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The Many Reactions of Shane Hollander by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-05-10
(to The Many Plans of J.J. Boiziau)
So J.J. had figured out that Shane’s secret boyfriend was Ilya after less than twelve hours of even knowing that he had a secret boyfriend. And it had been… fine? His reaction hadn’t been at all what Shane had expected. He still couldn’t quite wrap his head around it.
But one problem at a time. He was sure that he was a bad boyfriend to Ilya, no matter what J.J. had said, and he needed to find a way to fix it.
Or, some moments from Shane’s POV that J.J. wasn’t present for.
- Part 3 of The Queer Hockey Agenda
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I love you through everything by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-05-07
Ilya sat up a little straighter and scoffed, “Yes yes. Mr. FBI man thought I was big Russian assassin. I tried to tell him business man life was not that exciting. Not everyone that goes to military school is hit man like in movies.” He rolled his eyes as Scott continued.
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There's a hit man on the loose. Shane is a government agent, Hayden and Scott work at the FBI. Will they be able to find who ever is responsible for multiple murders?
Title - I love you through everything. I'm not actually the biggest Drake fan, but this line in Jungle seemed appropriate for this.
One of my lovely readers was inspired to draw me a cover art for this fic. I'm so happy they loved it enough and wanted everyone to see it. You can see the original link here Thank you again to wiccawicca!!!
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Shane hasn’t been new on a team since his rookie season. He hasn’t had to walk into a locker room full of guys he doesn’t know since he was nineteen. That first year in Montreal had been one of the most exhausting of his life, and the hockey had been the least of it.
Boston’s locker room will be easier than Montreal's, Shane thinks. Hopes.
- Part 3 of all the stars aligned
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"Where's Rose?" Shane asked, the confusion in his tone obvious, but 'Ilya' didn't buy it. Or didn't care to.
"Ah, i see. This is .. foreplay."
Shane's lips parted in disbelief.
"Foreplay?" He practically squeaked, his voice a pitch higher and riddled with concern. For both his friends safety and because— is this person flirting with him?
Or NHL star Shane Hollander accidentally calls a sex hotline and Ilya Rozanov answers.
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Famous Last Words by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-04-28
Shane and Ilya are publicly outed by grainy paparazzi footage the season after the cottage and thankfully their best friends take it better than they do.
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Once More Around the Sun by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-23
After Shane walks out post-tuna melt, Ilya Rozanov walks through hell to remind himself who he is, a man ready to salt the fucking Earth for his people.
Shane’s not even pretending he’s capable of being rational about it, he isn’t, his world is falling apart at the seams and he’s fairly sure he’s losing his mind.
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Trip and Fall (Don't worry by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-21
Shane is already nervous about hosting his new team right before the regular season starts for the Ottawa Centaurs. A lapse in the rigid rules he's set for himself leads to a few...consequences he definitely didn't foresee when he woke up that morning expecting the worst of their gathering to involve awkward small talk and making sure no one got so drunk they wouldn't make practice tomorrow.
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“Oh my god,” said Shane, his breaths coming in shorter pants.“You said you would not panic,” Ilya reminded him.
“That was before I did drugs!” Shane cries, way too loudly for the quiet of the room.
- Part 2 of After All These Years
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Not a New Man (Or Crispy Realization) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-19
Ilya Rozanov told the hockey gods his plans: sign in Ottawa, start a charity named after his mother, date Shane Hollander, play hockey until the shelves in the trophy room collapse, retire, come out (?), kiss his someday husband in every boring restaurant and boring grocery store and public place imaginable.
After being carted off the ice with a career-threatening injury, Ilya has the distinct feeling he is being laughed at.
- Part 1 of Good Winter
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The Chirp Gone Wrong by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-04-05
Shane Hollander didn’t have many secrets. Secrets were just lies and lies were hard. They required a constant and exhausting amount of maintenance. Secrets had to be selfishly hidden and mercilessly protected. They required a magician’s uncanny talent to smile and laugh, pulling the audience’s attention to the left hand while simultaneously warping reality with the right.
