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“-can’t see each other again,” Ilya says, looking only at Shane’s hand, holding it so, so gently and stroking over Shane’s skin so, so softly. The soothing feeling of it makes it very hard to focus, but Shane tries very hard to do it anyway. “I tried-we tried, but this can’t happen again.” It takes a moment, but Shane finally manages to make sense of the words, and he lets out a soft noise of understanding.
Ah. He’s apologizing that he won’t be able to see Shane in the hospital again before he leaves.
“I understand,” he says, and he does. It was probably really hard for Ilya to get here even once, and it can’t be very long before his plane leaves. He’s sad, of course–they didn’t even get to spend time together, really–but it’s not like this will be the last chance they ever have to see each other. He gives Ilya his best attempt at a smile, and if it comes out a little sad, too, all Ilya does is reach out to stroke the backs of his fingers gently over his cheek.
(ilya goes through with his plan to break up with shane in the hospital) (the problem? shane is too high to understand that he's being broken up with)
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brátishka by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Yuri!!! on Ice (Anime), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-04-10
Sometimes, Ilya Rozanov is just a weird guy. Obviously, the Bears aren’t going to say that to his face, not when he’ll chirp them into oblivion for it, but sometimes it just gets out of hand.
Like the late night phone calls where he’s talking aggressively in Russian. The random knowledge he has offhand about how far you can throw a human being and have them come out okay. The Russian death metal he forces them to listen to, calling it family bonding. The scars he refuses to talk about.
Cliff Marleau thinks he might be in the Russian mob. The Bratva, or whatever they call it.
Ilya doesn't tell his team about his family until they've already invented a thousand conspiracies about it. Like him being in the mob. Or having rabies.
In which Ilya Rozanov and Yuri Plisetsky are brothers, and the world changes with the most minute of connections.
Now featuring Shane and Ilya's POVs on the canon divergence starting from chapter 5.
- Part 3 of crackin' open a cold one
- Part 1 of in all but name
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“Do you want that problem to go away?” Ilya smiles sadly, “It probably would make things easier, wouldn’t it?” Shane doesn’t know how he keeps his expression neutral. He doesn’t know how the heartbreak doesn’t bloom vividly across his features. His entire chest feels as if it’s caving in on itself. He knew this moment was coming. He knew it was only a matter of time. That doesn’t make it hurt any less.
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“Are you hurt?” Ilya presses in the long silence. “Is bad?”
Another indistinct sound, maybe movement, comes over the speaker before Shane talks again. “A little. Maybe. I don't know. I…” he trails off as a background noise draws his attention. “Shit. Shit, Ilya, I have to-”
The call disconnects before Shane can explain what he has to do. Ilya lowers the phone, staring at the blinking four letters above the painfully short call duration, and swipes the redial button without a second thought.
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Shane calls Ilya for help.
- Part 4 of kill me (romantically)
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Shall We Talk About Home? by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-04-09
“My boyfriend thinks I’m an idiot,” Ilya says. "Well, not really but a bit, maybe.”
“Your boyfriend?” Sandra, the queer studies professor sits down, hard.
“Yes, he thinks it is not smart to say faggot in the locker room when you are locked in the closet and Russia has the keys.”
Ilya had been talking about himself when he’d said it. Making a joke. Sailing a little close to the wind, sick of listening to the background hum of homophobic bullshit. But someone had been filming. The video went viral. The Raiders panicked under the terrible PR. Now he was here.
Sent to Queer Studies 101 to appease twitter. Because he’d been cancelled. For being a homophobe. If was fucking ridiculous.
He turns to the professor. “So, can you help me take on Putin and NHL at same time or I need more advanced class for this?”
Plus Chapter 2 – Social media chapter. Once they've been outed, Ilya gets to demand an apology from twitter.
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Emily @emilystwitterstuff21 Shane Hollander being a physically and emotionally abusive boyfriend was not on my bingo card this year. What the fuck is going on?? Clara @hockeyfan101 Of all hockey players it's SHANE HOLLANDER??? The golden boy of the NHL that does no wrong?? Omg. Istg men are trash. Or: everyone thinks Shane abuses his girlfriend Lily, and Yuna Hollander is not at all amused about, while Shane is just upset that his parents have such an issue with him being gay.
- Part 1 of Kate’s wild twitter posts
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Until You Breathe Again by underthewolfstars
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-04-08
Yuna's hand meets Ilya’s. The rivalry status that the league had painted over her son's relationship with the Russian now cast aside. They clutch to each other in silent acknowledgement of their shared pain, hope and fear in what had just manifested before their eyes. There's a uniting force in pain and grief—It's one that wipes slates clean, makes you forgive, makes you love harder and appreciate more than you ever thought possible. Everything she ever knew or felt about the Russian whose hand she now clung to was dissolved Shane Hollander briefly dies on the Ice after the hit from Marlow in the Montreal vs Boston Game. Ilya handles his emotions poorly and has a very public meltdown revealing their relationship to the world.
- Part 1 of underthewolfstars hollanov fics
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I trace your constellations by stupidnephlim
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-08
When Ilya and his mother move to Ottawa after escaping his abusive father, he didn't expect to find his new neighbour Shane Hollander so endearing.
- Part 6 of Hollonov written to song lyrics
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In Which Hayden Pike Saves Hollanov With the Power of Being a Toddler Dad by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-08
Look.
Hayden knows he isn't the most observant guy. His teammates tell him, Jacki tells him, Ruby and Jade tell him - well, they say, "Daddy, you ran into the coffee table again" - but even he's not so unobservant that he won't notice Shane leaving in one outfit and coming back in a significantly different one that's a size too big.
