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October 31, on a road outside Montreal by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-10-20
October 31st. It was after ten p.m., so the streetlamps and other cars’ headlights glowed eerie in the pounding rain on Route 342 toward Montreal. Not that the sky would have been any brighter at six, these days. That was what time did to you: pickpocketed summer sun and warmth until, before you knew it, you were forty-two and your coach was playing you on the second line more and more.
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Shane Hollander, age 42, crashes his car on a stormy Halloween night and accepts a ride from a handsome stranger on a motorbike.
This is a spooky Halloween story, but also a story about getting older, the burden of perfection and the loneliness of the closet.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 1,800
- Chapters:
- 1/3
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #95034991
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Cliff Marlow is not gay. He's not. Seriously. He'd know, right?
- Part 1 of for years or for hours
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 61,356
- Chapters:
- 19/20
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81330606
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Don’t Let the Sun Go by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-10-11
After dying in a plane crash in 2021, Ilya wakes up in a nondescript hotel room, identical to hundreds he has stayed in during his decade-long NHL career. Is he in Hell? Mama is not here. Neither is Shane.
But then the phone rings; a representative from CCM wants to confirm Ilya will be on time to his photo shoot with Shane Hollander.
On the way to the rink, Ilya, who learned from the very best, makes a multi-step plan:
1. Texting
2. No sleeping around
3. Friends
4. First names
5. BoyfriendsIlya made Shane fall in love with him once. He can do it again.
He has to.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 64,615
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #93742091
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Miles to go before I sleep by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-10-01
On February 17, Ilya goes through with his plan to break up with Shane.
On April 18, the MLH announces an expansion team in Arizona.
On June 21, the Phoenix Coyotes draft both Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander, who were left unprotected by their teams.
On Monday, Ilya decides he doesn't want to live anymore.
On Thursday, Shane asks if he wants to drive to Phoenix with him.
Huh.
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This is a love story.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 11,570
- Chapters:
- 2/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #92744216
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It's embarrassing enough that Shane wanders off his hiking trail and goes missing for two days, but thanks to Hayden's big mouth, everyone knows he was recently dumped, and they have a lot of wrong opinions about why Shane disappeared.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 7,540
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #92838221
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That Was Not Your Choice to Make Alone by lilypadquit
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-08-31
“I want to meet her.” he managed to say through the wave of emotion coursing through him. “No.” Shane said, as if there was no possibility Ilya would ever get to meet his daughter. “You don’t get to decide when I see my child.” Ilya said, trying desperately to keep his voice calm, not wanting to give Shane more reason to believe he was still the violent person he left seven years ago “Yes I do. I am not going to let my child be collateral in the war you’re in with your brother like I was.” “I am legit now. I promise. After you left I have spent the last seven years cleaning us up. We do nothing criminal. I have no connections to Alexei and Russia anymore. Just let me meet her.” “No. Not until you prove it to me. I will not let any part of that life affect her.” “Can you at least tell me her name” “Her name is Masha. Well it’s Mariya, but we all call her Masha.” Or Shane Hollander found out he was pregnant with Russian Mafia member Ilya Rozanov's child and ran away. Seven years later Ilya has broken off ties to his brother and found Shane and his daughter. He wants to meet her.
- Part 1 of I Always Knew It Was Going to Be You
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 44,997
- Chapters:
- 18/18
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #86082531
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The Cabin, the Kitchen Floor, and the Couch by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-16
Three years after Ilya stumbled upon Shane’s cottage, he and Shane are enjoying their new life as a public couple, soon to be playing on the same team. They’re spending their summer looking forward to their future, rather than dwelling on the past, until their peace is shattered by a phone call requesting Ilya’s testimony at Cameron Pollard’s domestic violence trial.
- Part 2 of Across the Lake
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 38,678
- Chapters:
- 7/7
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #86732401
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found connection (baby i can't stop calling you) by aquilanovae
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-18
Shane calls a phone sex hotline and gets Ilya crooning unspeakable filth in his ear. It kind of devolves from there. ——— Ilya is a college student in Boston working on the side as a phone sex operator, Shane is still a hockey player. They have toe-curling, back-cracking dirty phone sex and end up catching feelings along the way.
- Part 1 of 1-800-i-love-you
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 131,252
- Chapters:
- 10/10
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #80822841
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Succeeding by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-05-28
Coming to terms with his recovery, Shane is confronted with the choice to share his story.
A one-shot follow-up to Try, Try Again. The assault isn't detailed, but it exists in the core of the plot, so be forewarned.
- Part 2 of Trying
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,793
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85697521
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i know the sound of your heart by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-18
5 times Cliff Marlow realized something had changed with Ilya Rozanov leading up to his transfer to Ottawa + 1 (what he decided to do about it)
or: canon compliant but slightly canon divergent, set in between the events of Heated Rivalry and The Long Game
or: Cliff Marlow's perspective of Ilya's last season in Boston while him and Shane are boyfriends
or: Cliff Marlow is not the sharpest tool in the shed, but he's a loyal fucking friend
- Part 1 of the cliff chronicles
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 13,474
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84745146
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Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.
Except, well. Then there are zombies.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 95,670
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84542866