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Shane joins Ilya on a quick trip to Moscow, which soon transforms into a nightmare. Ilya is arrested and targeted so harshly that he's not sure Russia will let him go this time.
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Shane witnesses Ilya's family.
Alexei and Ilya's relationship is explored.
Yuna flies to Russia.
Lots of Svetlana.
Healing journey fluff afterwards.- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 142,860
- Chapters:
- 21/21
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78329636
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The Great Pretender by lady_st4rdus7
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-02
Ilya Rozanov is in love, closeted, catastrophically lonely, and apparently incapable of referring to Shane Hollander in present tense. The Centaurs come to a- given the circumstances- reasonable conclusion. Or: Five times the Centaurs thought Ilya Rozanov was mourning his dead wife, and the one time they discovered his wife was actually Shane Hollander. Shane, for the record, is alive and really confused.
- Part 1 of my hollanov
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 31,278
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84483691
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So Lily is just a buddy? by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-02
Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov never hooked up at the CCM commercial.
Now it's 2017. Yuna Hollander is concerned that Shane doesn't have many friends, so she signs him up on a buddy network website.
Shane gets paired with someone else looking for a 'buddy', not knowing that it's his on-ice rival, Ilya Rozanov.- Part 6 of Hollanov/Centaurs Texting/WAG Fics
- Part 1 of Alternate Universe
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 49,834
- Chapters:
- 9/9
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #84152481
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Ilya had a nice life in Providence, Rhode Island. He was married, technically. He was an American citizen. He had a good job. His NHL career, cut short, was in the past and so was his old hook up.
So why the fuck was Shane Hollander standing outside his front door?
A Shane Hollander Courts Ilya Rozanov story.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 12,629
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85337211
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i jumped across for you by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-05-29
Over the summer, Cliff Marlow made the decision to leave the team he won a Cup with, his hometown, and the only place he'd ever known to move to a different country, a terrible team, and basically the middle of nowhere.
And so far, he hasn't regretted it for a single second.
Or: a continuation of i know the sound of your heart showing moments from Cliff and Ilya's first season with the centaurs, a couple of shocking revelations (though they really shouldn't have been), and, of course, Cliff Marlow being the most loyal friend anyone could ask for.
- Part 2 of the cliff chronicles
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 12,247
- Chapters:
- 3/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85164856
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“Oh my god, oh my god. Seriously, this is the best. I can’t believe you’re my neighbour. I’m calling it now, Hollander. This right here is the beginning of a friendship that will go down in history.” Ilya is 10 years old when his family moves from Jacksonville, Florida to small town Ontario. There, he forms an unexpected friendship with Shane, the boy living on the ginseng farm across the street. As they grow up and grow apart, their paths continue to cross at high school hockey games, in tabloid articles, and at one particular intimate Muskoka cottage. OR: A childhood friends to strangers to lovers AU in which Shane Hollander (up and coming indie rock star) and Ilya Rozanov (brooding artist) take nearly fifteen years to figure their shit out.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 157,018
- Chapters:
- 33/33
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #77742121
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Saved On Purpose by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-25
“Yay!” Ilya giggles and throws his head back, settling back into the pillows. He smiles dreamily at Shane. “I’m glad I didn’t kill myself.”
Shane freezes and Scott stiffens. His words come out slowly, horrified by what he’s just heard. Maybe it was a fluke or an offhanded dead joke. “What did you say?”OR
Ilya suffers a concussion and while high on pain medication, he accidentally reveals his attempt the previous summer.
- Part 7 of Seasoned Gay to the Rescue
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,230
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85480911
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You and I in Screaming Color by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-05-25
Ilya flirts with danger with the kind of desperation of a man drowning clawing his way to the surface in search of air. He knows it'll catch up with him eventually. He just never imagined it would lead to this: getting traded as if dumped in the trash, like his career achievements, his blood sweat and tears and everything else he's given Boston, mean nothing at all.
Or, when Ilya gets caught in a sex scandal with a man while trying to get over Hollander, he changes the trajectory of his life forever.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 40,144
- Chapters:
- 7/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82993141
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Ruined Everything by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-22
It was supposed to be a good day. Ilya loves his boyfriend. He loves hanging out with David and Yuna. Scott and Kip were in Ottawa for a visit. And Ilya knows he’s supposed to be happy but… he can’t. He feels like he’s drowning in tar.
- Part 5 of Seasoned Gay to the Rescue
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 7,636
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85173556
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It Was Just An Accident by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-18
After stopping Ilya from jumping off a bridge, Scott and Kip take him in. Over the next couple of weeks, they learn about the horrors Ilya has had to endure and hopefully, they can give him the safety he needs.
*This fic is a standalone, and you don't need to read the other fics in this series
- Part 6 of Seasoned Gay to the Rescue
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 15,363
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84357696
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i know the sound of your heart by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-18
5 times Cliff Marlow realized something had changed with Ilya Rozanov leading up to his transfer to Ottawa + 1 (what he decided to do about it)
or: canon compliant but slightly canon divergent, set in between the events of Heated Rivalry and The Long Game
or: Cliff Marlow's perspective of Ilya's last season in Boston while him and Shane are boyfriends
or: Cliff Marlow is not the sharpest tool in the shed, but he's a loyal fucking friend
- Part 1 of the cliff chronicles
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 13,474
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84745146
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If it wasn't for that meddling kid by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-17
“I feel really good about this kid, I think he could be great on your wing, he just needs some help settling in. Someone to show him the ropes.”
