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Into Focus by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-10-12
A medical retirement took Shane Hollander off the ice, but photography gave him a way to stay close to the game. Now a prestigious editorial photographer, he’s the obvious choice when ESPN revives the Body Issue.
And Ilya Rozanov, fresh off the best season of his career, is the obvious choice for the cover.
They haven’t spoken in nearly seven years. And all the reasons why are suddenly coming back into focus.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 11,271
- Chapters:
- 5/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #92606396
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a soft place to fall by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-10-10
Ilya clenches his fists, jaw tensing and loosening around the words he wishes he could say. His brain is far too jumbled for basic English right now, let alone the words to explain just how much he needs to bury himself in the arms of the one person who understands. He can deal with the fallout tomorrow. He just needs…
A soft place to land.
LeClaire doubles down, shifting his stance to block Ilya’s path. “Your personal life is your own, Rozanov, but right now, your personal life is under a microscope. It’s not right, or fair, but think about that before you do something that lands you in even hotter water.”
“You mean the team,” Ilya grits.
“No.” His coach’s face softens. “No, that’s not important. I’ve known you for nearly a decade, Ilya. Take the bench for once. We’ll take care of you.”
But who will take care of Shane?
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OR: Ilya gets outed, Shane comes up with a solution to keep him safe, and neither of them are happy.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 66,682
- Chapters:
- 7/16
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #87576866
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Beneficiaries by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-09-11
Following an afternoon of sex and tuna melts, Shane goes searching for the explicit rules of what being 'friends with benefits' entails. In his humble opinion, they're nailing it.
Once friendship is on the table, Shane reconsiders the usefulness and immutability of the public rivalry narrative. Surely the NHL can make just as much money from a bromance as it can from a rivalry?
A missed call from J.J., a dinner at All-Stars, and an ill-considered mad dash to the airport send Shane's season in a very different direction to the disciplined three-peat he'd been planning back in October.
"This rivalry thing: it was everyone else who said we hated each other off the ice. There’s no rule that says we have to keep doing that forever.” Shane stared outside, past the blinding billboards and down at the streets below. “It was nice. Hanging out, last time.”
He knew what it looked like when Rozanov shut down, when he closed himself off and pushed the world away. He’d finish the conversation abruptly, curt, clipped, and retreat. So Shane knew he’d won when Rozanov finally answered with: “Are we six years old, Hollander? Asking if I want to play in sandbox with you?"
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 73,203
- Chapters:
- 13/13
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #89157696
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the same team by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-09-08
“This might have been a bad idea.”
“You think so?”
“Hollander’s pissed.” Marlow said, stating the obvious.
“No he’s not.” Ilya answered easily. “He’s just nervous.”
“About what?”“About asking if he can watch you fuck me.”
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Ilya and Marlow have been hooking up for years - though it was never personal (until it was too late).
- Part 3 of the system
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 89,367
- Chapters:
- 20/20
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #81913166
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Shane was the first omega ever drafted into the NHL. His designation usually considered only good for two things: breeding and mating — and most people didn’t even think male omegas were worthy of the latter. He had a lot to prove. And he really couldn’t afford distractions. Especially when those distractions came in the form of a cocky Russian alpha.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 32,270
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #86632731
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Fancy Meeting You by canadienne_loon (hey_dj)
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-07-23
A detailed look at Shane and Ilya's perspectives of seeing each other for the first time, as well as Ilya's perspective of their first interaction in the classroom. Spoilers: they're utterly enamoured by one another but are too afraid to admit it. This is a one-shot based on my original it's always been you. I highly recommend reading it first (at least up until the second chapter) to understand the context of this work.
- Part 4 of The Hollanov Household
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,126
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #89107846
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So Lily is just a buddy? by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-02
Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov never hooked up at the CCM commercial.
Now it's 2017. Yuna Hollander is concerned that Shane doesn't have many friends, so she signs him up on a buddy network website.
