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Beneficiaries by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-09-11
Following an afternoon of sex and tuna melts, Shane goes searching for the explicit rules of what being 'friends with benefits' entails. In his humble opinion, they're nailing it.
Once friendship is on the table, Shane reconsiders the usefulness and immutability of the public rivalry narrative. Surely the NHL can make just as much money from a bromance as it can from a rivalry?
A missed call from J.J., a dinner at All-Stars, and an ill-considered mad dash to the airport send Shane's season in a very different direction to the disciplined three-peat he'd been planning back in October.
"This rivalry thing: it was everyone else who said we hated each other off the ice. There’s no rule that says we have to keep doing that forever.” Shane stared outside, past the blinding billboards and down at the streets below. “It was nice. Hanging out, last time.”
He knew what it looked like when Rozanov shut down, when he closed himself off and pushed the world away. He’d finish the conversation abruptly, curt, clipped, and retreat. So Shane knew he’d won when Rozanov finally answered with: “Are we six years old, Hollander? Asking if I want to play in sandbox with you?"
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 73,203
- Chapters:
- 13/13
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #89157696
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for assistance, please call 1-800-go-fuck-yourself by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-09-10
Brad Hammersmith @BHammerRaiders
Replying to @raidersfangirl26 @BHammerRaiders
@raidersfangirl26 Uh…what did I ever do to you, random teenage girl hockey fan?ella @raidersfangirl26
Replying to @BHammerRaiders @raidersfangirl26
you skate like bambi on ice and i find it personally offensive. i can recommend a retirement home if you’d likeBrad Hammersmith @BHammerRaiders
Replying to @raidersfangirl26 @BHammerRaiders
What the fuck? I’m 34. And why did you tweet last month that “brad hammersmith looks like he has a not-like-the-other-girls complex but he actually is like the other girls”. What does that mean?!ella @raidersfangirl26
Replying to @BHammerRaiders @raidersfangirl26
you forgot the part where i said it’s ok to be like the other girls-
In which a group of unlikely queers terrorizes the whole of the NHL, Boston, Montreal, and Ottawa, but most of all…each other.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 109,109
- Chapters:
- 16/16
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #87664181
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Bright Particular Star by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-09-02
1987. New York Admirals Captain Scott Hunter is fifteen seasons deep into the kind of hockey career most players can only dream of and keeping one hell of a secret. He navigates his life in NYC, intimately aware at every turn that a single photograph or a trace of a rumor could end his livelihood.
Kip Grady has never known how to hide. A grad student and early organizer for ACT UP, he spends his days marching through the Village and organizing mutual aid, fighting for a queer community battling for its life against a devastating epidemic. When their paths cross, Scott is forced to consider the limits of his carefully constructed closet and decide if he is finally ready to stand in the light.
OR: Scott and Kip meet in 80s NYC at the height of the AIDS crisis.
Additional Spoilers HereI promise that these characters do not, at any point, contract HIV: Scott, Kip, Ilya, and Shane.
Scott and Kip, as well as Shane and Ilya, will all have the happiest ending possible given the constraints of the time period.
- Part 2 of Defective
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 55,740
- Chapters:
- 4/8
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #87891491
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A House in Nebraska by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-09-01
Shane Hollander doesn't know what he is. He knows what he wants. For a long time, he tells himself those are different things.
Ilya Rozanov knows what he is. He can't control what he wants. For a long time, he tells himself those are the same thing.
They’re just boys who handle it badly—from a junior tournament in Canada to the NHL draft to the moment a security camera at the end of a hallway changes everything
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Shane and Ilya are discovered before they even play their first game
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 114,579
- Chapters:
- 15/15
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #87605006
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With All My Heart by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-08-27
“Well…” Ilya grinned mischievously, “I know you were upset about not getting a nice WAG basket. I am not sure if I did this right, though.” He stood up and grabbed the first and smallest basket and handed it to Shane who was still sitting on the couch. Nowadays most women just sent everything in a cardboard box. Ilya’s basket looked like one of the ones at the grocery store near Easter time, but tiny. It was woven and clumsily wrapped in cellophane. “The woman at the store said I needed a bag to put the basket in. I do not see the point of this, but for you I wanted the best, so I bought the bags.”
