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“Ah.”
“‘Ah’,” Ilya repeats, giving him a look before he looks back to the tidily stacked frozen mouse packages in the freezer and makes a face as a little badly-hidden shudder moves through him. “Why the fuck do you have mice in your freezer, Shane? You are doing serial killer shit now? This is why you have cottage in the middle of nowhere? For serial killer things?”
“It’s for Spaghetti,” Shane says.
Ilya gives him an absolutely horrified look at that and turns a little green, which makes him remember that Spaghetti isn’t just his snake's name.
“Not food!” He rushes to explain. “Not food spaghetti! Snake Spaghetti!”
“What the fuck are you even saying right now,” Ilya says, looking honestly a little concerned that Shane might have something going wrong in his head.
(Distancing himself from almost twenty years of owning a snake, Shane can indeed see why this situation might be a little alarming for someone on the outside looking in.)
(It also clues him in to the fact that maybe it’s not just Spaghetti who should have gotten a little adjustment period.)
(in which i give shane allergies AND a snake)
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"He saw the corners of Ilya's lips curve up ever so slightly in that infuriating, tiny hint of a smile. “Goodbye, Shane Hollander.”
Shane could only ogle as Ilya walked away. Fuck. His ass was fat. This was so bad.
Shane Hollander, star athlete, D1 hockey team captain, campus heartthrob, was being completely undone by a brooding Slavic art major that he would probably crawl on his fucking knees and bark for."
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Shane is ready for another boring semester where he has to pretend like he cares about anything other than hockey. Until he sits down next to a mysterious Russian art student who also happens to be the hottest guy Shane has ever seen.
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Sober or Not, It’s Always You by shanebug_2481
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-07-11
The room tilted slightly, and Shane’s throat was raw. He swayed there a moment, scanning the spinning room for somewhere to steady himself – for Haas or Dykstra. Ilya had been right; he should have slowed down, stayed with his teammates. He hadn't listened, and now he was alone, 2 Moscow Mules and 3 shots deep, stuck at the bar and lost in a sea of people. Shane just wanted his husband. The alcohol hadn't done anything to soften the effects of the music and lights encircling him. He felt trapped – suffocated – like his skin was fusing itself to his stiff muscles. The room spun faster, and the Canadian wasn't convinced he was standing upright anymore. His heart pounded in his ears as the music rattled his ribcage once more, an insatiable itch beckoning his blunt fingernails. He wanted to scream. He wanted to rip his hair out. He wanted to tear his clothes off. He wanted Ilya.
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Next time I'll be braver by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-07-09
What if the plane crash never happened?
What if Shane decided to be a bit braver anyways?
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A few months after the Boxing Day fight Shane decided to surprise Ilya and his teammates at Monk’s, the bar they frequent. He could just introduce himself as a friend, right?- Language:
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This is Such a Bad Idea by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-07-04
Shane Hollander does not leave outcomes to chance. When traditional dating fails to produce the stability he wants, he turns to a private matchmaker who promises something more deliberate: one match, one meeting, one decision.
Ilya Rozanov never planned to get married. But when his carefully controlled life starts to unravel, marriage becomes the simplest solution.
Neither of them is looking for love. What they agree to is a calculated partnership, built on alignment, not emotion.
It should be straightforward.
It is not.
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please, won't you (make a family with me) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-07-01
Léa Martin @MrsLéaMartin92
Shane Hollander is TAKEN !?Clara @mrsshanehollander4ever
Shane Hollander has a BABY????Léonie @LeonieGagnon27328
Is this officially the NHL’s cutest baby?Lily @BostonLily1991
DOES THE BABY HAVE FRECKLES?Charlotte @charlottefromquébec
Replying to @BostonLily1991
what?One month before the tuna melt incident, pictures are posted online of Shane and Hayden’s outing to the aquarium.
Within minutes, the internet is convinced that Shane Hollander has become a father, and people everywhere are mourning the fact that the NHL’s most eligible bachelor is off the market.
“People everywhere” includes Ilya Rozanov.
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Hollander and the Rockstar by zwischenimmerundnie
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-06-30
It was supposed to be just another night out with his friends. Music, a couple drinks and some conversation, but when Shane reunites with someone from his past, feelings are brought back to the surface and he will have to decide whether or not to confront them.
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Clarity by Anonymous
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2026-06-27
Shane Hollander expected a lot out of the combine before the 2009 NHL draft: meeting the competition, impressing possible future teams and ultimately securing his spot in the NHL.
What he didn't expect was 50 questions that were about to change his whole damn life.
Or: How an autism diagnosis, a therapist and something magical called communication rebuild the whole trajectory of the Hollander/Rozanov saga bit by bit.
- Part 1 of Therapized Hollanov vs The World
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“I am sorry,” he says. “I am not trying to fight. I just don’t like the idea of you not being okay and me not knowing, even when I am in the same place as you.”
That Shane can understand. He wouldn’t like it if their positions were reversed, after all, if he thought Ilya was potentially in danger and he was in the next room over drinking champagne and making smalltalk. He sees Ilya go somewhere in his head sometimes, sees him retreat inwards, sees him check out even if his body is still there, going so deep inside that he doesn’t even catch Shane’s eye for a bit even when something funny happens, too far away for Shane to reach him.
