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all that i lacked so long and loved so well by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-06-11
Because it's good news, right? That no one has told him that Ilya is— There probably would have been headlines. Or a press release. A photo of him in his jersey, smiling, two dates only twenty-eight years apart, a few lines about his career, and no listed survivors. Supportive tweets from a bunch of people in the league. Shane's team would put out a press release about the foundation and probably get a flood of donations. There would be something, if he were—
But there's nothing. There's just this void. Nothing, nothing, no sign of him. It's like Ilya has disappeared off the face of the earth.
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Shane's point of view on the events of lonely i came, and i depart alone
- Part 2 of a strange door
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 8,373
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #86550126
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Future Tense by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-06-11
"After an hour of breathing exercises, retracing what he had learned about himself and others, he opened his Notes app:
want:
Ilya
Stanley Cups
Awardsnot doing:
Dissociating
Making myself small to make others comfortable
Waiting ten fucking yearsWatching the clock, the time he had been waiting for was finally there.
Time to remind Ilya where the smoking area was."
Or
In 2021, Shane and Ilya are sent back to 2008. And they are determined to do it better this time.
- Part 1 of Inspired By... Hollanov
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 71,855
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #80321806
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A Mother Always Knows by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-10
Of course Yuna has a burner account, not just one, many in fact. She uses them for her job as Shane’s manager, to keep tabs on hockey news, the league, rumor mills, and on occasion, Rozanov.
———
How Yuna comes to care for Ilya through twitter before ever meeting him. AKA Ilya clinches the title ‘favourite son’ arguably before Shane’s parents find out about their relationship.
Spans the entire timeline of Heated Rivalry.
- Part 4 of Ilya&Yuna
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 20,638
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #83191651
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Scott Hunter, Really? by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-10
Ilya is lonely, and tired, and really, really drunk. And so he kisses Scott Hunter. But that doesn't really help, because that's not the hockey player he wants to be kissing.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 21,440
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78871151
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sliding carefully/seriously slipping out of control by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-09
Ilya figures out the key to escaping the time loop on the third consecutive Tuesday. It isn’t exactly hard.
The time loop chews him up and spits him out a hundred Tuesdays later.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 16,321
- Chapters:
- 4/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81973116
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After becoming a Boston Raider, Shane was still bracing, waiting for something to go wrong.
Eventually, however, he realizes he doesn’t have to.
Ilya has some feelings about it too.- Part 2 of Boston AU
- Part 2 of My Autistic Shane Hollander Writings
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 63,186
- Chapters:
- 31/31
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79941521
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Shane joins Ilya on a quick trip to Moscow, which soon transforms into a nightmare. Ilya is arrested and targeted so harshly that he's not sure Russia will let him go this time.
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Shane witnesses Ilya's family.
Alexei and Ilya's relationship is explored.
Yuna flies to Russia.
Lots of Svetlana.
Healing journey fluff afterwards.- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 142,860
- Chapters:
- 21/21
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78329636
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limerence by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-06-06
The first one is perfect. A deep crimson, brightening to scarlet at its edges and thick, firm between his fingers. It's undamaged, not even torn at its thinnest parts for all of its violent means of arrival into the palm of his hand, but sticky with saliva making its texture unpleasant. It is, otherwise, a flawless rose petal, like something you would see in a drawing; an oil painting.
It's such a beautiful thing, and so small, to be killing him.
Ilya rubs at his breastbone and clears his throat but there's nothing else to come up; not today. Closing his eyes so that he doesn't have to look at himself in the mirror over the sink he pictures his lungs turning to dirt so that the roots of the rose can plant themselves in him; choke him from the inside.
That's not quite how it works, he knows.
It may as well be.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 31,914
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #85461411
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For Our Family by Shunkan_Romantica
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-06-05
Shane was in the last weeks of his pregnancy. He only wanted to spend a couple of days in the cottage alone with Ilya, just the two of them before the baby arrived. Everything would be alright. Nothing could go wrong, could it? They had been so naive. Everything that could have gone wrong did go wrong, putting them through one of the scariest situations of their lives.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 33,603
- Chapters:
- 10/10
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #77956846
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my grass is greener than yours by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-05
“So. That’s it? Those are the rules?” Hayden asked. “Don’t go through your texts or photos, keep up with your workouts and diet, and listen to everything Yuna says, without question.”
Shane seemed to be thinking about it, pausing a second. All of a sudden, he looked up at Hayden, again with that intense anxiety face.
“And most importantly, do not talk to Ilya Rozanov. Ever. No matter what.” Shane said, “Avoid him. Don’t even look at him. OK?”
Hayden nodded, and resisted the urge to roll his eyes. Like he even needed to be told that. Besides, Shane had been avoiding Ilya Rozanov for his entire career. How hard could it be?
OR a well-meaning witch bodyswaps Shane and Hayden (to teach them about the power of friendship) the day before the 2017 All Stars Game.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 46,680
- Chapters:
- 7/7
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #80649926
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and i will, i will, i will by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-04
ilya feels it when shane slams a gloved palm onto the ice to stabilize himself, echoing an earthquake through ilya’s skates and up to his sternum. his heart clenches with every heaving breath shane takes, bloodstained petals pouring past his lips. he’s hurting, and the need to hold him burns through ilya’s veins.
ilya was supposed to protect him, but he didn’t even see the hit, only the aftermath, just marly skating slowly away with terror on his face as the ice gets painted red.
or: it's april 2017, and cliff marleau just checked shane hollander into the boards. he doesn't break his collarbone, but he does start coughing up petals. a post-tuna melt hanahaki au.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 10,790
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #86090721
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Falling feels like flying 'til the bone crush by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-06-03
And now, as Shane flew down the ice, carrying the puck back and forth with his stick, he found himself enjoying his own breathlessness. He felt his stomach jolt and his hands grow clammy with the excitement of the breakaway. The rink seemed to fade away as he got closer and closer to Toronto’s goalie. He did not see the crowd start to stand, sensing the impending goal. He did not see Montreal’s bench lean further over the boards, praying for the win that would clinch their spot in the cup finals and already imagining the glory of securing another title.
