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Number 5704 by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-09-05
Scott spent twenty years alone, so he should be used to it by now.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 10,909
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #91252386
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Bright Particular Star by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-09-02
1987. New York Admirals Captain Scott Hunter is fifteen seasons deep into the kind of hockey career most players can only dream of and keeping one hell of a secret. He navigates his life in NYC, intimately aware at every turn that a single photograph or a trace of a rumor could end his livelihood.
Kip Grady has never known how to hide. A grad student and early organizer for ACT UP, he spends his days marching through the Village and organizing mutual aid, fighting for a queer community battling for its life against a devastating epidemic. When their paths cross, Scott is forced to consider the limits of his carefully constructed closet and decide if he is finally ready to stand in the light.
OR: Scott and Kip meet in 80s NYC at the height of the AIDS crisis.
Additional Spoilers HereI promise that these characters do not, at any point, contract HIV: Scott, Kip, Ilya, and Shane.
Scott and Kip, as well as Shane and Ilya, will all have the happiest ending possible given the constraints of the time period.
- Part 2 of Defective
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 55,740
- Chapters:
- 4/8
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #87891491
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Drawing a Line by LovelyRose28
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-09-02
Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov have been best friends since they were twelve. They were attached at the hip, as much as two straight guys could be. Everyone accepted that Shane and Ilya were just being Shane and Ilya. Or: Shane and Ilya think they know where to draw the line between straight best friends and whatever the hell they keep doing.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 61,359
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #87404031
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disappearing act by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-09-01
“Ilya?” his voice is thick and heavy on his tongue. He's so agonizingly beautiful, his face tender and red from the impact of his helmet hitting the ice moments before. “I’m okay,” he insists, blinking slowly.
And then, starting at his fingertips, Shane starts to fade away, just like St-Simon and Marlow and Pike moments before. Eyes soft, Shane gazes at Ilya, not seeming to realize what’s happening at all. And Ilya, overcome with terror, can only watch as Shane’s whole being simply disintegrates into thin air.
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Half the universe is snapped out of existence, including Shane.
Ilya struggles to cope.Or, a character study on grief, ending with reunion.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 31,228
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #91546936
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A House in Nebraska by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-09-01
Shane Hollander doesn't know what he is. He knows what he wants. For a long time, he tells himself those are different things.
Ilya Rozanov knows what he is. He can't control what he wants. For a long time, he tells himself those are the same thing.
They’re just boys who handle it badly—from a junior tournament in Canada to the NHL draft to the moment a security camera at the end of a hallway changes everything
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Shane and Ilya are discovered before they even play their first game
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 114,579
- Chapters:
- 15/15
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #87605006
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I already chose you, Ilya by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-08-25
“I might be busy having sex with Troy,” Ilya said tightly.
Ilya makes a joke about having sex with Troy. What he doesn't know is how deeply the joke hurt Shane. Two days and many unanswered calls later, they finally talk. And Ilya learns how much Shane has been silently carrying all these years.
"Would you even choose me, Shane?"
"I already chose you, Ilya."
Or: Shane crashes out after years of stupid jokes about his diet, homophobic slurs thrown at him, racist environment, and one unfortunate joke about Troy Barrett.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,333
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #91331431
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Shane returns home from Canada's loss to Russia in Saskatchewan at the International Prospect Cup. He finds out his soon-to-be ex-girlfriend is pregnant, and the baby is his. But he has no memory of ever being intimate with her. It doesn’t help that before he even left, he had caught her cheating on him with his best friend. Shane decides that if the child is his, he will step up and be a dad, but he wants nothing to do with his ex-girlfriend after what she did to him.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 122,954
- Chapters:
- 40/40
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78219426
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Hayden: it's just. you know i love Jackie.
Shane: Hayden, people on the International Space Station know you love Jackie.
Hayden: And it means nobody looks too hard at my private life
Shane has read this message
Hayden: if I tell you something, will you promise not to tell anyone else?
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Hayden comes out to Shane after the aquarium. Shane comes out to Hayden after tuna melts. Hayden helps Shane (and by extension Ilya) deal with the Tuna Melt Emotional Fallout. Hayden & Ilya (and Yuna & David) visit Shane in the hospital.
Now with added Jackie POV!- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 17,660
- Chapters:
- 17/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78674071
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Rate of Exchange by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-23
What if, after they first meet at the 2008 Prospect Cup, Shane Hollander goes back to Russia with the Rozanovs to play hockey with Ilya's team for 3 months on a hockey exchange program? And what if, in preparation for this trip - which Shane knew about for months and Ilya did not - Shane learned enough Russian to get by? Oh and they're attracted to each other but neither one of them made the first move before they're on a plane together, and suddenly they've got to spend 3 months living in the same apartment, in Russia, under the watchful eyes of Ilya's family and a team full of teenage hockey players...
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 21,168
- Chapters:
- 3/7
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84190121
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seeing no face but his, to him i crept by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-23
Ilya's left hand, which had been folded onto his lap, drops to the seat of the car. Shane hopes he's interpreting the gesture correctly when he takes Ilya's hand in his own and raises them both up to his heart.
"Right here," Shane says. "This is where you belong, and it's where you'll always be." And you have nothing to be sorry for, Shane wants to say. I'm the one who should be sorry. Who will spend the rest of my life regretting every single day that I let you feel this way. But it's not time for that conversation yet. It's not time to lay any of that on Ilya. All Ilya needs right now is to know that Shane loves him, and to be taken safely home.
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Shane brings Ilya home after his suicide attempt.
