i pray that something picks me up and sets me down in your warm arms
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If there was one person or thing on earth that could keep him here, it’s Shane. Ilya knows he’s been lucky to love Shane and be loved by Shane, especially for as long as they have. There’s people who go their whole lifetimes without ever knowing or feeling that sort of love, and Ilya was lucky to find it in this lifetime - he prays he’ll find Shane again in the next one. But Shane deserves so much more than the broken mind Ilya is living with. Shane deserves to not have to put up with Ilya’s meltdowns and depression spells and crying jags. Shane deserves to be happy. Shane deserves to put his whole focus into someone worth the trouble, and Ilya knows he’s not worth the trouble any more.
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and when it rains on this side of town, it touches everything by canadianwolfbird
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-27
Suddenly, there’s the sensation of a hand in his and Ilya smiles, turning to see his mother, Irina. She’s just as beautiful as he remembers. “Hi, mom.” A sad smile crosses Irina’s face in return - a smile Ilya was all too familiar with as a child. It’s the smile she used when she was trying to cover her pain. Ilya is confused - he thought his mother might be happy to see him, the way he is happy to see her. “What’s wrong?” Irina shakes her head a little, staying silent. “Tell me, please,” Ilya says, a little desperate. “You need to go home, Ilyushka.” His mother shakes her head again, squeezing his hand. “This is not your home.”
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