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  1. Apologies by

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    2026-03-11

    After a pair of bad losses, Scott said something he shouldn't have. Now, he needs to figure out how to apologize for a secret he's not supposed to know.

    Episode 3 what-happened-after fic.

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  2. Safer in Chains Than to be Free by

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    2026-03-09

    The name of your soulmate only appears once your realize you are in love with them.
    "Shane Hollander" appears on Ilya's chest before the Sochi Olympics. He tells nobody, and then he disappears.

    Six months later, Shane gets a call from an unknown number. Ilya. In Montreal, and completely different.
    It doesn't matter, though, and the next morning there's a line of Cyrillic across his chest.

    Timeline goes back and forth.

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  3. Apogee by

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    2026-03-09

    Shane Hollander is the youngest Commander in ISS history; straight-backed, closeted, and so tightly on his own leash that seven months in orbit with Ilya Rozanov have not produced a single crack in his composure. Ilya Rozanov is the Russian cosmonaut who should have had his job, won’t stop bouncing a tennis ball off the walls, and is still looking for a fissure. Thankfully, a solar storm finds it for him. or: Near-death, zero gravity, and the wrong man’s hands in exactly the right places. A Cosmonaut!Ilya x Astronaut!Shane AU 🚀

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  4. We are a hot mess, Hollander by

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    2026-03-06

    Set towards the end of The Long Game. The day after Ilya loses the playoffs and tells Shane he's like his mother, Shane hustles them off to the Cottage. A lot of feelings that haven't been discussed get discussed.

    “Moya lyubov, I know we have plans to be very honest with each other, yes?”
    Shane pulls away slightly, but he only makes it an inch or two, because Ilya’s still hugging him close. “No, no, do not run away, Hollander. Stay.”
    Shane stops trying to move and lets himself sag back into Ilya. Ilya huffs contentedly, “Yes. Good. We have this plan, and it is a good plan. But you said we have time, yes?”
    “Forever,” promises Shane, “I’m with you forever, Ilya.”
    “Yes,” Ilya agrees, another gentle kiss pressed to the corner of Shane’s mouth, and Shane turns a little so that it turns into a real kiss. Ilya smiles against his lips as he pulls away, “So maybe we slow down? We do not have to share all of our feelings today, okay?”
    “Okay,” Shane agrees with a little laugh, “Yes. Some of them can wait until tomorrow.”

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  5. if you ever try to leave me again by

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    2026-03-04

    Shane heard a strangled shout tear free from his mouth, and then his body was moving without his brain’s input. He flew across the ice, ripping his gloves off and reaching for Ilya’s throat. He wrapped his fingers around the warm skin, feeling the flow of blood pulse harder with each beat of Ilya’s heart. His eyes raced across Ilya’s face, desperately looking for a sign that his boyfriend was still with him. Ilya’s eyes were wide and glazed, staring past Shane instead of at him. His face was losing color rapidly, turning a sickly shade of white that mirrored the ice beneath him. His mouth was open, loose and slack, mouthguard still jammed into his upper jaw. Shane watched in terror as Ilya grew limper in his arms.
    ——————————————————
    During a Boston-Montreal game, Ilya's neck is cut by a skate, and Shane is forced to witness the love of his life bleeding out on the ice in front of him. All of the plans they have made seem to be slipping away before his eyes, right when they were so close to finalizing Ilya's transfer to Ottawa. As they race against the clock to save Ilya's life, Shane reckons with the secrets they have been forced to keep and fears that they might never get to live their truth out in the open.

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  6. Lovers and Letters by

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    2026-03-02

    Shane wasn't looking forward to meeting his soulmate like everyone else, but the letters still came. Four letters. Four Cyrillic letters.

    Or

    Five times Shane doesn't want to think about his soulletters and One time he finally does.

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  7. nothing like the unforgiving truth by

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    2026-03-02

    “Aren't you gonna- you don't have questions? You're just…” Shane trails off when Ilya kisses the inside of his knee. “...fine with it?”

    “I have many questions,” Ilya drawls, cheek still pressed into Shane's leg. “I am fine? Mm, probably.” He quirks his lips in a smile that doesn't reach his eyes. “I will know for sure after we talk.”

    When Shane starts to sit up, Ilya lowers his legs onto the mattress and slinks up beside him. He hasn't taken off his sneakers yet. “I'm not gonna kill you, or anything, if you're worried.”

    “Comforting,” Ilya rumbles.

    -

    Or, Ilya finds out Shane's pre-game ritual involves murder.

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  8. the proposal by

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    2026-03-02

    Ilya: I think Shane is going to break up with me. Bood: I’m sorry…what? Hayes: You think Shane Hollander is going to break up with you? Hayes: Shane Hollander. Hayes: The Shane Hollander who learned Russian for you? Bood: The Shane Hollander who drives back and forth from Montreal any chance he gets to see you? Barrett: The Shane Hollander who started a charity with you and named it after your mother? Bood: The Shane Hollander who just generally puts up with you and seems mostly happy about it? Ilya: It does boggle the mind. Ilya: But yes, I’m almost certain of it.

