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is just a plan to fuck forever by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-10-25
It turned out the hockey season was a lot more hectic with a full social life in the BDSM club scene and a fiancé who he could never quite escape from. Not to mention wedding planning? God, Shane was in over his head. All he wanted to do was shut his mind off and be a kitty.
sequel to 'is just ten year plan to fuck'
- Part 2 of kitten shane series
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 317,898
- Chapters:
- 11/?
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #84816636
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This Kid is Going to Ruin My Life by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-10-25
Starting before then running concurrently with the events of Mr. Answer Man, this is Scott's perspective on the first three years of Shane and Ilya's growing relationship. You do not need to have read Mr. Answer Man to understand this (I hope!) but I recommend it.
Scott Hunter is 25 years old, Captain of the New York Admirals, and privately, achingly, gay. He meets Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov at the 2009 MLH draft day, and everyone involved immediately gets several wrong ideas. For the next three years, Scott has to navigate his place as a closeted gay man in the spotlight of major league hockey, while trying to protect an oblivious baby queer from an obviously straight Russian menace who can't seem to stay away.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 25,015
- Chapters:
- 6/8
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #92861061
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i met a girl (who didn't know he was so beautiful) by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-10-23
Shane Hollander and Liliya Rozanova have had a good thing going: they’re in love, she gets on with his parents, and they both understand each other’s priorities on the ice. It’s almost perfect, except for the stuff that they’ve never quite been able to talk about. But now Liliya’s reaching the end of her career as a figure skater, and the issue of her work visa is looming over them. And with everything falling apart around her, she’s determined to be open with Shane at last. Except, for Shane, this means confronting the parts of himself that he’s never reckoned with before, and he has to decided what is more important to him: this love that he has found or his love of hockey.
or - Roz starts thinking about the parts of himself he’s never acknowledged before, and Shane starts to think about changing his long game.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 13,366
- Chapters:
- 5/10
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #93092591
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The seven days after RFA Shane Hollander signed an offer sheet from Boston were the longest of Ilya's life. They were also some of the best.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 52,378
- Chapters:
- 8/8
- Files:
- 3 versions
- AO3:
- #94941311
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honey bees and other doomed creatures by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-10-14
The beginning starts with an ending: Shane Hollander dies when he is twelve years old. It is not permanent, but it does linger.
(Shane, Ilya, and the great game of being good enough to be worth something to someone.)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 21,651
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #94631736
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Oh love, oh loverboy by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-10-14
It was new, knowing he was cohabitating with his mother. They couldn't speak, not truly, and he couldn't feel her touch barring occasional cold spots, but there was a weight in the air just knowing she was there. Growing pains, Ilya thought softly.
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Shane and Ilya struggle to be together while juggling his dead ghost mother's unfinished business, the mental illness Ilya swears he doesn't have, homophobia Shane promises he's not a victim of, and Russia which seems unwilling to let them go.
- Part 2 of Ghost Irina AU
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 80,462
- Chapters:
- 9/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #80833321
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Cliff Marlow is not gay. He's not. Seriously. He'd know, right?
- Part 1 of for years or for hours
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 61,356
- Chapters:
- 19/20
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81330606
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Shane's life comes to be defined by 'Before the 2008 Prospect Cup' and 'After'.
Before he met his rival, his only equal in the sport he built himself around, Ilya Rozanov; and after his parents told Shane that he was going to become an older brother for the first time at the age of seventeen.
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Yuna and David have an unexpected late-life baby right as Shane's professional hockey career is both taking off and put at risk by his attraction to not only another man but his only real rival (in hockey, at least).
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 51,192
- Chapters:
- 20/20
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #87136426
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It was a Friday when the video dropped.
“What is happening?” He asked St Simon, who was holding his phone tight to his chest, his expression odd. “Someone has died?”
Across the room he could see Marlow moving slowly upright from where he had been doing floor stretches, his phone in his hand as well, his face pinched.
“It’s Hollander,” St Simon said.
The bottom of Ilya’s stomach fell out, closely followed by the rest of Ilya’s organs. His chest hurt so acutely that he thought he must be having a heart attack.
“Not dead,” St Simon added quickly, reaching out to grab Ilya’s shoulder when Ilya’s knees actually buckled. “Jesus, sorry. I should have - no it’s just -”
“Someone tell me what the fuck is going on,” Ilya snapped, “and everyone else shut up.”
Marlow reached him now, held his phone out to Ilya, open already to an article with a headline huge enough Ilya could easily make out the HOLLANDER blaring out of it even before his eyes focused and he took the phone from Marlow.
A video is posted online, for Shane it feels like a death sentence. For some parts of him, it is.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 73,245
- Chapters:
- 7/7
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #88103846
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Shane Hollander begins his NHL career unchallenged when Ilya Rozanov enters the KHL after World Juniors. One season of being allowed to terrorize the ice and the Winner’s Room is enough for Boston to drag Ilya out of Russia.
What they had not accounted for in releasing a second generational talent into the league was that not all predators are solitary. Ilya may want to bring Hollander to his knees, but he wants to present the defeat of an inferior player to his feet first.
He just has to convince Hollander to let him.
- Part 2 of Winner Takes All
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 114,576
- Chapters:
- 15/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #81434161
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It won’t technically kill you, if you hide your soul so far away from the world that even you can’t see it. It won’t kill you, but fuck, it will hurt.
