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If Nikolai Medvedev thought of Moscow, he thought of the street corner where he had kissed his husband for the first time, and the lecture theatre where they had met, and the coffee shop where they hadn’t dared to hold hands but had, surreptitiously, pressed their feet together under the table. If Nikolai thought of Moscow, sometimes he thought of his sister, but in the distant way that felt like thinking of a stranger. He hadn’t heard from her in decades - she’d be grown now, and her kids would be grown now. He hoped she was happy and resolved to think no more of her. Then, Ilya Rozanov announces the Irina Foundation.
or - Irina had a brother. Ilya has an uncle, and he’s living stateside.
- Part 7 of AUgust 2026
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give me no sympathy (it's the mercy I can't take) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-08-01
When the MLH announces all games are cancelled for the rest of the evening, Shane Hollander knows something is weirdly wrong. There's no precedent for it in league history. A string of messages from Ilya and a phone call from his mother confirm the worst: something has happened, and he doesn't know what.
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The Centaurs plane crash is serious. In the aftermath, life changes for Ilya completely, and Shane has to learn how he fits in.- Language:
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- #81762981
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Ilya's life is already at a low ebb, having chased Shane Hollander out of his house and into the arms of American's sweetheart, Rose Landry. Things get even worse when his former coach dies, and a secret Ilya has been avoiding for over a decade is suddenly shockingly, horribly public.
Or,
"You heard that Lipovsky died?"
Lipovsky. The name has the usual deadening effect on Ilya's emotions. He can feel his face going blank as everything drains from him until he's as empty as a bathtub with the plug pulled out. "Yes, of course."
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A video is posted to Twitter showing Ilya Rozanov having sex with a man.
It isn't Shane Hollander.
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- #80400971
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Shane was the first omega ever drafted into the NHL. His designation usually considered only good for two things: breeding and mating — and most people didn’t even think male omegas were worthy of the latter. He had a lot to prove. And he really couldn’t afford distractions. Especially when those distractions came in the form of a cocky Russian alpha.
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- #86632731
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It’s Kind of a Funny Story by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-07-17
His stomach takes a sharp, screeching left. His heart stalls and then shifts into gear, zero to 180, every tired tract of him seizing and squealing to go, run, leave.
“Hey, I found him,” Tony says, finishing a conversation Ilya wasn’t in, easy like all conversations without Ilya are. Easy like the world isn’t ending. Like Ilya isn’t standing there, wishing every time he tried to self-destruct or kill himself had worked.
Greasy black hair. Sallow freckled skin. A turned head and horror-widened eyes taking in the big bad monster who finally arrived onscreen.
“Shane, Ilya; Ilya, Shane,” Tony says, totally oblivious. “You both like hockey, right? So that’s something in common. I’ve got to take lunch, but I’ll check in on you both before my shift is over.”
Nobody knows if Ilya Rozanov tried to kill himself before the draft. Nobody sane goes first overall. And nobody knows if Shane Hollander is going to survive another mediocre season with the Boston Raiders.
Isn’t it funny how a single nick in the ice can change the entire game?
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a white blank page and a swelling rage by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-07-16
He shouldn't—he's not supposed to call her that. He's seventeen. He's an adult. Mama is for children, for people who are idiots and emotional, for the soft and tender. Alexei is not soft. He is not tender.
He cannot be.
He knew something was happening, had felt the hum of earth under his feet, the rustle of warning in the birdsong of the orenda of the world. Moscow sings, Mama has—had—always said. Open ears will hear the truth of the world if only one will listen.
Still. He had ignored it.
OR: Alexei Rozanov grows up in a home that becomes a grave.
- Part 31 of heated rivalry masterlist
- Part 8 of ghostly ghouls get game
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Ilya had thought it was dumb, when Galina suggested it. A code word for when his mental health was bad—he and Shane didn’t even have a code word for sex, and Ilya was regularly tying Shane to the bed and slapping his ass until it was as red as a tomato.
“Is there a reason you’re calling me?” Shane asks now, voice echoey over the phone. “Or is this part of your strategy to win our argument?”
Ilya swallows hard. “Constantinople,” he says.
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Or: Ilya goes through a rough patch.
- Part 27 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
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Mr. [Insert Here] (means I love you) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-07-11
Shane Hollander is the (lonely) golden boy of hockey, trying to decide what's best for his future.
Ilya Rozanov is a (lonely) grad student and part-time waiter, having left the hockey world due to injury and Russia for his own sanity.They meet in New York, and fall in love.
- Part 1 of Mr. [Insert Here]
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One Day (It Had To Happen) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-07-08
Yuna's breath caught. "What did you say, baby?"
"Please." Shane's forehead was still pressed to his knee. "Please, please, please—"
Hayden shifted closer. "Please what? Tell me what you need, Shane.”
Then, so faint that all three of them had to lean in just to catch it. "...I need him.”
Yuna's hand found David's. "Who, sweetheart? Who do you need?"
