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Five years married and settled, Shane and Ilya want for nothing. Except, perhaps, for the impossible.
- Language:
- English
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- 13,991
- Chapters:
- 3/7
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #94561886
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Everything I Never Lived by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-10-24
Shane Hollander has spent his whole career being told he and Ilya Rozanov hate each other. He's inclined to agree, right up until a hit in his rookie season puts him in a hospital bed and eleven years of a life he never had unspool behind his eyes: secret hotel rooms, a wedding, kids, a fight that nearly ended them, a crash that brought them back. He wakes up to a body that aches for a husband who was never real, and a rival standing at the end of his bed who has no idea what he means to him.
Or: Shane wakes up from a coma grieving a marriage that never happened, and decides the only way through it is to go build the real thing from scratch.- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 200,822
- Chapters:
- 28/28
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #93378901
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Someone’s been calling Ilya’s name for a while now, but Ilya’s got the viewfinder to his eye, the whole world shrunk down to that single square of light, and he hates being interrupted when he’s shooting.
Ilya is a professional photographer; Shane is a journalist, working for a rival newspaper.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 119,974
- Chapters:
- 10/10
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #91279731
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At some point between getting home and finding the mess in the kitchen, Shane calls the police and his parents in quick succession.
He doesn’t remember those phone calls at all. Blocked them from his memory the second they were over—doesn’t know what he said, what his mother replied—what the operator on the other end of the line asked him.
The only proof he has of ever placing the calls is the record of them in his phone—neatly stacked over-on-another. 911 right below Mom.
Below that, a series of phone calls to Ilya (husband), some barely even twenty seconds long, just short little I love you’s and what juice did you say you wanted from the store’s. Shane actually has to scroll for a while before he finds any other number in his call log.
If Shane were to add all of that data into an excel sheet he’d have proof that Ilya took up about 90% of his call records and yet it doesn’t feel like enough.
or the Hollywood amnesia + presumed dead fic nobody asked for- Part 3 of my moon my man
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 15,812
- Chapters:
- 4/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #83300961
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“Why the fuck do you care what happens to Rozanov?”
Shane doesn’t answer.
He’s already running for the Raiders’ locker room.
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Or, Ilya has a panic attack in the Raiders' locker room after getting a phone call from his brother telling him about his father’s death.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 87,938
- Chapters:
- 25/25
- Files:
- 4 versions
- AO3:
- #81136361
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The Hollanov Conspiracy by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-10-14
Scott Hunter is added to a group chat after coming out. It's not like anything he expected.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 13,295
- Chapters:
- 8/8
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79961496
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Don’t Let the Sun Go by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-10-11
After dying in a plane crash in 2021, Ilya wakes up in a nondescript hotel room, identical to hundreds he has stayed in during his decade-long NHL career. Is he in Hell? Mama is not here. Neither is Shane.
But then the phone rings; a representative from CCM wants to confirm Ilya will be on time to his photo shoot with Shane Hollander.
On the way to the rink, Ilya, who learned from the very best, makes a multi-step plan:
1. Texting
2. No sleeping around
3. Friends
4. First names
5. BoyfriendsIlya made Shane fall in love with him once. He can do it again.
He has to.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 64,615
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #93742091
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Shane has found a place where he cannot be hurt. There is little enough in it, but what there is is kind: warm lights, a quiet that answers to him, and, in time, a ghost who remembers stolen plums and a husband who waited up for him with the lamps lit.
Shane remembers the husband differently. He listens anyway.
- Part 6 of Set in Heated Rivalry-verse
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 12,049
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #93575251
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every minute and every hour, i miss you by justhockey
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-09-29
The scream that rips its way out of Shane’s chest is feral, inhuman. A wretched, mournful wail being torn from his body by the bony hands of grief. He collapses to his knees and sobs, anguish pouring out of him like a tidal wave. Suddenly there are arms around him, but they’re not the right ones. Not Ilya. Or, Ilya’s plane goes down.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,218
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #93523206
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“Do you think I could get into the dressing room hallway?” Ilya asked.
The photographer cocked their head, “Why?”
“I feel that doesn’t matter to you.”
Ilya could feel his stomach sinking. How was he supposed to get to Shane Hollander if he never stayed still? “Do you know when he will be done with everything?” When the photographer gave him a confused and irritated look, he reached for his wallet. “Better yet, do you have his phone number?”OR
The model AU inspired by all the stunning runway looks and the love that, in every universe, Ilya has for Shane Hollander.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 99,782
- Chapters:
- 11/11
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #92178606
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This is the story about the normal every day people who found out about Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov long before the world was told. This is the story of how the relationship between Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov changed their lives. This is the story of the people who knew, protected, and supported Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov... some for almost for thirteen years.
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Shane and Ilya were actually horrible at keeping their relationship a secret.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 125,324
- Chapters:
- 24/24
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #92545581
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Ilya's been taking care of himself for so long, and not always doing a very good job of it. It would be understandable, Ilya thinks, if Shane didn’t really know how to do it yet. Not when they’re only a month into being married and three months into being honest and less than a year since that hotel room in Tampa, where Shane had climbed into his lap and let Ilya cry into his shoulder and held him like no one had held Ilya since he was very small.
