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something that looks like love by baby_blue24680, holyhollanov (baby_blue24680)
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-09
During their years of hooking up, Shane and Ilya stopped booking hotel rooms altogether, instead choosing to stay at the other’s apartment. It changes everything, it changes nothing.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 26,484
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #78035891
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Shane Hollander goes Casual (so cool and unbothered) by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-09
Shane Hollander is tired of wanting someone he cannot have, and he’s dying as he waits for someone who will not stay. Someone who doesn’t want to stay, not when there are so many others waiting for him. Fun of another variety, Shane left a treat amongst many.
It’s humiliating. It’s distracting. And it feels like shit.
He wishes he could erase his feelings, move on as easily. In an effort to gain back control over the ‘situation’ that has become his romantic attraction to a notorious player, Shane attempts at imitating Ilya Rozanov’s methods until he perfects them and becomes as good as keeping it light and casual as his rival.
Or Shane tries to Hoe Phase himself into a self discovery journey to choke and kill his feelings for Ilya Rozanov. Ilya is not the only who suffers from it, but he sure feels like he’s being choked and killed.
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Story ends after chapter 6 but I keep writing bonus because the hyper fixation doesn’t end.- Language:
- English
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- 26,658
- Chapters:
- 13/13
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- 1
- AO3:
- #77581216
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The edges of the picture had begun to bend; Shane was like a firework on the very verge of a convulsive explosion. The skirting of the doorway and the hand there gripping it were each as white as the other, and although the phone in his pocket rang and rang Shane made no move to answer it. It had been ringing since he’d last been an idiot, around seventeen minutes ago- when he had sent that stupid fucking message to Ilya Rozanov: “We didn’t even kiss”. _______ Or, its 2014 and the NHL has returned to Vegas. Shane sends that text and falls head-first off the deep end with a bottle from the hotel's mini fridge. Ilya must try to bring him back.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 7,782
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79090536
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Strawberries & Cigarettes (They Always Taste Like You) by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-08
Troy’s grin turned sharp and mischievous. “Alright then,” he spoke up. “New bet.”
“No.” Ilya groaned. “Why is everything always a bet?”
“Because you hate losing,” Wyatt answered as if it was obvious.
Troy clapped his hands together. “Okay, so,” he started, his eyes gleaming. “Rozanov has to get Shane Hollander to fall in love with him.”
Ilya stared at him, his brain’s processing lagging half a second behind. “You think you are jokester, yes? You are joking.”
or, in which hockey captain Ilya Rozanov drunkenly agrees to a bet to make the nerdy Shane Hollander fall in love with him
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- English
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- 38,317
- Chapters:
- 8/8
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #78125021
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i really hope you're gonna get out soon by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-08
Sochi Olympics, 2014.
"MASSIVE ICLOUD HACK REVEALS PRIVATE PHOTOS, MESSAGES, VIDEOS OF HUNDREDS OF OLYMPIC ATHLETES"
Ilya feels a trickle of unease down his spine. He shakes it off impatiently as he clicks on the article.
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- English
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- 24,969
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- 3/3
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #78810681
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A few seconds later, a news anchor’s voice grows to startling clarity. A clip plays of Rozanov shooting from the goal crease and making it into the net.
“...Montreal Metros to acquire center Ilya Rozanov from the Boston Raiders for the upcoming season. The two teams have sustained a bitter rivalry for years, and it has only worsened worsened with Hollander and Rozanov’s participation. All of this makes the trade an unlikely one; however, it seems to be just the right time for the Metros to snag a star like Rozanov. After many lackluster performances from the Metros these past few months, it only makes sense…”
The anchor continues as a clip of Rozanov from a post-game interview last year plays—he’s shirtless and sweaty, smirking into the camera. And then he does that…that wink. Shane just stares up at the screen, dumbfounded. He’s not listening to the details anymore, but the words echo in his head.
Metros to acquire Ilya Rozanov…
His team to acquire Rozanov.
