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1. Toska (frozen tears) by Birds On a Concrete Wall (AmetistLex)

   Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid

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   2026-01-11

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   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov & Irina Rozanova
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Angst
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Family Issues
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Holidays
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
   • Spoilers for Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers)
   • Not specific but Ilya's mood can reference it
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Sad Ilya Rozanov
   • Sad with a Happy Ending
   • well temporarily happy
   • Ilya remembers his mom
   • Whump but no self harm
   • Irina Rozanova Haunts the Narrative
   • Ilya Rozanov Misses Irina Rozanova
   • Alexei Rozanov Haunts the Narrative
   • New Year
   • Russia Haunts the Narrative

   New Year holidays and wishes haven't been the same since he became twelve, but Ilya wanted to try and recreate that faint feeling he craved with Shane this year. He freed his schedule, bought decorations for the cottage and planned the activities for their short holiday, even fresh snow just fell from the sky — but today things turned out the way they did. Ilya could tell Shane felt guilty, so he reassured him it was okay to go and manage his career. It was. It still is. Ilya is the one who is not okay. * He shouldn't be feeling this way, but somehow, Ilya feels more fragile than a colorful bauble on a tree.

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