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give me no sympathy (it's the mercy I can't take) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-08-01
When the MLH announces all games are cancelled for the rest of the evening, Shane Hollander knows something is weirdly wrong. There's no precedent for it in league history. A string of messages from Ilya and a phone call from his mother confirm the worst: something has happened, and he doesn't know what.
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The Centaurs plane crash is serious. In the aftermath, life changes for Ilya completely, and Shane has to learn how he fits in.- Language:
- English
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- 78,070
- Chapters:
- 23/23
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81762981
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Love, Vodka, or the Sea by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-08-01
Recovery isn't linear.
Knowing this, and believing it, are two different things.Shane moves to Ottawa, ready to finally spend time with his soulmate, properly. Maybe the excitement is why he doesn't always notice.
Ilya wins the Cup with Shane at his side, but it doesn't matter as much as it should have. Not when his body hurts and his mind is fragile and he feels one moment away from collapse.
Timeline goes back and forth, but we start off one year after the events of the previous story.
In the end, everything will be okay.- Part 3 of This is Love
- Language:
- English
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- 16,714
- Chapters:
- 8/8
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- 1
- AO3:
- #88105341
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How About that Other Team? by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-08-01
Boston, while they usually draft players they know to be aggressive, see Shane Hollander, classically Canadian, composed, and calculating, and realize they have an opportunity. Not to reform their image necessarily, but to put out the narrative of a better influence. No one expects Shane Hollander to snarky, suave, and all together trouble for the league.
Montreal sees Ilya Rozanov for exactly what he is, brutal, talented, and masculine. He’s the leadership the Voyagers need, he’s tough on his teammates, on himself, and he doesn’t take shit from anybody. However, he’s too quiet off the ice, and it’s unsettling. He’s everything and nothing they thought he would be.
- Part 4 of heated rivalry fics
- Language:
- English
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- 57,882
- Chapters:
- 9/9
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- 1
- AO3:
- #83305816
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A video is posted to Twitter showing Ilya Rozanov having sex with a man.
It isn't Shane Hollander.
- Language:
- English
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- 17,516
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- 8/12
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- 1
- AO3:
- #80400971
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before and between by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-07-29
a collection of somewhat linear bonus scenes not previously included in "i'll believe in anything"
- Part 2 of the cursed cottage
- Language:
- English
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- 23,337
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- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #89467561
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In Case of Emergency by Caraphernellic
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-07-28
If you are reading this, it means that Danny is following my emergency plan that we practiced. I’m not safe and neither is he. Please, I beg you, take him to his grandparents at this address. Yuna and David Hollander 2242 Grandview Ottawa, Ontario If I ever get the chance, I will repay you. Please tell him I love him. My parents too. And if you could tell them I’m sorry. ~Shane
- Language:
- English
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- 31,495
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #86122586
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you're an asshole, afterall by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-07-28
Ilya’s obviously aware that there’s something up with Shane, okay? No one who spent their formative years (as well as their twenties and thirties) obsessively watching Shane Hollander Best Goal YouTube clips could glimpse what was going on with the Metros last season and think that nothing had changed. He asked and asked over the summer months, and Shane denied and denied and denied to the point where Ilya had to wonder if Shane knew there was something up with himself. But that was silly. Of course Shane knew.
Ilya likes to think he’s the Shane Hollander whisperer. He knows about Shane’s dormant exhibitionism kink and how to trigger it without triggering what neither of them like to call an anxiety attack. He knows the difference between Shane's hungry stomach grumbles and impending-stomach-ache stomach grumbles. There’s probably not a freckle on Shane’s body Ilya hasn’t licked before, if he’s being honest. That’s not really impressive or a key to revealing Shane’s psyche or anything, but it’s probably worth mentioning.
On Shane Hollander's transfer to the Ottawa Centaurs, and everything he left behind.
- Part 2 of playing it any way i want
- Language:
- English
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- 6,505
- Chapters:
- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #89366911
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The Wired Autocomplete Interview by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-07-26
HOLMBERG, reading: “Who are the Ottawa Foals?”