“This is bullshit,” he mutters, turning and trying not to stomp off like an upset child.OR: Ilya gets traded to Shane's team and Shane is not happy about it
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i was coerced into writing this
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- English
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- 70,388
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- 14/?
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- 1
- AO3:
- #75683981
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"Sveta," he says, before she can greet him. "I think I'm about to do something very stupid."
"You're always doing something stupid," she laughs, her voice tinny over the speakerphone. "What is it this time?"
"I am in a staring contest with a bottle of pills," Ilya says. "And I think the pills might win."
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Or: An alternate take on Ilya's mental health after moving to Ottawa, featuring the reality of long distance relationships, Ilya learning to captain a new team, and a series of game tapes made by Ilya's dead father.
- Part 11 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
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- English
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- 14,171
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- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #78975931
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...I guess I should just say it. I was wondering if you'd—”
“I think we should stop seeing each other.”
“—like to come to my cottage this summer.”
The plate slips from Shane's hand and shatters on the kitchen floor.
Or: Shane doesn't get injured that night Montreal plays Boston. Ilya follows through on his plan to break things off with him. Well, he tries, at least.
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- English
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- 8,225
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- 1/1
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- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #79068146
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“Who did this to you?” he seethes, barely recognizing his own voice as blood pounds in his ears.
Shane doesn’t answer. Just shakes his head as he stumbles forward, crashing into Ilya with what little strength he has left.
Ilya’s arms come up immediately to hold him, to cradle him in the circle of his arms. But the question remains on his lips, and he repeats it, the words still laced with venom. “Who did this to you?”
“I don’t want to tell you,” he says. “You’ll kill him.”
“You are fucking right, I will kill him,” Ilya says, his hand coming up to wipe a bead of blood from Shane’s face.
“I’m not worth that,” Shane responds, and Ilya immediately wants to counter that he’s worth all of that and more. There’s nothing that even remotely compares. And anyone who dares to do so much as lay a finger on Shane Hollander will have to answer to him and the wrath of everything he has at his disposal.
“Shane,” he says, softer this time, hoping maybe a shift in tone will lead him to what he needs. “Who did this?”
Shane pulls back slightly, his face devastated as he says, “Your brother.”
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A mafia AU
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- English
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- 3,484
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- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #78979896
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It's been weeks. They've gone without seeing each other for far longer than this, but ever since they announced the charity they've been making up for lost time. Now weeks of separation feel like years. or: Shanes no good very bad day.
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- English
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- 2,179
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- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #78920921
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Take me out the dark (take me home) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-04
Ilya rounded the desk, and his heart didn’t stutter but simply stopped. For an endless second everything stilled around him. Shane had found them, his letters and his journals. And the world turned sideways slowly slipping away from Ilya’s grasp. Like someone had taken away the solid ground underneath his feet, leaving him falling indefinitely. His entire focus narrowed on the pages Shane was clasping in his hands and the shoe carton next to him.
He had always promised himself that one day he would show Shane, he would tell him about all of it. But he had never wanted it to happen like this. For Shane to just stumble across the pages that carried his darkest thoughts and simple truths of his life. Never wanted him to read those alone or ever. Because Ilya wasn’t sure he was strong enough to revisit all the open wounds he had spilled on those pages.
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Or Shane and Ilya spend some time at the cottage between Christmas and New Year’s and unravel their past once and for all.
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- English
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- 40,342
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- 4/4
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #76323236
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How to Lose Your Boyfriend in One Sentence (The Worst Idea Ilya’s Ever Had) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-04
Ilya suggests Shane can sleep with other people because he’s trying to be selfless. Shane storms out because he thinks Ilya is trying to get rid of him. They both spend the next several hours spiraling in different cities: Shane in a Montreal bar, Ilya in his own head.
Shane tries to prove a point and almost throws up instead.
Ilya drives to Montreal like he’s about to commit a felony.
And Hayden Pike has to witness all of it.Or, two idiots in love speedrun an almost breakup and accidentally end up engaged.
