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Reckless & Young by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-05
Ilya was used to hazing. He had been subjected to it, he had participated in it, and, as a captain, he had stood guard over the rookies and protected them from anything truly harmful. But if he had been asked, Ilya would have approved of this prank. He would have authorized it, given Cliff and Vicky his seal of approval, perhaps even helped orchestrate it.
Any other day, Ilya might have been happy to play along.
But, in perfect dramatic irony, it had not happened any other day. It had happened today. And, cherry on top, of course the rookie had to walk in when Shane was already freaking out about Ilya saying his name.
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A prank-gone-wrong leads to the Boston Bears finding out about Shane and Ilya’s relationship in 2016. The day Ilya first invited Shane into his house. Right after they say each other’s names for the first time. Fuck his life, honestly.
- Part 1 of lost in the haze
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 30,174
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 4 versions
- AO3:
- #81977316
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Please don't rein me in by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-04-04
He can see the silver car slowly start to back out of the spot next to Shane’s dumb practical British jeep and he runs, barefoot on the gravel, he doesn't think, he has no idea what he’s going to do, what his plan is, he just knows he needs to stop Shane's dad from leaving.
He clearly doesn't see him, but Ilya can hear the parking sensor go off inside the car as he throws himself around the side of it and up to the driver's side window, hands pressing on the glass and the door.
For a moment it's just Ilya's heavy breathing and a man behind a window looking at him like he's something to be scared of.
The car window rolls down.
"Please." Ilya finds himself saying, and he can tell it isn't what David was expecting to hear. "Don't leave."
OR: what if Ilya ran after David when he walked in on them in episode 6?
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 7,654
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82479656
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When You Call Me Baby I Hope I'm the Only One (ft. Boston Lily) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-04
“Have you talked to her about it?”
Shane shook his head but otherwise didn’t make a sound.
Hayden set his beer down and used the hand that held the beer to rub his face as if that would give him some extra clarity to the situation.
“Do you want it to be more? It’s ok to want more, you know? Maybe she wants the same.”
Shane shook his head again. “Maybe. Yes. I don’t know. But I can’t.” He felt so stupid not knowing his own thoughts. Everything was starting to feel closed in again. It was getting harder for him to breathe.
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Shane spirals after Rozanov calls him baby for the first time and gets love and support from the friend he knows he can count on. (And comes out on his own without needing Rose Landry.)
Set before the Tuna Melt Incident(™). Featuring a wise and mature Hayden, because he’s actually the one in a healthy, successful long-term relationship in canon.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,757
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82425956
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lean back, just like that by mysterious_ky
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-04-03
Shane Hollander has a laundry list of problems at any given time, and being a vampire (while keeping it a secret) is pretty consistently at the top of the list. His top problem right now, though? How much he really wants to sink his teeth into Ilya Rozanov, in every possible way.
- Part 1 of vampire bat
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 37,147
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78047046
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Agony! Beyond power of speech by Sourdough_and_Tears (Bread_and_Breakfast)
Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-03-31
After needing jaw surgery following a game injury, Shane receives a flirty message on his phone. Does the very handsome dental surgeon who took care of him want to know him better? Shane has to ask him. Reader, he was wrong about half of the story.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 38,464
- Chapters:
- 8/8
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79822841
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he turns off the big light by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-03-31
Ilya knows firsthand that the world isn’t comfortable. It’s loud, bright, demanding, a harsh place in direct opposition to everything he’s recently learned about autism.
Is it so wrong that he wants Shane to feel safe here? To carve out a space where, even if only for a few hours, he doesn’t have to grin and bear anything? He can just be?
Or: Ilya Rozanov has a lot of good ideas. Telling his fuck buddy that he should consider getting an autism diagnosis isn’t one of them.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 9,094
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82179171
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The Distance Between Us by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-30
Ilya Rozanov has spent ten years circling Shane Hollander. Ten years of hotel rooms and secret phone calls. Ten years of pretending he doesn't feel it, doesn't need it, doesn't wake up reaching for someone who's already gone. Ten years convincing himself he's not good enough. That he's not worth it.
Then a plane needs to make an emergency landing near Montreal, and Yuna Hollander is on it.
So when Shane calls him from a bathroom floor, unable to breathe, Ilya stops pretending.
After five hundred miles of frozen highway, three and a half hours of driving like a man possessed, a hospital waiting room full of people who have every reason to hate him, and a boy who looks at him like he's something worth keeping, Ilya may have learned a thing or two about what it means to be loved—and to let himself love freely.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 104,414
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #81207291
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A look at the year that Ilya still played for Boston, except they explicitly state their dom/sub relationship, and explore that dynamic (and kink) together.
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When they first started, it was by accident. Ilya followed Shane’s lead; he read his body and responded with his own. Shane liked to be on his knees for Ilya, and Ilya liked to keep him there.
The first time it went wrong. Shane thought it was his fault. It wasn’t.
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Now with 10k-word SMUTTY EPILOGUE
- Part 1 of Bellboy
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 63,639
- Chapters:
- 15/15
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #78253961
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The Knife You Turn Inside Yourself by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-28
They're soulmates. They're out to the world, for better or worse. Ilya is safe and learning to heal. Everything should be good.
