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Cliff's family is...complicated.
He's probably not helping by acting out. But he also really doesn't want to be here.- Part 3 of for years or for hours
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- English
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- 943
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- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #83082981
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Next Time, We Stay (we do this for real) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-14
Cliff Marlow had figured out who Jane was. That’s how he knew to confront Shane after the game post-tuna melt, letting him know he’d broken Ilya’s heart.
Shane makes things right.
OR: Cliff does a good deed, and two hockey boys play vulnerability chicken trying to actually communicate. A Tuna Meltdown fix-it.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,666
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #83132116
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To only ever know the cold by IbecomewhatIbelieve
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-12
Svetlana knows about Jane. It's frankly insulting for Ilyusha to think otherwise. She just never expected to have to call him for help. During the Olympics. In Russia. In the dead of night. - Or, it's Sochi 2014 and Russia has lost to Latvia. Grigori Rozanov, not yet compromised by illness, punishes his son for shaming the family. When Svetlana finds an injured and emotionally fragile Ilya, she knows she needs somewhere safe for him to recover. And there's only one person in Russia who Sveta trusts with her Ilyusha: Canada's Golden Boy, Shane Hollander.
- Part 1 of To know the sun
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- English
- Words:
- 31,374
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #79764141
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Shane Hollander, Pro Level Cowboy by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-04-08
When Rose Landry’s texts are leaked, Shane is outed not only as gay, but as an enthusiastic and talented bottom and deepthroater. He panics over being the literal embodiment of every locker room slur but gets advice for dealing with his next team practice:
It’s time to get cocky. It’s time to own it.
Or: Ilya grapples with top privilege and Shane gets to embrace bottom pride in the locker room.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 4,249
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82750836
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A Special Walk by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-04-08
The Centaurs rookies go for a "special walk" during one of Bood's bonfires. Chaos and gayness ensue.
OR,
This is a one shot from my larger fic, "Growing Outward", which is basically book 7 of the Game Changers series if it was about Luca Haas. In that fic, Luca moves in with Ilya for his rookie year and slowly gets adopted by Hollanov. He also starts to develop a crush on fellow rookie, Eric Young. Some people wanted some scenes from Eric's perspective, so here we are!
This scene is briefly alluded to in Chapter 13: Navigating of "Growing Outward" from Ilya's perspective, but this can be also read as a cute stand-alone fic if you really wanted to.
Hope you enjoy :)
- Part 3 of Growing Outward Series
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- English
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- 6,936
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- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82689106
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2 AM Cliff is not thinking clearly. Or maybe he's thinking extra clearly. He can't decide, but either way he's upset and he's buying makeup on Ebay.
- Part 2 of for years or for hours
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- English
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- 2,073
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- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #82650316
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Moscow, 2007.
Ilya wasn’t expecting that along with a new assistant coach, he’d also be getting a new teammate for the summer. Shane Hollander turns out to be only one in the rink who can keep up with him. The tension between them builds fast, and it doesn’t just spill over the boards. It follows them home.
Or: The thing with Ilya's coach's son, but it's Shane.- Part 1 of Plexiglass Box
- Language:
- English
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- 109,385
- Chapters:
- 13/13
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78002516
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The Tough Guy and the Role Model by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-03-31
Hiding behind it?
Surely he didn’t mean—
“Wait,” Ryan heard himself saying, before he could ponder if he even should. “You’re gay?”
Or,
Troy Barrett's apology to Ryan Price, retold from Ryan's POV.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 8,875
- Chapters:
- 5/5
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #79742186
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A look at the year that Ilya still played for Boston, except they explicitly state their dom/sub relationship, and explore that dynamic (and kink) together.
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When they first started, it was by accident. Ilya followed Shane’s lead; he read his body and responded with his own. Shane liked to be on his knees for Ilya, and Ilya liked to keep him there.
The first time it went wrong. Shane thought it was his fault. It wasn’t.
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Now with 10k-word SMUTTY EPILOGUE
- Part 1 of Bellboy
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- English
- Words:
- 63,639
- Chapters:
- 15/15
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #78253961
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hanging by a moment by frozenmorningdew (goldenboygate)
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-29
Ilya starts calling Shane boring regularly after that, not cruelly but persistently, the way you press a bruise you know is there just to confirm it still hurts. Shane's cereal is boring, Shane's training schedule is boring, Shane's shoes lined up by the door are boring, and Shane responds with variations of "fuck off" and "you're an asshole" that become increasingly creative and occasionally surprising. They do not talk about anything that matters. They talk about groceries and whose turn it is to take out the trash and whether Ilya's music is too loud at midnight, which it is. On the ice, Shane is someone else entirely. Ilya watches him from the upper stands every morning with vending machine coffee going cold in his hand and doesn't tell anyone. Or: Shane asked Ilya once how you know when it's the right person. Ilya described Shane to him, and Shane didn't recognise himself.