No matter how he looked at it, Shane knew the truth. A secret was a lie, and Shane Hollander could not lie.
Shane’s mind, riddled with anxiety and a compulsive need for facts, plans, plays, just couldn’t hold all the frayed and sharp edges of a secret (a lie) and not fatally cut himself.
aka. Shane’s other secret was this. He had a hero and that hero was Scott Hunter.
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The Distance Between Us by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-30
Ilya Rozanov has spent ten years circling Shane Hollander. Ten years of hotel rooms and secret phone calls. Ten years of pretending he doesn't feel it, doesn't need it, doesn't wake up reaching for someone who's already gone. Ten years convincing himself he's not good enough. That he's not worth it.
Then a plane needs to make an emergency landing near Montreal, and Yuna Hollander is on it.
So when Shane calls him from a bathroom floor, unable to breathe, Ilya stops pretending.
After five hundred miles of frozen highway, three and a half hours of driving like a man possessed, a hospital waiting room full of people who have every reason to hate him, and a boy who looks at him like he's something worth keeping, Ilya may have learned a thing or two about what it means to be loved—and to let himself love freely.
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A look at the year that Ilya still played for Boston, except they explicitly state their dom/sub relationship, and explore that dynamic (and kink) together.
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When they first started, it was by accident. Ilya followed Shane’s lead; he read his body and responded with his own. Shane liked to be on his knees for Ilya, and Ilya liked to keep him there.
The first time it went wrong. Shane thought it was his fault. It wasn’t.
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Now with 10k-word SMUTTY EPILOGUE
- Part 1 of Bellboy
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Shane had told his manager, verbatim, that he “trusts her judgment” to pick the opener for his first ever world tour.
Her “judgment” shows up to soundcheck with a parking ticket in his hand and a crimson hickey on his neck. Her “judgment” is Russian DJ, Ilya Rozanov.
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“That’s not-” Shane starts, but he stops himself. Ilya tilts his head slightly in question, but Shane bites the inside of his cheek and then shakes his head slightly, cheeks flushing. “I do trust you,” Shane says.
“But not with your car?” Ilya asks. “You are afraid I will drive all the boring out of it?”
Shane rolls his eyes.
“It’s a good car-” He starts in another refrain of one of his favorite summer songs.
Ilya rolls them and pins his boyfriend under him before he has to hear about four wheel drive and gas mileage again.
There are far better uses for Shane’s mouth, after all.
(in which ilya learns that being a passenger in the car knocks shane tf out)
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a year safe in your heart by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-13
“And you’re sure there’s nothing for you?” David says suddenly. “You’re not—you’re feeling okay? You’re not sick? Shane wouldn’t have any reason to think that you’re sick?”
Ilya blinks and turns to him. “I am fine. Totally fine. Better than fine, even, before today.”
“It’s just—Shane’s acting like you’re dying, Ilya.”
“Not as far as I’m aware,” says Ilya. “And I do not think he would learn this before me.”
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The summer before Ilya joins the Centaurs, Shane wakes up nervous. It doesn't stop from there.
- Part 1 of anonymous cottage collection
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The urge to not leave with words unspoken encouraged Shane to open his mouth again, “But… I called you didn’t I?” Ilya’s gaze flicked to him, bright blue eyes shining wide, “Does Rose Landry know you are safe?” He asked, changing the subject. “I didn’t text her,” Shane replied, shaking his head. “Not… anything about me drinking.” “Your parents?” “No. I didn’t text anyone else. Just you.” He clarified, needing to get that point across. Didn’t that mean anything? That out of all the people Shane could have called, he’d chosen Ilya. instead of going to the bar with rose, shane stays home and drinks updated with part 2 - the morning after
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“I will be quick,” Ilya’s voice was unusually quiet. “I wanted to ask…”
“What?” Shane imagined all manner of questions. How are you? Will you ever get better? Is this the life you’re living now, really? Shane fucking Hollander, podcaster? Aren’t you ashamed of this pathetic existence?
“I wanted to ask you out.”
Shane’s brain stopped. He blinked. He might have swayed. “Out where?”