Shane gets paired with someone else looking for a 'buddy', not knowing that it's his on-ice rival, Ilya Rozanov.- Part 6 of Hollanov/Centaurs Texting/WAG Fics
- Part 1 of Alternate Universe
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 49,834
- Chapters:
- 9/9
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #84152481
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bad case of lovin' you by imbihesgay
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-26
“Okay, give me five minutes. This patient will not take long.” Luca nods in thanks and scurries off to busy himself in the meantime. Ilya huffs another sigh, shaking his head as he finally pulls up the digital chart. Shane Hollander Age: 27 Height: 177.8cm Weight: 88.5Kg Temp: 36.6 BP: 118/75 -Patient presented with syncope, nausea and vertigo. -shane hollander comes into ilya rozanov's ER, two months after they had a wild one-night stand)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 100,176
- Chapters:
- 15/15
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82018061
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Been waiting on that sunshine (I think I need that back) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-05-12
“But we have always kissed, we -”
“I know.” Shane says, face blushing crimson. “But like I said, I don’t want to do that anymore. We can still see each other, because I like what we do, but we have to keep that part out of it. Please.”
Ilya breathes in and out. He tries to be rational. Shane’s requesting that something change in their arrangement. It should be a simple answer. Yes. Of course. If that’s a boundary he wants to set, then Ilya should obey it.
But the feeling of loss is so overwhelming he can barely stomach it.
or, after Vegas, Shane doesn't let Ilya kiss him anymore when they hook up. Ilya doesn't take it very well.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 16,671
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #83927261
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“You are planning to rob me or what?” He hears Rozanov call, and he can’t help but smile slightly even as he rolls his eyes, closing the door to the linen closet and feeling strangely lighter than when he opened it, reassured that he’s just trying to read into a blank page, that today doesn’t mean anything more than Rozanov doesn’t mind him being around, which is strangely flattering.
“I don’t know,” he calls back. “Don’t Russians like diamonds and fur and stuff? Where should I start looking if I want to know what my options are?”
He hears Rozanov laugh, and it makes him smile.
When he joins him in the living room once more, Rozanov tugs him down to lean against him again. Shane goes easier this time, settling into it, knowing it doesn’t mean anything other than the fact that he just happens to be the closest warm body, the person on Rozanov’s roster who filled today’s slot.
(the tuna meltdown doesn't happen) (this does not mean they get ANY better at communication)
(or: how shane didn't realize he had a boyfriend for several months)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 23,094
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84454861
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That thought settles into his brain dangerously. Ilya’s been with everyone. Girls. Guys. Others. What's another person on the list? If Shane wants experience… If he wants to stop feeling behind… Why not Ilya? Yes, he was a complete asshole that Shane wished he could choke to death sometimes and his brother's childhood bestfriend, but it wouldn’t mean anything. It's for the experience, the education of it all. For hockey. Obviously. Or: Ilya Rozanov has always been Shane Hollander’s older brother’s best friend. He was never supposed to become Shane’s first everything.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 55,737
- Chapters:
- 11/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79702626
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“Just-” Ilya starts, intending to tease, the offer of a massage more about getting Hollander back in a more relaxed headspace than anything else, but then the wire-tight tension in the muscles under his fingers registers, and he frowns, pressing testingly before making a noise of disapproval. “Fuck, Hollander, you are secretly doing crime or what?”
“What?” Hollander asks, confused, starting to lift his head before Ilya pushes it back down absently, focused now on feeling out the knots Hollander seems to be completely made of. He’s felt tension in Hollander’s shoulders before, usually during coaxing little squeezes while coaching him through learning how to deep throat, but he’s always written it off as nerves from learning something new.
Now he wonders if Hollander is just nerves, period.
(the "ilya massages shane" fic inspired by hudson saying that playing shane made him sore because he was so tense all the time)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 11,123
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #83497251
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“Are you – sick? Or…” Hayden trails off, tilting his head in a small shrug. “Or do you have a case of the… y’know. Flowers?”
“What?!” Shane yelps, louder than he means to. “No way. And I’m not sick – it’s just allergies.”
“Allergies?” Hayden repeats incredulously. “Dude, it’s October. In Montreal.”
Having a physical manifestation of repressed feelings should make it easier to deal with them. Unfortunately, Shane still has to figure out what his body is trying to tell him – or if it’s just a seasonal affliction after all.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 19,317
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81854496
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Moscow, 2007.