YOUNG: This makes us sound like a YouTube dude-bro house.
LEVIN: The hottest men in the league.
JONES: We all know it’s Shane. You know it’s Shane based on the fact you have a [BEEP]in’ poster of him on your door.
LAPOINTE: The Ottawa Foals is the name of the young core on the Ottawa Centaurs. It is mostly rookie players still on Entry Level Contracts but I am on my extension contract with the Cens. So I’m not a rookie anymore.
or, the foals do the wired autocomplete interview. luca has a miserable time
- Part 7 of the loser has to fall
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- 1/1
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- AO3:
- #89297621
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Shane gets approximately ten minutes of feeling blissful and content after Ilya Rozanov leaves his apartment-
-and then he has to bolt to the bathroom to get ill with a violence he hasn’t experienced since he was still conditioning for the season as a rookie.
In the aftermath, he runs a cold washcloth over his face while swishing his mouth out and tries to convince himself that it had to have just been something he ate.
He wonders if he should text Rozanov and give him a warning, but having to send a, “Thanks for taking my virginity, by the way I just puked my guts up and you might have caught whatever this is from me” doesn’t really seem like it’s a very sexy follow-up text to get from someone. As a “congrats on getting fucked” present to himself in honor of the occasion, he decides he’ll chalk it up to the sudden release of nerves and only send the text if it lasts past the night.
(shane is EXTREMELY sensitive to nicotine) (the problem with this? he isn't actually aware of it and thus doesn't understand why fucking ilya rozanov sometimes makes him sick afterwards)
- Language:
- English
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- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #89127991
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Shane Hollander is in love with his best friend, Ilya Rozanov. When he hears Ilya fucking some girl, he thinks nothing of it. Ilya is always fucking someone. That is, until he hears Ilya agree to go on a date with this girl. Cue the flowers. OR: Shane Hollander develops Hanahaki Disease.
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- English
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- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #89054271
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Shane and Ilya are 18 and counting down to the NHL draft while playing for the same private school hockey program. Until Shane realizes he needs to take a pregnancy test behind his family’s back.
- Part 2 of Riding in Cars
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- English
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- 101,767
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- 32/32
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- 1
- AO3:
- #78987876
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Since Shane Hollander’s painful public outing, things clearly haven’t been right with the Voyageurs. Still, everyone is shocked when Shane gets himself traded to the Ottawa Centaurs.
Shane can’t completely explain it, to be honest, not in a way anyone else understands. He just knows this: he lost Ilya, lost the Voyageurs, lost his privacy and his choice. But hockey is still the love of Shane’s life. And he’s not going to lose that, too.
- Part 2 of Shane Hollander's Centaurs
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 40,460
- Chapters:
- 10/?
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- 1
- AO3:
- #81700356
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Shane didn't mean to do it. He didn't. He really, honestly, didn't.
And he knows it's bad. And he knows it's wrong.
But.
Well...
Maybe this way people will finally listen to him.- Language:
- English
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- 1,498
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- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #88821301
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The One That Got Away by PeaceLilies
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-07-18
Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov haven't spoken in fifteen years. After an emotionally charged hookup at Ilya's penthouse in Boston, the two hockey phenoms stop talking. They meet again as coaches for the struggling Ottawa Centaurs, both of them still harboring feelings for one another, but can they overcome the hurt that was caused on that day in Boston to try again?
- Language:
- English
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- 122,517
- Chapters:
- 33/33
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #88604346
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It’s Kind of a Funny Story by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-07-17
His stomach takes a sharp, screeching left. His heart stalls and then shifts into gear, zero to 180, every tired tract of him seizing and squealing to go, run, leave.
“Hey, I found him,” Tony says, finishing a conversation Ilya wasn’t in, easy like all conversations without Ilya are. Easy like the world isn’t ending. Like Ilya isn’t standing there, wishing every time he tried to self-destruct or kill himself had worked.
Greasy black hair. Sallow freckled skin. A turned head and horror-widened eyes taking in the big bad monster who finally arrived onscreen.
