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  1. The Short Game by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-10-27

    Hayden took a bite, chewed pensively, then asked, “So, where are you going?”

    Shane felt his lips twitch into a small smile. “New York.”
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    OR: Instead of Ilya moving to Ottawa, Shane moves to New York. Now that he's playing with Scott Hunter, Shane finds himself more involved in the queer scene and on the fast-track to another MLH Cup final. Since he stays in Boston, Ilya's still at the top of his game, setting records as he leads his team straight through the playoffs. What happens when being closer together, means their rivalry is stronger than ever?

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    33/?
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    AO3:
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  2. This Kid is Going to Ruin My Life by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid

    2026-10-25

    Starting before then running concurrently with the events of Mr. Answer Man, this is Scott's perspective on the first three years of Shane and Ilya's growing relationship. You do not need to have read Mr. Answer Man to understand this (I hope!) but I recommend it.

    Scott Hunter is 25 years old, Captain of the New York Admirals, and privately, achingly, gay. He meets Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov at the 2009 MLH draft day, and everyone involved immediately gets several wrong ideas. For the next three years, Scott has to navigate his place as a closeted gay man in the spotlight of major league hockey, while trying to protect an oblivious baby queer from an obviously straight Russian menace who can't seem to stay away.

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    AO3:
    #92861061

  3. Line Change by

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    2026-10-24

    "You're an awesome player to watch."

    "I watch you too…I like watching you."

    One line changes everything.
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    OR: Instead of turning him down, Ilya and Shane become fast friends at the Prospects Cup. Their relationship (and how they hide the truth) completely changes when the media poses them as best friends instead of rivals.
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    Reads as a series of connected oneshots within this AU. Now including prospects cup 2008, draft celebrations, rookie all-star weekend, their first MLH awards, the cottage, commercial shoots, and post-game hookups.

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    7/?
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    1
    AO3:
    #75463401

  4. clap when you land by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
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    2026-10-24

    AU — The Centaurs’ plane crashes. No deaths are reported, and that should be a relief.

    Ilya survives. He just isn’t waking up.

    As Shane waits, the world continues on, and he’s forced to confront just how fragile their life truly is.

    Completed

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    3 versions
    AO3:
    #76375311

  5. Dear PenPal, Cry Every Day Until My Next Letter by

    Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
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    2026-10-22

    In 2003, Shane Hollander is assigned a PenPal, and gains a friend. A friend who smokes, calls him boring, and gives him ridiculous nicknames.

    Across the world, Ilya Rozanov practices his English with a curious Canadian boy whose name he can't fucking remember.

    Or, before they were Canada's Shane Hollander and Russia's Ilya Rozanov, they were Cat and Elijah. Shane has no reason to suspect his childhood PenPal is his hockey rival, and Ilya has never even considered that the man he's falling for is also the boy he already fell in love with through letters and postcards.

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    Chapters:
    38/?
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    2 versions
    AO3:
    #80799901

  6. flaming rivalry (flaming, like the fires of hell) by

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    2026-10-22

    Ilya essentially sells his soul to a demon so he can get out of Russia, away from his father, and make it to the NHL.
    The demon’s name? Shane Hollander.

    (think damn yankees but with hockey, with addie larue vibes, sprinkled with a bit of pushing daisies)

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    AO3:
    #91482416

  7. i have never known a silence like the one fallen here by

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    2026-10-21

    Jake asked if Asher had any family he could contact for him. “We wouldn’t even need to tell them what happened, Asher,” he’d said, like the problem was that Asher needed convincing.

    “I don’t have any family,” Asher had said. He’d spoken in that same dead-sounding voice that he knew seriously unnerved people, but he couldn’t help it; he’d still been perfecting his normal-person voice at that point. “I never knew my mom. My dad is dead.”

    Jake had deflated visibly but tried again and asked about friends.