or
Long distance relationships are hard. Long distance relationships when no one knows you’re in one are the hardest. Shane and Ilya find creative ways to stay connected using the tradition of WAG baskets given to Voyageurs' players before playoffs.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 51,574
- Chapters:
- 23/23
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #91422661
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Lily-Jane's Agency by Theoz_wolf
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-26
'𝙎𝙥𝙤𝙧𝙩𝙨 𝙄𝙡𝙡𝙪𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝙁𝙄𝙂𝙃𝙏 𝙊𝙁𝙁 𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝙄𝘾𝙀 𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙎𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙚 𝙃𝙤𝙡𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙥𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙚𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙮𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨 𝙗𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙨𝙤𝙣.' '𝙋𝙚𝙤𝙥𝙡𝙚 𝘼𝙏 𝙇𝘼𝙎𝙏 𝙄𝙣𝙨𝙞𝙙𝙚 𝙎𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙚 𝙃𝙤𝙡𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧'𝙨 𝙚𝙢𝙤𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡 𝙘𝙪𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙙𝙮 𝙫𝙞𝙘𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙮—𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙛𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙬𝙝𝙤 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙜𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙪𝙥.' '"𝙄 𝘾𝙖𝙣 𝙁𝙞𝙣𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙅𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝘽𝙚 𝙃𝙞𝙨 𝘿𝙖𝙙": 𝙎𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙚 𝙃𝙤𝙡𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧 𝙒𝙞𝙣𝙨 𝘾𝙪𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙙𝙮 𝘽𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚' ・・・・・ "What now, Daddy?" the boy asked, his voice quiet and curious. "And now..." Shane smiled, resting his forehead against the boy's. "You're going to come live with me. Forever. Just you and me, buddy."
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 194,943
- Chapters:
- 25/25
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #89486481
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nowhere to go but on by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-08-26
“What do you want, Rozanov?”
Once upon a time, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov had been something of fated rivals. And then. Rozanov's national team crashed and burned in the 2014 Olympics in his own country. Shortly thereafter, he requested a trade to a Canadian team without much explanation, and by the end of the season, he was playing for Ottawa. Years of buildup and progress thrown away. The rivalry lost its luster after that, with Rozanov hardly a competition.
Now, Rozanov was looking at Shane as if they shared a private joke. “I have, ah, Marly, what's the word? Proposition? Proposal?”
“Business offer,” groaned Marlow, drawing his eyebrows together.
“That,” Rozanov smirked. “Let's sit down, Hollander. Hear me out.”
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Or: Shane and Ilya never started hooking up. Several years into their career, some things are very different. At an All-Star game, the only out and proud player in the MLH approaches Shane with the suggestion to start a charity together. It's the beginning of something life changing.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 34,531
- Chapters:
- 17/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81368116
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I already chose you, Ilya by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-08-25
“I might be busy having sex with Troy,” Ilya said tightly.
Ilya makes a joke about having sex with Troy. What he doesn't know is how deeply the joke hurt Shane. Two days and many unanswered calls later, they finally talk. And Ilya learns how much Shane has been silently carrying all these years.
"Would you even choose me, Shane?"
"I already chose you, Ilya."
Or: Shane crashes out after years of stupid jokes about his diet, homophobic slurs thrown at him, racist environment, and one unfortunate joke about Troy Barrett.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,333
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #91331431
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things go to hell (now that i've found it) by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-08-24
"The thing is, Shane has always thought he was going to retire in Montreal. He’s spent his whole childhood watching his mom praise them, and wanting to be just like them. He’s had dreams of his jersey getting retired here. He doesn’t want to leave. He wants everything to go back to how it was before Hayden showed up at his door yesterday. He wants to retire a Voyager, he wants to be a Voyager, he’s always wanted to be a Voyager. But he can’t turn back time, and he can’t make himself think that the environment is going to magically get better. He’s already muted the Montreal Voyagers chat after too many jokes at his expense. If they’re that confident behind a screen, who knows how they’ll feel in person. He’s their captain. He should be better than this. This shouldn’t be getting to him. He wants to stop thinking about this. He wants Ilya."
or:
Shane gets outed to Montreal a lot earlier than he originally planned to (aka never). The plan he and Ilya made needs to change drastically, as Shane finds himself the one trading teams instead of Ilya. Some things stay the same, but some things change.OR:
The Shane gets traded to New Jersey fic that no one asked for but I wanted to write.- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 190,634
- Chapters:
- 30/30
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #80710956
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Hyaline (see-through) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-24
Click.
“Is she with you?”- Part 2 of The recognition so richly deserved
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 65,417
- Chapters:
- 13/13
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84692881
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can on a string by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-23
His sister grabs him firmly by the shoulders. “Shane Hollander. My brother, my wombmate, my least favourite twin. I literally do. not. care. if you introduce yourself to this boy or not, but you have been yammering about him nonstop for fucking days and you very clearly want to talk to him, so as your older sister–”
“–I was literally born first–”
“You were removed first, we both know God wanted me to–”
“You were breech and tried to take your fucking placenta with you, I don’t think ‘God’–”
“A girl causes an almost-fatal hemorrhage one time and no one ever lets her fucking forget it! Whatever! The point is that you clearly want to talk to this guy and we just saw him walk over there alone so now is your perfect fucking chance! Just go say hi! Stop overthinking it!”
“Wow, stop overthinking, what revolutionary advice. Thank you so much for that game-changing fuc–”
She punches him in the shoulder hard enough to actually hurt. “Okay how about this, fuckface: either you go introduce yourself to him or I will.”