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  9. If you’re afraid of wolves by

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    2026-03-01

    Shane was on the mend. Really. Ilya had pulled him out of that icy river before there was any lasting damage. It didn't matter that he couldn't just fucking forget what had happened. Ilya wasn't okay, but he wasn't going to tell anyone that. Telling people would mean dealing with it. And he had Shane now, which was enough. Or: Shane and Ilya deal with the fall out of being kidnapped and traumatized by the Montreal mafia.

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  10. Eyes On Me by

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    2026-03-01

    Shane Hollander knows he’s not a small guy. Years of hockey and workouts have built up his muscles, and lucky genetics from his father’s side places him just shy of six feet. He’s checked hockey players half a foot and several pounds more than him, knocked Scott Hunter into the ice in the one fight he’s ever actually thrown hands in. But as much as Shane loves the game, the fast movements, passes, and team camaraderie, there were times where he could only feel regret at following the path of athletic fame. He puts on the media smile he practices in the mirror as he brushes his hair each day, uses the bright lights of press conferences to erase his view of the audience, and keeps his answers simple and focused on hockey.

    The number of people outside the arena still makes him feel crushed in on all sides, small. Eyes trained on his face, cameras flashing, pens and cell phones being passed into his hands. The itch of it all settles under his skin.

    @OttawaPoliceDispatch: Police have been dispatched to a house alarm in Galetta, On. Possible break in, destruction of property.

    @OttawaOfficialPoliceDepartment: Recent Missing Persons Report filed for Shane William Hollander at 9:25 pm

    Epilogue: 3/1

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  11. Trending: J.A.N.E.I.F.Y.'s New Song Just Dropped And We're All Asking by

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    2026-02-27

    Shane loves his husband. He really does! But sometimes, it can be hard to put that love into words.

    So maybe, when he tried to put it into words, he ended up writing a couple songs.

    And maybe he released them under a fake name.

    And maybe they got insanely popular somehow.

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    AKA the one where Shane and Ilya are married and in love and Shane is a little insecure about his ability to love his husband. So he becomes a faceless pop sensation. By accident. Mostly? It's complicated.

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  12. Mama Bear by

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    2026-02-27

    During their annual two weeks at the cottage, Shane and Ilya both fall ill (and claim the other is responsible for it) resulting in two days of coughing and chugging electrolytes while neither of them admit how bad they feel. Even though he attempts to hide it, Yuna can hear her son coughing over the phone and decides to go check on him during his yearly 'silent retreat', entirely unaware that he had company. Or that his company came in the shape of Ilya Rozanov.
    ---
    Even with the blinds pulled closed to keep the lights out she could still see Ilya Rozanov in her son’s bed; arms wrapped around him tightly. They looked asleep. Not just napping but deeply unconscious. 

    Yuna supposed that was the effect of the half empty bottle of Nyquil on the nightstand.

    She swallowed harshly, stepping closer to the bed. Her son was tucked against Ilya, face buried against his neck as a source of warmth and comfort. “Shane...” she whispered, shaking him gently. “Shane.”

    He didn’t stir, breaths steady as he slept like a rock. Her eyebrows knitted together, gaze shifting to Ilya, who had his jaw resting on top of Shane’s head, one of his hands under his shirt to feel his skin against his palm. 

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  13. If This Is the End by

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    2026-02-27

    A hit is a hit.

    This one ends Shane Hollander’s career.

    Without hockey, there is no rivalry. No opposing locker rooms to build distance. No automatic goodbyes to make loving Ilya Rozanov survivable.

    For years, the game decided for them. It set the terms. It gave them an excuse.

    Now there is only choice.

    As Shane stares down early retirement, rehab, and the terrifying blank space where his identity used to be, the one thing he can’t avoid anymore is Ilya — not across the ice, not in another city, not at the end of a season.

    If the rivalry is gone, what are they?

    An alternate path in the Heated Rivalry universe where the injury is career-ending, the loss is deeper than bone, and the happily ever after has to be chosen without hockey to hide behind.

    Moody. Intimate. HEA.

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  14. you have phone? by

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    2026-02-25

    June 2014, Mandalay Bay Hotel and Casino, Las Vegas, Nevada, Voicemail Recovery System. The day after the MLH MVP award ceremony. *beep* Voicemail: Hello, this is Shane Hollander? I’m so sorry to bother you, um - I hope this is the right voicemail for the lost and found. I was at the hotel this weekend, and I think I left a set of cufflinks somewhere in my room? They have my first and last initial engraved on each and they’re gold. It’s room number - actually, wait. Um, you know what. Never mind. Canyoupleasedeletethismessage.