- Part 4 of all the stars aligned
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 26,879
- Chapters:
- 3/4
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #92172556
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Bright Particular Star by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-09-02
1987. New York Admirals Captain Scott Hunter is fifteen seasons deep into the kind of hockey career most players can only dream of and keeping one hell of a secret. He navigates his life in NYC, intimately aware at every turn that a single photograph or a trace of a rumor could end his livelihood.
Kip Grady has never known how to hide. A grad student and early organizer for ACT UP, he spends his days marching through the Village and organizing mutual aid, fighting for a queer community battling for its life against a devastating epidemic. When their paths cross, Scott is forced to consider the limits of his carefully constructed closet and decide if he is finally ready to stand in the light.
OR: Scott and Kip meet in 80s NYC at the height of the AIDS crisis.
Additional Spoilers HereI promise that these characters do not, at any point, contract HIV: Scott, Kip, Ilya, and Shane.
Scott and Kip, as well as Shane and Ilya, will all have the happiest ending possible given the constraints of the time period.
- Part 2 of Defective
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 55,740
- Chapters:
- 4/8
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #87891491
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disappearing act by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-09-01
“Ilya?” his voice is thick and heavy on his tongue. He's so agonizingly beautiful, his face tender and red from the impact of his helmet hitting the ice moments before. “I’m okay,” he insists, blinking slowly.
And then, starting at his fingertips, Shane starts to fade away, just like St-Simon and Marlow and Pike moments before. Eyes soft, Shane gazes at Ilya, not seeming to realize what’s happening at all. And Ilya, overcome with terror, can only watch as Shane’s whole being simply disintegrates into thin air.
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Half the universe is snapped out of existence, including Shane.
Ilya struggles to cope.Or, a character study on grief, ending with reunion.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 31,228
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #91546936
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"Grief is… is kind of like sadness," he says tentatively. "But it is different."
They look up at him, and he suddenly hates himself for no particular reason, and he hates his father, and he hates his brother, and he hates his mother, and he hates his mother's God.
// ilya and grief.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 23,340
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #90899026
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summer cicadas sing by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-14
Just over four years after a zombie virus destroys the world as he knows it, twenty-five year old Ilya Rozanov is so rattled by trauma and grief that even when he's found a community to call home, he keeps everyone at an arm’s length. That is, until Shane Hollander shows up looking like death itself.
A story about the end of the world, and how to pick up the pieces.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 33,040
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #90133906
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Fire on Fire by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-12
In Vegas, after the MLH awards, Shane asks to go bare and Ilya goes along with it. Afterwards, Shane, who had realized how he felt about Ilya during those 6 months of radio silence, tries to tell Ilya. Ilya, scared and caught off guard, breaks Shane's heart and tells him to leave.
A month later, Shane finds out he's pregnant. He decides to keep it. He tells the Voyageurs. It goes how you'd expect. They drop him. But he has his baby. While he focuses on keeping his body healthy for the baby, Yuna focuses on finding a team that will take him and give him what he wants for the end of the pregnancy. Only one team will - The Boston Bears.
Things are looking up for Shane. Until he loses everything...again. His world falls apart in the span of a few hours. Again. His mind can't take it and he breaks.
A little over a year after Ilya broke Shane's heart, Shane starts a new season as a newly minted Boston Bear. Will he be able to play with the man that broke his heart and act like nothing happened? Will Ilya?
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 69,369
- Chapters:
- 30/30
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #87588446
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Ilya Rozanov was starting over. His mother was long dead, his father had finally passed, and his brother didn’t want him around anymore. Moscow was nothing but dead bodies and fading memories and scars that just wouldn’t heal.
Enter Shane Hollander.
*Laceration, from Ilya’s POV- Part 2 of Laceration
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 59,715
- Chapters:
- 7/7
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #90234501
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Heal Deal by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-07-30
It’s his Person.
Missed you missed you missed you, he tries to convey with no mouth and no voice and all his heart. He’s reborn the way he died; the name of his Person nestled safe against his tongue.
“Ilya,” Shane gasps, and his heart beats again.
Shane Hollander dies the second Ilya Rozanov’s plane goes down. It just takes a while for his body to catch up.
Thankfully, death isn't permanent — for either of them. Their tangled souls have been given a second chance at life, and they’re going to act like it. Which means never separating again. Ever.
After all, death can’t part them. Why should hockey?
(Shane's POV of BOGO, can be read as a standalone.)
- Part 2 of Double Dipping
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 18,922
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #89531501
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BOGO by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-07-22
A fiery plane crash claims Ilya Rozanov’s life in January. By April, Shane Hollander is dead of a broken heart. The truth dies with them.
Yuna Hollander will do anything to get her son back, including hiring a shady shaman to resurrect him. There’s just one complication — Shane isn’t coming back alone.
Now there are codependent (not)zombies in her house wearing Ilya and Shane’s faces. When they inexplicably act more like a married couple than the bitter rivals she expected, Yuna is convinced that they came back wrong.
It’s easier than admitting she never understood them from the start.
- Part 1 of Double Dipping
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 41,605
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #87599691