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David gets diagnosed with prostate cancer a few months before Shane turns forty.
“It’s nothing for you to worry about,” he says, right before he drops the news. Family dinner: pasta with vodka sauce, roasted broccoli, a tower of garlic bread stacked just as high as ever, even though Ilya, retired now, no longer has the appetite he once had. Usually, he still manages to put most of it away, even if it means he ends up groaning on the coach afterwards, begging Shane to rub his belly. Shane rolls his eyes, but he always does it, if only for the happy little sighs Ilya makes, like a fat house cat.
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Or: there's a cancer diagnosis, then a cancer scare, and Shane contemplates retirement.
- Part 30 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
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i have never known a silence like the one fallen here by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-10-21
Jake asked if Asher had any family he could contact for him. “We wouldn’t even need to tell them what happened, Asher,” he’d said, like the problem was that Asher needed convincing.
“I don’t have any family,” Asher had said. He’d spoken in that same dead-sounding voice that he knew seriously unnerved people, but he couldn’t help it; he’d still been perfecting his normal-person voice at that point. “I never knew my mom. My dad is dead.”
Jake had deflated visibly but tried again and asked about friends.
Asher had stared at him for a little too long but eventually produced a response after the assistant trainer’s question had spent a moment rattling around his head. “I had a boyfriend,” he’d said. He’d smiled, like a reflex. Asher wasn’t even really thinking of Gabe specifically but rather the simple concept that he’d Had A Boyfriend, But Now He Doesn’t. “Kent kinda ruined that for me.”
— or: you've heard of Asher Rivera. would you like to meet him?
- Part 3 of the new me fights 'verse
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not another (hockey)star by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-10-21
Shane Hollander quit hockey after the prospect cup but before the draft.
Somehow, he and Ilya Rozanov end up in Ottawa anyway.
- Part 2 of don't swallow the cap
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- English
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- 6,573
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- 4/?
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- #92316036
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and we all fall down by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-10-17
The truth was, yeah, Shane married Ilya, but he’d married hockey first. He married hockey the second he signed his rookie contract with the Metros, and his courtship began long, long before. And his marriage to hockey wasn’t like his marriage to Ilya. Hockey wouldn’t ever love him back. Ilya wasn’t going to chew Shane up and spit him out at some nebulous point after he turned thirty and before he turned forty, his joints busted and his mouth full of dentures and his brain fucked to hell and back. And that marriage—his first marriage—had always come before his second, illicit shotgun wedding.
It wasn’t ideal, maybe, but that was just how things were. Hell, it was probably the same for Ilya, too. The fuck was Shane supposed to do about it? Nothing, nothing, nothing. He liked his life just the way it was. He didn’t want to do anything different. He still doesn’t. And that’s the worst, most shameful part of it all: at the end of the day, some part of Shane will always wish he could wind back time like adjusting a watch; erase that Instagram post before it ever hit the internet and go back to the life they’d had before; the life that was slowly killing them both.
- Part 3 of two weddings and a scandal
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- #86022951
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The Vocabulary of Exile by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-10-04
At twenty-one, Ilya Rozanov is the Soviet Union’s most perfect weapon, a soldier of the Red Machine who has spent three years locked in a silent, jagged war on the ice with Canada’s golden boy, Shane Hollander.
When the Montreal Metros claim him as a "wasted" mid-round draft pick, the rivalry transforms from a professional grudge into a desperate lifeline. On the final night of the 1988 Calgary Olympics, he risks everything, his family, his career, and his safety, to start a new life in the West. Forced into a high-stakes billet under the roof of his bitter professional rival, Ilya must navigate a world where freedom feels like a new kind of prison.
As Ilya struggles to adapt, the crumbling Soviet empire reaches across the ocean, searching for leverage to help pull him back.
OR: What if Ilya fled Russia in 1988 to play for the Montreal Metros?
- Part 1 of Defective
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- 260,211
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- 33/40
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- AO3:
- #78926751
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Shane Hollander is worried about everyone and everything.
Ilya is mostly just sick of air travel.
Or:
Shane and Ilya are having trouble balancing their very private relationship and their very public lives.A slice of life.
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- 4/4
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- AO3:
- #76866546
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on winning and losing (and ilya rozanov) by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-09-28
Twenty years after everything fell apart, Shane Hollander is on the cusp of becoming MLH Commissioner when Ilya Rozanov walks into his office and back into his life.
"I don't know, I’m pretty late to the game," Shane says.
“Everything good happens in third period,” Ilya counters.
- Part 2 of old man hollanov yaoi
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- 28/28
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- #82087191
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This is the story about the normal every day people who found out about Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov long before the world was told. This is the story of how the relationship between Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov changed their lives. This is the story of the people who knew, protected, and supported Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov... some for almost for thirteen years.
OR
Shane and Ilya were actually horrible at keeping their relationship a secret.
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- 24/24
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- AO3:
- #92545581
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Growing Outward by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-09-17
“Good, well then that brings me to the real topic of conversation.” Another sigh from Coach Wiebe, “As I’m sure you’ve already guessed, those highlighted names have been offered rookie contracts and they’ve each expressed interest in living with a vet for their first year.”
Ilya felt his heart fall into his stomach, afraid of the next words to come out of his Coach’s mouth.
“We asked the rookies who they’d like to live with and, well, LaPointe wanted to board with you, Chouinard. And Young with you, Bood,” Wiebe then turned to Ilya who had frozen on the spot, “And Roz, Haas wants to live with you.”
Bood and Chouinard chuckled as they watched Ilya’s eyes widen in horror.
