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In This And Every Life (I'd Choose Us Every time) by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-04-15
Shane decides to give Ilya space. He’ll call when he’s ready. So Shane accepts an offer from one of his endorsements to fly to Washington ahead of his team for a promotional shoot and tries to be patient. When his plane goes down in the mountains, Ilya struggles to find hope and isn’t sure how he’ll live in a world without Shane in it.
- Part 1 of After All These Years
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 108,632
- Chapters:
- 20/20
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78337946
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A Danger to Yourself or Others by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-15
Galina stopped writing to look at Ilya. "Do you think he'd be willing to talk to you next time it happens, even if it's late?"
Ilya's stomach turned over. He didn't even want to consider it, but he knew the answer. "Yes. But he silences his phone at night."
"Most phones these days have an option to let certain numbers ring through, even on Do Not Disturb. Do you think he'd be open to setting that up for you?"
Imagining that conversation made Ilya nauseous. Yes, no fucking doubt, Shane would be open to it if Ilya explained the reason. "I'm not going to ask him to do that."
Set during The Long Game, an alternate version where the plane scene doesn't happen. Instead, there's this: a car crash, a therapist's duty to report, and an urgent reckoning with priorities.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 37,182
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #81233801
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Cinnamon Burn by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-04-14
Shane and Ilya work at Crowell and Associates Marketing Firm. They have never worked together because their work styles are completely incompatible. A project forces them to spend more time together and explore whether or not they can actually get along.
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Ilya is a little shit just because he wants Shane's attention, what happens when he finally gets it?
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 32,110
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81718116
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Spring, 2021. The Ottawa Centaurs are playoff-bound, Shane Hollander is suing the MLH for discrimination, and Ilya Rozanov wants the rookie that's sleeping with Hollander and stringing Luca Haas along off his f*cking hockey team. He's barely keeping it together as it is.
Meanwhile, the Boston Raiders are playing the long game: trading for Hayden Pike, making sure that if Hollander comes back to the league, they've got their bargaining chip in place. A month later, Pike would agree with them, as news outlets report Hollander's attachment to a player in the league with a familiar alias.
- Part 2 of Everything they Say
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 30,536
- Chapters:
- 11/11
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81268246
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After Shane’s kidnapping, Ilya vows he’ll never let anybody touch Shane again. The voice in his mind that sounds like his mother—her face lost to time, now even her voice fading away—urges him to leave the family business and embrace Shane as an honest man. The voice that sounds like his father’s tells him to lock up his heart and throw away the key. That way, nobody can hurt him again. (Or: after Shane is kidnapped and almost killed, Ilya chooses a different path. He’s as much his father’s son as he is his mother’s, after all.)
- Part 2 of we’ve got bad things to do
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 1,907
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82828641
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So what is the plan now, Mr. Spreadsheet?
“Honestly I was kind of hoping your consciousness would just click back into your body once I touched you.” Shane scratches the back of his head.
You treat me like slap bracelet, Ilya complains.
After a bad hit knocks Ilya’s consciousness out of his body — literally — Shane finds himself sheltering the soul of his decade-long situationship in the back of his head. Turns out it’s a lot harder to keep secrets when you share a body.
(They definitely still try, though.)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 33,974
- Chapters:
- 7/7
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #80586441
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The morning after Ilya Rozanov kills himself, he wakes up next to Shane in their shared bed in their shared house in their shared life, and Shane is still sleeping, so he doesn’t know what Ilya’s done yet.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 1,390
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82540581
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depollute me, pretty baby by writer_in_theory
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-31
It wasn’t his first hockey fight, not by far. After decades of playing, it was impossible to avoid the occasional scrum. It just wasn’t something that Shane purposefully tried to get involved in. He wasn’t like Ilya, he didn’t find joy in pushing and prodding at the other team until one of them snapped and threw a punch. When a scrum did break out, he hardly ever joined the fray, preferring instead to focus on managing the refs and trying to get his team out of the fight with as few penalties as possible. When Shane’s fist connected with Comeau’s cheekbone, Shane grinned. -- Or, the moment Shane realized he played his last game as a Montreal Metro and has to come to terms with everything that means after. Featuring Shane realizing he's not as okay as he seems, and Ilya trying to figure out how he can help.
- Part 4 of i can't seem to not need to need you
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 40,006
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79051901
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Bridgeford is a small, quiet town. Too dull to hold someone like Ilya, a restless young alpha always chasing something sharper, faster, louder. Too suffocating for Shane, an omega who’s spent too long under watchful eyes, tired of being seen as a social case just because he's an omega.
One last summer. That's all they both have to live through before they're both off to the big city. That was the plan.
Until fate pulls a few strings, and suddenly, two complete strangers feel drawn to each other in all the wrong ways.
OR: a modern, dramatic fairytale of two soulmates finding each other
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 41,362
- Chapters:
- 7/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81608996
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You’ll go to heaven and I’ll go to hell in the meantime by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-03-30
After Vegas, Shane begins to give up on Ilya and looks for a new way to feel wanted.
Ilya, of course, finds out about this and locks in.
A small dose of jealousy and a bigger dose of communication add up to change the trajectory of their affair from 2014 onward.
