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  1. Shane fucking Hollander. Hockey’s Golden Boy. Long-time crush of Ilya Rozanov. Long, looooong time. A decade of being a fucking simp for this man. God, he was in trouble.

    It should be pretty much illegal to go from their only contact being at face-off across the ice, to suddenly hosting Shane in his exclusive club—during a fucking event, no less. Ilya’s event.

    He would never admit it, but he’s been stealthily trying to get Hollander to show up at his club for years now. Hell, Shane was the whole reason he invested in the club in the first place. Bought a fucking house here. Maybe that was an insane thing to do, but he didn’t care. Ilya was insane. Insane for Shane.

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    26/26
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    3 versions
    AO3:
    #80376461
  2. #FindBostonLily by

    Heated Rivalry (TV)
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    2026-05-06

    NHL Updates @NHLUpdates
    Montreal captain Shane Hollander begs for information about a mysterious “Boston Lily” who he’s been secretly dating for six years, sparking a viral movement to reunite the pair. Full story below.

    metrooos @hockleberry
    guys I think we might have to lock the fuck in????? #FindBostonLily

    --OR--

    Amnesiac!Shane knows that he's in love, but not who he's in love with. The internet vows to assist.

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    1
    AO3:
    #84347726
  3. “Don’t marry her. Don’t leave me.” Ilya Rozanov has planned dozens of perfect weddings. This one just happens to belong to the man he's been in love with for his for years. *Reuploaded after random deletion a while back*

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    16/16
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    1
    AO3:
    #83446491
  4. Shane didn't end up by the rooftop pool at the All Star Game by accident. After he said goodbye to Ilya at the bar, he very quickly realized he needed to find him again. But where did he go? Shane searches the hotel for him.

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    AO3:
    #84229691
  5. When Shane takes a hard hit on the ice, he wakes up three days later to find his reality has been shattered. But the truth is, it wasn’t reality at all. Just an elaborate set of false memories conjured by a brain injury. 'False memory syndrome' they call it. Shane calls it a nightmare he couldn't have imagined.

    Or

    Shane doesn’t have amnesia. Instead, he wakes up wanting his boyfriend only to realize his brain concocted a bunch of fake memories of a nine year situationship and Shane has no idea how to live in his actual reality that Ilya hasn’t been a part of. Luckily, Ilya is…curious.

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    Chapters:
    11/11
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    1
    AO3:
    #81604961
  6. "Where's Rose?" Shane asked, the confusion in his tone obvious, but 'Ilya' didn't buy it. Or didn't care to.

    "Ah, i see. This is .. foreplay."

    Shane's lips parted in disbelief.

    "Foreplay?" He practically squeaked, his voice a pitch higher and riddled with concern. For both his friends safety and because— is this person flirting with him?

    Or NHL star Shane Hollander accidentally calls a sex hotline and Ilya Rozanov answers.

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    1
    AO3:
    #83485766
  7. “You know why I got them, yes?” “I know why you think you got them.” “Is our anniversary.” “No, it’s not.” The sound of Shane’s stick blade hitting another puck reverberated through the otherwise empty rink. “I am the kind of guy who remembers those things,” Ilya leaned as close as he dared, snatching one of the pucks and taking a shot of his own before Shane could go again. He let out a pleased hum at himself as it sank into the upper left corner. “You’re fucking not. You’re the kinda guy who gets his roommate flowers to be an asshole, actually. You know, I’ve never met a single other person who’s ever done that.” Ilya gave an exaggerated pout, “You are being mean to me on our roommate anniversary.” “Are you going to do this every fucking year?” • • • • • • Ilya buys Shane flowers to celebrate the anniversary of them living together in their university apartment. Shane finds this a particularly asshole move from Ilya, considering they started living together in September and it's currently January. They spend most of the day arguing about it, until Shane finally comes clean about the deeper reason his roommate's "gift" has left him so off-kilter all day.

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    1
    AO3:
    #84029571
  8. After the tuna melt meltdown, Shane meets Rose Landry, has several deeply inconvenient revelations, and decides to do the only sensible thing: win Ilya back with sincerity, logistics, and a frankly alarming amount of emotional effort.

    Ilya, meanwhile, mistakes every tender gesture for the kind prelude to an inevitable goodbye.

    Or: Shane is living in a romcom. Ilya is living in a Russian tragedy.

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    Chapters:
    5/5
    Files:
    4 versions
    AO3:
    #81874976
  9. What if Shane and Ilya had been drafted to the same team and fell in love as teammates instead of rivals?

    Shane and Ilya are both drafted to the Minnesota Nomads. What begins as new teammates building a friendship slowly deepens into a quiet, intense love neither of them expected.

    A story of teammates-to-lovers, found family, tragedy, and a love strong enough to survive even the coldest nights.

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    Chapters:
    17/17
    Files:
    1
    AO3:
    #82490781
  10. “Good,” Shane says, when he finally finds his voice. “Because I’m selfish.” Ilya laughs. “You are not selfish, sweetheart.” “I am when it comes to you,” he confesses, pulling back so he can look Ilya in the eyes. “I feel like a kid who doesn’t want to share his favourite toy.”

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    2 versions
    AO3:
    #83245521
  11. “I am serious, though, you are safe, yes? Drunk at hotel, sitting on balcony, crying over Montreal’s terrible loss?”

