1 – 20 of 23 Works in Dissociation
- Dissociation ×
-
i have never known a silence like the one fallen here by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-10-21
Jake asked if Asher had any family he could contact for him. “We wouldn’t even need to tell them what happened, Asher,” he’d said, like the problem was that Asher needed convincing.
“I don’t have any family,” Asher had said. He’d spoken in that same dead-sounding voice that he knew seriously unnerved people, but he couldn’t help it; he’d still been perfecting his normal-person voice at that point. “I never knew my mom. My dad is dead.”
Jake had deflated visibly but tried again and asked about friends.
Asher had stared at him for a little too long but eventually produced a response after the assistant trainer’s question had spent a moment rattling around his head. “I had a boyfriend,” he’d said. He’d smiled, like a reflex. Asher wasn’t even really thinking of Gabe specifically but rather the simple concept that he’d Had A Boyfriend, But Now He Doesn’t. “Kent kinda ruined that for me.”
— or: you've heard of Asher Rivera. would you like to meet him?
- Part 3 of the new me fights 'verse
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,705
- Chapters:
- 2/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #92250841
-
Shane has found a place where he cannot be hurt. There is little enough in it, but what there is is kind: warm lights, a quiet that answers to him, and, in time, a ghost who remembers stolen plums and a husband who waited up for him with the lamps lit.
Shane remembers the husband differently. He listens anyway.
- Part 6 of Set in Heated Rivalry-verse
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 12,049
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #93575251
-
the toughest part is that we both know (what happened to you, why you’re out on your own) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-09-20
Ilya wasn’t trying to kill himself that night. Suicide is something that belongs to his mother- he’s just lazy, and he wishes Shane would stop making excuses for him.
Shane has everything under control. His body is a tool, the one that’s given him both his career and his relationship, and he wishes Ilya would stop prying into the way he maintains it.
or: Ilya learns a whole lot more about his mother, Shane remembers a whole lot more about his childhood, and they both get diagnosed.
- Part 3 of Merry Christmas, Please Don't Call
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 66,519
- Chapters:
- 9/19
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79324761
-
let the sun only shine on me through a falling sky, i’ll be alright by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-09-20
"I did not realize until you got here, how much they do not realize what a Montreal locker room actually sounds like."
--or, a slight A/U where Shane didn't stay in Montreal after the cottage just because he wanted to or because he thought it was expected of him and those years after he came out to his team had been worse than he lets on
---OR, Shane acquires a Russian duckling, finally sets the record straight with his man, goes full 'protect the rookie' mode when his duckling is checked during a game in Montreal, and learns how to be part of a team again (in that order)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 59,922
- Chapters:
- 12/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78802266
-
Stupid Canadian Jailbird by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-31
Shane and Ilya get arrested hours after Team Canada wins the World Junior Championship. From one day to the next, their lives are flipped upside down. As prisoners – er, incarcerated persons –, they are no longer climbing the hockey social ladder. They are no longer rival captains and star hockey players bearing responsibility for their nations’ and their future MLH teams’ hopes. They are nothing more than cellmates awaiting trial, caught in a tedious cycle of empty days where privacy is a distant memory. However will they pass the time?
Good thing they have each other. Now if only they could be honest about their feelings... Ideally, before they're released and face the legal and professional consequences of their venture into crime.
***
OR a fact-ridden, funny, and frustrating romance set in one of the world's least romantic and most devastating environments, courtesy of a prison scholar.
- Part 7 of
- Part 3 of Hollanov find community
- Part 1 of Hollanov in Total Institutions
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 56,694
- Chapters:
- 15/15
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #89569931
-
Hyaline (see-through) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-24
Click.
“Is she with you?”- Part 2 of The recognition so richly deserved
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 65,417
- Chapters:
- 13/13
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84692881
-
Slow Dancing in the Dark by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-08-18
There were things about Shane Hollander that existed only in the dark, and those things were most of him.
or; a moment of vulnerability at a team gathering turns into a viral scandal overnight when a video of Shane coming out is leaked to the press.
Suddenly, everyone is watching. Everyone is talking. Everyone is judging.
It all goes to hell—until maybe it doesn't.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 155,505
- Chapters:
- 7/11
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #85806666
-
“And that’s why you’re our favourite son.” Shane manages to hide his flinch, just barely, and mostly because Ilya is being pulled into a hug by Yuna. Shane bites the inside of his cheek as he watches the way his husband and mom embrace so easily.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 5,310
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #86188206
-
“Shane had been used to being alone. He'd never thought of himself as lonely. He honestly often craved the solitude, found it grounding. But that was before he knew what it was like to have someone to call, someone to touch. He was never lonely before Rozanov, but he'd been lonely ever since.”
April 2017: Shane does not get laid out on the ice.
Ilya goes through with ending it.
Shane lets him.
What follows is eleven months of distance, denial, and a quiet kind of devastation neither of them knows how to name, let alone fix.
They learn how to live without each other.
(Or at least, how to pretend.)
And then, almost a year later, the infamous collision happens and Shane goes down cold.
