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the toughest part is that we both know (what happened to you, why you’re out on your own) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-09-20
Ilya wasn’t trying to kill himself that night. Suicide is something that belongs to his mother- he’s just lazy, and he wishes Shane would stop making excuses for him.
Shane has everything under control. His body is a tool, the one that’s given him both his career and his relationship, and he wishes Ilya would stop prying into the way he maintains it.
or: Ilya learns a whole lot more about his mother, Shane remembers a whole lot more about his childhood, and they both get diagnosed.
- Part 3 of Merry Christmas, Please Don't Call
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- English
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- 66,519
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- 9/19
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- 1
- AO3:
- #79324761
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Who Do I Have To Fight, Rozanov? by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-09-06
Despite the *obvious* interest on both their parts (standing naked under a shower makes it hard to hide certain feelings) Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov don’t hook up after the CCM shoot. A few years later, when they’re both Captains of their respective teams, Ilya comes out as bisexual. Shane immediately makes his move to lock down the boy he’s had a crush on all this time, before it’s too late. After a surprise at a post-game press conference and a challenge from the Raiders, Shane has to convince Ilya he is serious about having a real relationship in front of professional hockey and the entire internet. Will it work? There’s only one way to find out!
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- English
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- 23,659
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- 5/5
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- 1
- AO3:
- #91849576
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Shane was the first omega ever drafted into the NHL. His designation usually considered only good for two things: breeding and mating — and most people didn’t even think male omegas were worthy of the latter. He had a lot to prove. And he really couldn’t afford distractions. Especially when those distractions came in the form of a cocky Russian alpha.
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- 12/12
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- AO3:
- #86632731
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Shane gets approximately ten minutes of feeling blissful and content after Ilya Rozanov leaves his apartment-
-and then he has to bolt to the bathroom to get ill with a violence he hasn’t experienced since he was still conditioning for the season as a rookie.
In the aftermath, he runs a cold washcloth over his face while swishing his mouth out and tries to convince himself that it had to have just been something he ate.
He wonders if he should text Rozanov and give him a warning, but having to send a, “Thanks for taking my virginity, by the way I just puked my guts up and you might have caught whatever this is from me” doesn’t really seem like it’s a very sexy follow-up text to get from someone. As a “congrats on getting fucked” present to himself in honor of the occasion, he decides he’ll chalk it up to the sudden release of nerves and only send the text if it lasts past the night.
(shane is EXTREMELY sensitive to nicotine) (the problem with this? he isn't actually aware of it and thus doesn't understand why fucking ilya rozanov sometimes makes him sick afterwards)
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- AO3:
- #89127991
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In 2000, Russia had 31,000 cases of HIV. In 2010, there were 530,000.
By fourteen, Ilya Rozanov is sleeping around Moscow. It's a complicated outlet, but he's good at two things: hockey and sex. At 16, he's diagnosed with HIV.
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- 4/4
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- 1
- AO3:
- #83807126
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Limitations of the Current Model by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-04-19
Shane Hollander has been eating the same way for eight years. He has a framework. It has a name, research behind it, years of evidence in his performance numbers. He made an appointment because he is a professional, and professionals address things when they become inefficiencies.
That is what he tells himself. He is very good at this, and ultimately Ilya is wrong. He does not have a problem.- Part 5 of A Formal Study of the Heart
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- English
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- AO3:
- #83383111
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the silence that remains by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-16
The guys had always chirped Hollander for being a bit of a mama's boy. Well. They aren't chirping anymore.
(I was thinking about how Shane would handle future business ventures if Yuna wasn't there/how the Irina foundation would work if Yuna wasn't there & how Ilya would try to help Shane through a pain he knows uniquely)
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- 5/5
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- 1
- AO3:
- #82566671
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You’ll go to heaven and I’ll go to hell in the meantime by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-03-30
After Vegas, Shane begins to give up on Ilya and looks for a new way to feel wanted.
Ilya, of course, finds out about this and locks in.
A small dose of jealousy and a bigger dose of communication add up to change the trajectory of their affair from 2014 onward.
- Part 1 of 2014 Remix
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- 29,141
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- 7/7
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- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #80275726
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Russians do not blush. Russians do not get sick. Ilya gets concussions. He gets stitches. He skates on cracked ribs and calls it fine. He does not get sick. Which is why, when he wakes up at three in the morning in the middle of June, shaking so hard his teeth knock together, his first instinct is irritation.
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- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #80142561
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mess by casdoms (moffwithhishead)
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-14
Fuck. He can’t do this now. He pinches his thigh in an effort to redirect his thoughts from spiraling, but it doesn’t help. The additional guilt of not wanting to make it about himself seems to tip him over the edge and - fucking, ugh.
- Part 6 of heated rivalry but shane is more audhd
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- #79529291
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Someone’s posted a shaky video from the stands, just behind the whole altercation. It’s close enough to catch the snarl on Rozanov’s face as he charges up the steps. He’s so pretty, Shane thinks faintly. The video starts too late to show what set him off, but it catches the tail end of what the man is yelling, the things he's saying about Shane, before pivoting to calling Rozanov a cunt and bitch and a pussy instead.
Rozanov drops his gloves for Shane. He wishes he could just be grateful, but it feels a little bit like the end of the world.
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- AO3:
- #77656981
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"Please text!" David and Yuna coming over for dinner after Shane and Ilya's visit. Ilya gets to know Shane's parents and realizes just how much he loves being a part of a family.
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- AO3:
- #77258216
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you know this moment, don’t you? (time is strangely calm now) by barnes_romzanov
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-25
It’s dark, and Ilya’s not quite sure where he is. His entire body is numb. His shoes are soaking wet from trudging lazily through the snow. His nose is running, and his lips are chapped. Selfishly, he wishes Shane would fuss over him now. Pull him close, whisper “I forgive you” even though he shouldn’t, because Ilya would never change, because something inside him- in his family line, in his soul- was broken. Ilya wondered how long ago it had clicked- when Shane had realized that Ilya wormed his way into this country and tricked the Hollanders into caring for him, then returned the favor by botching their language and leaving a trail of mess in his wake. He still can't help but wonder if that will be part of his punishment- being doomed to miss him in death, too. or: Ilya’s mostly been able to cope with the fact that he’ll never be able to articulate himself fully in this country- but he’s also never been good at talking about feelings in the first place. "I'm tired" is the best he's got. It definitely doesn't capture what's going on in his head, and Shane can't read minds.
- Part 1 of Merry Christmas, Please Don't Call
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- AO3:
- #76389551
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“Papa, what’s your job?”
Ilya opens his mouth. Closes it. He looks at Shane, who is suddenly very interested in his coffee.
“My job,” Ilya says slowly, “is to take care of you.”
“That’s not a job,” Wyatt says matter-of-factly. “That’s just being a papa.”
“Yes,” Ilya agrees. “It is.”
In September 2030, Ilya Rozanov is newly retired, newly restless, and learning the hard way that staying home with their three-year-old son is more exhausting than any playoff run. Shane Hollander is back on the ice, chasing another season while missing things he can’t get back.
After more than a decade together, Ilya and Shane must relearn the hows of their relationship—what comes after happily ever after.
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- en
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- ?/?
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- 1
- AO3:
- #76195111