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what the hell are you? by andmynewlymeltedheart
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-09
Ilya remembers the last time those hands touched him.
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- AO3:
- #77392611
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how to love your Ilya: 101 by Issers
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-09
“I am not good person Hollander” he said, keeping his eyes locked on the water “I have been told many time that I am rude, annoying, loud and asshole.” Shane looked slightly confused. “Yeah, sure, that’s what you’re like on the ice but we both know that’s not who you are day to day. Ilya looked wrecked “Is it not? Hollander I have one friend, and my only family thinks I am disappointment to bloodline - I do not disagree.” — Ilya has some shit to work through, Shane is determined to do whatever he can to help.
- Part 1 of The winding road to recovery
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- #77397871
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He's had a nightmare about this. Several, in fact. Not so long ago, there were weeks on end when he had more nightmares than not about this exact thing, and now here he is frozen in his living room, watching it happen to somebody else.
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Scott & Kip react to Hollanov being outed.
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- AO3:
- #77347926
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The bitter cold by TheQueenoftheAbyss
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-08
Shane Hollander is young, fit and healthy, he works out, he plays hockey, he eats a ridiculously healthy diet. Shane Hollander dies on the ice at age 30. - Shane’s body is cold. Ilya’s heart is cold.
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- English
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- 1
- AO3:
- #77287056
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a stitch in time by flowerylanguage
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-08
Old Shane chuckles sadly, running a hand through his hair. A glint of something on his finger catches Shane’s eye. A ring? He’s married??? Something twists in his stomach. If he’s married, that must mean— No, he won’t let himself think it. Rozanov is just a— a fuckbuddy. It doesn’t matter. It’s just— nothing. It’s just nothing. OR In a twist of fate (or cup magic), Shane Hollander gets visited by his older self, causing a crisis of feelings.
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- AO3:
- #77332861
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“Hm. Interesting,” the nurse stated as Ilya shifted in the bed. “You had a spinal cord injury four years ago, correct?” Ah, shit. “Yep,” Ilya shifted again, looking directly at the nurse. His eyes flickered but he didn’t look away from Ilya. “And, according to the paramedics, you fell directly on your back. Your head hit first, according to what the bartender who called emergency services said. So, I’ll ask again. Are you feeling better, Mr. Rozanov?” After an injury that took hockey away from Ilya, life doesn't seem to have anything much to give him. Little does he know, his attempt to get out of life ends up being the reason he stays in it.
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- English
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- 1
- AO3:
- #76696296
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No Further Questions by pause_to_read
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-08
Shane has spent his entire career rising above it. After one dirty hit, one slur, and one question too many, he stops. A press conference becomes a confession—and a line is finally drawn.
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- 3/?
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- AO3:
- #76307726
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Both Shane and Ilya had gotten concussions before. It was part of being a hockey player, but neither of them had ever woken up thinking they were seventeen. Of course, Shane had to change that.
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- #76764096
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Incoming Call by LubluLily (Tardis_jpg)
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-08
After the news of Rose and Shane breaks, he receives a wedding invitation for Ilya and Svetlana's wedding and tries to be fine. He's very much not fine.
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- AO3:
- #77253181
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After a misunderstanding, Ilya sees Shane's search history and realizes Shane might not be as secure in their relationship as he thought, and that misunderstanding might be bigger too.
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- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #77340946
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Ilya doesn't remember the moment his head hit the pavement or the sound of screeching brakes. He's forgotten he ever left Russia, and the names Yuna Hollander and Shane mean nothing to him, though these people clearly know him pretty well.