“Yes.”
The line went silent for a moment. Ilya wasn’t really sure why his coach felt the need to run this by him.
“Rozanov,” his coach said at last. “I want him to live with you.”
Ilya blinked, then nearly shouted into the phone. “What?”
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or, Ilya stays in Boston, gets a rookie, and tries to figure out how to make a secret long distance relationship work while there's a Russian teenager in his house
- Part 1 of If it wasn't for that meddling kid
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 138,987
- Chapters:
- 20/20
- Files:
- 5 versions
- AO3:
- #77932356
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Modern Lockets by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-12
“Sweetheart, your pretty little head is so silly. For every photocard I make of ugly hockey men, I make two of my gorgeous, radiant, pulchritudinous boyfriend. Sometimes three.”
A smile breaks through the heated haze of Shane’s expression. “You’ve been using the thesaurus Dad got you for Christmas?”
“I will beat Yuna Hollander at Scrabble one day,” Ilya declares against Shane’s hip bone.
In the year between the Cottage and the Centaurs, Ilya misses Shane more than ever. Svetlana’s teenage cousin offers a coping method: Kpop-style Shane Hollander photocards to stare at all day long. It's a shame carrying around pictures of fellow hockey players is just not socially acceptable.
…At least, not yet.
(AKA: Ilya's mission to desensitize the hockey world to his Hollander fanboyisms, and the NHL players that suffer for it.)- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 35,708
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84249706
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The Minor Fall, The Major Lift by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-12
~And from your lips, he drew the Hallelujah
Ilya Rozanov leaves Boston and signs with Ottawa, trying to fight a slow slide into emptiness and find meaning in his life again. Shane Hollander is a lonely, struggling artist who lost his spark. When they meet by chance, they both have to decide what's worth living for.
Or…Shane never gets the chance to become a pro hockey player, so they meet later in life. Basically, they’re both sad boys, but the healing will be worth it (mostly soft fluff, very low angst). More baggage, fewer hangups.
~You see I used to live alone before I knew ya.
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“So maybe we would have played together,” Ilya said.
“Yeah. Maybe we would have been rivals,” Shane said, and that got a grin out of him. He couldn’t quite imagine it, but he thought that would have been fun, facing off against Ilya Rozanov. In another life.
Ilya nodded slowly. “And yet here we are, meeting anyway. Maybe we were meant to.”
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 120,745
- Chapters:
- 16/16
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #83202531
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if you're scared of wolves by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-12
In another life — or maybe the next one, or maybe the one before — Ilya Rozanov learns that some roads only lead to one place. No matter how you take them, the wolves are always waiting at the end.
Maybe that's why, in December 2008, Ilya wakes up with the distinct, inexplicable sense, that he has already lived this life before.
Some things, it turns out, are inevitable. The question is whether he is.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 92,100
- Chapters:
- 11/11
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80956281
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think twice (and come back for a third time) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-10
Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.
A stranger, and the love of his life.
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or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.
OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!
Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 70,339
- Chapters:
- 11/11
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #82620966
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sleeping in a bed half empty (daydreaming) by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-05-03
“Did, uh,” Frankie starts. She sounds faint. “Did you just say your boyfriend?”
Ilya’s stomach drops. Oh. Oh, fuck.
He doesn’t know what his face does. There will probably be pictures of this moment all over the internet by tomorrow morning. He doubts it’s flattering, considering there’s a non-zero chance he’s going to throw up all over the microphone.
Ilya scrambles. Too tired, too shocked at his own brain’s betrayal to know how to fix this. “Blyat,” he spits. Then he laughs, and even he can hear that it sounds more wild than genuine. “English language is hard, yes? I meant my boys, my boys who are my friends. The Centaurs, yes? They are all my boy friends.”
OR
Ilya Rozanov has a no-good, very bad two days and accidentally outs himself. He's not having a great time.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 6,548
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84211661
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all of you, all of me (intertwined) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-03
Ilya had Shane only in fleeting moments for nearly ten years. Rushed hookups and greedy hands grabbing at anything and everything he could to savor every second of the limited time he knew he was running out of.
And then they got married.
Now, at night, Ilya slips into a bed that’s already warm with his husband.
Or, all the ways Shane and Ilya say I love you without actually saying it.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 10,921
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84127311
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All year Shane had been fighting the desperate creeping desires spreading inside him, hoping they would wither and die in the airless forgotten dark of his dreams and now Rozanov, the only player at camp who might've been better at hockey than Shane, with his newly-long legs and newly-defined abs and his indifferent smirking gaze, was lying (maybe) hard above him, asking wildly inappropriate questions and claiming it was all normal and fine and good? Nonsense. If this was normal, Shane was missing way more social cues in his day-to-day life than he thought.
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In which Shane and Ilya meet at hockey camp as teens and a bunch of other things also go differently. Not a teen fic tho I promise!- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 89,699
- Chapters:
- 9/9
- Files:
- 5 versions
- AO3:
- #80334051
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back and forth from new york by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-25
After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.
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Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.
- Part 1 of back and forth from new york
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 255,418
- Chapters:
- 55/55
- Files:
- 6 versions
- AO3:
- #76283091