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Endless by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-10-02
It’s been a year since Prince Shane Hollander of Canada has heard from Prince Ilya Rozanov of Russia. Until now. Princes to separate kingdoms, influenced by the push and pull of power and politics. Whatever is happening between them? Doesn't change that.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 72,805
- Chapters:
- 12/12
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #89072371
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Ilya gets injured during the Playoff series, and oh no he's stuck in Montreal with Shane to take care of him.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,440
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #92610426
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Teach Me (How To Let Go) by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-06-14
Shane Hollander has been keeping his sexuality hidden from the world his entire life. He has even successfully hidden it from himself for a very long time to a point where he still isn’t convinced that he is gay. Just curious. (it might just be a phase) In order to figure out for sure, he has been convinced to go to a very private and safe queer sexclub, where he can explore without fear of getting outed.
There is only one problem. The owner of the club is a super-hot, Russian man that won’t stop flirting with Shane, shattering Shane’s idea of him liking men just being a phase.- Part 6 of
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 46,885
- Chapters:
- 8/8
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #82532521
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Haunted by Stillness by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-04-18
Ilya has a bad night waiting for the visiting hours to start so he can see Shane after watching him go down on the ice. For he spends the night with his brain creating patterns between the stillness of Shane on the ice and the stillness of his Mother when he found her. And the possibilities of if Shane wakes up but starts having confusion and memory problems like his father. He spirals fast.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 3,250
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #83321186
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Shane’s preferences are simple: older, rougher, married men who lie to their wives and gone before morning.
Ilya Rozanov is nineteen, Russian, and already moving into his dorm.
Cue in covert hookups, stupidly questionable life choices, and a rookie who stares at Shane like he’s a particularly fascinating bug under a microscope.
Now he has to explain why he keeps getting texts from "Mr. Chicago" while trying to teach this kid how to use the campus laundry without melting his sweaters.
Campus life promised new experiences. It failed to mention the experience of being psychologically dissected over instant ramen by a stupidly handsome blond Russian who hasn't blinked in seven minutes.
This fic is finished! You can binge-read it now 😁
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 54,863
- Chapters:
- 15/15
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #77726161
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Forty-eight people boarded the charter flight from Raleigh. Only one woke up in a Savannah hospital.
Ilya Rozanov is the unbreakable Captain of the Ottawa Centaurs. Now, he is also the sole survivor of a tragedy that the NHL would rather treat as a PR nightmare than a massacre. With a shattered body and a ghost team, Ilya finds himself at the center of a corporate conspiracy fueled by blood money.
But he isn't alone. Shane Hollander has always been his greatest rival. Now, he’s his only anchor. Because sometimes, the only way out is through.
Complete!
More Details on the Main Character Death TagHey! The MCD tag is STRICTLY for the death of the Centaurs team, right from the beginning. Neither Ilya nor Shane die at any point in the fic.
- Part 1 of Miracles
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 115,531
- Chapters:
- 40/40
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #76901141
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In the middle of the night, Ilya muses about home, only to realize that he's found it. Home was a strange concept for Ilya. Home had been his mom and her gentle smile that never reached for her eyes. Home was the embrace of her arms, too thin and shaky when Father had screamed at Ilya for any transgression. Home was her room, that smelled lightly of her perfume and the products she used for her hair. Home was her bed, where they would cuddle together when he was a little child and still allowed to get the comfort of her silent presence before Father deemed him too old for cuddles and screamed at her that she would turn him Пидорас. That had been the first time Ilya had realized that Father was never and he would never be home. Even as a child he was terrified of him, of his words, of his rage, of his judgment. Alexey was a copy of him. He never perceived his older brother as safe. At first, or at least Ilya thought, he had been a normal older brother, always ready to break his things or to eat the last sweets because he could, because he was older and bigger and Ilya didn't want to fight him. Then it happened, the shifts in their lives that would forever separate them. Ilya had been picked for sports, and Alexey never forgave him for being better at something. But it wasn't that which