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Carter Did Not Sign Up For This (He Got Voluntold By Shane Hollander) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-05-28
"Did. You. Mean. It."
Carter Vaughn doesn't mind if his afternoon nap gets interrupted for a good cause. Which is good for him because Shane Hollander is so far past asking permission he may well bulldoze them all into a different universe.
Or: After Ilya gets outed in Sochi, Shane Hollander is determined to help. Carter, who possesses a healthy sense of self-preservation, is too smart to stand in his way—but, as it turns out, not quite smart enough to stay out of the drama.
- Part 2 of maximal confusion, some believability
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,813
- Chapters:
- 1/4
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85530921
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Breathing Room by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-05-26
Shane Hollander arrives in Vegas with a question he hasn’t spoken out loud.
It isn’t complicated, exactly. It’s just the kind of question that requires honesty he isn’t sure he’s ready for - about what he and Ilya Rozanov have been doing for the past few years, about what six months of silence after Sochi actually meant, and about whether any of it is worth staying close to or whether he finally needs to go.
He gets his answer in a locked bathroom at the NHL Awards.
Ilya spends the summer convinced that Shane is fine. Upset? Yes. Angry? Definitely. But Shane always felt things fiercely despite what everyone said about him when he had his back turned. He’d calm down over the summer and then he’d be there like he always had been. He fills the silence with discipline and routine and the comfortable certainty that later is still available to him.
He’s wrong.
By the time Ilya understands what he actually lost, Shane is already gone; and Ilya is left trying to find a way back to someone who closed the door long before Ilya had ever thought to just walk through it.
- Part 1 of The Distance Between Us
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 77,974
- Chapters:
- 11/11
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84850786
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oh god i didn't mean to (and what if he can't see him?) by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-05-26
oh my god
Connors: it wasn't your fault marly he came out of nowhere you couldn't have anticipated it
oh my god
there was so much blood
i cant fucking breathe
Carmichael: where are you marly
i hurt hollander
fuck i swear i didn't mean to
in which: Shane hollander is injured, subsequent issues are addressed, and one of our main-but-also-somehow-side-characters makes his true debut.
- Part 6 of fixer upper (the boston remix)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,003
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85582956
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Shane leaves professional hockey before locker room homophobia and contractual obligations can destroy him.
Somehow, inexplicably, he winds up on the Savannah Bananas, an exhibition baseball team.
He coaches skating for kids in the off season.
For the first time in years, Shane has fun again.
(He doesn't think about Ilya Rozanov or those two nights they shared together)
(He doesn't give Rozanov his number when, years later, they reunite)
(Except actually he does)
(It's the best thing he's ever done)- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 56,835
- Chapters:
- 25/25
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #83299681
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He hadn’t meant to keep them. To make it a collection. But the shoe box shoved under his bed, (next to the shoebox full of family and hockey photos, and another box of random memorabilia from his childhood,) had been getting heavier and heavier. Shane lets himself be stupid, is caught out being stupid, and ends up feeling stupider. Ilya does not think he is stupid.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 12,235
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #84467026
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Counting Summers by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-05-22
In 2014, just one week after winning his first Stanley Cup, Ilya is forced to leave everything behind when his brother abandons Moscow, leaving him to return to Russia, the KHL and care for their dying father. Before he goes, he and Shane make a desperate promise: to wait for each other.
- Part 4 of Inspired By... Hollanov
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 43,995
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #83886041
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Staring at the Sun by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-05-20
The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating.
The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice.
“I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”
Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.
“Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"
Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little.
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Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 90,785
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81902146
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Scott Hunter is on his annual anonymous European gaycation. Eric Bennett is on a photography trip in the same city. Surely nothing can go wrong.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,258
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85215616
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every day is like a battle (every night with us is like a dream) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-19
Historic trades, a stroke of irreplicable genius by Ottawa's management, a confident gamble, and unwavering belief in their talent lead to Ilya and Shane being drafted at No 1 and No 2 to the same team.
Or: the progression of Ilya and Shane's relationship as rivals to teammates to friends to lovers if they had been drafted to the same team, and the story of how Ottawa makes the rest of the league pay for letting them end up with the best two hockey talents in a generation
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 73,222
- Chapters:
- 19/24
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79842836
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i know the sound of your heart by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-18
5 times Cliff Marlow realized something had changed with Ilya Rozanov leading up to his transfer to Ottawa + 1 (what he decided to do about it)
or: canon compliant but slightly canon divergent, set in between the events of Heated Rivalry and The Long Game
or: Cliff Marlow's perspective of Ilya's last season in Boston while him and Shane are boyfriends
or: Cliff Marlow is not the sharpest tool in the shed, but he's a loyal fucking friend
- Part 1 of the cliff chronicles
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 13,474
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84745146
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“You handled it well. You flunked a bit the questions we had prepared, but you did well.”
“Flunked?” Shane asked, voice pitching up as the words salted over the open wound, the infected gutting from the top of his throat down to his stomach.
“You should have rectified and make your position clear about Scott Hunter. We don’t want you to sound like you’re antagonizing him,” Yuna added, matter-of-factly, her eyes narrowing on the knot of his tie, adjusting it like it still mattered.Shane’s body shook violently against his will, dislodging from under her touch. Yuna looked up, surprised by his reaction.