OR
Luca Haas was drafted 2nd overall by the Ottawa Centaurs in 2018. Two years later, he anxiously moved halfway across the world to play his rookie season with the team. He requested to live with Ilya Rozanov and they slowly became family.
- Part 1 of Growing Outward Series
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- 36/36
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- AO3:
- #78592636
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Stupid Canadian Jailbird by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-31
Shane and Ilya get arrested hours after Team Canada wins the World Junior Championship. From one day to the next, their lives are flipped upside down. As prisoners – er, incarcerated persons –, they are no longer climbing the hockey social ladder. They are no longer rival captains and star hockey players bearing responsibility for their nations’ and their future MLH teams’ hopes. They are nothing more than cellmates awaiting trial, caught in a tedious cycle of empty days where privacy is a distant memory. However will they pass the time?
Good thing they have each other. Now if only they could be honest about their feelings... Ideally, before they're released and face the legal and professional consequences of their venture into crime.
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OR a fact-ridden, funny, and frustrating romance set in one of the world's least romantic and most devastating environments, courtesy of a prison scholar.
- Part 7 of
- Part 3 of Hollanov find community
- Part 1 of Hollanov in Total Institutions
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- 15/15
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- AO3:
- #89569931
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The Dog Days Are Over by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-08-20
Something in Shane’s chest ignites. Fast. Hot. A balloon of burning pressure inflating behind his ribs. For a moment, Shane actually sees red.
“Don’t worry,” Shane hears himself say, easy, almost pleasant. “It’s chicken. Not dog.”
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- #90986561
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Shane Hollander Doesn’t Do Cheat Days by MmeBovary91
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-08-19
Shane Hollander doesn’t do cheat days. Not with his training. Not with his diet. Not with his life. Then a ridiculously attractive Russian-Italian chef in Milano force-feeds him the best ravioli he’s ever had and calls him a good boy and things spiral from there. Between Olympic pressure, impossible expectations, and a connection neither of them is ready to name, Shane finds himself unraveling in ways he doesn’t understand.
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- 5/5
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- AO3:
- #83764621
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nothing fucks with my baby by justhockey
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-08-07
“How’s your head, baby?” Shane asks, his voice soft and steady despite the lingering fear. “I have never had any complaints.” “Jesus Christ,” Shane sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose between his finger and thumb. He’s smiling behind his hand, though. The relief in his body is still a palpable thing.
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It occurs to Shane, distantly, that he’ll have to wear the defaced jersey and his sweaty uniform pants if he wants to leave the locker room. He really, really wants to leave the locker room.
His feet won’t move, though, like the bottom half of his body is suddenly made of lead, while the rest of him twists uncontrollably in the wind. His head feels like it’s floating off into outer space.
Traitor.
Things get worse for Shane after he and Ilya get outed to the world. Ilya and the Centaurs help soften the blow.
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you're an asshole, afterall by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-07-28
Ilya’s obviously aware that there’s something up with Shane, okay? No one who spent their formative years (as well as their twenties and thirties) obsessively watching Shane Hollander Best Goal YouTube clips could glimpse what was going on with the Metros last season and think that nothing had changed. He asked and asked over the summer months, and Shane denied and denied and denied to the point where Ilya had to wonder if Shane knew there was something up with himself. But that was silly. Of course Shane knew.
Ilya likes to think he’s the Shane Hollander whisperer. He knows about Shane’s dormant exhibitionism kink and how to trigger it without triggering what neither of them like to call an anxiety attack. He knows the difference between Shane's hungry stomach grumbles and impending-stomach-ache stomach grumbles. There’s probably not a freckle on Shane’s body Ilya hasn’t licked before, if he’s being honest. That’s not really impressive or a key to revealing Shane’s psyche or anything, but it’s probably worth mentioning.
On Shane Hollander's transfer to the Ottawa Centaurs, and everything he left behind.
- Part 2 of playing it any way i want
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it's always been you by canadienne_loon (hey_dj)
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-07-21
Ilya left the Boston Raiders and joined the Ottawa Centaurs in search of something else. He just would have never imagined that after leaving his heart in Montreal after university, he would find it again in Ottawa, grocery shopping with a child and speaking Russian. OR: Shane and Ilya meet and fall in love in university and get a second chance when Ilya comes to Ottawa, where Shane is the co-owner and head chef of a popular restaurant.
- Part 1 of The Hollanov Household
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The One That Got Away by PeaceLilies
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-07-18
Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov haven't spoken in fifteen years. After an emotionally charged hookup at Ilya's penthouse in Boston, the two hockey phenoms stop talking. They meet again as coaches for the struggling Ottawa Centaurs, both of them still harboring feelings for one another, but can they overcome the hurt that was caused on that day in Boston to try again?
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- 33/33
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- AO3:
- #88604346
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Shane and Ilya have been through this before. They know that labor hurts, babies have a habit of arriving on their own schedule, and that it's all worth it in the end. Knowing what's coming doesn't make it any easier. Hours later, the Hollander-Rozanov family turns into a family of four. OR Shane and Ilya welcome their second baby into the world.
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Shane Hollander has every aspect of his life under control: his diet, his training, his sexuality.
But when he’s forced to share a room with his rival for the number one draft pick, Ilya Rozanov, he begins to question every rule he thought he had perfected.
Including the one where he would never want a man. Or worse, Ilya Rozanov.
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Or: one year of college changes the trajectory of Shane Hollander’s life.
- Language:
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- 22/22
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- 1
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- #79622946
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Fuck-Marry-Kill by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-06-01
Ryan Price gets traded to Toronto and he hates it. Hates it.
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- AO3:
- #85965901