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Shane and Ilya have their first fight as a couple.
It’s a lot less dramatic than Ilya makes it out to be.
- Part 19 of [challenge] Heated Rivalry Febuwhump 2026
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how could I ever hate him? by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-02-17
“Hello, moya lyubov,” he said sweetly. “How is your head?”
There was a pregnant pause where Shane must’ve stood there in shock, his mouth slightly agape as he lost the ability to use any of his bodily functions. Then Ilya moved to pull him into a hug, the physical contact shocking him back to reality. He pushed Ilya away from the door with his good hand, Ilya going along willingly, and closed the door as quietly as he could in his panic.
“Ilya, what are you doing here?” Shane asked, his voice barely contained. “How did you even get this address, did you find it online somehow?”
The softness in Ilya’s face morphed into a wicked grin, which didn’t make Shane feel any better.
“I got address from your mother, silly,” Ilya replied, without a hint of irony or sarcasm.
“My mother. You got. This address. From my mother.”
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A follow-up to "why do you hate him?". Shane doesn't remember much from his time in the hospital, which isn't helped when Ilya decides to surprise him at his parents' home. Shane knows he should be happy but...it's a shock, of course. But the time together allows Shane to learn a lot about Ilya that he'd never had the chance to before.
- Part 2 of hate Rozanov, not Ilya
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The Owners Have Entered the Chat by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-11
The team owners discuss Hollander's move to Ottawa.
- Part 3 of Panic! At The League
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In which Shane makes the headlines, Ilya has a history of terrible bedside manners, and the line between murder and manslaughter is the razor thin edge of intent.
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He doesn’t know how he ends up in the downstairs coat closet.
No memory exists of moving, of going down the staircase and shedding his ruined clothing until he’s only in his underwear, or opening the door and ripping all of Mama’s coats down to the floor. Vaguely, he recalls trembling in the cloud of her scent, stale and unhappy under the haze of old cigarettes.
What he remembers is flashes. Alexei, furious tears in his eyes, telling Papa he’d found Ilya. Papa, scowling down at him, snapping, “Ilya, get out of this closet right now.” One of Papa’s cop friends, saying, “Jesus, Grika, look at him. He’s in h—” and Papa replying coldly, “Not another word.”
Papa, kneeling in front of the closet, saying in an uncomfortable, painfully false, soft voice, “Synok, come out now. You cannot nest here.”
- Part 8 of all dwk heated rivalry fics
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Ilya Rozanov, get loved.
- Part 1 of Duty of Care
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Honor Code Violations by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-08
Shane’s honor society mountain retreat and Ilya’s frat council getaway get double-booked. Rooms are limited, beds are fewer, and somehow Shane and Ilya are stuck sharing one. Can they survive the weekend without reigniting the scorching encounter from last semester… or will chaos (and maybe a little gay panic) break out first?
OR: Chaos, accidental bed-sharing, enemies-to-lovers, frat vs. honor society, college AU, definitely not PG
- Part 1 of Cabin Fever
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Three times Shane had meltdowns. Once when he's alone, then Ilya's first time seeing him have one, and lastly Ilya's umpteenth time, when he knows exactly how to help. Probably not book-canon (haven't read them), title from No Surprises by radiohead
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Some days, Ilya feels carved open.
Not all coping mechanisms are healthy. But sometimes, they just have to get you through.
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Neutral Zone by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-07
When more than half of the MLH gets stranded during a snow storm, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov find themselves not only roommates, but they get stuck with the one room that has only one bed. Who knows how long they'll have to deal with being stuck with one another, but at least their friends Hayden Pike and Cliff Marlow are also there, right? What could go wrong...?
Or Shane is forced to share a room with Ilya while Hayden is forced to share a room with Cliff for a few days and HayLow tries to play detective.
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It's all Canadian Vodka's fault by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-06
In the early hours of Saturday, the Hockey world was ablaze with the news that Ilya Rozanov was dead. Killed in a tragic car accident leaving behind a slew of devastated fans and a grieving husband still reeling in shock.
The news also came as an incredible shock to Ilya when he awoke that same day, hungover and bleary, but very much alive.