sealed their fate, that decided that Alexey could never be home. No, that happened when Alexey saw him with Sasha. That was the moment Alexey began to hate him, to resent his mere existence. That was the moment Ilya began to die inside knowing that he was alone. None of his family would ever love him for who he really was. Russia was complicated. Russia was supposed to be home. It was the place where he was born. The place where he had learned what a mother's love felt like. Russia was where his mom died by her own hands because she couldn't keep living like she was, a ghost in her own house, always scared of her husband, always mistreated and abused, always alone. Russia gave him his mom and then took her away, and yet Ilya loved Russia, like a boy who learns to love the land that gave him birth. But Russia couldn't love him back as Ilya craved. He craved a place to belong, but Russia rejected him for his sexuality, for the sin to love both boys and girls. Russia issued laws against people like Ilya. Russia made them criminals. Russia would witness, silent and cold like an evil stepmother, while those who dared to love in different ways were arrested, beaten or killed. Russia didn't care for those like Ilya and for that Ilya couldn't love Russia as much as he was supposed to. Russia still demanded his sweat and his blood. When he wore the Russian colors at the Olympic games, he was forced to give everything on the ice. It didn't matter if the same people who were his teammates would probably be in the mob formed to lynch him if they knew Ilya was different. It didn't matter if Father had screamed at him and Ilya had felt like the powerless child he once was, the one who was beaten to make him stronger, taken from everything he had loved to be turned into a machine made only to destroy his opponents on ice. Ilya wasn't the monster many believed he was, but he had to play the part to protect himself, to keep himself safe as much as he could. That monster was Father, that monster was Alexey, that monster was Russia, however it was Ilya who had to play the role. When he went to America Ilya felt like he could breathe for the first time in years. With Svetlana by his side, a connection with Russia yes, but also his childhood friend, one who never betrayed him, who never questioned him, one who perhaps even knew Ilya's secret and never told anyone, Ilya felt like he could perhaps have both, freedom and something that reminded him of home. America never became home. Sure, there Ilya could allow himself to be more open about who he was than he ever could be back in Moscow, but who was he really? Ilya didn't know. There were too many parts of him, too many pieces who couldn't fit together. Ilya had been broken too many times and now he didn't know who he was supposed to be. The only constant in his life was that he was good at hockey — damn good. One of the best players in the division, one of the raising stars of this brutal sport. Ilya knew he could be that. He could rebuild himself around being a player, even if that meant to be alone. Always alone. On ice Ilya was a beast. The Russian Monster everyone feared. On the ice Ilya could delude himself that he had a home, a place where he belonged. Out of the ring he was lost. He was someone who tried to fill the aching void inside his chest with warm bodies and expensive vodka. It worked for a bit, but little by little the void grew deeper in his chest and swallowed him whole. Ilya sometimes was sad, like his mom had been, so sad all he wanted to do was to curl up in bed and cry until nothing remained of him, but he couldn't. He had a team to lead, he had games to win. Father and Alexey loomed over him from afar. Send money. You are only good for that. You lost. We need more. We want more. More. More. More. More and the more he gave them, the more they hated him. The more he gave them, the emptier he felt inside, until, once again, nothing was left of him.
- Language:
- English
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- 2,305
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #77023741
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What if Ilya and Shane never had that fight on Boxing Day? What if he never told Shane how he felt about hiding their relationship? an alternate(sadder) version of how that conversation in chapter 22 could have gone, set in the long game :(
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 4,102
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #76394806
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you’d been born to bleed, little soldier by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2025-12-06
“Ilya,” he whispers. “I want this. I want to know when you’re hurting and when things are hard, because I want you. I want you when you’re sad, and lonely, and messy-“
“-you hate mess,” Ilya teases, drawing a hard-earned smile out of Shane.
“But I love you.”
(Or the argument in The Long Game, rewritten.)
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- English
- Words:
- 3,780
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Files:
- 1
- AO3:
- #75306476
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Shane Hollander is a single guy living a fairly boring life until he meets ruggedly handsome and European, Ilya Rozanov. A whirlwind romance begins, but Ilya has a secret that could come between him and Shane.
- Part 1 of The Mafia AU
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 70,698
- Chapters:
- 18/18
- Files:
- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #52615867