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Ilya Rozanov does not come pre-installed with good communication or healthy coping skills. Is he going to seek out help on his own? Hell no! But when a family member kills himself, fellow Boston Raider and friend Cliff Marleau decides that Ilya is going to therapy come hell or high water. And Ilya... well, Ilya is just playing along to keep the peace. Right? He doesn't need therapy. But if it helps his friend be less worried, so be it.
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Therapy helps Ilya upskill enough to diffuse the tuna meltdown. Things get better after that. And then they get worse, because mental health is
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a kiss goodbye, a kiss hello by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-09-13
Your first kiss after falling in love with someone leaves an indelible mark.
In the locker room, three weeks after Shane brought Ilya to his home and his bedroom, J.J. notices a kiss mark on Shane's back.
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my love, my life by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-06-20
Cliff watches him squeeze the phone between his cheek and shoulder, lifting the jersey over his head as he continues to talk, a bit distracted now by the multitasking.
“And was good practice, you know, for when I am your husband."
Immediately, the locker room goes dead silent. And so does Rozanov, in fact.
In which Ilya accidentally calls himself Shane's future husband in the middle of the Bears locker room. Worse still, they're not even dating yet.
- Part 2 of Outsider POVs
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Shane doesn't quite remember when he became Hollander. Somewhere between mites and middle school, people started to refer to him by his last name. But he vividly remembers the moment he realized he was Shane Hollander now. Teenage hockey phenom, someone to look up to. A brand. What he didn't realize then was how being Shane Hollander would make his world seem smaller. There are so many things Shane Hollander can't do.
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Shane is a good son who visits his parents on weekends. Shane Hollander is a professional athlete with a clean reputation. Hollander is a little freak who wants to get railed until he forgets he even has a name. And never the twain shall meet. So why the fuck is Rozanov calling him Shane now?
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Still The One by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-05-28
“Shane has boyfriend?"
“Mom thinks so. He’s dodging my texts, but it definitely seems like he’s seeing someone.”
Ilya's whispered "No" was drowned out by a loud snort from another teammate, who said something like, "Good for lil' bro."
Ilya shouldn’t feel like dying. Should have expected this to happen at some point. Deserved it, even. He had been ghosting Shane for months, after all.
In which Ilya knows he's not good enough to be with his best friend's little brother. He spirals over Shane possibly dating someone else nonetheless.
Alternatively, Ilya will always be the one Shane will still run to.
- Part 1 of Hurt/Comfort One Shots
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MONTREAL VOYAGEURS PASS ON HOLLANDER FOLLOWING FINALS INJURY
Despite being projected as at least a top-three pick, Shane Hollander slips to 57th overall after a Grade III ankle ligament tear sustained in the World Junior Hockey Championships earlier this year.BOSTON BEARS SELECT ROZANOV FIRST OVERALL, HOLLANDER IN SECOND ROUND
Boston bets on two of juniors' most electric players; one a sure thing, one a gamble. The Bears have never minded those.Shane Hollander did not get drafted to Montreal. He gets drafted to Boston, fifty-seventh overall, after #1 draft pick, Ilya Rozanov. He has a plan for that. The plan does not account for Ilya Rozanov being the way that Ilya Rozanov is.
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Puck and The Great One by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-12
Shane Hollander's two cats like Ilya Rozanov. It shouldn't make a difference, except in all the ways it does.
Canon divergent AU, basically a rewrite of the tuna melt scene. See author's notes for more details.
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“You are planning to rob me or what?” He hears Rozanov call, and he can’t help but smile slightly even as he rolls his eyes, closing the door to the linen closet and feeling strangely lighter than when he opened it, reassured that he’s just trying to read into a blank page, that today doesn’t mean anything more than Rozanov doesn’t mind him being around, which is strangely flattering.
“I don’t know,” he calls back. “Don’t Russians like diamonds and fur and stuff? Where should I start looking if I want to know what my options are?”
He hears Rozanov laugh, and it makes him smile.
When he joins him in the living room once more, Rozanov tugs him down to lean against him again. Shane goes easier this time, settling into it, knowing it doesn’t mean anything other than the fact that he just happens to be the closest warm body, the person on Rozanov’s roster who filled today’s slot.
(the tuna meltdown doesn't happen) (this does not mean they get ANY better at communication)
(or: how shane didn't realize he had a boyfriend for several months)
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After tuna meltdown, Shane had to go back inside. What he saw changed everything.
(Or, the lovers to friends to boyfriends fic that has eaten my brain.)
- Part 1 of The Sunshine of His Smile
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A Thing by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-04-14
After their first hookup, Shane realizes Ilya is going to want more from him eventually. He should be ready.
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Shane buys a dildo and it’s Ilya’s fault.
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a step to the right by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-03-29
Shane thinks about Ilya; thinks about the glorious gasping surprise of Shane and considers that he has made an absolutely fucking massive mistake somewhere along his way here but he has no idea what it was. Behind his eyelids he thinks about his own name choked out like a confession and thinks about the Ilya that seemed to come so naturally, and wishes desperately that he'd done something differently. Something, almost anything, but he doesn't know what, can't pin the thought down. He has no idea what he's wishing for except for different.