Surprise that shifted to horror immediately.“No, that’s not what I meant–”
“I need to–” he gasped, bringing a hand to cover his mouth, while Yuna tried to grab his arm. Any other time, he could have avoided her, but Shane was falling.- Part 2 of Everything is fine
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 21,556
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84590841
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Mama's Boy by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-17
Ilya has been thinking about his mother again. Not that he ever really stops but lately...Yes, lately he is thinking about Irina Rozanova but also about Irina Sokolova. About Irina before Alexei or Ilya. Before Grigori Rozanov. Irina Sokolova - the champion figure skater. The world championship title she won. The routine she developed and agonised over and perfected but never took to the Olympics.
And he has been doing something stupid. Something he absolutely should not be doing. But he is one year away from reaching an age his mother never got to see and he needs...something. He’s pretty sure it’s this particular something.
But Dr. Galina has been implying that perhaps it is only stupid in the way that falling in love with your arch-rival is stupid. So maybe he should just give up already and get on with it.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 4,179
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85005431
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Shane's friends discover traces of Ilya in his life, even though Shane doesn't talk often about his husband, and Shane slowly realises that maybe, just maybe he can be open about his relationship with the greatest hockey player in the league.
Or:
Shane and Ilya are married, but it's just Ilya who pursued career in hockey. Shane studies at uni, hiding his romantic relationship from the whole world, but his friends are slowly learning the truth that the mysterious Lily is in fact a famous hockey player Ilya Rozanov.- Part 2 of koi no yokan
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 41,336
- Chapters:
- 13/13
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78127706
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this whole damn world can fall apart by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-05-16
“I’m here. I’m here,” comes through, finally. “Sorry, just- I’m here. What do you need?”
“Just talk,” Ilya begs, not even caring how pathetic he sounds. “Please.”
“Okay, okay,” Hollander breathes. “You know. I keep thinking. This isn’t right. There’s something fucking wrong.”
“Of course there’s something wrong, Hollander! Your building is on fire!”
“I fucking know, Rozanov!”
Or:
Pre-tunamelt, in peak situationship era, Hollanov’s building catches fire… with Ilya still inside.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 16,544
- Chapters:
- 8/8
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84328931
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“You…wanted to see me?” He asks, barely resisting a wince at how awkwardly it comes out. “After yesterday-” He stops, swallows.
Hollander makes a face–one of Ilya’s favorite faces, in fact–that says he’s a little embarrassed about what he’s about to say. Ilya feels his chest go a little tighter, wondering if Hollander has had time to reconsider, if he’d even planned to reach out after the game, apologize for spooking and running, ask to come ba-
“Did something…happen yesterday?” Hollander asks.
Ilya stares at him.
(the accident that takes shane out for the season happens the day after the tuna meltdown) (...it also takes his memory of the tuna meltdown with it)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 22,217
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84871821
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“Why are you so sure he’ll reject you? He was already fucking in love with you, Roz, literally all of us knew it, it was clear just from how he looked at his fucking phone—”
“That was— That was a fucking miracle, Pike. Miracles don’t happen twice.”
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shane doesn't remember his relationship with ilya after the hit. ilya was going to break up with him anyway.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 10,412
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #84823276
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Ours To Tell by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-05-12
Pride Night was supposed to be the easy part.
Then Dallas Kent showed up, Troy Barrett threw the first punch, Ilya Rozanov stopped the fight, and Ottawa won a game nobody felt much like celebrating.
By morning, Dallas was in custody, Ilya was in hospital, and the internet had decided everyone knew exactly what had happened.
A week later, injured, furious, and barely holding himself together, Ilya tries to get back to hockey.
Instead, he gets a camera.
One soft question.
One honest answer.
“My boyfriend.”
It is the truth.
It is also the one thing he and Shane were supposed to choose together.
Based on a Reddit fic prompt by u/backtothefuture2028.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 38,786
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84026841
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if you're scared of wolves by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-12
In another life — or maybe the next one, or maybe the one before — Ilya Rozanov learns that some roads only lead to one place. No matter how you take them, the wolves are always waiting at the end.
Maybe that's why, in December 2008, Ilya wakes up with the distinct, inexplicable sense, that he has already lived this life before.
Some things, it turns out, are inevitable. The question is whether he is.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 92,100
- Chapters:
- 11/11
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80956281
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Shane was still trying to settle Max, cupping the back of his head, pressing him back against his chest. Body warmth, familiar scent—that was supposed to be enough. That was supposed to be some innate thing, some animalistic pull newborns had toward their parents, hardwired in them from the beginning. Shane had read that. He was pretty sure he had read that. It was probably really bad that his baby didn't have it toward him. Or, Shane is not bonding with his new baby.
- Part 17 of Our House
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 13,871
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84566686
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Lately, playing hockey wasn't even as much fun as it used to be. Games were always the highlight, but even that, it didn’t feel as good since his team had been falling apart.
And all that because he came out as gay.
He didn’t really fault them for taking some time to accept it, so Shane let them talk. If that helped them digest the news, so be it.
He let them distance themselves from him, let them gossip around to other teams, let them make him the butt of jokes he didn’t understand.Shane didn’t mind, all things considered.
Everything was fine.
- Part 1 of Everything is fine
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 33,129
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81366206