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- AO3:
- #76275341
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you can ebb and I can flow (and we'll take it slow) by foxjournals
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-08
Shane hears him, loud and clear, but it’s like his words are suddenly shallow and hollow, coming in bits and pieces as they funnel through one ear and out the other, and he swears he’s listening, swears he’s trying to hang onto every word out of his boyfriend's mouth, but that white hot static is louder than ever. His brain feels fuzzy and his eyes blur and whether it’s from unshed tears he hasn’t noticed yet or for another reason completely, he isn’t sure. He isn’t sure how he got from point A to point B, but all he knows is suddenly he can’t breathe. Suddenly, he’s six feet under, water encasing his lungs as they shrivel and expand into nothing. Or: Shane and Ilya get into a fight, and the only way out is through panicking Or: Shane uses a safeword in the middle of an argument
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- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #77306591
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"Please text!" David and Yuna coming over for dinner after Shane and Ilya's visit. Ilya gets to know Shane's parents and realizes just how much he loves being a part of a family.
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- #77258216
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have I found you, flightless bird? by clockworkaim
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-07
Shane Hollander has wings. Ilya Rozanov loves him. There's no 'despite' about it. Wings as a metaphor for autism. Because. Fuck it. Or The mortifying ordeal of letting the people who love you care.
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- #77238386
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Ilya feels like he knows everything and nothing about Shane at once. He's a child of Nike, his team always wins Capture-the-flag, he's still in touch with his biological father, and he's obscenely lucky. What he doesn't know, is if Shane is the best or the worst person to quest with. // Aristotle's qualifications for a Greek tragedy include dianoia (thought and introspection) and opsis (spectacle and performance). Shane and Ilya bring both to the table.
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- #76102796
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i will never listen to your voicemail by Icantthinkofagoodusername7
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-07
“Hi. This is Ilya. I will never listen to your voicemail.” Inbox: Jane: “Are you okay? Please call me. God, you’re probably not even gonna listen to this… you say it yourself in your voicemail message and, I mean, that’s okay. I just- I’d like to hear your voice or… whatever. Um-” [clears throat] “I don’t know. I hope you’re okay. Bye.” [Hide Transcript] Jane: “Okay, okay, I’ll stop calling. Just call me whenever you’re ready. Or text me. Whatever you want. I’m here.” [Hide Transcript] * OR, 5 of Ilya's different voicemails over time and some of the messages he gets plus 1 time he answers the phone.
- Part 7 of my hollanov fics (aka im mentally ill and can't stop writing about them)
- Part 12 of 5+1 things :))
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- #77315466
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In which Ilya’s phone gets hacked and his photo album detailing his and shane’s relationship is leaked to the world. Shane doesn’t understand at first why he would have kept all the photos—the evidence, but he learns to understand.
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- #77252546
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“Hey,” Shane said quickly, breathless. “It’s me.” “...Hello, Hollander.” Rozanov’s voice was deep and solemn. “Are you okay?” A short laugh echoed down the phone. “What do you think?” Shane cringed at himself. “Right, sorry. Stupid question.” “Is fine.” Rozanov sighed. “I am okay, I suppose… I do not know.” “I’m… I’m sorry.” “Why? You are not the one who sold story.” ~~ The coach's son from Ilya's youth sells his story, and Ilya is left to pick up the pieces. Hollander helps more than he could have ever expected. set early 2016, pre-tuna melt
- Part 1 of love takes miles
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- AO3:
- #77233746
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“Why are you out here alone?” Ilya asks. “Who left you here?” Hesitantly, Shane’s eyes cast up at the apartment building. Ilya follows his gaze, confused. “I’m sorry,” Shane says softly, “I went home with someone.” Ilya’s head snaps in his direction. “What?” -an episode 4 au where shane goes home with the bartender instead of rose, and it goes very, very poorly-
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- #77178106
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But I hate when I feel like this (and I never hated you) by SatsumaSegments
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-06
At the base of Shane Hollander’s throat is a dark red hickey. It’s fresh, no more than a day or two old, stark and striking against his otherwise unblemished skin. Ilya feels possessed. -- Shane shows up to the Montreal vs Boston game in ep4 with a hickey. Ilya takes it about as well as you'd expect. (In which they're definitely hatefucking because they definitely hate each other and definitely don't feel anything else towards each other. Don't worry. Nothing to see here. Especially not any tenderness or love. Nope.)
- Part 1 of Leave the rest at arm's length
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- AO3:
- #77200566