    Asher had stared at him for a little too long but eventually produced a response after the assistant trainer’s question had spent a moment rattling around his head. “I had a boyfriend,” he’d said. He’d smiled, like a reflex. Asher wasn’t even really thinking of Gabe specifically but rather the simple concept that he’d Had A Boyfriend, But Now He Doesn’t. “Kent kinda ruined that for me.”

     

    — or: you've heard of Asher Rivera. would you like to meet him?

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    2/?
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    AO3:
    #92250841

  8. he's not coming back as a bird by

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    2026-10-19

    Ilya is thirty three and his life is finally settled. Then a call from Russia informs him that Alexei has overdosed and died. This brings things to the surface.

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    4/4
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    AO3:
    #91333116

  9. wouldn't it be nice by

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    2026-10-18

    The seven days after RFA Shane Hollander signed an offer sheet from Boston were the longest of Ilya's life. They were also some of the best.

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    AO3:
    #94941311

  10. and we all fall down by

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    2026-10-17

    The truth was, yeah, Shane married Ilya, but he’d married hockey first. He married hockey the second he signed his rookie contract with the Metros, and his courtship began long, long before. And his marriage to hockey wasn’t like his marriage to Ilya. Hockey wouldn’t ever love him back. Ilya wasn’t going to chew Shane up and spit him out at some nebulous point after he turned thirty and before he turned forty, his joints busted and his mouth full of dentures and his brain fucked to hell and back. And that marriage—his first marriage—had always come before his second, illicit shotgun wedding.

    It wasn’t ideal, maybe, but that was just how things were. Hell, it was probably the same for Ilya, too. The fuck was Shane supposed to do about it? Nothing, nothing, nothing. He liked his life just the way it was. He didn’t want to do anything different. He still doesn’t. And that’s the worst, most shameful part of it all: at the end of the day, some part of Shane will always wish he could wind back time like adjusting a watch; erase that Instagram post before it ever hit the internet and go back to the life they’d had before; the life that was slowly killing them both.

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    AO3:
    #86022951

  11. Ichi-go ichi-e by

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    2026-10-15

    The Hollander-Rozanov family visit Japan.

    Surely the media will be normal and let them enjoy their vacation, right?

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    Told through a series of group chats, Twitter threads, tabloid articles, and more

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    A spin-off from the first work in this series but can be read as a standalone.

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    AO3:
    #94572926

  12. hit or miss by

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    2026-10-14

    Finally, something dawns on him, a way to handle two goals simultaneously. He’d seen Hollander’s mother flipping through papers rapidly when they first got here, seeming calm and in control and more than a little frightening in a way that made Ilya mildly glad he wasn’t one of the people responsible for a clipboard. If anyone can tell him if the long list of “Prohibited Items” he’d been sent in his email a few days ago is just standard practice for big shoots, it would be Yuna Hollander.

    Or, hopefully, her son.

    “Crazy we cannot even have peanut butter, eh?” He asks. “You also got giant list?”

    Hollander stiffens, almost imperceptibly, and Ilya tilts his head, just slightly, confused, wondering if he’s stumbled somewhere unexpected.

    (how ilya learns about shane's allergies) (and shane's sexual awakening tragically hits a speedbump in the process 😔)

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    10/?
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    2 versions
    AO3:
    #87705801

  13. The Hollanov Conspiracy by

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    2026-10-14

    Scott Hunter is added to a group chat after coming out. It's not like anything he expected.

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  14. a plan for you by

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    2026-10-13

    NHL rookie Jamie Allens was forcefully outed to the hockey community after being arrested at a gay nightclub in Boston. After being dropped by the Raiders and recruited by the Centaurs, he now gets to see what life has to offer on the other side of the closet door.
    Meanwhile, Cliff Marlow is living his best WAG life.

    Or - a very unserious extended epilogue to The Same Team, taking the scenic route tying up some loose ends.

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  15. under the chinook arch by

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    2026-10-13

    In another life, Irina Rozanova dies. In this one, she takes twelve year old Ilya and runs.