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- English
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- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78897791
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6 Months by Nituaii
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-02-03
Shane didn't know what he should say, what he could say. They hadn't talked since that night, hadn't been in contact much. Which at first hadn't worried Shane. It wasn't unusual for them to go longer periods of time without contact, and especially with the Olympics looming so close, with them both being chosen for their teams, it had only seemed logical to focus on their duties. He hadn't worried. Had lived in that blissful state of finally knowing what it felt like to be taken, of sharing the arguably most intimate part of himself with someone he trusted. Knew he could trust. Thought he could trust. OR: What happened during those 6 months when Ilya ignored Shane? How did that time change things for Shane?
- Part 7 of
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- English
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- 22,032
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- 3/3
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78605076
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Observations on Fatherhood by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-03
From the day Shane is born, David promises to protect him from everything—especially from the kind of love that comes with conditions.
But as Shane grows up talented, visible, and quietly different, David learns that even the safest homes can teach a child how to make himself smaller.
- Part 4 of A Formal Study of the Heart
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- English
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- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #78821036
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“Don’t go,” Ilya manages to choke out, burying his face under Shane’s chin and squeezing his eyes shut. He inhales sharply, pressing his nose deeper into Shane’s throat to breathe in his scent. Right now, it’s Ilya’s body soap, vanilla and spice, masked under salt and skin. He inhales it like it's his own personal supply of air, what he needs to extinguish the burning in his lungs. “Ilya,” Shane says, voice urgent, “you’re shaking, I—your breathing’s too fast—” He tries to pull back, needs to see Ilya’s face, needs to see what’s wrong, but Ilya just shakes his head and clings tighter. “Please don’t go, Shane,” Ilya whispers, pleading. I’m sorry, please don’t go, don’t go— OR: ilya and shane accidentally recreate the tuna-melt day, and ilya realizes just how much old wounds hurt.
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- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #78753556
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we're the product of love (that we do not receive). by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-02
Maybe together they could figure out a way to make sure Ilya was never afraid of David again. He really didn’t want to be afraid of David.
“Is… silly.” Ilya said. “Maybe not silly, but now that we are here and not there, I see it was silly. I broke the wine, and I thought - maybe everyone will be angry. And…” Clearing his throat, Ilya pushed past his discomfort to spit out the next part. “Well, angry back in Russia is not the same as angry here, I think.”
“What was angry like back in Russia?”
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Ilya drops a bottle of wine, and it's fine. Really, it's fine. If only someone could tell Ilya's brain that.
- Language:
- English
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- 5,316
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- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78804886
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love letters on your skin by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-02
What was he supposed to say? Yes, Hollander. I have a soulmate. All I know is that he has played hockey in Canada before. Oh, that could apply to the entire league? Oh, that could apply to you? Oh, you are now having a panic attack in my bed?
Yes. That would not have gone well.
(Or: Soulmate AU where the marks that appear on your body appear on theirs. Ilya finds out that Shane is his soulmate long before Shane does. They are idiots in love.)
- Language:
- English
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- 42,517
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- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78762926
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nothing's ever the way that i remember it (i don't want a violent end) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-01
Quietly, in a voice that couldn’t disguise his pain, Ilya said, “I already chose you, Hollander.” Then so silently that it was barely different from breathing. “Sometimes I wish I hadn’t.
(a.k.a Ilya expresses regret about choosing Shane and Shane gets sent back in time to fix it only in this universe Ilya never came onto him at all.)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 31,304
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78720121
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Woken from sleep during the dead dawn hours after his father’s funeral to texts and breaking news of explicit photos posted of him and a former male lover, Ilya has to flee Russia.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 20,608
- Chapters:
- 8/8
- Files:
- 4 versions
- AO3:
- #77030736
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Shane experiences a cryptic pregnancy and gives birth during his and Ilya’s first game against the Metros. He deals with the aftermath and struggles to adjust whilst suffering from postpartum depression . Scared of losing Ilya and ruining his daughter’s life he finds himself breaking down and in fear of what he’s become.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 14,598
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78612581