As it turns out, once they're in motion there's nothing that can keep his eyes open, and he sleeps.
There's a dream that feels like turning inside out, like stretching and rebounding, like a path cleared and his is the first skate that touches the ice after the Zamboni leaves it, and he wakes —
He wakes.
Head thick and foggy until he shakes it and it clears, but he wakes —
— and they're back at the hotel.
- Part 1 of a step to the right
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The lamp next to him provides a light glow as Shane opens his laptop, shaking out his nerves. Navigating to Google is harder, and he almost backs out completely. But he knows that closing his computer now would be far worse in the long run, confirming something about him.
Something that probably isn’t even true.
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Or, 5 times Shane takes an "Am I Gay?" quiz, and 1 time he retakes one.
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Rozanov wanted to hurt himself, or tried to hurt himself, or did hurt himself. Acknowledging the idea feels like staring directly at the sun. If Shane lets the thought settle, it’ll burn its way through every other thought he has.
Rozanov is catching a pillow that Sveta throws at him and smiling. He told Shane that therapy is working. He’s here. He’s fine.
Shane takes careful breaths and taps his right thumb to his fingers one by one as he sets aside that confusion and terror. Rozanov did not invite him here to freak out, so Shane’s not going to freak out.
Or: The summer after he wins the Cup for Boston, Ilya almost dies. Shane tries to cope.
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Roz is out of his gear much faster than he usually is and he’s unlocking his phone with an urgency as if something were on fire. “Bro, you good?” Cliff asks while he’s still in the process of getting out of his own gear. Ilya looks up from his phone with a somewhat wild look in his eyes. “I cannot reach Jane.” Ilya says and there’s nearly no volume to it at all. It's more of a whisper than anything else. Cliff Marlow notices some things and connects some dots.
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“I have a secret,” Ilya whispers.
Half-awake, Shane blinks at him sleepily. “What is it?”
“I cannot say.” Ilya’s eyes flicker between Shane’s. “But this secret, it is why things are complicated. It is why I didn’t go to Russia when my father died.”
OR: a rewrite of Heated Rivalry, with a twist.
- Part 7 of cjo + hr
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The day after Shane fled Ilya’s house, he wakes up back in Ilya’s bed. Too bad that he definitely went to sleep in his hotel room …
- Part 18 of [challenge] Heated Rivalry Febuwhump 2026
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One Touch, And I Was A Believer by amysteriouspuddle
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-05
It had all got too real. That wasn’t what they were. They met up a couple times each year, took what they needed from the other, and then left before the afterglow could fade. They did not – could not – have any more than that. And they certainly did not call each other by their forenames. That would imply that they meant more to each other than either had ever expressed, that Rosanov was more than just Rosanov, Shane’s arch rival on ice and absolutely nothing off ice. And that could never happen. - Or, Hayden's reaction to Shane coming back to their hotel room freaking out and in Ilya's clothes in ep 4.
- Part 1 of They Don't Know About Us
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He reached into his pocket for his phone and fuck– he was still wearing Rozanov’s clothes. They smelt like him. He couldn’t go back inside now to get his own, that would make for even more embarrassment. I just need to get out of here, far away. He opened his phone and tried to call an Uber, but his vision was so blurry from unshed tears, he couldn't see a thing on the screen. What the fuck was he doing? Ilya is never going to talk to him again and he’s out here on the ground having a fucking panic attack. Or, what if when Shane leaves Ilya on the couch, he only makes it past the front door before breaking down?
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Shane almost misses the stench of a cigarette beside him after sex.
Shane has never smoked a cigarette in his life, but right now he’s craving the smell. Craving the specific ones Ilya smokes. It’s pathetic.
Shane is sitting up against his headboard, but he’s not alone in bed. Miles, Rose’s actor friend, lays next to him, eyes closed as he relaxes in the afterglow. For some reason, Shane doesn’t feel much of an afterglow himself.
After Rose breaks up with Shane, he sleeps with Miles, but all he can think about afterwards is Ilya.
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i never minded being on my own (then something broke in me) by agetwellcard
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-12
“I don’t remember his name. Blond. Russian. Kind of intense.” Shane tries to keep his brain from lingering on memories of Ilya’s hands in his hair. Rose has her mouth open when he looks over at her. “You literally talked to the team captain and you didn’t even know? Shane, that was Ilya Rozanov.” Shane feels like he can’t breathe for a second at the sound of his name. “That sounds right. Yeah.” After a few seconds, Rose holds out her phone. It’s a picture of Ilya she has pulled up from Google. He’s in a hockey uniform but his helmet is off, curly hair glistening with sweat. “This is who you talked to, right?” Shane nods. He hopes that it isn't obvious on his face that he did much more than talking with the man. AU Where Shane Hollander is a rising actor and meets hockey star Ilya Rozanov at a club while celebrating an award show win. Between filming a movie where Shane is playing a gay man and having a casual relationship with Ilya, Shane deals with defining his sexuality and trying not to ruin their casual relationship with his feelings for Ilya.
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