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Ilya can’t be so separate from it all anymore, can’t get by on hotel room visits and brief phone calls when they’re in different time zones. It isn’t enough. Not anymore. Not when every iteration of the future they could have waiting for them one day had collapsed in on itself when Shane hit the ice.
Ty moya zhizn', his mother used to tell him. But it isn’t quite enough in this sense, Ilya decides. He looks at Shane, at Emi, and he thinks instead: Ty moya prodolzhenie.
Not just you are my life, but you are my future.
- Part 2 of mélange
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- #79905851
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Warm hands suddenly encased his, pulling them away from his shirt collar and back down onto the table. Shane risked a glance at Ilya and saw only concern and confusion on his face, but he couldn’t keep looking at him directly, couldn’t look him in the eye. Couldn’t let Ilya see him lose it like this, in public, all because the shirt felt wrong. Because it felt too much like being five and ripping hand-knitted jumpers from his body because they hurt. Like needing seams in his socks to sit a certain way. Like a childhood spent tearfully pulling clothes off his body until his parents figured out what fabrics he could tolerate. It felt like being seven and unable to explain to teachers why the other children didn’t like him, why he hid under the tables when the classroom was too noisy.
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- AO3:
- #79854871
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There was a time when Ilya believed Scott Hunter's coming out would revolutionize hockey forever— but for every step forward came two steps back.
When Shane and Ilya meet again late in life, can they make their second chance work?
OR: Old Man Hollanov Yaoi.
- Part 1 of old man hollanov yaoi
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- AO3:
- #78739901
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“Can you speak?” Ilya asks, voice soft and careful. He keeps combing his fingers through Shane’s hair. Shane opens his mouth, tries to produce a word, snaps his mouth closed as more tears rush to his eyes. “Okay, okay,” Ilya moves closer, kissing Shane’s cheek, his nose, his mouth. “You do not need to talk. You do not need words with me. You talk when ready.” OR: Shane goes non-verbal.
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- #79808646
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Management Hollander (or, the apple did not run away from the tree) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-18
Yuna has a lot of feelings about her son being gay, and feelings are best worked out in spreadsheet format.
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- #79810136
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Shane was freaking out. Coming out to his team DID NOT go well. Instead of talking to his friends, or Rose, he calls Ilya.
And then he follows his advice.- Part 1 of Boston AU
- Part 1 of My Autistic Shane Hollander Writings
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- #79320546
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The brush off Shane received when he suggested Ilya try medication was hardly surprising to him. What he found shocking was that he had actually done it. Without telling Shane, no less. And if that wasn't startling enough, finding out the entire hockey community knew because of one ill-timed picture Cliff Marlow took practically knocked him off balance.
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“Who knew Rozanov would be the poster boy for Prozac?” Hayden muttered with a huff. “God, he’s gotta be floating on cloud nine with that dose. Normal people take like what, ten or twenty? Sixty must mean he was damn near suicidal.”“Probably,” JJ agreed, shrugging. “I wouldn’t know, I don’t need to medicate myself to cope with life.”
“If he’s all doped up, how come he’s still always such an asshole?” one of the rookies questioned, earning a few laughs.
Shane just felt sick to his stomach. And angry. At his team and Marlow and mostly at himself. Ilya had done exactly what he asked and now, he was getting mocked for taking care of himself. In what world was that fair?
“Maybe that’s why he’s so aggressive on the ice,” another theorized. “He's trying to kill himself and take another player with him to make it look like an accident.”
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- #79777351
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Shane Hollander works at a coffee shop, plays hockey, keeps his head down, and doesn’t ask questions he doesn’t need the answers to.
So when a new regular starts showing up—quiet, watchful, Russian-accented, and conducting invitation-only meetings in the back—Shane notices. When that same man takes an unsettling interest in Shane’s closing shifts, his routines, and his safety, Shane does what feels sensible: he adjusts his behavior and keeps his mouth shut.
Ilya Rozanov orders an Americano. He reads, but only in Russian. He worries when people work late alone.
They are operating with very different definitions of danger.
If he didn’t ask questions, he couldn’t be lied to.
The rules were simple.
1. Do not ask questions you don’t need the answer to.
2. Do not share personal information freely.
3. Do not be alone with Ilya Rozanov.
4. Do not give him a reason to think you’re afraid.- Part 1 of Private Meetings and Open Doors
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- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #78080711
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The Snow's Gonna Fall by shanehollandersrangerover
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-17
“Love you,” Shane finally mumbles when he finds his voice. Ilya moves one side of the headphones off of Shane’s ear to reply. “I love you more malysh.” “I’m sorry for this. I know this isn’t how you wanted to spend the evening.” “No moya lyubov, we talked about this. Do not apologize for brain.” “I don’t deserve you.” Or: Shane drives home in a snowstorm, which leaves him shutdown and overstimulated.
