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fault lines (tremble underneath my glass house) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-22
Shane never got hurt during the game after Ilya’s father died and Ilya went through with breaking things off with Shane. Three months after their relationship fell apart, Shane found out that he was six months pregnant.
Five years later, Shane is balancing hockey and a major secret and Ilya moves to the Ottawa Centaurs after several unsuccessful seasons with Boston. Neither of them are ready for how much a chance encounter at a hockey rink is going to change everything.
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The Hollanov secret baby fic that no one asked for but I am legally obligated to provide
- Part 1 of fault lines
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 87,186
- Chapters:
- 11/20
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #75831346
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continuity errors/tuesday again by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-04-17
The first thing you should know about time loops is that they’re really fucking hard to break. The second thing is that you can never break one in such a way that it is incapable of returning.
The third thing you should know is that everyone around you has probably been stuck in a time loop at one point or another, and they made it out alive. This is only comforting if you’re a numbers guy, or if you’re the kind of guy who talks to others about how it feels to live the same day over and over and over and over and over and over again.
Shame if you’re not; the most important thing you should know about breaking a time loop is that it helps to tell someone you’re trapped in one in the first place.
- Part 12 of my heated rivalry fics
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 32,873
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #82936316
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How did he let this happen?
Shane's not sure.
One moment, he was on the gym floor not staring at Rozanov's
gorgeoussweaty body. Then Shane was standing up, but his legs were weak for some god forsaken reason and Rozanov was there, just an arm around his waist to keep him upright, and now...Well.
Now Shane's on his knees on the floor of Ilya Rozanov's shower.
Or
Heated Rivalry, but the boys are forced to have an honest conversation around 8 years earlier than they do in canon.
- Part 1 of Finding Family
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 40,018
- Chapters:
- 25/25
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #78806701
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A Danger to Yourself or Others by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-15
Galina stopped writing to look at Ilya. "Do you think he'd be willing to talk to you next time it happens, even if it's late?"
Ilya's stomach turned over. He didn't even want to consider it, but he knew the answer. "Yes. But he silences his phone at night."
"Most phones these days have an option to let certain numbers ring through, even on Do Not Disturb. Do you think he'd be open to setting that up for you?"
Imagining that conversation made Ilya nauseous. Yes, no fucking doubt, Shane would be open to it if Ilya explained the reason. "I'm not going to ask him to do that."
Set during The Long Game, an alternate version where the plane scene doesn't happen. Instead, there's this: a car crash, a therapist's duty to report, and an urgent reckoning with priorities.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 37,182
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #81233801
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A Case of You by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-13
Ilya Rozanov has decided to move to Hollowvale, a small Canadian town where he can hopefully find new artistic inspiration - he ends up meeting Shane Hollander, the owner of a local bookstore & cafe who immediately becomes his muse, or rather, his obsession.
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I remember that time you told me, You said, "Love is touching souls," Surely, you touched mine, 'Cause part of you pours out of me in these lines from time to time.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,764
- Chapters:
- 1/10
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #83069316
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Ilya had never really let himself picture it before. Not for too long, anyway. Himself at twelve, standing in that doorway, seeing her lifeless body on the bed. He didn’t have any photographs of himself from that age, which made it easier to keep the memory at a distance. Just a fact. Something that happened to a version of himself he barely remembered being. Niko turning twelve closed that distance. Ilya is going through a depressive episode. Which is hitting differently now that his son is the same age he was when his mom died.
- Part 14 of Our House
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 8,259
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82232731
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Bridgeford is a small, quiet town. Too dull to hold someone like Ilya, a restless young alpha always chasing something sharper, faster, louder. Too suffocating for Shane, an omega who’s spent too long under watchful eyes, tired of being seen as a social case just because he's an omega.
One last summer. That's all they both have to live through before they're both off to the big city. That was the plan.
Until fate pulls a few strings, and suddenly, two complete strangers feel drawn to each other in all the wrong ways.