And suddenly, neither of them can pretend it doesn’t matter.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 26,126
- Chapters:
- 7/7
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #83638766
-
Alexei comes home drunk and crosses a line with his younger brother that can never be uncrossed, forcing Ilya to retreat into himself and begin imagining the escape that will one day save him.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,957
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #83440931
-
depollute me, pretty baby by writer_in_theory
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-31
It wasn’t his first hockey fight, not by far. After decades of playing, it was impossible to avoid the occasional scrum. It just wasn’t something that Shane purposefully tried to get involved in. He wasn’t like Ilya, he didn’t find joy in pushing and prodding at the other team until one of them snapped and threw a punch. When a scrum did break out, he hardly ever joined the fray, preferring instead to focus on managing the refs and trying to get his team out of the fight with as few penalties as possible. When Shane’s fist connected with Comeau’s cheekbone, Shane grinned. -- Or, the moment Shane realized he played his last game as a Montreal Metro and has to come to terms with everything that means after. Featuring Shane realizing he's not as okay as he seems, and Ilya trying to figure out how he can help.
- Part 4 of i can't seem to not need to need you
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 40,006
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79051901
-
All the things they said (running through my head) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-03-17
After stumbling and falling in the game against the Centaurs, Shane is accused by his teammates and the Montreal Metros management team of throwing the game to Ilya as a result of their relationship being exposed after the FanMail incident.
Shane is forced to give a post-game interview in the midst of a dissociative episode.
Until an incriminating question from a reporter causes the rubber band inside him to snap, and Shane says all the things he shouldn't say.
Except that he actually should.Or,
aka the author ranting about the Montreal Metros/Voyageurs being assholes.- Part 1 of Nobody else, so we can be free
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 4,546
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81387816
-
a year safe in your heart by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-13
“And you’re sure there’s nothing for you?” David says suddenly. “You’re not—you’re feeling okay? You’re not sick? Shane wouldn’t have any reason to think that you’re sick?”
Ilya blinks and turns to him. “I am fine. Totally fine. Better than fine, even, before today.”
“It’s just—Shane’s acting like you’re dying, Ilya.”
“Not as far as I’m aware,” says Ilya. “And I do not think he would learn this before me.”
—
The summer before Ilya joins the Centaurs, Shane wakes up nervous. It doesn't stop from there.
- Part 1 of anonymous cottage collection
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 54,996
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78743291
-
Come Back Home (The Porch Light Is On) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-11
ROZANOV DOWN: Ottawa Captain Carried Off Ice on Stretcher After Third Period Hit. Rozanov unconscious on impact. Fencing response observed. Cervical collar applied. Transferred to hospital by ambulance. Shane Hollander received game misconduct following altercation and did not return to the ice.
A grade-3 concussion leaves Ilya Rozanov trapped in a "slow" brain, struggling to reclaim the elite hockey instincts that once defined his identity. Within the sanctuary of their darkened apartment, Shane Hollander anchors their life, managing every medical detail while privately bracing against his own silent terror. It is a portrait of the grueling, quiet patience required to wait out a neurological fog, hoping the person on the other side eventually finds their way back.
- Part 2 of Shake off the shackles my love
- Part 7 of A Formal Study of the Heart
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 37,110
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80582376
-
batteries not included by insatiablegaydesire
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-22
They’re in Boston on Ilya’s couch when it happens. They’ve lapsed into a comfortable silence, a muted game on in the background, Ilya’s head in Shane’s lap and Shane’s fingers in his hair. Ten minutes ago, they were tugging and twisting and curling; four minutes ago, they grew slow and tepid. When they go entirely still, Ilya turns in his lap to look up at him, ready to chirp him for falling asleep, but his breath catches in his throat at what he finds instead. Shane is not asleep, but he is not awake either. While visiting his boyfriend, Shane has a verbal shutdown in front of a woefully-unprepared Ilya for the first time.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 10,041
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80004906
-
through whatever you lose by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-20
Shane’s eyes snap open. Wait a second.
“Ilya,” Shane says, propping himself up on his elbows. “Ilya, wake up.”
Ilya makes a pained noise, eyes still shut. “I shut curtains already.”
“It’s not that. Ilya, hey. Don’t go back to sleep.” Ilya tries to bury back into Shane’s chest, but adrenaline knifes through Shane’s hangover long enough for him to peel Ilya off and roll him into his back. Ilya blinks blearily up at him, starfished in the sheets. Beautiful and naked and missing his mother’s cross.
OR: When Ilya’s cross goes missing after the Centaurs celebrate their first Stanley Cup win, Shane is determined to get it back. And so are the Centaurs. And the rest of Ottawa.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 7,038
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79916596
-
if home is a person, i don’t want a house by ThePromptWasntThisLong (shredded_potato)
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-09
Shane has a notes app list titled 'Safeties.' It's a series of physical sensations to pull him back if he drops too deep: 1. Press tongue to roof of mouth 2. Grip something cold 3. Say your own name out loud The last one simply says: 4. Wait for him. He always comes back.
- Part 13 of Cross-Checked & Kissed (smut oneshots)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,923
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #77362461
-
Shane distantly contemplated how much he would ache tomorrow, the tightness of his muscles already becoming a sure thing. Tomorrow. What an impossible thought, when he was currently present in a way that he rarely got to be in his day to day life.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 1,792
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #77042726
-
know it's for the better / no, it's for the better by selfishambition
Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-03
Ilya Rozanov has been carrying his mother's ghost since he was twelve years old. Sochi is where the weight finally breaks him. Russia is eliminated in the most humiliating loss in their history, and their captain sits on a twelfth-floor balcony railing thinking about letting go. Shane Hollander has a gold medal game in fourteen hours. He comes anyway.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 11,371
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #77026136
-
something you can fix by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2025-12-27
Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.
“Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.
And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.
Just once. Just a single nod.
Why did he have to nod?
“Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”
“Of course.”
Of course.
“Was it better?”
“Yes.”
+++
Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.
- Part 1 of something you can fix
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 26,824
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 8 versions
- AO3:
- #76495636