“Out on date.”
“What?”Years later, after winning cups that should have gone to Montreal, Ilya hears Shane Hollander's voice again. On the popular podcast Man in the Crease.
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Come Back Home (The Porch Light Is On) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-11
ROZANOV DOWN: Ottawa Captain Carried Off Ice on Stretcher After Third Period Hit. Rozanov unconscious on impact. Fencing response observed. Cervical collar applied. Transferred to hospital by ambulance. Shane Hollander received game misconduct following altercation and did not return to the ice.
A grade-3 concussion leaves Ilya Rozanov trapped in a "slow" brain, struggling to reclaim the elite hockey instincts that once defined his identity. Within the sanctuary of their darkened apartment, Shane Hollander anchors their life, managing every medical detail while privately bracing against his own silent terror. It is a portrait of the grueling, quiet patience required to wait out a neurological fog, hoping the person on the other side eventually finds their way back.
- Part 2 of Shake off the shackles my love
- Part 7 of A Formal Study of the Heart
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the pregnancy poster boy by imbihesgay
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-08
“Nothing serious,” Yuna says before Shane can reply. “I was just telling Shane about this great opportunity to work with a maternity athletic brand.” “I don’t really feel comfortable right now, Mom,” Shane tells her, grimacing as he looks down at the stretched fabric of the hoodie he’s wearing. “I’m not myself. I don’t think this is the Shane Hollander brands are expecting.” “You are beautiful, perfect, moy lyubimyy,” Ilya is quick to disagree. “Ilya is right,” Yuna says, “and Shane, they know you’re pregnant. That’s exactly why they want you! You’re breaking barriers for omegas in the NHL. A pregnant, star NHL player? Just think of how much hope young omegas would feel looking at you!” Ilya winces. He hadn’t meant for his comment to encourage Yuna this way. -Yuna books a brand shoot for Shane during his pregnancy, he says yes even though he really doesn't want to-
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Set towards the end of The Long Game. The day after Ilya loses the playoffs and tells Shane he's like his mother, Shane hustles them off to the Cottage. A lot of feelings that haven't been discussed get discussed.
“Moya lyubov, I know we have plans to be very honest with each other, yes?”
Shane pulls away slightly, but he only makes it an inch or two, because Ilya’s still hugging him close. “No, no, do not run away, Hollander. Stay.”
Shane stops trying to move and lets himself sag back into Ilya. Ilya huffs contentedly, “Yes. Good. We have this plan, and it is a good plan. But you said we have time, yes?”
“Forever,” promises Shane, “I’m with you forever, Ilya.”
“Yes,” Ilya agrees, another gentle kiss pressed to the corner of Shane’s mouth, and Shane turns a little so that it turns into a real kiss. Ilya smiles against his lips as he pulls away, “So maybe we slow down? We do not have to share all of our feelings today, okay?”
“Okay,” Shane agrees with a little laugh, “Yes. Some of them can wait until tomorrow.”- Language:
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if you ever try to leave me again by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-04
Shane heard a strangled shout tear free from his mouth, and then his body was moving without his brain’s input. He flew across the ice, ripping his gloves off and reaching for Ilya’s throat. He wrapped his fingers around the warm skin, feeling the flow of blood pulse harder with each beat of Ilya’s heart. His eyes raced across Ilya’s face, desperately looking for a sign that his boyfriend was still with him. Ilya’s eyes were wide and glazed, staring past Shane instead of at him. His face was losing color rapidly, turning a sickly shade of white that mirrored the ice beneath him. His mouth was open, loose and slack, mouthguard still jammed into his upper jaw. Shane watched in terror as Ilya grew limper in his arms.
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During a Boston-Montreal game, Ilya's neck is cut by a skate, and Shane is forced to witness the love of his life bleeding out on the ice in front of him. All of the plans they have made seem to be slipping away before his eyes, right when they were so close to finalizing Ilya's transfer to Ottawa. As they race against the clock to save Ilya's life, Shane reckons with the secrets they have been forced to keep and fears that they might never get to live their truth out in the open.- Language:
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- #78629256