Ilya wasn’t expecting that along with a new assistant coach, he’d also be getting a new teammate for the summer. Shane Hollander turns out to be only one in the rink who can keep up with him. The tension between them builds fast, and it doesn’t just spill over the boards. It follows them home.
Or: The thing with Ilya's coach's son, but it's Shane.- Part 1 of Plexiglass Box
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 109,385
- Chapters:
- 13/13
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78002516
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The lamp next to him provides a light glow as Shane opens his laptop, shaking out his nerves. Navigating to Google is harder, and he almost backs out completely. But he knows that closing his computer now would be far worse in the long run, confirming something about him.
Something that probably isn’t even true.
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Or, 5 times Shane takes an "Am I Gay?" quiz, and 1 time he retakes one.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 12,710
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79832276
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you know my heart belongs to you / one last time, say that you want me too by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-28
“What is the price you are willing to pay to be free?”
After a failed raid, Captain Ilya Rozanov refuses to return empty-handed. He settles for a far more promising treasure: Shane Hollander, crown prince and the Queen’s only son. Taken aboard as ransom, Shane is meant to be nothing more than leverage in the negotiation between crown and pirates.
However, the lines between Shane being a captive of the captain and something else entirely soon begin to blur. The closer the exchange comes, the harder it becomes for them to resist the pull between them. The noose around their necks gradually tightens, and soon they must navigate between love, the longing for freedom, and duty.
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A Hollanov slow burn Pirate AU- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 40,708
- Chapters:
- 9/9
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78319166
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Shane was looking down. His eyes were squeezed shut, his brow furrowed in intense, painful concentration. His lips were moving, silently shaping the words. Good. Night. Forming them slowly, carefully, in the secret space of his own mouth.
Ilya’s breath hitched. He’d never seen this. Why would he have? Shane had never been sad around him. Never hurt. Never in this kind of quiet, defeated pain. Around Ilya, Shane had been pleasured and angry and frustrated and gloriously competitive. But never this. Never shattered.
(or, everything is same but Shane has a slight stutter that gets bad when he's sad. Ilya has never heard it because Shane has never been sad around him. Until their night in Vegas.)
- Part 6 of Crashing out over Hollanov
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,183
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #79447261
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Shane is the only omega on his hockey team and one of the few to play for the NHL. He will do anything to remain at the top and protect his reputation from harmful rumors. But when he finds out that he is pregnant, Shane’s world crumbles around him, and the only person he can trust with his secret is the alpha, who shares his heat but does not want to be his mate.
- Part 1 of Crushing In the Rink
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 38,410
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #75360211
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The space between us by BorntoScore
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-15
It starts with Shane running out of Ilya’s apartment after one too‑intimate moment over a tuna melt. He tries to bury it by dating Rose Landry, but the Montreal club night blows everything open jealousy, staring, avoidance, all of it. Rose eventually breaks up with him gently, seeing the truth he can’t say out loud. At the All‑Star Game, things shift from canon. Ilya avoids Shane completely, never realizing Shane and Rose are over. Then Shane’s injury happens. As opposing captain, Ilya visits him in the hospital, only to have a pain‑med‑softened Shane ask him to come to his family cottage. Ilya says “maybe,” assuming Shane won’t remember, and ghosts him again. Months later, on summer break in Spain, Ilya wanders into the Gaixample and finds himself surrounded by openly queer couples happy, unafraid, everything he’s never let himself imagine. Something cracks open. He thinks of Shane. He texts him. Does Shane remember the invitation? And does Ilya go?
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 11,607
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #77727791
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“Oh yes, I’m sure doctors would say this is fine,” Rozanov waved his hands around more violently. “‘Yes, Hollander’ they would say, ‘take your broken ribs and go get fucked so hard you cannot move. Is no problem, no problem at all’.” “Bruised, not broken,” Shane corrected, although he knew that wasn’t really the point. “And a little rough sex isn’t going to kill me. I’ll be back on the ice before the next Raiders game, it won’t affect the season if you’re like…worried about poor sportsmanship or whatever.” “Fuck Hollander, I do not care about the season! I care about–” Rozanov cut himself off sharply. Shane gets injured during a game, then tries to hide that fact from Ilya. It goes about as well as you might expect.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 6,214
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #77307621