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  1. Love, Vodka, or the Sea by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-08-01

    Recovery isn't linear.
    Knowing this, and believing it, are two different things.

    Shane moves to Ottawa, ready to finally spend time with his soulmate, properly. Maybe the excitement is why he doesn't always notice.

    Ilya wins the Cup with Shane at his side, but it doesn't matter as much as it should have. Not when his body hurts and his mind is fragile and he feels one moment away from collapse.

    Timeline goes back and forth, but we start off one year after the events of the previous story.
    In the end, everything will be okay.

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  2. His Majesty, Shane Fucking Hollander by

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    2026-07-30

    "You signed with the LA Kings?" she demanded. "What were you thinking? You know the plan. We'd go to the draft, get first pick, and go to Montreal."

    "What are you even talking about?" Shane shot back. "If I got first pick, I'd go to Boston, not Montreal. And I don't even want to go to Montreal."

    "Why?" Mom asked immediately. "They're one of the best teams in the league. One of the Original Six."

    Something inside him snapped, and before he even realized it, he switched to Japanese.

    "I don't know," he said, his voice tight. "Maybe because they're full of racists and homophobes. Do you even understand what I'm saying? Or have you become so white you forgot your own language?"

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  3. In Case of Emergency by

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    2026-07-28

    If you are reading this, it means that Danny is following my emergency plan that we practiced. I’m not safe and neither is he. Please, I beg you, take him to his grandparents at this address. Yuna and David Hollander 2242 Grandview Ottawa, Ontario If I ever get the chance, I will repay you. Please tell him I love him. My parents too. And if you could tell them I’m sorry. ~Shane

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    AO3:
    #86122586

  4. I'll move, just hold my hand by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-07-26

    After Rose helps Shane realize his sexuality, he decides he needs to come out to the important people in his life. He's not ready to be out publicly, but he needs friends in his corner.

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  5. Angry Kitten by

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    2026-07-23

    "If you need a cat, and you deserve a cat, the universe will make sure that a cat finds you. That's the Cat Distribution System at work," the woman explains.

    "But I don't need a cat," Shane says, baffled.

    "Are you sure?" the bearded guy says, looking down at the box, where Shane is still stroking the kitten's head.

    "Yes?" Shane says, frowning as the kitten rubs its small, bewhiskered cheek against his finger.

    Shane finds a stray kitten; Ilya not so slowly loses his mind.

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  6. The Long Road of Lies Ends with Truth by

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    2026-07-14

    Every time your soulmate lies, their words are written on you.

    Shane lies more than he's ever done, and Ilya lies less than he's ever done.

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  7. infiltrator of hearts by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-07-09

    Ilya Rozanov shocked the Hockey world when it was announced that he signed with the Ottawa Centaurs.
    And now he doesn't just have to navigate a new team, but also living in a new country; very far away from basically everyone.

    The Centaurs learn that there is more to their new teammate, more to his repuation.
    Quickly they warm up to him and give him the family that he needs.

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    AO3:
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  8. Under One Roof by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-07-07

    At 35, Ilya's life could not be going worse frankly. His best friend is asking for a divorce, he has a boring job and his boring co worker pities him enough to invite him to spend a few weeks with him and his family on their annual vacation to their summer cottage. And he's so pathetically lonely he accepts.

    At 22, Shane has his whole life ahead of him. He's the captain of his university's hockey team, he's suspected to be the first draft pick in the MLH and he's able to maintain a 4.0 GPA on top of all that. His lack of a social life doesn't really bother him, he'll have time to date once he's achieved his life long dream. He's sure a girl will come along eventually.

    OR Ilya is Shane's dad's hot co worker who ends up at the cottage one summer.

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    2 versions
    AO3:
    #81170306

  9. Clarity by

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    2026-06-27

    Shane Hollander expected a lot out of the combine before the 2009 NHL draft: meeting the competition, impressing possible future teams and ultimately securing his spot in the NHL.

    What he didn't expect was 50 questions that were about to change his whole damn life.

    Or: How an autism diagnosis, a therapist and something magical called communication rebuild the whole trajectory of the Hollander/Rozanov saga bit by bit.

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  10. Lean on me not by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-06-26

    “Honestly, dude, you’re fucking handling this like a champ.”
    He’s not. He’s handling it the way he has to, the only way there is to handle it. “Well, I am champ, so.”
    Marlow chuckles.
    He sounds like he’s about to say something else heartfelt and misinformed, so Ilya flicks on the radio.
    --
    Ilya gets outed fall 2014. Objectively it's good for gay hockey but it sure doesn't feel like it.

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  11. i'm not a violent dog by

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    2026-06-25

    Nobody moves for a moment as Shane stares the woman down, and he’s seconds away from sawing the damn thing off himself, when the woman nods to the men surrounding the hybrid. And then there’s a flurry of movement, a clicking sound and then the men stand back to reveal Ilya in his bare faced glory, unobstructed by the muzzle.

