.
Then, one night, Rose calls to ask for a favor: She wants Shane to let a recently-rescued male omega live with him. In his apartment.
His name is Ilya, Rose explains, and the thing is, despite omega hormone levels, he acts and smells just like an alpha. He can't keep staying in an omega group home because he's scaring the other omegas and endangering the staff.
But he could live with Shane, Rose insists. "You're a big strong alpha hockey player, so he can't intimidate you physically. But also he needs to feel safe, which he can with you, because you're not like other alphas." She pauses. "You know?"
By which she means Shane has never had a full rut, his scent glands barely work, he can't form a knot, and he has no interest in sticking his dick in anyone. Which, whatever. It's fine.
But if being a failure as an alpha means he can help this omega, Ilya, who's apparently as much of a biological anomaly as Shane is…
Shane says yes.
And maybe it's a stupid decision. But he knows that it's also the right one.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 158,925
- Chapters:
- 24/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81447731
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Later, he’ll blame it all on a momentary lapse of judgement.
He’ll blame it on the loneliness maybe—on the fact that, despite never having been physically closer to Shane this consistently in his entire life—that despite regularly getting dinner with Shane’s parents—that despite finally having found what he’d spend his entire life searching for he’s also, somehow, never felt more alone.
He’ll blame it on Cliff not texting him back since he’d signed with Ottawa. He’ll blame it on Sveta, face pulled into a perpetual frown during every facetime call.
Or maybe he’ll blame it on Anya—sweet, beautiful Anya—who’d been just a little too cute not to share.
or: Ilya accidentally rehabilitates his image one puppy tiktok at a time
- Part 1 of my moon my man
- Language:
- English
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- 55,804
- Chapters:
- 15/15
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #77785331
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the devil in his veins longing for tenderness by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-10-22
Ilya wakes up in the early afternoon, in his underwear, with a dry mouth, a crick in his neck, and loud, incessant banging. It takes him longer than he is proud to admit to realize that it’s coming from his front door. He gets up and immediately regrets it. His living room is a mess and the light coming in from the window makes him wince. He does not want to clean today. What he had wanted was a rare, quiet night. Maybe text Hollander to rile him up after his loss the day before. Instead, Marly insisted on coming home with him after his girlfriend dumped him, so he could drown his sorrows. He remembers making some questionable choices after that, and if the state of the house is any indication, he is right.
Oh, that fucker. What did he forget here?
“Marly, you fucking asshole, I swear if you don’t stop—” Fuck. His head. How much did he drink last night? “Couldn’t you wait until practice tomorrow to get—” He opens the door. A small child is looking up at him.
Or: The day before the Tuna Melt Ilya Rozanov finds a child at his door.
- Part 1 of The Devil in His Veins
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- English
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- 56,891
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #89995016
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Ilya is thirty three and his life is finally settled. Then a call from Russia informs him that Alexei has overdosed and died. This brings things to the surface.
- Language:
- English
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- 12,633
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #91333116
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I Got Him by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-10-04
Now, for the first time in years, he found himself praying. Not caring who listened. Not caring if anyone listened.
Take anything.
Take the game.
Take my career.
Take whatever you want.
Just let him wake up.
Because Shane couldn't be gone.
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Cliff Marlow isn't the one who sends Shane Hollander to the hospital.
Ilya Rozanov is.
And when the worst thing Ilya can imagine happens, keeping their relationship a secret becomes impossible.- Language:
- English
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- 295,349
- Chapters:
- 94/94
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- 1
- AO3:
- #87164261
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Love, Vodka, or the Sea by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-08-01
Recovery isn't linear.
Knowing this, and believing it, are two different things.Shane moves to Ottawa, ready to finally spend time with his soulmate, properly. Maybe the excitement is why he doesn't always notice.
Ilya wins the Cup with Shane at his side, but it doesn't matter as much as it should have. Not when his body hurts and his mind is fragile and he feels one moment away from collapse.
Timeline goes back and forth, but we start off one year after the events of the previous story.
In the end, everything will be okay.- Part 3 of This is Love
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 16,714
- Chapters:
- 8/8
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #88105341
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I Swore Eyes Were Made to Cry, But You're the First Person That I've Seen, Who's Proven That Might Be a Lie by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-07-11
Rewrite or expansion on the Hospital Scene after Shane get taken out by Marleau.
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Shane being floaty as fuck and Ilya fighting himself.
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- English
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- 2,051
- Chapters:
- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #88326181
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Ecology of Devotion by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-07-02
A guard dog's submission isn't weakness — it's a whole ecosystem built around one animal's safety. Shane learns the shape of it slowly: which hunger to feed, which to starve, when stillness is the only right shape for his own strength to take. Ilya learns something rarer — that being watched doesn't have to mean being hunted. Then it breaks all at once: something Shane's own teammates were never meant to find finds its way into their locker room anyway, and the appetite that spent a year holding itself in check finds out exactly what it was protecting.
- Part 5 of A Formal Study of the Heart
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- English
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- 13,278
- Chapters:
- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #87781586
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In 2000, Russia had 31,000 cases of HIV. In 2010, there were 530,000.
By fourteen, Ilya Rozanov is sleeping around Moscow. It's a complicated outlet, but he's good at two things: hockey and sex. At 16, he's diagnosed with HIV.
- Language:
- English
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- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #83807126
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think twice (and come back for a third time) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-10
Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.
A stranger, and the love of his life.
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or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.
OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!
Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.
- Language:
- English
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- 70,339
- Chapters:
- 11/11
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #82620966
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Once More Around the Sun by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-23
After Shane walks out post-tuna melt, Ilya Rozanov walks through hell to remind himself who he is, a man ready to salt the fucking Earth for his people.
Shane’s not even pretending he’s capable of being rational about it, he isn’t, his world is falling apart at the seams and he’s fairly sure he’s losing his mind.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 33,533
- Chapters:
- 9/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80301421
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The Knife You Turn Inside Yourself by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-28
They're soulmates. They're out to the world, for better or worse. Ilya is safe and learning to heal. Everything should be good.
And yet.SEQUAL to Safer in Chains than to be Free
- Part 2 of This is Love
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 30,679
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80973721
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Safer in Chains Than to be Free by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-09
The name of your soulmate only appears once your realize you are in love with them.
"Shane Hollander" appears on Ilya's chest before the Sochi Olympics. He tells nobody, and then he disappears.Six months later, Shane gets a call from an unknown number. Ilya. In Montreal, and completely different.
It doesn't matter, though, and the next morning there's a line of Cyrillic across his chest.Timeline goes back and forth.
- Part 1 of This is Love
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 21,589
- Chapters:
- 9/9
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80627716
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Ilya Rozanov, get loved.
- Part 3 of Duty of Care
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 145,224
- Chapters:
- 25/25
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #77087096
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Ilyas's head had ended up between his knees, his hands wrapping around the back of his helmet. Ilya couldn't keep the thoughts away. He tried to think of things that didn't relate to Shane, or his mother, or hockey. Grasping at the mental straws, he couldn't come up with anything that didn't relate to Shane in some way. He had completely taken over Ilyas' life. Every good memory he had had Shane in it. Ilya spiralled further, the rubber floor seeming to spin. He had undone his helmet, letting it clatter onto the floor. OR What if Ilya couldn't hold it together when Shane got hurt?
- Part 1 of Heated Rivalry - Angst Time
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,308
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #77475086