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Знаешь, я так боюсь (You know, I'm so afraid) by heyplsdont
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-12
Ilya Rozanov was in love with Shane Hollander. He was pretty sure he had never been more terrified of anything in his life.
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after Shane and Ilya's Boxing Day fight, Ilya has a game. it doesn't go well or, baby's first panic attack
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conscience runs, ‘til out of breath by tothemoon
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-12
Ilya considers, then, the idea of a smaller joy, the kind so molecular no one would know how to make him feel sorry for any of it. He thinks of Svetlana and him at McDonald’s, drunk and laughing; sprints, instead of long and dreadful runs; and even then that familiar swath of freckles, all faded from weak winter sun. There are times when Ilya is sorry, and there are times when he is not. (or: Heated Rivalry, as told through so many apologies.)
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At this point Ilya is utterly besotted. His deranged boyfriend saw him being good at babysitting, and immediately proceeded to overthink it until he developed a pregnancy wish. God, Ilya knew he was securing himself a real weirdo, but this is a whole other level of insane. And fuck how much he loves this man for it. “I wish I could get pregnant.” The sentence hangs there, in the soft dim light of their bedroom, for a long moment. Ilya was close to falling asleep, he needs time to register the words and translate them. And then some more time to process their meaning. It’s not unusual for Shane to do this. Waking him up at some ungodly hour to tell him what crazy, beautiful idea his unhinged brain had just concocted. It’s endearing – one among the many reasons Ilya loves him so much. Except this time ‘endearing’ is not the first term that crosses Ilya’s mind. To be fair, right now there’s very little going on in his mind. His cock has taken that sentence very seriously, though. He rolls over to face Shane – yes, he was being the little spoon, he likes to be held, okay? “Hollander, if you want me so bad to fill you up you just have to ask.” he teases him, a smirk pulling at his lips. Shane huffs at him, a cute blush spreading over his cheeks. “I mean it.” “Mh-mh.” Ilya nods, crawling over him and caging him in his arms, “You sure do. Tell me more.” “Ilya…” Shane scolds him, weakly shoving at his shoulders. He’s annoyed – not enough to actually stop him though. Ilya grinds his hips to Shane’s, slotting their half-hard cocks together. “Shane?” he murmurs over his neck, sucking and nipping at the skin. “I–” an amused sigh, “It’s not like… a kink or something…” “Okay.” Ilya doesn’t really give a fuck about what it is. It’s hot as hell and he wants to make the most of it. “Ilya…” Shane sighs again, leaning more on exasperated this time, “I mean it.” Later, Ilya will mentally congratulate himself for being strong enough and stop to actually listen to him. Because right now he just wants to bury himself into Shane. But no, of course his anxiety fueled boyfriend wants to talk about it. Ilya thinks it would be way more fun to put the whole thing in action, but okay. He guesses he has to be patient and wait. He rolls again, pulling at him so they can lay on their side and look at each other. “You mean it.” he repeats, more to himself than to him, “You want to get pregnant.” Shane scoffs, as if Ilya just said something dumb, and not merely rephrased his own words. “I wish I could have your baby.” he points out, all serious. Ilya searches his face for a moment, looking for any clue to help him through this, but he finds none. Now he’s damn confused. See, Ilya is a down-to-earth man, and sex is no exception. He doesn’t really get kinks, but he enjoys the fucking only if his lover is enjoying it in the first place, so he always goes with whatever they want for the other’s sake. That’s why he’s good at it. He might as well admit that that’s his peculiar kink: please his partner. But apparently, now his boyfriend is not talking kinky. He said he means it – twice – and Ilya doesn't understand. They are two men, it can’t happen. Ilya can’t make it happen. He can fake it, if that’s Shane’s fantasy, acting it out as best as he can. But he can’t actually knock Shane up. Ilya can’t fulfill his wish, and this whole talk is only puzzling and frustrating for him. He must wear his confusion all over his face, because now Shane is leaning over to kiss him gently. “Hey… it’s okay. I’m just a bit sad that we can't have what everyone can.” Ilya’s eyebrows shoot up – that’s a huge generalization. And that more than anything else puts everything Shane is saying into the right spotlight. He usually talks with his brain, but now he’s talking with his heart – which is so rare. Yes, Ilya already had the chance to witness his boyfriend truly going vulnerable like this, but not so often. They are sincere with each other now, the time for walls between them is gone, but Shane still has a hard time putting his emotions into words. Not because he doesn't want to, but rather because he's still figuring out how. You can bet whenever it happens it’s just priceless. So now Ilya forces himself to put aside his confusion – and put down his cock – to give his boyfriend his complete attention. “It's just… this isn’t fair.” Shane shrugs, a little crease between his eyebrows. Ilya reaches there with a hand, the thumb massaging away the crease. “There are other ways.” Shane closes his eyes, relaxing under his touch. “Mmh… I know.” he grumbles, “Just wished we could do it the easy way.” “Easy? Pregnant you would be a pain in the ass.” he jokes, hoping to lighten up the mood a bit.
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Ilya knew sadness could kill, and it could do it quietly like it took his mother. So he stayed charming, desirable, and useful. He never asked for reassurance, didn’t get needy. He would never admit he needed Shane. Right?
- Part 3 of Amiera's Hollanov
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What a Catch by Apropos_of_Nothing
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-12
David takes Shane and Ilya fishing during their week at the cottage.