- Language:
- English
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- 187,218
- Chapters:
- 44/44
- Files:
- 4 versions
- AO3:
- #80126256
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In which Ilya works in an adult toy store, and Shane is peer pressured.
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How Shane finds himself being fucked by the hot employee who was selling him sex toys.
- Language:
- English
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- 52,512
- Chapters:
- 10/10
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- 1
- AO3:
- #77693231
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“Oh, so is my fault I am big strong top with giant Russian dick and all little bitch boys want to bend over for me? No one cares about my prostate?" _______________________________________ They fuck around. Then they find out.
- Language:
- English
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- 4,679
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #79217501
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Shane Hollander: Captain of the Montreal Metros.
- Language:
- English
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- 11,137
- Chapters:
- 3/3
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- 1
- AO3:
- #81909706
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Scott took his sunglasses from the side pocket of his backpack and put them on. His phone vibrated. He pulled it out and there it was: a picture of Kip and Elena from across the street. Kip smiling, Elena pouting. Below it, the caption: "Please don't die crossing this sea of people."
Scott laughed to himself, put the phone away, and pushed the door open.
The screams of excitement crashed over Scott like a wave. Fans crowded the sides of the path, many with tears in their eyes, others with their arms reaching over the metal barricades, everyone wanting a piece of that night. Happy shouts celebrating the victory, hoarse voices declaring their love for the team, words of pride and admiration. Scott smiled slightly, giving a general wave as he walked, sharing looks of gratitude to both sides – until the smile froze on his face.
"THEY TURNED HOCKEY GAY?! SERIOUSLY?! FUCK YOU, HUNTER!"
The voice cut through the air like a blade. Scott swallowed hard, his eyes finding a compact group on the other side of the metal barricades. Not happy at all. Men, mostly, their expressions twisted with hate, being held back by the police officers doing security.
"HOPE YOU DIE, YOU FAGGOT!"
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- 14/14
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- 1
- AO3:
- #80835121
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we took the scenic route by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-19
For a second, Scott pictures it—their tragic gay love affair, conducted in Holiday Inns and Marriotts, following the usual routine; the cut-off afterglow, the tied-off condom burning a hole in someone’s pocket because they were too scared to leave it in the hotel trash, the look-both-ways paranoia leaving the room, fleeing the scene head-down-hands-in-pockets. Scott pictured a decade of that—a four-year marriage of that—and felt sick. Two thousand fucking ten. Christ. Kip had cousins younger than that.
- Part 2 of two weddings and a scandal
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- English
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- 18,002
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- 1/1
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- 1
- AO3:
- #81507746
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Heated in the Outback by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-19
Shane Hollander is an engineer at a major mine in Western Australia. It’s hot, it’s hard and he is excelling professionally.
Then a new engineer starts: Ilya Rozanov. And it’s not the first time they’ve crossed paths.
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- English
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- 46,559
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- 23/23
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80225416
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The World Ends and Starts by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-03-18
Shane Hollander's week, starting the day one of his rookies abruptly comes out of the closet in a post game press conference. For a game that they lost.
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- English
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- 26,091
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #81220276
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“You are here to get your revenge on me?” Rozanov asks, a little garbled with his accent and his busted lip. There’s dried blood on his chin.
“No,” Scott says, pulls over a chair and sits down a respectable six feet from the bed. “I don’t believe in that. I just wanted to talk to you.”
Scott takes Ilya Rozanov to the winner’s room.
- Part 1 of winner's room
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,775
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81373476
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Everything Shane has ever done has resulted in something else. People would call that karma, or physics, but Shane knows better. There are moments he’s sure he has the ability to control everything with a right or wrong thought. And there are moments of clarity where he knows this isn’t true.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 19,187
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81297256
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Russians do not blush. Russians do not get sick. Ilya gets concussions. He gets stitches. He skates on cracked ribs and calls it fine. He does not get sick. Which is why, when he wakes up at three in the morning in the middle of June, shaking so hard his teeth knock together, his first instinct is irritation.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 36,373
- Chapters:
- 16/16
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #80142561