“Shane, Ilya; Ilya, Shane,” Tony says, totally oblivious. “You both like hockey, right? So that’s something in common. I’ve got to take lunch, but I’ll check in on you both before my shift is over.”
Nobody knows if Ilya Rozanov tried to kill himself before the draft. Nobody sane goes first overall. And nobody knows if Shane Hollander is going to survive another mediocre season with the Boston Raiders.
Isn’t it funny how a single nick in the ice can change the entire game?
- Language:
- English
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- 31,604
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- 1
- AO3:
- #88732591
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a white blank page and a swelling rage by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-07-16
He shouldn't—he's not supposed to call her that. He's seventeen. He's an adult. Mama is for children, for people who are idiots and emotional, for the soft and tender. Alexei is not soft. He is not tender.
He cannot be.
He knew something was happening, had felt the hum of earth under his feet, the rustle of warning in the birdsong of the orenda of the world. Moscow sings, Mama has—had—always said. Open ears will hear the truth of the world if only one will listen.
Still. He had ignored it.
OR: Alexei Rozanov grows up in a home that becomes a grave.
- Part 31 of heated rivalry masterlist
- Part 8 of ghostly ghouls get game
- Language:
- English
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- 4,223
- Chapters:
- 1/1
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- AO3:
- #88374196
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for Shane, it was always going to be about love by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-07-13
Shane Hollander has made all the right decisions. Putting hockey above everything, abstaining from cake and lemonade, and never kissing boys, especially Russian boys with crooked grins who always saw right through him. This restraint has secured Shane a legacy as one of the greatest players of all time. Everything he ever wanted, and somehow never enough.
Ilya Rozanov is long dead, lost to fire and water in a plane crash half a century ago. But at the end of his carefully controlled life, Shane can’t stop dreaming about him, haunted by echoes of what might have been.
Given a chance to change the past, Shane has to decide what really matters: hockey, or the only bad decision he was ever tempted to make.
or: fate and Irina Rozanov have unexpectedly romantic sensibilities, and some lovers (no, Ilya that’s gross) are meant to find each other in every universe.
time travel fix-it 💫 happy ending
- Language:
- English
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- 61,040
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- 7/7
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- 1
- AO3:
- #86223206
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spinning out, waiting for you to pull me in (i'm right here) by kilmers
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-07-13
Shane swiftly darts his eyes to the front and shifts it back to the boy. “Sorry! What were you going to say?” “No, no. Is nothing, you go first,” he insists. “Oh. Um, okay, I was wondering about your name?” “Ilya Rozanov.” Ilya. Pretty. Woah. Okay. Or 12 year old Shane Hollander's whole world was focused on one thing. Unbeknownst to him, llya Rozanov has been eyeing Shane in longing for the past week (and his freckles, of course).
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 13,144
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #88052021
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hold me tight (or don’t) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-07-12
Lily: Sorry, I didn’t get to say goodbye
Shane had found the message sweet despite his disappointment. Now it just feels… ominous.
That’s usually the point when Shane has to get out of bed and pace around his bedroom and remind himself that, if Ilya is ghosting him (he is not, he’s not, he’s not), then he is also ghosting the rest of the fucking world. Because that is the thing that truly, really, terrifies him.
No one has heard of Ilya Rozanov in nearly three weeks.
Shane hasn’t been getting much sleep lately.
Or:
After Tampa. Things between Shane and Ilya are finally starting to look stable… until Ilya drops off the face of the Earth with little warning. Shane spirals (a lot) and decides he’s going to find his man if it’s the last thing he does.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 43,222
- Chapters:
- 18/18
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85137311
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“Ilya, can I ask you something?” “You have been asking things all week, Shane.” “Have you ever thought about running away?” — At the cottage, Shane tells Ilya something distressing. Years later, when Hayden’s FanMail video leaks, a promise made there is tested.
- Part 13 of My Autistic Shane Hollander Writings Vol. 1
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,056
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #88268531