    Shane takes him in, inhaling softly at the sharp cheekbones, the moles dusted over his face, the pillowy lips that are set in a firm, displeased line. Shane wonders how big his fangs are. If he was a fighter, they must have been sharpened regularly.

    Shane doesn’t want to think about the damage this wall of a hybrid had inflicted on others, the damage he could inflict on Shane. The hybrid stares at him, expression hard to determine but the intensity of it has Shane holding back a shiver. He’s staring at Shane like he can see every thought inside of him, calculating. As if they were on opposing sides of a ring, ready for the bell to chime and for Ilya to go in for the kill.

    Shane gets roped into fostering a troublesome hybrid with a bad track record. Except what begins as a cordial arrangement turns into something much more complicated.

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  12. what is it that wise men say? (only fools rush in) by

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    2026-06-25

    JJ: I saw my teammate's partner kissing someone else in a bookstore in vermont!
    JJ: assemble the troops!
    Shane (knows): oh no.

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  13. Miracles Happen All The Time by

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    2026-06-20

    Hayden ran up, grabbed his hand and said in his dad-of-a-kid-having-a-meltdown voice “Hey, hey, it’s going to be okay Shane. They’re going to take good care of you. That appendix is going to come right out and you’ll be back in no time.” Shane’s teary eyes widened and then narrowed. “What?” he gasped out between shallow breaths. “Fuckin' hell, I told him not to say that.” the doctor muttered. “What do you mean? It’s not his appendix? What’s going on?” “Hollander is in labor and the baby is coming very soon, so Pike please let the EMT’s load him up. He’s going to Montreal General. We called his parents and they’re on their way.” ______________________________ Shane Hollander had been under a lot of stress lately, coming out to his team, supporting his secret boyfriend, ect. So something may have slipped through the cracks and was now going to make itself known right here on the ice of this Ottawa vs. Montreal game.

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  14. Diversion by

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    2026-06-18

    Ilya is married. He is married to Shane and has Shane in their bed and their house every day. He has Shane as a part of his life more fully than he ever has. People know about them. He holds Shane's hand in the grocery store without Shane pulling away. They are on the same team, getting ready to share the ice for a whole season.

    Ilya has everything he'd been longing for over the past four years. Maybe longer. Probably longer.

    Ilya has a hole in his chest. The edges push aside his heart and lungs, digging up under his ribs so everything feels tight and cramped while the core of his being vacillates between aching and emptiness.

    In which Ilya collects pills, distracts Shane, and has a great time doing it.

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  15. If Heaven do Exist by

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    2026-06-16

    What if the Tuna Meltdown ended differently?

    What if Ilya's fear won?
    What if Ilya was the one who panicked and walked away? Before Shane could even call him his. A single step backward became a thousand miles between them.
    Shane was left standing and waiting for 3,650 sunrises, 120 months of silence.

    For 10 years of waiting.

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    2 versions
    AO3:
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  16. Sea Lion Woman by

    Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
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    2026-06-15

    There was a burst of static, a gusty sigh. "Shanushka, you have the biggest 'bottom eyes' I have ever seen."

    "That's not a thing."

    "It is absolutely a thing, and that thing is you," she cackled, and he hung up the phone, ears so hot they should have been smoking.

    --

    Or, Shane meets Svetlana first, and it changes everything and nothing.

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  17. (Oh I believe in) Yesterday by

    Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
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    2026-06-11

    Time loops are just a fact of life to Wyatt, insane as that sounds. He’ll happily settle in for a repeat day every couple of weeks. Chances are he’ll wake up tomorrow morning and go to regularly scheduled practice. A teammate probably pissed off their wife, which is an easily fixed problem.

    Or, the Wyatt-Hayes-centric-time-loop-Boxing-Day-fight-fix-it-fic

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  18. No Longer Bracing by

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    2026-06-08

    After becoming a Boston Raider, Shane was still bracing, waiting for something to go wrong.
    Eventually, however, he realizes he doesn’t have to.
    Ilya has some feelings about it too.

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  19. Return to Moscow by

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    2026-06-06

    Shane joins Ilya on a quick trip to Moscow, which soon transforms into a nightmare. Ilya is arrested and targeted so harshly that he's not sure Russia will let him go this time.
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    Shane witnesses Ilya's family.
    Alexei and Ilya's relationship is explored.
    Yuna flies to Russia.
    Lots of Svetlana.
    Healing journey fluff afterwards.

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  20. The Great Pretender by

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    2026-06-02

    Ilya Rozanov is in love, closeted, catastrophically lonely, and apparently incapable of referring to Shane Hollander in present tense. The Centaurs come to a- given the circumstances- reasonable conclusion. Or: Five times the Centaurs thought Ilya Rozanov was mourning his dead wife, and the one time they discovered his wife was actually Shane Hollander. Shane, for the record, is alive and really confused.

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