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  1. you're ripped at every edge but you're a masterpiece by

    Heated Rivalry (TV)
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    2026-09-28

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    8,448
    Chapters:
    4/?
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #93085141

  2. Poster Boy by

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    2026-09-27

    “Do you think I could get into the dressing room hallway?” Ilya asked.
    The photographer cocked their head, “Why?”
    “I feel that doesn’t matter to you.”
    Ilya could feel his stomach sinking. How was he supposed to get to Shane Hollander if he never stayed still? “Do you know when he will be done with everything?” When the photographer gave him a confused and irritated look, he reached for his wallet. “Better yet, do you have his phone number?”

    OR

    The model AU inspired by all the stunning runway looks and the love that, in every universe, Ilya has for Shane Hollander.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    99,782
    Chapters:
    11/11
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #92178606

  3. In His Skates by

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    2026-07-14

    While jerking off and thinking of each other, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov switch bodies. With a week before they meet for their first game of their second professional season, they've got no choice but to live each others' lives until then. But will seeing each other in person reverse whatever switched them?

    Ilya plans to enjoy the admiration, while Shane is about to learn what it's like to be respected, but not loved. They both also find they're enjoying their predicament more than they should - and they've switched more than just appearances. Tastes and language skills remain, as do echoes of other memories.

    Shane's about to learn there's more to the dickish Russian than an attitude and talent, and Ilya's about to learn that being the golden boy isn't all it's cracked up to be.

    --
    MAIN STORY: 1-13 (complete)
    MINI ARC (Birthday Suit): 14-17 (complete)
    MINI ARC (Cottage Country): 18-20 (complete)
    More stories in the continuity potentially to be added!
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    A bodyswap fic that breaks some of the usual tropes of the genre and uses the swap to allow them to speedrun getting to know each other.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    41,219
    Chapters:
    20/20
    Files:
    3 versions
    AO3:
    #78024226

  4. Crash Landing by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-04-28

    The Centaurs had already been through one plane emergency. What are the chances of them being in another?

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    25,785
    Chapters:
    5/5
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #80123401

  5. No Turning Back by

    Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
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    2026-03-21

    Ilya can hear the squeak of wheels on linoleum floor, feel his body being moved along a hallway. Maybe the light dims in front of his eyelids when he’s pushed into an elevator. Maybe he’s just falling asleep.
    How is he supposed to tell?
    “Wait; is he okay?”
    Ilya knows that voice, hears the panic in it.
    “Please; how is he? Where are you taking him?”
    Shane’s here? Why would Shane be here in the hospital?
    If he’s in the hospital, how badly is he injured?

    Ilya gets injured during the playoffs, upending all of his and Shane's plans.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    109,211
    Chapters:
    22/22
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #78731691

  6. mostly is plenty by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-02-05

    “I feel stupid,” Ilya admits, the words slipping out thin and brittle. “I should be able to do this.” Shane pauses for a fraction of a second, then resumes, gentler still. “I know you think that,” he says. “But right now, your job is to be here and let me help. That’s it. You’re doing great.” *ilya is stuck in a depressive episode and shane helps him through it*

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    4,488
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #78931026

  7. my heart has changed by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-01-06

    “You don’t have to.” Ilya whispers. “What?” “Love me. You don’t have to. To say it, you can move on, you can find someone better, you don’t have to.” he says. “I am. . . not good.” he settles on after trying to find the right words in his mind. *Alternate ending to episode 4*

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    6,617
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #77224741

  8. Always and Forever by

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    2026-01-03

    Shane’s autism makes love complicated—until Ilya makes it safe. Shane Hollander loves deeply—but quietly. Crowded rooms, public affection, and the constant noise of the world weigh on him in ways he struggles to explain, especially when standing beside someone as open and radiant as his husband. Shane’s autism shapes how he experiences love, touch, and connection, often leaving him trapped in his own head, convinced he isn’t enough. Ilya knows better. Through gentle control, unwavering patience, and fierce devotion, Ilya becomes Shane’s anchor—guiding him back into his body, his breath, and the safety of being loved exactly as he is. Across moments of vulnerability, intimacy, and raw honesty, Shane must learn to voice his fears and trust that his differences are not a burden, but something Ilya cherishes. This is a story about quiet love, consent spoken and unspoken, and two men choosing each other again and again—softly, fiercely, forever.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    8,465
    Chapters:
    4/4
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #77023166

  9. I’d fight anyone who’s mean to you by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2025-12-24

    Ilya Rozanov @rozan0v_off Almost fell asleep watching Shane Hollander play. Is the most depressing man I know. Even his chirps are polite. Maybe he wouldn’t be so boring if he weren’t best friends with his mom? What the hell, Rozanov? Shane grinds his teeth, desperate to keep his tears at bay. This is ridiculous. This isn’t even mean. Not really. Shane should consider himself lucky, really; Ilya is never usually this bad at trash-talking other players. So why is Shane even hurt? Perhaps it’s the fact that Ilya wrote something about him at all, and Shane only found out because Hayden sent him a screenshot of it. Or maybe it’s the fact that he used the word “boring”, which is an adjective that has been used to describe Shane so many times throughout his life that he’s come to loathe the very letters composing it. Or, Rozanov creates a fake Twitter account to defend Shane from his haters, and then overcorrects when some fangirls get suspicious about his identity.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    3,964
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #76226336

  10. i wanna know peace again, wanna be singin' a different song by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2025-12-11

    He thinks it cannot be healthy to be pacing the streets of Boston, an empty, hollow ache ricocheting up his spine. It does not make sense that he feels as though he is a bird caught in the mouth of a dog, the world appearing through tightly clenched, slobbering teeth. He is no fragile-boned creature, no docile lamb for any slaughter; he is the wolf on the prowl, the shadow that hunts from above. He is fear that haunts the world; he does not have it.

    OR: Ilya wants: home, Shane, freedom—it does not matter. It is all selfish in the end. He is sure he does not deserve it.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,953
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #75592531