OR: My brain said what if Shane Hollander had a sister, and then all this happened. Bon appetite.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 32,874
- Chapters:
- 9/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #87693446
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Marcus Lewis knew he would be a superstar. The media pundits, hockey heads, and even casual fans gave him the moniker of generational talent. It was evident when he was drafted as the 6th pick of the 2023 MHL Draft to the Carolina Reapers. He was destined to greatness. After a rocky rookie season, unironically crushing hard on his teammate Anong “Star” Okafor, and a controversial trade that sent him to his home team – the Boston Bears – Marcus now had to reflect on what it meant being a superstar as a Queer Black man and how to love his own shining star.
Yamhead Ash Cooper’s contribution to the GCU – introducing Marcus Lewis and Anong “Star” Okafor
Inspired by: Shining Star by Earth, Wind and Fire.- Part 7 of Shane and Dem Boyz
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 22,419
- Chapters:
- 5/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #87620341
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Slow Dancing in the Dark by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-08-18
There were things about Shane Hollander that existed only in the dark, and those things were most of him.
or; a moment of vulnerability at a team gathering turns into a viral scandal overnight when a video of Shane coming out is leaked to the press.
Suddenly, everyone is watching. Everyone is talking. Everyone is judging.
It all goes to hell—until maybe it doesn't.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 155,505
- Chapters:
- 7/11
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #85806666
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Once More With Feeling by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-08-17
When Brad leaks the FanMail, Hayden Pike is pretty certain that this is something he’ll never be able to atone for, no matter how much he wishes he could. Of course, this was before he wakes up in the past - 2014, to be exact, after the Olympics when Shane is being ghosted by ‘Boston Lily’. Hayden knows that Boston Lily does not exist. Shane does not know that Hayden knows this. Hayden is determined that he will be a better ally this time around - and, in the name of this purpose, decides that he needs to try his hand at being the best openly bisexual hockey player that the world could ask for. With his wife fully supportive of this and Cliff Marlow also… there, Hayden sets out to achieve the best friend of the year award.
or - Hayden Pike queerbaits his way into true love and a reformation of locker room culture. Is there an easier way he could have done this? Yeah, probably. In his defence, he thinks it's more authentic this way.
- Part 17 of AUgust 2026
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 9,374
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #90525356
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I Know You’re Up At Night by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-08-16
In a state of extreme horniness, Shane agrees to make a spicy video for Ilya, and it unfortunately doesn’t stay between just them. One guess as to whose fault it is that it leaks (you're only half right).
(Set in the 2015-2016 season)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 85,618
- Chapters:
- 33/33
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82447896
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it's the monster hiding under your bed by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-09
Shane’s ex-girlfriends keep coming out as queer. He’s trying to be supportive, he really is, okay? Listen, he’s an ally! But it’s sort of becoming a problem. For pretty obvious reasons, because people are definitely starting to notice—Ilya most of all.
(AKA, I give Shane the most absurd queer community and convoluted coming-of-age journey of all time and it still somehow gradually makes things better in the long run.)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 18,501
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #90071081
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When the news about Scott Hunter and his boyfriend is leaked to the media, Ilya Rozanov knows that he isn’t going to hear from Shane Hollander for a while. One phone call is all it takes to confirm that Boston Lily is officially on Montreal Jane’s list of blocked contacts. For Shane, Scott Hunter being outed is evidence of all his worst fears. For Ilya, Scott Hunter being out is a window into another world entirely - and he is determined to make that world his own. More than that, he is determined to share that world with Shane, no matter how long it takes.
or - Scott and Kip come out earlier. Ilya Rozanov loses his boyfriend, loses his father, and gives up his home. There’ll be a cottage, eventually.
- Part 8 of AUgust 2026
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 11,894
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #90070916
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After Shane comes out, the Metros become convinced he might be attracted to them.
Shane corrects this assumption with devastating precision, accidentally describes Ilya Rozanov in the process, and somehow turns the entire locker room into a deranged pageant of heterosexual insecurity.
- Part 1 of Prompts
- Part 1 of Metros & Centaurs Assemble ♡
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 35,048
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #86901701
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YUNA HOLLANDER, TERRIFYING HOCKEY WITCH by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-07-27
Yuna Hollander is the greatest and most terrifying hockey witch in the world. In 2008, a young Russian hockey player travels with his team to have her predict his future. He doesn't know she has a son his age. He's about to find out a lot more than he ever expected.
Or, what if Heated Rivalry was a soulmate AU with witchcraft, curses, and elemental powers?
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 10,054
- Chapters:
- 2/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85763211
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it's always been you by canadienne_loon (hey_dj)
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-07-21
Ilya left the Boston Raiders and joined the Ottawa Centaurs in search of something else. He just would have never imagined that after leaving his heart in Montreal after university, he would find it again in Ottawa, grocery shopping with a child and speaking Russian. OR: Shane and Ilya meet and fall in love in university and get a second chance when Ilya comes to Ottawa, where Shane is the co-owner and head chef of a popular restaurant.
- Part 1 of The Hollanov Household
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 104,241
- Chapters:
- 33/33
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #88075206