He did not see Todd Masterson.
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After Shane Hollander dies during the playoffs, Ilya Rozanov drives to Montreal looking for the pieces of him that are still left behind.- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 12,963
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #86067186
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The Great Pretender by lady_st4rdus7
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-02
Ilya Rozanov is in love, closeted, catastrophically lonely, and apparently incapable of referring to Shane Hollander in present tense. The Centaurs come to a- given the circumstances- reasonable conclusion. Or: Five times the Centaurs thought Ilya Rozanov was mourning his dead wife, and the one time they discovered his wife was actually Shane Hollander. Shane, for the record, is alive and really confused.
- Part 1 of my hollanov
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 31,278
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #84483691
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there may never next time be by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-01
He figures Ilya would be pretty surprised if he showed up to his house out of the blue. Surprised enough to be put off, probably. Shane is way too bad of a liar to think of any plausible excuse. If this is really happening, if Shane is actually by some miracle getting another shot at this, then he’s going to have to play this smart. His impatience to see Ilya again will have to be tempered. He’s not sure how time travel works, but he has the sneaking suspicion that one wrong move could unravel everything.
Ilya is alive.
Just the thought of it is enough to make Shane crack his first smile in a year.
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AU in which Ilya dies in the Centaurs' plane crash. A year later, careless with grief, Shane drives his car into a blizzard and wakes up in Boston, in 2016. When faced with the opportunity to do it right this time, and keep Ilya for good, Shane knows that every decision he makes will be crucial. It's terrifying, but Ilya once told him that he's brave. Now it's up to Shane to prove it.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 23,149
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85966106
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lonely i came, and i depart alone by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-31
Ilya has heard people say that suicide is a selfish act. He's heard people say it about his mother, and it used to make him furious. He’d punched Alexei for it, once, broken his nose when he said, why are you still moping over that selfish bitch, she left us without a thought, even though he knew it was his brother’s grief speaking and not his heart.
That word, selfish, made him so furious, maybe, because some small part of him believed it. Some part of himself, a part of him that he was too ashamed of to acknowledge, let alone to name, believed that his mother should have been braver. Should have been stronger. Should have fought harder to stay with him, to keep taking care of him. Would have, if she’d loved Ilya as much as she claimed to.
He knows now, now that he has Shane, that it isn’t true. He knows it is possible to love someone entirely, completely, with the purest and truest love, and for life to still be unbearable.
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Another look at Ilya's depression in The Long Game.
- Part 1 of a strange door
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 7,280
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #85832251
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Shane flees to the cottage four hours before his marriage to his biggest hater, Ilya Rozanov. He doesn’t expect to find Ilya, who thought of jilting him first, at his destination.
- Part 3 of Gwen’s heated rivalry fics
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 40,026
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #83426591
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Ilya's life is perfect. He's the captain of the best team in the league, he gets to play hockey with his husband every day, and he finally has the kind of family he only ever dreamed about as a boy.
And then one phone call from Russia changes everything. His brother and his sister-in-law are dead and Ilya has been named guardian of his 14 year old niece in his brother's will.
It's not even a question of whether or not to bring his niece to Canada. Ilya just doesn't expect that navigating life with a grieving, traumatized, and stubborn teenager would be end up being the hardest thing he's ever done.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 16,506
- Chapters:
- 3/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78388086
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i jumped across for you by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-05-29
Over the summer, Cliff Marlow made the decision to leave the team he won a Cup with, his hometown, and the only place he'd ever known to move to a different country, a terrible team, and basically the middle of nowhere.
And so far, he hasn't regretted it for a single second.
Or: a continuation of i know the sound of your heart showing moments from Cliff and Ilya's first season with the centaurs, a couple of shocking revelations (though they really shouldn't have been), and, of course, Cliff Marlow being the most loyal friend anyone could ask for.
- Part 2 of the cliff chronicles
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 12,247
- Chapters:
- 3/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85164856
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When The Universe Intervenes: Into The Bonerverse by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-05-29
[Edit]: I changed the title because the subtitle is too funny not to add.
The Centaurs win the cup and celebrate late into the night. In the morning, Shane wakes up in an alternate universe - one where he never got hard in the shower and he and Ilya never hooked up.
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And Shane, not for the first time, thinks even farther back. To that day in the showers after their CCM campaign shoot. Alone under the spray, and confronted with Ilya’s perfect body, Shane’s body reacted. And truthfully, he’s always been quick to react when it comes to Ilya.
But to think… if he could just control his dick, none of this would have happened.
This perfect life he’s living. Married to the man of his dreams. Living and playing in his hometown, with his parents only 10 minutes away. With his sweet puppy, Anya. Celebrating his fourth ever Stanley Cup win. All thanks to one wayward boner.
For a wild second, Shane thinks about saying that to Wyatt.
That’s how he knows he’s drunk.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 47,892
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80771611
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The soundproofing in room 1221 is exactly as bad as Shane fears. He and Rozanov can hear every word as Scott Hunter engages in a deeply depressing annual ritual, and decide offering comfort is more important than keeping things a secret.
It sparks a friendship that ends up changing more than just the trajectory of those three men's lives.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 66,337
- Chapters:
- 8/11
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #77427336