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the devil in his veins longing for tenderness by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-10-22
Ilya wakes up in the early afternoon, in his underwear, with a dry mouth, a crick in his neck, and loud, incessant banging. It takes him longer than he is proud to admit to realize that it’s coming from his front door. He gets up and immediately regrets it. His living room is a mess and the light coming in from the window makes him wince. He does not want to clean today. What he had wanted was a rare, quiet night. Maybe text Hollander to rile him up after his loss the day before. Instead, Marly insisted on coming home with him after his girlfriend dumped him, so he could drown his sorrows. He remembers making some questionable choices after that, and if the state of the house is any indication, he is right.
Oh, that fucker. What did he forget here?
“Marly, you fucking asshole, I swear if you don’t stop—” Fuck. His head. How much did he drink last night? “Couldn’t you wait until practice tomorrow to get—” He opens the door. A small child is looking up at him.
Or: The day before the Tuna Melt Ilya Rozanov finds a child at his door.
- Part 1 of The Devil in His Veins
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 56,891
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #89995016
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In late October, Ilya picks up some kind of freakish Canadian flu that dogs him into November.
It is the weirdest shit. He has to duck out of practice because his nose starts bleeding twice in one week and he wakes up in a hotel in Columbus with another one that leaves stains on the pillow. On the flight back to Ottawa, Hazy drops into the seat next to Ilya midflight and asks, "This isn't, like, a cocaine thing, right?"
Ilya laughs so hard it's probably a little rude.
They have a plan. Ilya's body has a different plan.
- Part 1 of Malysh
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 141,309
- Chapters:
- 18/20
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81976711
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Shane Hollander, captain of the Boston Raiders, is the the undisputed best hockey player of his generation. But he’s lonely. His relationships with women have never worked out, and he’s afraid he knows why.
Ilya Rozanov is a charismatic, openly bisexual personal trainer and influencer. His content is half thirst traps, half brutal and perceptive hockey critique.
It’s no surprise, really, that Shane falls for him so hard and so fast.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 90,491
- Chapters:
- 46/46
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #78051321
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my love, my life by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-06-20
Cliff watches him squeeze the phone between his cheek and shoulder, lifting the jersey over his head as he continues to talk, a bit distracted now by the multitasking.
“And was good practice, you know, for when I am your husband."
Immediately, the locker room goes dead silent. And so does Rozanov, in fact.
In which Ilya accidentally calls himself Shane's future husband in the middle of the Bears locker room. Worse still, they're not even dating yet.
- Part 2 of Outsider POVs
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 15,945
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #87024061
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“Sometimes, I wish he was a worse person,” Ilya admits one night, while he and Yuna are doing the dishes. Shane and Ilya had come over for chicken parmesan, and it had been a lovely dinner, right up until David, clearing the plates, mentioned that he had met a guy at the store the other day who was a big fan of Shane’s, had a kid who idolized him.
David asked if Shane could sign a piece of merchandise for him, maybe record a video. Shane said yes, because he had a rule, about doing things for child fans. Now, Shane was off shooting a video while Ilya did the dishes, and Ilya already knew the way it would require Shane to drag his public face up from the depths of his stomach, the work it would take him to shed it afterwards, the way it would taint this evening.
- Part 15 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,546
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80125436
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Shane accidentally sends a screenshot of his most recent sexts with Boston Lily to his mom and Yuna mistakenly thinks Boston Lily might be treating her son badly based on several texts talking about making Shane cry during sex, choking him, etc. Shane has to come out as several things at once: gay, Ilya Rozanov's fuckbuddy, and, most mortifyingly, a freak in bed. This goes about as smoothly as you'd expect, but in the process Shane learns he's very, very loved by his family.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,402
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78486476
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Ilya Rozanov. One of the star players of the NHL, nearly a decade into his career. Center for the Boston Bears, a brutal, fast player known for womanizers tendencies and his bragging habits.
Kip had learned a lot about hockey in the last three years, unable to swipe past anything to do with Scott’s career. Ilya Rozanov was a difficult player to mistake and it was his distinctive build that stood beside him now, glaring down at the buildings as if they’d personally offended him.
“...Hi.” Kip had to give himself credit. Even with the hesitation, the greeting was clear and strong, pushed past the tightness of his shirt on his shoulders, his collar resting against his throat.
“Hello,” said Rozanov, shifting to cross his arms and lean them against the railing. His suit was near to the navy blue Kip was wearing– a popular color, and he was doubly glad Scott had insisted on it. “Is nice out here. Cold.”
Three times that Ilya supported Scott's relationship and one time he defended his own.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 11,522
- Chapters:
- 3/4
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #77538331
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to hold in loving attention by yolkinthejump
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-01-15
Their time at Shane's cottage allows for Shane to consider, explore, and accept, his comfort needs. Unsurprisingly, Ilya is willing to let Shane put his mouth wherever he wants, and sometimes Ilya anticipates and reads Shane so well that it just about breaks Shane in half. Oh, the mortifying ordeal of being Shane Hollander! Luckily, Ilya is there to put him back together. Shane's oral fixation as a sort of character study.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 6,670
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #77742286
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Scott tries to imagine what they look like from the end of the alley. Two bros, sitting two feet apart on a bench staring at the concrete instead of each other for whatever this is, because they're not gay. Jesus.
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After the MLH awards, Scott is surprised by a... well-wisher?
World Famous Asshole Ilya Rozanov.- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 1,463
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #76714136
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is it the same for you? by notwritinganovel
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-29
Shane releases what feels like his first exhale in forever—Ilya Rozanov, taken out by the common flu. Not ignoring him. Not ending anything. Still, the knot in his chest doesn’t ease completely with the vision of Ilya unwell and alone in Shane’s head. JANE Are you at your house? LILY Where else, Jane? JANE Don’t fall asleep. I’ll be there soon. LILY No, am sick. I told you. JANE I heard you. I’ll be there soon. Or, Ilya’s sick and Shane wants, and wants, and wants.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 8,040
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #76674021