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  15. He Hit Him and it Felt like a Kiss by

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    2026-02-25

    When Ilya throws a punch on the ice after a homophobic remark, Shane hates seeing Ilya hurt. They don’t argue and where Shane’s tears finally stop the fight. The locker room is a pressure cooker, but they don’t crack. Not there. Shane keeps his face carefully neutral while he changes, answers a teammate’s joke with the right tone, the right smile. Ilya can feel him watching anyway. Can feel the heat of it without ever looking up. His knuckles throb, split and swollen, but he keeps his hands busy, tapes them himself, jaw locked. When their eyes meet, Shane gives the smallest nod. You good? Ilya nods back. Later. Later is a long drive home with the radio on low and neither of them speaking. Later is the apartment door clicking shut behind them, the quiet rushing in too fast. Shane drops his bag by the door. “I didn’t like that you fought him.” Ilya exhales through his nose. Here we go. “You weren’t supposed to.” “I saw it,” Shane says. “I heard it. I didn’t like it.” “He crossed a line.” “I know,” Shane replies. “That doesn’t mean you had to break your hand.” Ilya turns, irritation flaring. “It’s hockey.” “That’s not an answer.” “It is,” Ilya snaps. “This happens every night.” “And every night I hate it,” Shane shoots back. “I hate watching you get hurt.” Ilya scoffs. “I’m fine.” “You’re bleeding,” Shane says. “You’re always bleeding.” Ilya bristles. “So what, you want me to just stand there?” “No,” Shane says, frustrated. “I want you to stop acting like violence is the only language you have.” That stings. “I didn’t fight because I don’t know any better,” Ilya says coldly. “I fought because someone said something about you.” “And I didn’t ask you to,” Shane fires back. “I don’t want to be the excuse you use to wreck yourself.” “Don’t do that,” Ilya says. “Don’t make it sound like I regret it.” “I’m not,” Shane says. “I’m saying I don’t like watching you pay the price.” “You don’t get to decide how I play,” Ilya snaps. “I’m not trying to,” Shane says. “I’m telling you how it feels to sit there and watch you throw your body into something that could cost you games, seasons, careers—” “So now I’m irresponsible,” Ilya interrupts. “No,” Shane says. “You’re reckless.” Silence slams down between them. Ilya’s voice drops. “You knew who I was.” “And you knew who I was,” Shane shoots back. “Someone who worries. Someone who loves you enough to be scared.” “That’s not my fault.” “I didn’t say it was,” Shane says. “But it is my reality.” Ilya runs a hand through his hair, pacing now. “You think the league is going to protect you? You think refs give a shit?” “I think you getting suspended doesn’t help me,” Shane snaps. “I think you getting concussed doesn’t help me. I think you bleeding on the ice because someone wanted to get under your skin about me doesn’t help either of us.” “So I should just let them say it,” Ilya says bitterly. “Let them think it’s okay.” “I’m asking you to trust me to handle my own battles,” Shane says. “I don’t need you throwing punches for me like I’m made of glass.” “I’m not protecting you because you’re weak,” Ilya says. “I’m protecting you because I love you.” “And I love you,” Shane fires back, voice breaking just a little, “which is why I don’t want to watch you destroy yourself.” “That’s dramatic,” Ilya snaps. “It was one fight.” “It’s never one fight,” Shane says. “It’s always one more.” “You don’t get to cherry-pick parts of me,” Ilya says. “Hockey is violent. You don’t get me without that.”

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  16. orange chicken, hockey, and other stupid fucking surprises by

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    When Dennis agrees to be the temporary on-site doctor for a Pittsburgh Penguins hockey game as a favor to a classmate from medical school, he’s not expecting much. He’s not the first-choice to be team doctor, and he’s definitely not a hockey guy. His plan is simple: hide out on the sidelines until he can go home and crawl into bed. Funny how plans change. Or: Ilya takes a slapshot to the face and gets treated by a doctor who looks like a wet kitten.

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  17. Home by

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    2026-02-25

    Shane was hurt and Ilya couldn’t be there with him. No one knew that he cared, that his boyfriend was in the hospital, not even Shane’s parents.

    OR: Yuna Hollander just wanted to grab some of Shane’s things from his apartment during his hospital stay. She didn't suspect she'd stumble across a home invasion, and that the perpetrator would be Ilya Rozanov.

    (Shane’s okay!)

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  18. Hallway of Horrors by

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    2026-02-24

    After coming out to Scott but leaving out some crucial information… Ilya and Shane are caught red handed by him and Kip.

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  19. i bet by

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    2026-02-24

    “No loopholes,” Wyatt says. “No ‘technically that was a forehead’ nonsense.” Ilya gasps. “No, no no. . .” he starts. “Deal.” Shane says. He glances at Ilya and there’s a flicker there; challenge accepted. Ilya’s grin turns sharp. “Fine. No kissing. All day. Is easy.” he shrugs. (ie. shane and ilya make a bet with their teammates but end up having an unexpected turn of events during the day)

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  20. When I Look in the Mirror (I see you too) by

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    2026-02-23

    At the MHL awards in Vegas there is only one bathroom back stage, it just so happens Scott Hunter is trying to get a breather when the two people he had been trying to avoid all night come in and seem to miss that he’s there.

    What will he overhear? And how will it change things.

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