“Ilya."
Or: It's been a month since the tuna melts. Shane's been getting closer to breaking every day, until he finally does, in front of his parents and the Pikes. In the middle of the panic, he blurts out the only thing he needs: Ilya. So they call him.
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His body did this chore for him - taking a beating, painfully building muscles - and in reward he got his father’s approval. In much lesser reward he also got his mama’s worry, which, while he loved her care, he wished she would worry less. Wished she could see that he knew the way the world worked and he could fit into it. Wished she would not remind him that she loved her gentle Ilyushenka and that he did not need to hide, not from her.
Ilya Rozanov vs his body :)
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- #87289101
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the comfort of a cross by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-24
Glimpses of Ilya's life told through a golden cross stolen off a lifeless body.
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Diversion by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-06-18
Ilya is married. He is married to Shane and has Shane in their bed and their house every day. He has Shane as a part of his life more fully than he ever has. People know about them. He holds Shane's hand in the grocery store without Shane pulling away. They are on the same team, getting ready to share the ice for a whole season.
Ilya has everything he'd been longing for over the past four years. Maybe longer. Probably longer.
Ilya has a hole in his chest. The edges push aside his heart and lungs, digging up under his ribs so everything feels tight and cramped while the core of his being vacillates between aching and emptiness.
In which Ilya collects pills, distracts Shane, and has a great time doing it.
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I'll meet you at the cottage by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-17
“Hi Milana,” he murmured, voice gentle. “I’m Ilya, your father’s brother. Did your mama tell you I was coming over?”
Milana nodded and pulled her bottom lip into her mouth, gaze contemplative as Ilya held out a hand to her. He didn’t touch her, didn’t broach the barrier of the doorframe, just held his palm out, a gesture of vulnerability, exposing soft skin. When he’d been a child, listening out for the sound of his father’s footfalls down the hall, trying to guess at what mood the man was in that day, if today was a day he would likely be hit, those gestures of vulnerability–upturned palms, tears on cheeks–had been the only thing he’d trusted. The wounded animal in his sternum reaching out for comfort, seeking safety in the fragility of others. Proof that he wasn’t the weakest one.
Or: After spending Christmas with the Hollanders Ilya realises he has unfinished business in Moscow; namely, saying goodbye to his mother's grave and recovering the pieces of his history. Before meeting Shane at the cottage for their second summer together - and before upending his life and moving to another country once again - Ilya decides to return to his home city and attempt to lay his past to rest.
- Part 5 of The Boston Year
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When Ilya's father finds out that Ilya has been sleeping with Sasha, his coach's son, Grigori kicks Ilya out of the house and tells him never to return. Injured and alone with nowhere to go, Ilya reaches out to his childhood friend Svetlana and her father, Sergei. As a retired MLH star and permanent resident of the US, Sergei Vetrov is able to help Ilya seek asylum while he waits for the draft. However, the story behind Ilya's abrupt departure from Russia is leaked just weeks before the MLH draft is scheduled to be held, and the repercussions will change the direction of Ilya's future in the MLH forever...
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to protect my infancy by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-06-17
Hayden Pike's mother left when he was seven. She didn't come back. This, really, was not important, because Hayden built a family and a life and was happy - until it was important, when Laura Newfield (formerly Pike) reached out with a letter and an address. For Hayden, the question was whether whatever his mom had to say to him after all this time could tell him something about the parts of himself that he didn't quite understand and had never wanted to understand. How this ended up with him and Ilya Rozanov on the road to find these answers together, he wasn't entirely sure.
or - Hayden goes on an odyssey of exploring his relationship with his mother, with Ilya as his guide.
- Part 1 of The Hayden Pike Cinematic Universe
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Seven years after Ilya Rozanov's plan to make a move on Shane Hollander failed, he goes on a cottage vacation with his secret boyfriend. After a violent argument scares him into running for his life, he finds himself on the other side of the lake and in Shane's backyard.
- Part 1 of Across the Lake
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they're singing, "happy birthday" you just wanna lay down and cry by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-16
“You were right earlier,” Ilya whispers, his voice rough, like he’s forgotten how to speak in the last two hours since saying goodbye to everyone at the shelter. “Thirty-five is a special birthday, but not just for the reasons you said.”
Or:
With no Cup game to play, Shane decides to throw Ilya a surprise 35th birthday. Unfortunately, Ilya has complex feelings about turning 35.
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- #86810857
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“Why am I here?” Shane asks, braver than he feels.
“Because you are very special, Shane. And it was time for me to bring you home.”
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Or, a kidnapping fic
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Shane joins Ilya on a quick trip to Moscow, which soon transforms into a nightmare. Ilya is arrested and targeted so harshly that he's not sure Russia will let him go this time.
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Shane witnesses Ilya's family.
Alexei and Ilya's relationship is explored.
Yuna flies to Russia.
Lots of Svetlana.
Healing journey fluff afterwards.- Language:
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- AO3:
- #78329636