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How a Russian Takes his Porridge by lavagirlultra
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-05
Ilya's supposed to tell Shane when he's getting bad again. He's promised, over and over, to ask for help. To reach out. To let Shane take care of him for once. Ilya genuinely means it when he makes this promise. He has no intention of breaking it. The issue is this: Ilya doesn't always realize things are getting bad. Actually, he almost never notices until someone else does. or: In the midst of a depressive episode, Ilya wonders if Shane truly understands what he's signing up for.
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The realisation that Ilya doesn’t have a lot of pictures of himself comes early on in their actual relationship.
Looking for footage to use in promo for the hockey camps associated with The Irina Foundation unearths some ghosts.
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we're the product of love (that we do not receive). by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-02
Maybe together they could figure out a way to make sure Ilya was never afraid of David again. He really didn’t want to be afraid of David.
“Is… silly.” Ilya said. “Maybe not silly, but now that we are here and not there, I see it was silly. I broke the wine, and I thought - maybe everyone will be angry. And…” Clearing his throat, Ilya pushed past his discomfort to spit out the next part. “Well, angry back in Russia is not the same as angry here, I think.”
“What was angry like back in Russia?”
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Ilya drops a bottle of wine, and it's fine. Really, it's fine. If only someone could tell Ilya's brain that.
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Shane experiences a cryptic pregnancy and gives birth during his and Ilya’s first game against the Metros. He deals with the aftermath and struggles to adjust whilst suffering from postpartum depression . Scared of losing Ilya and ruining his daughter’s life he finds himself breaking down and in fear of what he’s become.
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“Hi Irina.” Ilya feels his blood still in his veins. His vision almost immediately blurs at the sound of his mother’s name falling so gently from Shane’s lips. Shane rambles something, almost to himself, before: “I’m Shane. Shane Hollander. And I’m in love with your son, Ilya.” Ilya’s breath catches, heart lurching in his chest, fluttering almost painfully as the realization hits him: He’s introducing himself to her. . . or Shane talks to Ilya’s mom, Ilya overhears.
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candle in the window (won't you stay till the am?) by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-29
Shane Hollander meets Ilya Rozanov when he is four years old and he cannot be any more unimpressed by this turn of events.
Thirteen years later, like the most cliché heartbreak in the making, they are best friends and Shane is thoroughly, utterly in love with him.
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Ilya Rozanov's life has been a study in leaving things behind and one way or another he learned to deal with it.
One exception is Shane Hollander who came along thirteen years ago, settled in all too cozy, and ensured himself as the one thing Ilya can't ever leave.
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to the tempo of your uptight (he flickers through your damage) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-29
It didn’t really click for Shane until his boyfriend nearly broke down their steel-inforced bathroom door to get to him; Something Is Wrong With Ilya.
or: Ilya goes off the deep end. Shane doesn’t realize he’s already down there with him.
- Part 2 of Merry Christmas, Please Don't Call
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call it what you want by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-28
When Canadian transfer student Shane Hollander joins Boston University’s Division 1 hockey team, he expects intense practices, elite competition, and the pressure to be drafted. What he doesn't expect is to be roped up into tutoring the infuriatingly talented, infamous frat boy Ilya Rozanov. Between late-night study sessions, high-stakes games, and reckless frat parties—how will either of them survive the season?
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Frat Boy Ilya Rozanov x Nerdy Shane Hollander
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and when it rains on this side of town, it touches everything by canadianwolfbird
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-27
Suddenly, there’s the sensation of a hand in his and Ilya smiles, turning to see his mother, Irina. She’s just as beautiful as he remembers. “Hi, mom.” A sad smile crosses Irina’s face in return - a smile Ilya was all too familiar with as a child. It’s the smile she used when she was trying to cover her pain. Ilya is confused - he thought his mother might be happy to see him, the way he is happy to see her. “What’s wrong?” Irina shakes her head a little, staying silent. “Tell me, please,” Ilya says, a little desperate. “You need to go home, Ilyushka.” His mother shakes her head again, squeezing his hand. “This is not your home.”
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