Or, Hayden Pike learns some things he wishes he hadn't but ultimately figures it's for the greater good.
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Liliya squirms slightly as he slides her tiny arms into the sleeves, her face scrunching in mild protest. "I know, I know," Shane murmurs, smiling faintly. "Not your favourite thing." He glances briefly at the phone, then back to her. "Maybe one day," he says quietly, "we can show this to your papa." There's a subtle shift in the room. Yuna's smile falters just slightly. David, standing nearby, looks down for a moment before composing himself. Shane doesn't stop. "This is the day you came home," he tells her. "The first day of the rest of our lives kiddo." His fingers are careful as he buttons the cardigan, adjusting it so it sits just right. "I think he'd like to see this,” he adds softly. Or, Shane and Ilya sleep together the day they meet in December 2008. Shane ends up pregnant. Ilya has no idea, it’s only when their daughter is diagnosed with a rare genetic disorder that Shane realises he has no choice but the break the silence between them.
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2 AM Cliff is not thinking clearly. Or maybe he's thinking extra clearly. He can't decide, but either way he's upset and he's buying makeup on Ebay.
- Part 2 of for years or for hours
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Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov got married in secret and for two whole years, they lived their life quietly.
They broke apart quietly, too.
The worst part is that none of it feels right. Not their continued rivalry on the ice, not the divorce papers on Shane’s table, and definitely not the idea of saying goodbye. There are too many wounds untouched, too many things left unsaid, and too much love between them still.
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So what is the plan now, Mr. Spreadsheet?
“Honestly I was kind of hoping your consciousness would just click back into your body once I touched you.” Shane scratches the back of his head.
You treat me like slap bracelet, Ilya complains.
After a bad hit knocks Ilya’s consciousness out of his body — literally — Shane finds himself sheltering the soul of his decade-long situationship in the back of his head. Turns out it’s a lot harder to keep secrets when you share a body.
(They definitely still try, though.)
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infiltrators by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-04-06
Shane Hollander was traded to the Ottawa Centaurs without ever being outed. His relationship with Ilya Rozanov is still a secret to most people.
Everything was going just fine, until they both get added to the Centaurs WAGs group chat.- Part 1 of Schrödinger's WAG
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“You’re a fucking degenerate, just like your uncle! Get out of my house!”
Yulya Rozanova has nothing left after her father kicks her out when he finds some pictures of Yulya kissing a girl, just a bit of cash and a slip of paper with an address in Canada on it.
Maybe it's time to find her uncle.
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violate all the love that I’m missing by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-06
“I want you to stay here tonight.”
Scott squeezes, and Kip thinks he can feel the bones in his wrist press together. Is he strong enough to break them? Would he try?
Of course not, Kip thinks. That’s crazy. It’s just a game. But he really wants it to bruise, at least.
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He gnaws at the guilt of his own actions the way Anya does her chew toys for days after, Shane clearly picking up on something going on with him but also giving him space to work it over in his head until he’s ready to share.
Right up until they’re out at team dinner and the two other smokers at the table excuse themselves for a smoke outside and Shane looks to him expectantly-
-only to frown when Ilya stays where he is.
(how and why ilya finally gives up smoking)
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The twin brothers Shane and Ethan are identical — so alike they’re impossible to tell apart.
For years, Ethan vanished without a trace. Then, just as suddenly, he reappears with an unusual request: he wants Shane to take his place for a while.
Shane agrees, unaware that Ethan’s past is filled with secrets, enemies, and danger.
Worse still, Ethan is married — to the powerful and irresistibly hot husband Ilya Rozanov.What could possibly go wrong?
Or: What if Shane has a twin brother — one who looks exactly like him but couldn’t be more different? And what if that twin brother just happens to be married to the unbelievably hot Ilya Rozanov?
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Reckless & Young by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-05
Ilya was used to hazing. He had been subjected to it, he had participated in it, and, as a captain, he had stood guard over the rookies and protected them from anything truly harmful. But if he had been asked, Ilya would have approved of this prank. He would have authorized it, given Cliff and Vicky his seal of approval, perhaps even helped orchestrate it.
Any other day, Ilya might have been happy to play along.
But, in perfect dramatic irony, it had not happened any other day. It had happened today. And, cherry on top, of course the rookie had to walk in when Shane was already freaking out about Ilya saying his name.
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A prank-gone-wrong leads to the Boston Bears finding out about Shane and Ilya’s relationship in 2016. The day Ilya first invited Shane into his house. Right after they say each other’s names for the first time. Fuck his life, honestly.
- Part 1 of lost in the haze
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nothing makes me feel as good by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-04
JJ didn't think the others saw it. Hayden, maybe, but Jackie was the only WAGs's name Shane had committed to memory so Hayden never brought it up. JJ didn't have a wife or girlfriend. He had his hookups and the names of the best restaurants in each city they player in. If JJ had a dog, Shane would probably mix its name up with Drapeau's. The others didn't get that however pathetic or sad they might think Shane, Shane thought the same of them tenfold when they missed shots at practice or ate fast food on weekdays. Shane wasn't being prissy or funny when he said, don't embarass me—JJ still doesn't know exactly what it was, but he doesn't care to find out.
Shane had poured everything into his team (possessively: it was his team) and he asked them to give it back that day, so they delivered. When Shane smiled at them afterwards, it felt like love.
Character study on neurotic batshit hardass Captain Shane Hollander. The awe-inspiring and aloof Canadian Hockey Jesus Shane Hollander. Unwilling MLH sex icon Shane Hollander, the face on many mens' dart boards.
or, JJ on the enigma of (his feelings for) Shane Hollander over the years.
- Part 1 of playing it any way i want
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