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The Long Change (Between Games) by colorsflashing
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-12
Ilya is traded without warning. Shane is left spiraling. Between games, everything falls apart. Or: The one where Ilya Rozanov finds out he’s been traded to the Los Angeles Rush moments before taking the ice against the Montreal Metros.
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Shane nearly stops himself right there, runs through all of the ways he could navigate away from the question, but when he opens his mouth it comes right out anyway. "Was he hard on you too?" Or Ilya had been waiting for the other shoe to drop. He just hadn’t expected it to be about this, hadn’t expected, or maybe simply refused to accept, that his father would somehow still hurt him beyond the grave, that the punches and split lips and broken ribs would still, impossibly, ache within him after all this time. or Shane tries to talk to Ilya about his past. It doesn't go as planned.
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Is it Casual Now? by DeletiaClementine
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-12
What happens if Ilya Rozanov doesn’t talk to Shane Hollander for more than a year? Or, Shane Hollander has a hoe phase
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When Ilya's team loses a match against Shane's team, Shane finds a way to comfort his secret boyfriend.
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in this life and the next by lisa6
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-11
“Why do you think it’s the same person every time?” Ilya asked, smiling. His phone disappeared back in his jeans pocket. “I’m hot. Lots of women want me to fuck them.” Svetlana leaned in close to his ear. “And men?” Or: ever since they were children, Svetlana Vetrova has always been there for Ilya Rozanov, her best friend in the world.
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“I do sometimes still think about how my life would have been if I never got injured,” Shane started to whisper. Ilya looked at him, he was focused on the ceiling. He grabbed his hand and placed it over his own chest. “But, you know, I’m glad that it led me here. To you,” the fondness that laced his tone opened Ilya in half. Ilya laid on his side, so he could contemplate him better. The sigh of Shane naked, only with the light sheet covering little of his modesty had something divine about it. “Maybe we could have met either way.” AU where neither of them play professional hockey but they make their way to each other eventually (Kids' coach shane and uncle ilya fall in love one practice at a time -and gay bar flirting-)
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Ilyas's head had ended up between his knees, his hands wrapping around the back of his helmet. Ilya couldn't keep the thoughts away. He tried to think of things that didn't relate to Shane, or his mother, or hockey. Grasping at the mental straws, he couldn't come up with anything that didn't relate to Shane in some way. He had completely taken over Ilyas' life. Every good memory he had had Shane in it. Ilya spiralled further, the rubber floor seeming to spin. He had undone his helmet, letting it clatter onto the floor. OR What if Ilya couldn't hold it together when Shane got hurt?
- Part 1 of Heated Rivalry - Angst Time
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To Sleep, Perchance to Dream by papisadhu
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-11
In some cruel twist of fate, Ilya can only recall his mother’s face in his nightmares.
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The Raiders have known about Ilya's Montreal girl Jane for years. After a rival game in Boston, they plot to find out who Jane is via stakeout. The only problem? The run straight into the Voyageurs. The Voyageurs have known about Shane's Boston girl Lily for years. After a rival game in Boston, they plot to find out who Lily is via stakeout. The only problem? The run straight into the Raiders.
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Riding the high of their wedding, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are trading the Canadian chill for a hot, Hawaiian honeymoon, intent on making the most of their time alone before the hockey season steals them back.
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lost color in my face by Pale_Blue
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-11
“Do not worry,” Ilya breathed against his lips. As if Shane had a choice in the matter. As if worry hadn’t kept Shane awake past midnight for weeks, as if he wasn’t scared to leave the house for too long in case Ilya did something stupid in his absence. He’d promised he wouldn’t. Several times over. Shane wanted to believe him, he did, but the worse Ilya’s depression got the more hollow the promise felt. “I always worry about you,” Shane said softly, pushing Ilya’s hair back from his forehead.
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Set in Russia during episode 5, a grieving Ilya calls Shane to talk and asks him to distract him from his thoughts. Aka a sweet little Hollanov phone call
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My love mine all mine (all mine) by orphan_account
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-01-11
“A couple of years ago he’d told Shane, as casually as possible, that if he wanted to have sex with other men when they were apart—which was most of the time—he could. Shane hadn’t taken Ilya’s offer well. He’d thought it had been Ilya’s backhanded way of letting Shane know that he’d cheated on him, or that he wanted to. It had ended with Shane storming out of Ilya’s house in Ottawa and driving back to Montreal, which had been a horrible waste of a rare night they could have had together. He’d ignored Ilya’s texts for three days after.” Or My take on chapter 21 in “The Long Game” when Ilya tells Shane he can sleep with other people, and he doesn’t take it well. - what I think happened during those three days.
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Toska (frozen tears) by Birds On a Concrete Wall (AmetistLex)
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-01-11
New Year holidays and wishes haven't been the same since he became twelve, but Ilya wanted to try and recreate that faint feeling he craved with Shane this year. He freed his schedule, bought decorations for the cottage and planned the activities for their short holiday, even fresh snow just fell from the sky — but today things turned out the way they did. Ilya could tell Shane felt guilty, so he reassured him it was okay to go and manage his career. It was. It still is. Ilya is the one who is not okay. * He shouldn't be feeling this way, but somehow, Ilya feels more fragile than a colorful bauble on a tree.
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