And yet.SEQUAL to Safer in Chains than to be Free
- Part 2 of This is Love
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 30,679
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80973721
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can we just go home now by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-24
Marlow knows better than to push. Everyone’s got their own shit, especially on the road. But there’s only so many nights you can wake up to someone falling apart before it stops being something you can ignore.
// Ilya hasn’t seen his mother in over ten years. Lately, he sees her every night.
- Part 3 of hard conversations
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 9,128
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81787166
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Shane had told his manager, verbatim, that he “trusts her judgment” to pick the opener for his first ever world tour.
Her “judgment” shows up to soundcheck with a parking ticket in his hand and a crimson hickey on his neck. Her “judgment” is Russian DJ, Ilya Rozanov.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 57,347
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #81770686
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make the water your bones by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-22
After Ilya's plane crashes in the ocean, no one knows if the hockey star is alive or dead. Shane sets out to find him and reconcile their relationship.
***COMPLETE!***
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 59,873
- Chapters:
- 20/20
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80819946
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“I’m sorry,” Shane chokes, closing his eyes. Rozanov draws his hand, pulling Shane’s with it, to his face and wipes his cheeks.
“There is nothing to be sorry for, любовь моя, it is okay,” Rozanov murmurs, tugging at Shane’s hair again. Shane exhales, letting him clean his cheeks. “You got overwhelmed, yes? It happens.”
“I can’t be fucking normal,” Shane says quietly, whining, head falling back, pressing into Rozanov’s hand.
“No, if you were fucking normal, you would not be my Shane.”
// shane is a liar, and he's tired of it all. his life falls apart, and he finds that he doesn't actually mind.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 33,474
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81580056
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what hurts the most (is never your fault) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-20
Ilya swallows thickly and slowly drags his eyes up to meet Shane’s. “I hurt you. You are bleeding.”
Ilya’s body suddenly feels heavy. He knows it’s his fault. Nothing Shane says will convince him otherwise. Shane may have insisted that it was fine―that Ilya didn’t need to take the time opening him up like he usually did. He’d seemed eager for it too.
“Hey, it’s alright,” Shane says casually. “I’ll do laundry later. It’ll be okay.”
“I don’t care―” Ilya can’t help but say it harshly, “―about the fucking laundry. I care that I hurt you.”
- Part 5 of love-a-nov (hollanov one-shots)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 1,912
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80857951
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love in exile has nowhere to go by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-18
“We’ve made a trade,” Coach announces. “For Shane Hollander.”
It’s like the ground drops out from beneath Ilya, and his heart falls from his chest. It tumbles past rock bottom, down to the cavern that shattered open inside of him on that night five years ago. The night when Ilya walked away from Hollander for the last time.
He can’t breathe.
(Or: Shane doesn’t get hurt, they break up, and they don’t talk for five long years. Until Shane is traded to Ottawa.)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 22,904
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 4 versions
- AO3:
- #81445546
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Of all the florists in Boston by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-18
“Did Boston Lily send you all these flowers? Shane??” Hayden asks.
“Um,” Shane says helpfully.
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Or, Shane gets hurt in the Boston vs. Montreal game. Ilya crashes out and buys all the lilies in Boston for him.
No one knows about them.
Except for Ilya’s new florist, who never asked to get involved in dumb hockey boys and their messy drama. Also, Cliff is a good friend.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 6,856
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81442676
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The sound Shane makes now is not a whine or a whimper. It’s the sound of an omega. It’s the sound of an omega in distress.
“Did he just—” someone says from behind him.
“Shit, Marleau, did you just bitch Shane Hollander?”
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Shane gets hit hard enough to trigger a traumatic omegatisation, which sends an entire stadium of alphas into frenzy. Ilya needs to get him off the ice, away from the danger, and onto his knot.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 14,207
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #81001096
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Shane Hollander's PDA Agenda by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-17
It happens in an instant.
Over Ilya’s shoulder, Shane sees the doctor and Wiebe give each other a look, and in a sudden bout of impatient anxiety, Shane ends up saying the words that come to ruin everything.
“Don’t touch me.”
The effect is instantaneous. Ilya’s hands fly to his sides, and Shane gets a front row seat as Ilya’s heart breaks before his very eyes. Eyes dimming and lips trembling in slow, painful technicolor.
It causes Shane’s heart to break, too, and he vows, immediately, never to see such a look cross his husband’s face again.
OR Shane embarks on a mission to heal his husband’s heart, one PDA at a time.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 39,658
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #78297091
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- Part 3 of Heated on ice
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 8,503
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80607221
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Shane Hollander is the youngest Commander in ISS history; straight-backed, closeted, and so tightly on his own leash that seven months in orbit with Ilya Rozanov have not produced a single crack in his composure. Ilya Rozanov is the Russian cosmonaut who should have had his job, won’t stop bouncing a tennis ball off the walls, and is still looking for a fissure. Thankfully, a solar storm finds it for him. or: Near-death, zero gravity, and the wrong man’s hands in exactly the right places. A Cosmonaut!Ilya x Astronaut!Shane AU 🚀
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 50,348
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #80797406