- Part 3 of a strange door
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 7,489
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #91142726
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His mom flowed from his pen in the form of ink when he wrote the letter. A letter which meant ‘just in case’. Just in case he can’t control himself, if he doesn’t wake up, if he…you know. Ilya never planned on killing himself, but going willingly or not, the cruel scythe of death that took away his mother could come for him anytime. So he wrote a letter. It wasn’t addressed to anyone specific, just to the unlucky soul who will find him one day when this piece of paper becomes relevant. Or Ilya writes suicide notes. Years later, Shane finds them and thinks they are recent. A misunderstanding is born.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,662
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #90804546
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Ilya tries to kill himself. In the following weeks, they move forwards, as best as they can.
(12 glimpses at the never ending state of being in recovery.)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 18,622
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #89892336
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when the lights go out by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-08-18
Ilya feels his phone buzz a few times on his way to the elevator, probably everyone confirming they are on the move. He waits until the doors close to check who their group will be tonight.
Lane: I’m out guys my ankle is killing me
Chuck: pussy
Tanner: cmon Lane don’t be a baby
Lars: we are coming down as soon as Nosey stops texting his mommy
Nosey: uh guys wtf
Nosey: did you see this?
Nosey: http://www.twitter.com/cnnbrk/status/2693739470000000036Marly: holy shit
Marly: did someone try to kill Hollanderor
The season after Sochi and the Las Vegas night, Ilya comes back from the summer ready to reignite his hookups with Shane Hollander. But the Metros captain seems to have bigger problems, mainly, that someone might be trying to kill him.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 33,352
- Chapters:
- 13/13
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #88534971
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summer cicadas sing by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-14
Just over four years after a zombie virus destroys the world as he knows it, twenty-five year old Ilya Rozanov is so rattled by trauma and grief that even when he's found a community to call home, he keeps everyone at an arm’s length. That is, until Shane Hollander shows up looking like death itself.
A story about the end of the world, and how to pick up the pieces.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 33,040
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #90133906
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we don't, we don't have to do this again by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-13
His cottage is devoid of life, hollow of any signs of people. Water droplets drum against the glass panes facing the lake, the low, thick clouds oppressive as the sheets of rain obscure any view past the edge of his dock. It only adds to the feeling of loss, the echo of a misfit strung tight through his veins.
Inside his foyer, he can smell the fading scents of his parents, the stale air of a building that's been closed up for seasons, and the sharp, acrid scent of a loneliness that's clung under the skin since before he became an adult; one that's strong enough he's leaving traces of it behind.
It's a familiar one, a tinge that's clung underneath his normal neutral redolence of the muted tart bite of a haskap berry, oak, and the edge of winter snow that's seeped from his pores since he touched his first pair of skates. The taste of bitterness in the air that makes him grateful and angry and so fucking sad that it's been a part of his life since he was seventeen years old.
OR: After the attempted duo photoshoot that ended with Shane walking out, he finds himself at his cottage, three weeks before the 2014 Stanley Cup finals.
- Part 36 of heated rivalry masterlist
- Part 1 of cherry marzipan & winter oak
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 1,851
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #89883431
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Ilya Rozanov was starting over. His mother was long dead, his father had finally passed, and his brother didn’t want him around anymore. Moscow was nothing but dead bodies and fading memories and scars that just wouldn’t heal.
Enter Shane Hollander.
*Laceration, from Ilya’s POV- Part 2 of Laceration
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 59,715
- Chapters:
- 7/7
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #90234501
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“Need a bet to get laid, Rozanov? You’re really that desperate these days?”
“Nostalgic, maybe.”
“Wow. Big word.”
“Shut up, Hollander.”
Shane shuts up.
“When I win,” Rozanov continues. “I get you for…twenty-four hours.”
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Shane and Ilya are in rival frats in their senior year and it's time for the annual Greek Olympiad. A bet is made.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 155,406
- Chapters:
- 13/13
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #77398286
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Oh, It's so Hard to Have Someone to Love by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-08-09
“Who are you waiting for? Maybe I can call him and get him here, then we go?”
Hollander’s face scrunched up, and he hummed like he was trying to remember who he was waiting for.
“Ilya.”
“Yes?”
“Yeah. Ilya.”
Ilya blinked.
What?
“Yes, is my name. Who are you waiting for?”
Hollander huffed and pushed himself up a little so he could glare Ilya down.
“‘M waitin’ for Ilya. Roz’nov. Y’know ‘im?”
“Yes, Hollander. I know him,” Ilya said, trying to keep his voice even.
OR: The Voyageurs are in Boston for a game, and Shane is really struggling being in Rozanov's city after he left him on his couch. He goes out and gets drunk. Ilya finds out Shane is alone at a club and too drunk to stand and can't fight the urge to help him out.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 13,806
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #90008991
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it's the monster hiding under your bed by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-09
Shane’s ex-girlfriends keep coming out as queer. He’s trying to be supportive, he really is, okay? Listen, he’s an ally! But it’s sort of becoming a problem. For pretty obvious reasons, because people are definitely starting to notice—Ilya most of all.
(AKA, I give Shane the most absurd queer community and convoluted coming-of-age journey of all time and it still somehow gradually makes things better in the long run.)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 18,501
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #90071081
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Cruisin' Down The Highway by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-03
It's an entirely regular Tuesday in February when the news comes out.
It's TMZ, of course, because it's always fucking TMZ, dropping a grainy image of Shane and Ilya kissing on the deck, Ilya's hand sliding under Shane's shirt as Shane's hands grip his sides, clearly taken using a telescopic lens from somewhere on the other side of the lake to the cottage.
Part of Ilya is horrified, that their most private, most beloved place has been violated like this, and part of him is, he realizes very guiltily, relieved that this doesn't have to be a secret anymore.
The largest part of him, however, is scared.OR
Ilya and Shane get outed, and Hayden Pike is an unexpected hero.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,302
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #89799466