- Part 1 of 2014 Remix
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 29,141
- Chapters:
- 7/7
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #80275726
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The Worth of You by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-03-29
Ilya Rozanov is in a horrible accident right before the playoffs start and Shane Hollander reacts in a normal and rational fashion.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 15,718
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #81816386
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hanging by a moment by frozenmorningdew (goldenboygate)
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-29
Ilya starts calling Shane boring regularly after that, not cruelly but persistently, the way you press a bruise you know is there just to confirm it still hurts. Shane's cereal is boring, Shane's training schedule is boring, Shane's shoes lined up by the door are boring, and Shane responds with variations of "fuck off" and "you're an asshole" that become increasingly creative and occasionally surprising. They do not talk about anything that matters. They talk about groceries and whose turn it is to take out the trash and whether Ilya's music is too loud at midnight, which it is. On the ice, Shane is someone else entirely. Ilya watches him from the upper stands every morning with vending machine coffee going cold in his hand and doesn't tell anyone. Or: Shane asked Ilya once how you know when it's the right person. Ilya described Shane to him, and Shane didn't recognise himself.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 187,218
- Chapters:
- 44/44
- Files:
- 4 versions
- AO3:
- #80126256
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it has a language of its own by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-28
Ilya learns very young that he has a soulmate.
Ilya's POV of the heart is hard to translate.
- Part 2 of all this and heaven too
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 21,725
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78749051
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This was what tended to scare Shane the most, when Ilya was unwell: the gradual loss of him, despite being physically there. He would go quiet, blank, slow to speak and slow to respond, nothing like the pulse of intense energy and liveliness that sparked in him at his baseline. Shane missed him, when he was away in that place. It was not a place Ilya could always describe, and it was not somewhere Shane could rescue him from, or even join him in for company. So Shane waited, every time, for him to come back. He always came back. That was the only relief in it.
- Part 2 of snowdrops
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 14,051
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81324646
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a year safe in your heart by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-13
“And you’re sure there’s nothing for you?” David says suddenly. “You’re not—you’re feeling okay? You’re not sick? Shane wouldn’t have any reason to think that you’re sick?”
Ilya blinks and turns to him. “I am fine. Totally fine. Better than fine, even, before today.”
“It’s just—Shane’s acting like you’re dying, Ilya.”
“Not as far as I’m aware,” says Ilya. “And I do not think he would learn this before me.”
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The summer before Ilya joins the Centaurs, Shane wakes up nervous. It doesn't stop from there.
- Part 1 of anonymous cottage collection
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 54,996
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78743291
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You Have a Little Life in You Yet by OrYouCouldHaveMine
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-12
PLANE CARRYING OTTAWA CENTAUR’S HOCKEY TEAM, COACH, PERSONNEL, REPORTEDLY LOST CONTACT, PRESUMED MISSING - Shane’s eyes scan over the words, once, twice. It’s not true. It’s some mistake. He knows it. “Lost contact?” Hayden asks, his tone a mix of concerned and confused. “What’s that mean? Like they lost their ability to communicate? Won’t that make landing hard?” J.J. frowns. “I do not think they will be landing,” he says solemnly. -- The Ottawa Centaurs plane crashes in the Canadian wilderness. Shane tries to get answers while Ilya tries to stay alive.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 38,306
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #80745021
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Hayden only recognizes the signs because he’s seen them in Ilya.
- Part 2 of all lights turned off can be turned on
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,837
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80776281
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Set towards the end of The Long Game. The day after Ilya loses the playoffs and tells Shane he's like his mother, Shane hustles them off to the Cottage. A lot of feelings that haven't been discussed get discussed.
“Moya lyubov, I know we have plans to be very honest with each other, yes?”
Shane pulls away slightly, but he only makes it an inch or two, because Ilya’s still hugging him close. “No, no, do not run away, Hollander. Stay.”
Shane stops trying to move and lets himself sag back into Ilya. Ilya huffs contentedly, “Yes. Good. We have this plan, and it is a good plan. But you said we have time, yes?”
“Forever,” promises Shane, “I’m with you forever, Ilya.”
“Yes,” Ilya agrees, another gentle kiss pressed to the corner of Shane’s mouth, and Shane turns a little so that it turns into a real kiss. Ilya smiles against his lips as he pulls away, “So maybe we slow down? We do not have to share all of our feelings today, okay?”
“Okay,” Shane agrees with a little laugh, “Yes. Some of them can wait until tomorrow.”- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,913
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80708941
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Ilya googles Scott Hunter in his hotel room at night. He reads some interviews too.
Scott Hunter is an orphan. He lost his parents when he was twelve. A drunk driver killed them both.
Twelve.
Ilya’s stomach tightens into a knot. He can’t keep the memories away. They’re rising from the grave he tried to bury them in so many times. Mama.
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Ilya, Scott, and the transformation of their relationship(s).
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 22,399
- Chapters:
- 7/7
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #77845401
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If you’re afraid of wolves by gsmaxwell
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-03-01
Shane was on the mend. Really. Ilya had pulled him out of that icy river before there was any lasting damage. It didn't matter that he couldn't just fucking forget what had happened. Ilya wasn't okay, but he wasn't going to tell anyone that. Telling people would mean dealing with it. And he had Shane now, which was enough. Or: Shane and Ilya deal with the fall out of being kidnapped and traumatized by the Montreal mafia.
- Part 2 of Kidnapped AU
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 79,095
- Chapters:
- 17/17
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #77675996