    It makes sense that Ilya’s mind would go there first. Shane said he was outside. Based on past behavior, the hotel balcony is probably the only place Ilya would expect him to be. He feels a little giddy that he gets to shock him for once.

    “I’m at a club, actually.” He has to bite back a self-satisfied smile as he speaks, “With the team. Safe.”

    It's quiet for a few moments before Ilya deadpans,

    “Very funny joke.”

    (or: three days after the breakup with rose, shane gets drunk in boston. it spirals out from there.)

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    AO3:
    #82813726
  12. In 2014, just before the Olympic Break, an old sex tape from Ilya’s youth is leaked. Desperate for political cover, he marries Svetlana and says goodbye to his situationship with Shane Hollander.

    In 2019, pregnant and utterly done with the dating scene after a long string of loser boyfriends, Rose Landry asks Shane if he wants to be a father. Sick and tired of being alone, he agrees.

    In 2030, still in search of that elusive Stanley Cup despite an otherwise perfect Hall of Fame career, Ilya asks to be traded to a contender. He never thought he might end up playing on the same team as his old lover… Or that feelings he thought long buried might resurface.

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    Chapters:
    4/?
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    1
    AO3:
    #78037211
  13. Shane Hollander can’t keep sitting on his couch, nursing a broken leg and watching his team drown without him. He’ll do anything to fill the gap hockey left behind, even something as stupid as competing on Celebrity MasterChef.

    Shane wants a distraction so big he’ll forget hockey, forget Rozanov, and especially forget that afternoon in Boston, and the outstretched hand he walked away from. Unfortunately for Shane, ignoring Rozanov won’t be so easy when he’s one table away, wearing a matching apron, and talking to the cameras about the recipes that shaped his childhood.

    (Or: Right after the tuna-melt scene, both Shane and Ilya get injured, and to fill the time they both decide to go on Celebrity MasterChef.)

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    1
    AO3:
    #82700886
  14. Shane makes a list: reasons to Come Out on one side and to Stay Safe on the other. It's definitely not meant to accidentally star in the background of his mom's Instagram post for fans to find. But now that the world knows, maybe Shane can finally let himself have everything he's wanted. If only Ilya didn't go out and get engaged the next day. Which is fine! Rozanov was settling down? Shane could settle down, too. He would find himself a nice man.

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    2 versions
    AO3:
    #82789081
  15. degrees of separation by

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    2026-04-07

    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov got married in secret and for two whole years, they lived their life quietly.

    They broke apart quietly, too.

    The worst part is that none of it feels right. Not their continued rivalry on the ice, not the divorce papers on Shane’s table, and definitely not the idea of saying goodbye. There are too many wounds untouched, too many things left unsaid, and too much love between them still.

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    1
    AO3:
    #80551041
  16. While at the top of his game, professional porn star Ilya Rozanov is approached by the famous yet boringly untalented OnlyFans creator Shane Hollander who wants to collaborate. What starts as a transactional partnership quickly turns into a war of egos, blurred boundaries, and incredible on-camera chemistry.

    As their views climb and the sexual tension thickens they're left to confront the reality that maybe their mutual hatred might be the spark for some thing far more intimate then just sex.

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    Chapters:
    10/10
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    3 versions
    AO3:
    #77434821
  17. "You will bend for me many times, I think, before this production is over." Shane means to say no. He means to tell Ilya Rozanov—arrogant Bolshoi principal dancer and professional pain in his ass—to fuck off and stop moving set pieces without permission. Instead, he ends up on his knees in a dressing room, which is definitely not how the Royal Winnipeg Ballet’s stage manager is supposed to handle conflict resolution. Three weeks until opening night. One impossible rivalry. And absolutely no way this ends well. or: Ilya comes to Winnipeg for The Nutcracker. Shane tries very hard to hate him. The mind- blowing hate-sex doesn’t help.

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    Chapters:
    7/7
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    2 versions
    AO3:
    #76120581
  18. Shane Hollander, a lonely and longing househusband, calls pool cleaning services at the beginning of summer.

    Ilya Rozanov the pool boy shows up.

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    66,692
    Chapters:
    17/17
    Files:
    2 versions
    AO3:
    #79080366
  19. Ilya Rozanov has spent ten years circling Shane Hollander. Ten years of hotel rooms and secret phone calls. Ten years of pretending he doesn't feel it, doesn't need it, doesn't wake up reaching for someone who's already gone. Ten years convincing himself he's not good enough. That he's not worth it.

    Then a plane needs to make an emergency landing near Montreal, and Yuna Hollander is on it.

    So when Shane calls him from a bathroom floor, unable to breathe, Ilya stops pretending.

    After five hundred miles of frozen highway, three and a half hours of driving like a man possessed, a hospital waiting room full of people who have every reason to hate him, and a boy who looks at him like he's something worth keeping, Ilya may have learned a thing or two about what it means to be loved—and to let himself love freely.

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    104,414
    Chapters:
    3/3
    Files:
    3 versions
    AO3:
    #81207291
  20. It’s the alcohol, Shane thinks, and all this talk of marrying someone for citizenship, that somehow lands him in Ilya’s bed, role-playing as his newly wedded wife.

    It’s all just pretend, of course.

    Even if Shane and Ilya both enjoy playing their roles a little too well.

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    AO3:
    #82005236
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