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It was a Friday when the video dropped.
“What is happening?” He asked St Simon, who was holding his phone tight to his chest, his expression odd. “Someone has died?”
Across the room he could see Marlow moving slowly upright from where he had been doing floor stretches, his phone in his hand as well, his face pinched.
“It’s Hollander,” St Simon said.
The bottom of Ilya’s stomach fell out, closely followed by the rest of Ilya’s organs. His chest hurt so acutely that he thought he must be having a heart attack.
“Not dead,” St Simon added quickly, reaching out to grab Ilya’s shoulder when Ilya’s knees actually buckled. “Jesus, sorry. I should have - no it’s just -”
“Someone tell me what the fuck is going on,” Ilya snapped, “and everyone else shut up.”
Marlow reached him now, held his phone out to Ilya, open already to an article with a headline huge enough Ilya could easily make out the HOLLANDER blaring out of it even before his eyes focused and he took the phone from Marlow.
A video is posted online, for Shane it feels like a death sentence. For some parts of him, it is.
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- AO3:
- #88103846
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Things Will Turn Around by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-09-22
Shane fucks up his career, blocks his situationship, begins an ill-advised slut era, gets outed, traded, and forced to rebuild his life. It's kind of a worst case scenario.
Or: The consequences of Shane Hollander's slump.
[Posted as a full, completed fic with art for the Hollanov Big Bang ❤️]
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- English
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- 68,043
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- 8/8
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- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #87723541
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Mr. Facilities Tech by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-12
Ilya was barely back from the World Juniors and had barely met Shane Hollander when his hockey career was taken from him. He was so close to escaping everything in Russia, only to be caught by his brother, ruined by his father, and forced to marry Svetlana to escape.
Now he's finally on his own, with his shitty studio apartment, his shitty job as a facilities tech in the Raider's Stadium, and his overall shitty life. Nothing could get worse from here, and he has no reason to think it'll get better. Until he runs into Shane fucking Hollander while smoking behind a club, maybe he could get a second chance with the man he's been secretly crushing on for years?
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- AO3:
- #83603761
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While jerking off and thinking of each other, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov switch bodies. With a week before they meet for their first game of their second professional season, they've got no choice but to live each others' lives until then. But will seeing each other in person reverse whatever switched them?
Ilya plans to enjoy the admiration, while Shane is about to learn what it's like to be respected, but not loved. They both also find they're enjoying their predicament more than they should - and they've switched more than just appearances. Tastes and language skills remain, as do echoes of other memories.
Shane's about to learn there's more to the dickish Russian than an attitude and talent, and Ilya's about to learn that being the golden boy isn't all it's cracked up to be.
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MAIN STORY: 1-13 (complete)
MINI ARC (Birthday Suit): 14-17 (complete)
MINI ARC (Cottage Country): 18-20 (complete)
More stories in the continuity potentially to be added!
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A bodyswap fic that breaks some of the usual tropes of the genre and uses the swap to allow them to speedrun getting to know each other.- Language:
- English
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- 41,219
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- 20/20
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- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #78024226
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THIS IS WHO / HAD A CRUSH ON THE SOCIAL MEDIA MANAGER by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-06-08
There's another baby photo trend going around social media, and since the last one went over so well, Harris wants the team to try it. It's the one where they put a statement about an adult over a picture of them as a baby, like a cherubic little baby Ilya captioned "THIS IS WHO PUNCHED A REFEREE." But this time, the Centaurs staff are getting in on the action, and Harris shows his own version to the team as an example.
When Shane sees little tiny Harris, he's struck literally speechless. He's been hanging out with Harris since before he was officially a Centaur. How did he never recognize that the team's social media manager was his favorite teammate from junior skills clinics? How did he not realize, with the benefit of hindsight and also knowing his sexuality, that Harris was his biggest childhood crush?
(No angst, no cheating, no insecurity. It's all good times and fond memories here!)
- Part 3 of HR surprises/reveals
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- AO3:
- #86377466
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User Discretion is Advised by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-04-20
His throat felt thick and Scott coughed to hide the hitch in his breathing. "I’m not ashamed of who I am. I love Kip. I've won a Stanley Cup and made history as the first out MLH player. I think we could win the cup again this year, or at least make it through a couple rounds of the playoffs because our team is incredible. So fucking what I’m inconvenienced by showering last? It’s worth it."
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Being first means being palatable. Scott can be palatable.
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Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.
No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.
When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?
“I thought we could go through the fixtures and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”
“A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.
“It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.
“And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”
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- AO3:
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Shane had told his manager, verbatim, that he “trusts her judgment” to pick the opener for his first ever world tour.
Her “judgment” shows up to soundcheck with a parking ticket in his hand and a crimson hickey on his neck. Her “judgment” is Russian DJ, Ilya Rozanov.
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- AO3:
- #81770686
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Shane waits for Ilya’s arm to curl around his waist, for the familiar weight of his body to press in close and ground him again.
Except it never comes.
He was gone. Ilya left.
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- AO3:
- #77856791
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The Montreal Metros have been on a never before seen losing streak. Desperate, Shane Hollander cuts out anything in his life that could be causing the wins to slip away from them. There's just one vice he can't seem to get rid of. Or, Shane goes to Ilya's hotel room to break up with him after one too many losses. It doesn't exactly go to plan.
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- AO3:
- #77866086
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No Further Questions by pause_to_read
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-08
Shane has spent his entire career rising above it. After one dirty hit, one slur, and one question too many, he stops. A press conference becomes a confession—and a line is finally drawn.
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- AO3:
- #76307726
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bringing up svetlana was a low blow. he could admit that. but the mention of rose landry made his world drop away. or when ilya brings up marrying svetlana, shane brings up rose.
- Part 2 of and i could marry rose landry
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A sudden ugly thrill runs through his body at the thought. He can give this to him. No one fucking else can. Not his lovely girlfriend. She can’t give this to him. Ilya can. Ilya can be whatever he needs. Whenever he needs it. ——— Shane and Ilya find comfort in each other.
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Such a Pretty Crier by Bruja_oscura
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-29
Shane is still learning that he doesn't have to be perfect in his own relationship. Ilya is still learning the rules of Shane's bad days. So when Shane tries to push him away after a crushing loss, it leads to a tense argument. But ten years of rivalry are no match for Shane’s tears; the second he starts to cry, Ilya folds like a house of cards. Or: Shane tries to starve himself as punishment for losing, Ilya tries to feed him, and it turns into a very soft night of pampering because Ilya is legally incapable of staying angry at a crying Shane.
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“Game is over,” he says. “You won. I lost. I was annoying. Normal.” “That’s not—” Shane starts, then stops, because he actually doesn't know how to finish that thought without sounding like an idiot. His jaw works, teeth grinding together. That's not what I meant. That's not the point. You said I was boring and you were right and I need you to say it again so I know where I stand, so I know what you think of me, so I can stop waiting for the other shoe to drop. He settles for: “You were kind of an asshole.”
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- AO3:
- #76057471
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thirteen hours and thirty minutes by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-21
Ilya is sitting on the bench now, sweat dripping down his face, body cold, watching his team vie for the puck in front of him. The image of Shane’s inert body refuses to leave his mind. Even when he closes his eyes, it’s there. Nothing is working. He hasn’t scored. Because he can’t. Because all he can see is Shane. Curled up. Eyes closed. Looking small and vulnerable and—
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- AO3:
- #76120286
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light me like a cigarette by probsnothawkeye
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-13
Go on and light me like a cigarette / even if it might be something you'll regret / You've got me now, now, now / Swallow me down, down, down down or The Tuna Melt Scene, revised
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- AO3:
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