But it’s also not like he can just go up and grab Ilya by the arm and pull him away from the party, not without inviting speculation and a whisper storm. He doesn’t have that right, doesn’t have that privilege, to potentially need Ilya or be needed by Ilya and be able to just pull him away.
It’s moments like these that Shane feels the weight of their secret like a physical thing.
(5 times shane and ilya couldn't be openly together and 1 time they could)
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the trials and tribulations of the tenth floor groupchat by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-23
Carter Vaughn (NY): LISTEN UP I will give $1000 to whoever gets Shane Hollander drunk tonight
Ilya Rozanov (BOS): easy $1000
Ilya Rozanov (BOS): Hollander has never seen a good time because he lives in montreal with boring montreal teammates
JJ 🏆💰: he had us in the first half ngl
Shane: he had nothing in no halves
Shane: I will have ONE beer
or:
Scott Hunter makes a groupchat of everyone staying on the tenth floor at the hotel during the 2016 All Star Game. Shane has more than one beer.
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We Just Did It For You And Me by Anonymous
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2026-06-21
Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”
“I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”
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Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.
Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.
Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.
As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.
Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.
- Part 1 of Shane, Ollie and Illy
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i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart) by Anonymous
Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-06-21
What if Ilya has a panic attack in the locker room after getting the news of his father's death after the Winter 2017 Montreal @ Boston game and no one can figure out what is going on? What if, while scrambling for answers, Cliff Marleau has the brilliant idea to call Jane?
Or,
What if Shane and Ilya's deeper emotional connection begins just before Ilya leaves for his father's funeral in Russia instead of on a phone call while they are separated by oceans?
- Part 1 of The Deepest Secret Nobody Knows
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Shane has been added to the group chat. by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-06-19
Ilya
Guess whatShane
What?Ilya
We are getting married tomorrow!!Shane
Oh shit, I meant to tell you
A thing came up, sorry!
Totally unavoidableIlya
SHANEor: Hollanov take the 'two birds, one stone' approach to their wedding day.
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got 'em lookin' like you by bespelled
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2026-06-17
Shane is 40 weeks pregnant with their first child and is a few days past his due date. Ilya Rozanov reacts in a predictable fashion.
- Part 1 of First-Time Dads Hollanov
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“No vodka?” Rozanov asks, tsking in disapproval but looking amused. “What then? What does the great Shane Hollander want when he does a good job? What is your vice, Hollander?” “Hmmmm, mangoes,” Shane sighs out wistfully. It’s not a dangerous allergy for him, but it does mean being itchy and sometimes a little queasy for a couple of days after. Really he knows that he should probably avoid them altogether, but with every other restriction he has and with how controlled he is with his life even outside of that, it’s his one little indulgence, a pressure-relief valve of one bad choice to let some steam off at the end of a season, when he carves out time in his cottage when he can make his annual bad choice and enjoy a few days of wild mango madness before he makes himself buckle back into the restraints he usually keeps his life in. He looks up when he hears Rozanov snort. “Mangoes?” Rozanov repeats, tugging his shirt over his head. “Really?” “They’re good,” Shane defends. “Better than vodka,” he adds, pointedly. (shane has food allergies but makes an exception for mangoes) (5 times ilya didn't find out about this allergy and 1 time he did)
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Irina once told Ilya a bedtime story about Apollo accidentally killing his lover during a game. Ilya crashes into Shane during a game and the similarities are all too much for him.
(Classic "you deserve sunshine" moment here)- Part 4 of Lovely Lights
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Shane was fine until the fire alarm. Or, mostly fine. He was holding on. Because he knew that once practice was done, he could go home, have a nice long shower, and then hide away in his bed. There’d be no expectations of him, no one looking to him for what to do next, no one needing something from him. They’d been taking from him all day and he could feel the pieces of himself disappearing. He wasn’t sure how he’d managed to run the drills he did during practice.
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Nobody has ever called Ilya Rozanov safe. Never called his arms home. Until a hotel room in Tampa where Shane falls asleep and Ilya realizes, maybe he can be someone’s safety after all. If he just lets himself have it.
- Part 1 of Lovely Lights
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Svetlana is already invited to the wedding, and Shane assumes his conversation with Ilya means Sasha will be included as well, the wedding still being over a month away.
Or, Ilya’s childhood friends arrive in Ottawa earlier than expected and are unexpectedly helpful with wedding planning.
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honey, tell me, are you good at staying still? by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-06-07
Life feels so chaotic for Shane sometimes, with all the loud noises and the unwritten rules he’s expected to follow, even though no one ever taught them to him. It’s why the bookstore feels more like home to him than anywhere else in Boston. It doesn’t ask Shane to be anything other than himself. Doesn’t ask for any more than he can give.
He can just exist here.
Shane likes slow, likes taking his time. And Ilya - without saying or doing anything in particular - makes Shane feel like that’s okay. Like he isn’t doing anything wrong by standing still sometimes.
(Or, Shane works in a bookstore, Ilya plays hockey, and they both go to the same college. They fall in love in every universe.)
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