    They arrive in Calgary, Alberta, with two passports and no luggage. Years later, hockey still carries Ilya toward Shane Hollander, but this time, they don't meet as rivals and instead build something neither of them is ready for.

    But Ilya has learned never to trust warmth in the middle of winter.

    The cold always comes back.

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    1
    AO3:
    #89750271

  16. Ilya's Top Secret Super Gay(ish) MLH Society by

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    2026-10-12

    so maybe that random person who commented on Shane Hollander's twitter statedment after him and Ilya had been outed had been right, there was a secret MHL gay society...and maybe it had been Ilya's plan all along

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    Or

    Ilya creates a group chat with all the queer players he knows about and has the number for...and maybe one he doesn't know about yet but shhhh it's still a secret

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    19/?
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    1
    AO3:
    #83757481

  17. we've only just begun by

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    2026-10-11

    “It is nice to meet you, Shane Hollander.” Ilya nods his head at the crumpled paper in Shane’s hand. “What is that you have there?” “Oh.” Shane’s cheeks are a perpetual state of flushed red. “Before I came, I made a list of, um, things I am looking for in a car? Practical things, I guess. I didn’t want to forget.” Ilya’s lips quiver, and he resists the urge to let an incredibly fond smile overtake his face. This tall, muscular omega could not be more precious if he was made of teddy bears and heart stickers. “May I see it?” Ilya inquires, extending his hand again. With visible reluctance, Shane passes over the piece of notebook paper. Ilya glances up at Shane, arching an eyebrow. The omega smiles shyly at him, his warm brown eyes glimmering. “Am I completely out of my mind to try and find all of these things in one car?” he asks. “I never let a customer leave unhappy.” He winks at Shane, who lets out a small, startled laugh. It’s an utterly breathtaking sound, even as brief as it is. -ilya is a single, playboy alpha car salesman. shane is a pregnant, unmated omega, trying to start his life over. they meet, and starting over gets a bit more complicated-

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    13/13
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    AO3:
    #92370506

  18. Can't Outrun You by

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    2026-10-11

    Shane's life comes to be defined by 'Before the 2008 Prospect Cup' and 'After'.

    Before he met his rival, his only equal in the sport he built himself around, Ilya Rozanov; and after his parents told Shane that he was going to become an older brother for the first time at the age of seventeen.

    ***

    Yuna and David have an unexpected late-life baby right as Shane's professional hockey career is both taking off and put at risk by his attraction to not only another man but his only real rival (in hockey, at least).

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    20/20
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    1
    AO3:
    #87136426

  19. when there's nothing left to burn by

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    2026-10-09

    If you’re wondering what the fuck happened to Scott Hunter, the answer is this: a series of cascading catastrophic decisions. A domino effect, a Rube Goldberg machine that starts at a club in Ibiza and ends with him eating a Montreal bagel on the floor.

    In which Scott Hunter accepts a trade to Montreal, just as Shane Hollander is named captain.

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    8/?
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    AO3:
    #83599986

  20. The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows by

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    2026-10-07

    There was no “No Son of Mine” lecture, no slurs were ever thrown around, and neither Shane nor Ilya were ever banished from Yuna and David’s house or life. Instead, a quiet questioning began, where all of Shane’s choices were investigated for motive and reason.

    When did this start? When did it become serious? Are you sure about this?

    When David first walked in on Shane and Ilya kissing, and Shane had to make what felt like a walk of shame to his parents house with Ilya in tow, he assumed that all he had to do was rip the bandaid off. There was no more hiding, there was no pretending this didn’t happen. The truth was out there whether he liked it or not, and he was vocal with Ilya about not liking it at all. But, he told himself, he just had to man up. He could do this. Rip the bandaid off, tell the truth, and tomorrow will be better.

    He was really incredibly wrong about that.

    Or: When Shane’s parents find out he’s gay and dating Ilya, they don’t accept it – instead, they push back. What follows is two of the most difficult years of Shane’s life. AU after Book 2/Season 1.

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    Chapters:
    10/10
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    AO3:
    #89939276
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