OR: a modern, dramatic fairytale of two soulmates finding each other
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 41,362
- Chapters:
- 7/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81608996
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The Distance Between Us by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-30
Ilya Rozanov has spent ten years circling Shane Hollander. Ten years of hotel rooms and secret phone calls. Ten years of pretending he doesn't feel it, doesn't need it, doesn't wake up reaching for someone who's already gone. Ten years convincing himself he's not good enough. That he's not worth it.
Then a plane needs to make an emergency landing near Montreal, and Yuna Hollander is on it.
So when Shane calls him from a bathroom floor, unable to breathe, Ilya stops pretending.
After five hundred miles of frozen highway, three and a half hours of driving like a man possessed, a hospital waiting room full of people who have every reason to hate him, and a boy who looks at him like he's something worth keeping, Ilya may have learned a thing or two about what it means to be loved—and to let himself love freely.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 104,414
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #81207291
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A look at the year that Ilya still played for Boston, except they explicitly state their dom/sub relationship, and explore that dynamic (and kink) together.
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When they first started, it was by accident. Ilya followed Shane’s lead; he read his body and responded with his own. Shane liked to be on his knees for Ilya, and Ilya liked to keep him there.
The first time it went wrong. Shane thought it was his fault. It wasn’t.
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Now with 10k-word SMUTTY EPILOGUE
- Part 1 of Bellboy
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 63,639
- Chapters:
- 15/15
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #78253961
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The shape of things we know by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-28
“Where are you going?”
“To the arena, Hollander. We are playing a game in three hours.”
“That’s tomorrow, Rozanov,” Hollander says, smirking like Ilya might be fucking with him and he wants to make sure he’s in on the joke. He looks behind and around him. “Um, can I come inside?”
“Hollander, we have game today. You were here yesterday.”
Hollander is striding toward his kitchen, looking over his shoulder at Ilya like he’s getting tired of the joke. “Very funny. I was in Montreal yesterday, Rozanov.”
“Hollander.” Ilya goes to stand in front of him. Hollander’s eyes flicker up and down his body the way that Ilya usually craves, but is rather unwelcome right now. “Today is Thursday. Game is today. Yesterday, you came to my house. We ate tuna melts, watched Buffalo game. Then, you left.”
“Rozanov, it’s Wednesday morning. And I’ve never been to your house before.”
“Hollander…”
“Look at your phone if you don’t believe me.”
Ilya snorts like a bull and pulls his phone out of his pocket, swipes down on the screen to look at the date.
Wednesday, November 9th.
Or: Ilya Rozanov in Groundhog Day!
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 34,332
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #81448406
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the day came (and you were gone) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-03-27
Irina was always a perceptive woman.
Maybe this perceptive, brilliant woman noticed how Ilya looked at boys.
Maybe that was the final straw, maybe she couldn’t handle the grief of having a son who loved boys. Maybe that’s why Ilya stumbled on his mother’s body a few days after realising he looked at boys like he could love them too.
or, ilya, religion, queerness and trying to do guesswork about someone who is long gone.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 6,277
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81962706
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Shane is sent on a dangerous mission, he must find wealth for his Kingdom, their home was pillaged and they are struggling to keep their people secure. Not many men dare to enter the enchanted woods, Shane isn't an ordinary man, he's a prince and he will save his people.
The fae warn of danger and temptation but Shane is not tempted by anything, he will keep his eyes on the prize.
But when he reaches the ancient castle in the woods, he meets the most beautiful man he's ever seen.
And that man...
Is not mortal.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 41,352
- Chapters:
- 14/14
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80077736
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Showing Up For Him by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-03-22
Shane wasn’t his boyfriend. But for a while it had felt like it. They’d been alone in his house. He’d made them tuna melts and watched TV. They’d cuddled like a real couple. And then he had to go and ruin it. Like he ruins everything. The press won't stop talking about Shane and Rose. He's turning into his mother and for some reason, Scott Hunter is the only one who sees him. And it scares him.