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- AO3:
- #79232071
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icymi by anincompletelist (soldouthaz)
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-17
In late 2012 when Shane has a meltdown and frantically tells them to call Lily, for the first time Yuna’s ever witnessed, Shane is coaxed out of one of them instead of just suffering through until the exhaustion wins out instead—and all by some mysterious, apparently very well attuned to Shane, 'Lily'. She hadn’t meant to see the number before she’d pressed it and fumbled the phone up to Shane’s ear. It was simply a byproduct of the situation, something Shane had asked for her to do. …Memorizing it and then texting that number to thank Lily for their help was not something she’d been asked to do. But she worries so much about Shane, and Lily is a reassurance. Not a pry for details but the simple, verifiable confirmation: he’s okay. Lily, on the other hand, very much enjoys being able to make oddly specific 'your mother' jokes to Shane much more often now. (And maybe the whole family piece of it, too.)
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- 9/9
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- 1
- AO3:
- #79641286
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Hayden’s phone is partially covering his face, but his smile is still just barely visible as he reaches into his pocket and pulls out a small bag that immediately makes Shane want to check the time on his phone, just in case. He’s going to get hell for this when Ilya gets home. Or; Shane gets very high; Ilya is very entertained by it.
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- AO3:
- #79715846
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Kip likes Hunter’s teammates more than he expected to, which is to say not all that much.
Some of them are good—some of them are great—some of them are terrible, and a lot of them just have no idea how to talk to a queer person.
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- #79759221
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Ten minutes into the drive back to his cottage, Shane carefully signals and pulls over onto the shoulder of the empty road, then slumps over with his forehead on the wheel.
- Part 3 of
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- #79629061
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Hayden accidentally bullies Shane Hollander into tolerating him. Or so Hayden thinks – right until he pulls back.
- Part 16 of [challenge] Heated Rivalry Febuwhump 2026
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- #79668541
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Requiem for Hayden Pike's Eyes by tiredfairycake
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-15
“I don’t care what gets you going,” Hayden said, which caused Shane to grimace. “You could have told me you were gay. I wouldn’t have said anything.” “I didn’t even know I was gay until a year ago.” Hayden paused. “You were fucking Rozanov for almost ten years and you, what, thought it was just straight homies helping each other out?” That actually got a laugh out of Rozanov. “Shane is slow sometimes.” -- Hayden accidently walks in on Shane and Ilya fucking.
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- AO3:
- #79621401
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Shane’s mind was fuzzy. The scratching of skates and the roar of the crowd overwhelmed him, distracted him. His head felt heavy, laden with sounds, not enough space to focus on the game. It felt as if his brain had fogged over suddenly, stopping him from thinking about anything other than how loud everything was. Shane felt his brain pulling him back, pulling him away from the game, drawing him into himself. A pressure built up behind his eyes and it was all he could do to not tip forward with the weight, feeling the heaviness of his brain. “-ander?”
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- #79612171
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Back to the egg (it's crimson and gold) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-15
Shane and Ilya once knew each other in what feels like another life. Years later, Shane has transitioned, buried his past and finally embraced his truest self. He comes to McGill to play on the men’s hockey team—only to find his roommate is Ilya Rozanov.
“Sorry—um.” Shane swallowed. “I’m Shane.”
Something passed across Ilya’s face, quick and unreadable. Shane’s pulse spiked, thudding loud in his ears. Did he know? If Ilya recognized him—if something clicked—what would stop him from telling the coaches? What would stop him from telling everyone?
Then Ilya smoothed it away, the moment gone as if it had never existed.“Huh,” he said. “Funny. I used to know a Shane. Pretty girl. Good at hockey.”
Shane’s eyes widened. His mouth went dry. Was Ilya fucking with him?
“Oh—um. I—”
“Relax,” Ilya cut in, lips curling into something almost amused, almost sharp. “You are very pretty, too.”
- Part 1 of Back to the egg (it’s crimson and gold)
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- #78981291
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You Are My First Pick by ItsMayBiTheWay
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-14
The first time it happens, Shane doesn’t even realize what is happening. The mystery package does not have any return address, but is directly shipped to Shane’s home. Curious as to what it is, he carefully opens it. OR Five times Shane gets anonymous Valentine's Day gifts and one time he figures out who they are from!
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- AO3:
- #79542326
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mess by casdoms (moffwithhishead)
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-14
Fuck. He can’t do this now. He pinches his thigh in an effort to redirect his thoughts from spiraling, but it doesn’t help. The additional guilt of not wanting to make it about himself seems to tip him over the edge and - fucking, ugh.
- Part 6 of heated rivalry but shane is more audhd
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- #79529291
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You're The Risk I'm Gonna Take It by PumpkinPrincess22
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-14
In a world where Ilya and Shane are already friends by the time of the Draft, what if Ilya had kissed Shane in that hotel gym? And what if that kiss sparked the beginning of a real relationship seven years earlier than in canon?
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- AO3:
- #79522356