1 – 9 of 9 Works in Gay Panic

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  1. Starting before then running concurrently with the events of Mr. Answer Man, this is Scott's perspective on the first three years of Shane and Ilya's growing relationship. You do not need to have read Mr. Answer Man to understand this (I hope!) but I recommend it.

    Scott Hunter is 25 years old, Captain of the New York Admirals, and privately, achingly, gay. He meets Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov at the 2009 MLH draft day, and everyone involved immediately gets several wrong ideas. For the next three years, Scott has to navigate his place as a closeted gay man in the spotlight of major league hockey, while trying to protect an oblivious baby queer from an obviously straight Russian menace who can't seem to stay away.

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    AO3:
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  2. “So, you think you might be bisexual?” Again, it’s apparently the wrong thing to ask, because Pike huffs and sets both beer bottles on the counter before angrily knocking utensils out of his way in a drawer.

    “What’s it to you?” Pike snaps as he uncaps the two beers and slides one a few inches in Ilya’s direction.

    “I did just take a fifteen-minute cab to fuck you,” Ilya speaks slowly in case that’s what Pike needs to understand. “At your request. After admitting online that you think you might be–”

    Or: Ilya, heartbroken and bored in a Montreal hotel room, comes across a post on Reddit. Responding to it is one of the dumbest, most exciting things he’s done in a long time.

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  3. After Shane comes out, the Metros become convinced he might be attracted to them.

    Shane corrects this assumption with devastating precision, accidentally describes Ilya Rozanov in the process, and somehow turns the entire locker room into a deranged pageant of heterosexual insecurity.

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  4. Before Shane loses his nerve, he goes to give the water back to Rozanov. This time, when Rozanov intentionally puts his fingers over Shane's own, his senses come alive. It heats him up from the inside. This overwhelming urge to touch, to kiss, to be touched. He wanted Rozanov to touch him. Or: the one where Shane is tired of being boring.

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  5. Shane Hollander hated changes. Changes brought him anxiety and panic attacks. Coming out to his parents like this changed everything. This is a story set at the cottage after Shane and Ilya had their dinner with Shane's parents and it looks into Shane's anxiety caused by his dad walking in on them.

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  6. so after ilya comes to the hospital, Shane freaks out (like always) but not to ilya. he decides in his medicated state to call rose. and he panics to her.

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  7. As he kept gazing at Ilya, he suddenly felt like his pants had gotten weirdly uncomfortable. Like they were suddenly too tight. He glanced down at himself and felt like his heart was about to jump out of his chest when he noticed the bulge on him. What on earth was that? He stared down at himself for a moment, in shock. Then, he decided he would try to push it down; maybe that would help. He startled even more when his own action made him let out an undignified, weird sound. Like a groan, but not really. Why had that felt so good? He just stared at himself for another moment, horrified. He tried it again. He had no idea what he was doing, but it felt wrong. Like, he shouldn’t do something that made him react like that. He glanced up, realising he was still very inappropriately watching the naked priest, and exhaled when he hadn’t been spotted yet. ⋆ ˚。 ⋆୨♡୧⋆ ˚。 ⋆ OR Shane has led a sheltered life with his family, growing up deeply religious in a small village somewhere in medieval Europe. His quiet world is disturbed when a new priest takes over the town's church. OR Shane is really fucking gay, and he has no idea that it is even an option. ⋆ ˚。 ⋆୨♡୧⋆ ˚。 ⋆

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  8. 5 times Shane Hollander makes a conscious effort to publicly display his affection for Ilya Rozanov, and 1 time he doesn't need to think so hard about it.

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  9. "Yeah, um. Thanks, I guess." Hollander's reply was vacant, and Ilya moved to gather his clothes and pull his boxers on, taking care to keep his movements smooth and casual. He had to get away. Now. Before he did or said something unfortunate. One word from Hollander, naked on the edge of the bed, derailed his plans. "Wait," Hollander pleaded, and there was something undeniably vulnerable in his voice. Ilya hesitated immediately, turned back to the bed. "Hollander?" --- Hotel room 1822 in Montreal, February 2011. What if Ilya did stay a little longer?

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