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Ilya spirals after the tuna melt scene and engages in self-destructive behaviors. Scott Hunter notices and refuses to go away.
*This is a stand alone fic and is not related to the others in the series.
- Part 3 of Seasoned Gay to the Rescue
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 22,566
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80864736
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Uploaded to one of the biggest sports broadcasts in the entire industry, the Metro's are blindsided when texts between Shane and Rozanov are leaked one afternoon. They're even more surprised to find how many they have, how far back they span, and just how intimate they are.
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“You know what I’m thinking about?” JJ asked with no specific person in mind.
“Please don’t say Ilya’s thighs,” Hayden pleaded, pinching the bridge of his nose.
“First of all, ew, no,” he replied instantly. “Second of all, don’t call him Ilya, it’s weird.”
“It’s his name!” Hayden retorted, defensively. “We should get used to using it considering he and Shane are…you know.”
Sleeping together sounded crass, but dating seemed too romantic, too. Not that there hadn’t been some pretty romantic texts to sort through. He couldn’t really figure out what the word that felt best was, or if there even was one.
- Language:
- English
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- 8,745
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81662821
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“That’s not-” Shane starts, but he stops himself. Ilya tilts his head slightly in question, but Shane bites the inside of his cheek and then shakes his head slightly, cheeks flushing. “I do trust you,” Shane says.
“But not with your car?” Ilya asks. “You are afraid I will drive all the boring out of it?”
Shane rolls his eyes.
“It’s a good car-” He starts in another refrain of one of his favorite summer songs.
Ilya rolls them and pins his boyfriend under him before he has to hear about four wheel drive and gas mileage again.
There are far better uses for Shane’s mouth, after all.
(in which ilya learns that being a passenger in the car knocks shane tf out)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 10,060
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81342521
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Shane Hollander's PDA Agenda by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-17
It happens in an instant.
Over Ilya’s shoulder, Shane sees the doctor and Wiebe give each other a look, and in a sudden bout of impatient anxiety, Shane ends up saying the words that come to ruin everything.
“Don’t touch me.”
The effect is instantaneous. Ilya’s hands fly to his sides, and Shane gets a front row seat as Ilya’s heart breaks before his very eyes. Eyes dimming and lips trembling in slow, painful technicolor.
It causes Shane’s heart to break, too, and he vows, immediately, never to see such a look cross his husband’s face again.
OR Shane embarks on a mission to heal his husband’s heart, one PDA at a time.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 39,658
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #78297091
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This was what tended to scare Shane the most, when Ilya was unwell: the gradual loss of him, despite being physically there. He would go quiet, blank, slow to speak and slow to respond, nothing like the pulse of intense energy and liveliness that sparked in him at his baseline. Shane missed him, when he was away in that place. It was not a place Ilya could always describe, and it was not somewhere Shane could rescue him from, or even join him in for company. So Shane waited, every time, for him to come back. He always came back. That was the only relief in it.
- Part 2 of snowdrops
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 14,051
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81324646
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He Used To Be A Lovely Boy by Midnight_w0nder
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-14
In which Irina never died, but Ilya still inherited her sadness. Or, Shane navigates Ilya’s suicide attempt with Irina.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,139
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81209021
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it's just pain (memories ring like tinnitus) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-14
Most days it felt like Alexei didn’t want a younger brother at all—like he would have been happier if Ilya had never been born, or if he’d gotten a brother that was less clingy, less soft.
But Alexei could’ve pushed him down the stairs and broken every bone in his body, and Ilya would’ve probably begged him to do it again, if it meant he’d spend more time with him.
or: Ilya's father doesn't die during the 2016/2017 season. His brother does.
- Part 2 of my moon my man
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,105
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80851381
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A night out at the Kingfisher during a team roadtrip to New York leaves Ilya cursed with a truth spell. Worried this will ruin everything for Ilya and Shane and their very secret relationship, Ilya scrambles to break the curse before saying anything he can't take back.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 15,509
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81209681