(Shane always keeps his dæmon out of sight, pushing the limits of distance as much as humanly possible, until he can’t anymore. Until Ilya Rozanov says his name, and something breaks.)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 22,179
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #93917196
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Endless by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-10-02
It’s been a year since Prince Shane Hollander of Canada has heard from Prince Ilya Rozanov of Russia. Until now. Princes to separate kingdoms, influenced by the push and pull of power and politics. Whatever is happening between them? Doesn't change that.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 72,805
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #89072371
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Outside, bugs swarm around the porch light. A half-moon hangs over the dark swath of lake, spider-spun white daubed across the oil-spill surface. That perfect day on the water was less than a week ago. The scabs on Ilya’s ankle haven’t even healed. He knew the rest of their lives would be an uphill battle; he just hoped they could lie in the grass for a little longer.
There’s a hitch in Shane’s breath, a catch that brings Ilya’s attention back to him. He’s seen the ice tilt, analyzed the offense, and realization freezes across his face.
The whistle blows. Ilya’s been caught.
“You don’t want to figure this out,” Shane says finally. “You want him to billet with you.”
Last season, Ilya broke his jaw. Next season, he'll break from Boston for Ottawa and a shot at making an impossible relationship work. This season, he breaks every promise he’s ever made.
(aka the sequel to Alligator Bites Never Heal)
- Part 2 of Alligator Bites Never Heal
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 32,339
- Chapters:
- 4/13
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82560311
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on winning and losing (and ilya rozanov) by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-09-28
Twenty years after everything fell apart, Shane Hollander is on the cusp of becoming MLH Commissioner when Ilya Rozanov walks into his office and back into his life.
"I don't know, I’m pretty late to the game," Shane says.
“Everything good happens in third period,” Ilya counters.
- Part 2 of old man hollanov yaoi
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 237,562
- Chapters:
- 28/28
- Files:
- 4 versions
- AO3:
- #82087191
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cherry blossom season by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-09-27
Still looking at the screen, Model Man says, “What is your stop?”
“Ochanomizu?”
“Hm.”
There is suddenly a finger scratching at the hair at the nape of Shane’s neck, just above his collar. Model Man is touching him and looking at the train stops and manages to appear so casual that Shane almost convinces himself it’s by accident. A second finger joins the first, and now they are massaging a little instead of just tickling his hair, and it’s definitely not by accident.
“Get off with me at next stop,” Model Man says, brushing his knuckles up and down Shane’s neck.
Shane quits hockey and moves to Japan right out of college, where he gets really fixated on the hot guy in the ad for cherry-blossom flavored beer on his train. And then, one day, hot guy is on his train.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 46,684
- Chapters:
- 4/4
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #91816936
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It's just something about you (All the things you do) by cowboylikeme4me
Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-09-26
12:00 AM- January 1st, 2004, 12 years old. Ilya clumsily shifts forward, knocking their noses together. Shane's breath hitches at the contact. Then all he feels is Ilya’s lips making contact with the corner of his mouth. All his senses leave his body. His mind is blank. The only things that exists are hazel eyes, golden curls, and the Russian boy in front of him, whose lips feel soft against Shane's or Shane and Ilya meet at boarding school in Canada in 2003. They would die for each other, they are best friends...they are also totally in love with one another and are just too stubborn and scared to admit it out loud.
- Part 1 of All the things you do AU…
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 126,198
- Chapters:
- 18/18
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78604276
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Thank You for Calling, How Can I Help? by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-09-22
"I'm not gay."
"Okay you're not gay. But something made you call a gay helpline. Do you want to talk about it?"
"I found this number on a poster in some bar, I don't… I can't tell anyone else about this. I need to tell someone…"
"You can tell me."
Or; Shane needs someone to confide in about Ilya so he calls a Montreal based LGBT helpline to talk things through anonymously. And then he keeps calling, through every anxious thought and major milestone, someone else is on the other end of the line listening and advising.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 11,274
- Chapters:
- 8/16
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #85327811
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The ritual is simple: morning skate, home for a protein shake, then Shane strips to his briefs, lies in bed, and starts scrolling.
Or, a Grindr AU
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 43,837
- Chapters:
- 9/9
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #75461941
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Growing Outward by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-09-17
“Good, well then that brings me to the real topic of conversation.” Another sigh from Coach Wiebe, “As I’m sure you’ve already guessed, those highlighted names have been offered rookie contracts and they’ve each expressed interest in living with a vet for their first year.”
Ilya felt his heart fall into his stomach, afraid of the next words to come out of his Coach’s mouth.
“We asked the rookies who they’d like to live with and, well, LaPointe wanted to board with you, Chouinard. And Young with you, Bood,” Wiebe then turned to Ilya who had frozen on the spot, “And Roz, Haas wants to live with you.”
Bood and Chouinard chuckled as they watched Ilya’s eyes widen in horror.
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Luca Haas was drafted 2nd overall by the Ottawa Centaurs in 2018. Two years later, he anxiously moved halfway across the world to play his rookie season with the team. He requested to live with Ilya Rozanov and they slowly became family.
- Part 1 of Growing Outward Series
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 183,495
- Chapters:
- 36/36
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #78592636
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good bruises by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-09-15
Tampa doesn’t happen, and Shane and Rose get engaged. Two months later, the Hollander-Rozanov sex tape hits Twitter.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 31,461
- Chapters:
- 7/?
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82997321