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The Hollanov Baseball AU no one asked for but my brain supplied because I'm more of a baseball nerd than a hockey nerd.
Shane Hollander (pitcher) and Ilya Rozanov (catcher) are both drafted straight out of the High School League into the MLB. What bits of their story are different, and what bits are eternal?
This fic is complete and binge safe!
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- #77960466
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The Winner's Room would be a mind fuck all on its own. It's just that Shane is also trying to ignore the fact that he's gay, a bottom, and submissive. All of the things he isn't suppose to be. It would be easier if Shane didn't score a lot of game winning goals, but that wasn't the kind of thing he could just stop doing. He would really like it if the Player's Association had provided the social rules of the Winner's Room along with all of the technical ones. Like everything else Shane has to figure out how to make himself fit into what is expected of him.
He learns a lot from his first three Forfeits.
- Part 1 of Winner Takes All
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- #81194791
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You Have a Little Life in You Yet by OrYouCouldHaveMine
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-12
PLANE CARRYING OTTAWA CENTAUR’S HOCKEY TEAM, COACH, PERSONNEL, REPORTEDLY LOST CONTACT, PRESUMED MISSING - Shane’s eyes scan over the words, once, twice. It’s not true. It’s some mistake. He knows it. “Lost contact?” Hayden asks, his tone a mix of concerned and confused. “What’s that mean? Like they lost their ability to communicate? Won’t that make landing hard?” J.J. frowns. “I do not think they will be landing,” he says solemnly. -- The Ottawa Centaurs plane crashes in the Canadian wilderness. Shane tries to get answers while Ilya tries to stay alive.
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- English
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- 38,306
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- 5/5
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- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #80745021
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Gather 'Round the Campfire by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-12
As is true of most of the best things in life, it was completely and totally Jackie’s idea.
“Come on, are you serious? You’ve never played ‘Never Have I Ever’?”
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Or, Shane, Ilya, Hayden, and Jackie play Never Have I Ever while on vacation. Everyone learns something about one another, and Shane learns that being open with the people he loves isn't so scary.- Language:
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- AO3:
- #81095646
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Troy struggled with his sexuality, especially since his crush of several years is Dallas fucking Kent, hockey's notorious homophobic prick. Troy believed that was just boys being boys, playful even. After all, he's fucking hot.
Canon-compliant Rape referenced related to Dallas Kent allegations, dubious consent because Troy attempts having sex with women but not because he wants to.
- Part 11 of Heated Rivalry Oneshots
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Only You Get to See Me Like This by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-10
“Cap needs to get laid more,” Drapeau muttered.
“Cap needs to get laid, period,” Comeau added.
“Dude, I bet he’s still a virgin.” Drapeau said with a snort. “You think he’s ever even seen a woman naked?”
A couple of players standing around them chuckled.
Shane felt his jaw tighten. He wanted to respond. Tell them off. Stand up for himself. But he couldn’t. Because there was some truth to what they were saying.
He did need to get laid more.
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Or, Shane Hollander hasn’t seen Ilya Rozanov in three months. Which means he hasn’t gotten laid in three months.
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- 6/6
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- AO3:
- #80817976
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My Lunch with Rose by the_writers_block15
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-03-08
After the disastrous dinner with Hayden and Jackie, Shane meets Rose and comes to some realizations to fix his relationship. There's some Hayden bashing but he isn't irredeemable, he's just working with outdated info.
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Scott Hunter sees himself in Shane Hollander. Many years later, he sees Shane Hollander outed publicly on the internet.
- Part 4 of scott hunter fics
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- #80795636
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A Little Less Like Lonely (A Little More Like Home) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-03-02
When Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov arrive in Ottawa, everyone expects the hard part to be hockey.
What they don’t expect is how difficult — and how hopeful — it will be to finally build a life together.
As the Centaurs rebuild, Shane and Ilya navigate new teammates, new expectations, and the unfamiliar challenge of letting their relationship exist outside of stolen moments and long-distance phone calls.
Because it turns out, being on a losing hockey team might be the easy part.
Learning how to have a future together is something else entirely.
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- English
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- 72,997
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- 22/22
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- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #77896136
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If you’re afraid of wolves by gsmaxwell
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-03-01
Shane was on the mend. Really. Ilya had pulled him out of that icy river before there was any lasting damage. It didn't matter that he couldn't just fucking forget what had happened. Ilya wasn't okay, but he wasn't going to tell anyone that. Telling people would mean dealing with it. And he had Shane now, which was enough. Or: Shane and Ilya deal with the fall out of being kidnapped and traumatized by the Montreal mafia.
- Part 2 of Kidnapped AU
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- AO3:
- #77675996
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Ilya Rozanov was an asshole. Everybody knew this. Sometimes, though, secretly, he wasn't.
Or, 4 times strangers were kind to one another, plus a few times Ilya Rozanov started publicly bashing bigots online.
- Part 2 of Ilya Rozanov, through the eyes of others
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- #80202061
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World on Your Shoulders by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
2026-02-23
Shane's new rookie is blackmailed by a previous (male) hook up, which is something that he can handle. This won't ruin his line for the season.
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- 2 versions
- AO3:
- #80076441
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courage [it couldn't come at a worse time] by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-23
"Why are you not scared?"
"I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."
"Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.
"Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.
Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."
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Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.
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- #76621461
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Shane is bad at words, but he is increasingly good at being with Ilya.
- Part 22 of [challenge] Heated Rivalry Febuwhump 2026
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but the fighter still remains by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-20
"He hates me." It was Rozanov's only reply, frail and desperate and entirely unbelieving. Scott couldn't help but scoff.
"No he doesn't." Rozanov kept his steely gaze trained on the ground, making a few attempts to speak before words actually found him.
"That is what he said?" His shaky words were a timid mix of devastated and hopeful, and Scott found himself fighting back watering eyes of his own.
"More than once." Scott confirmed. "Something tells me that you don't hate him, either." With that, the dam broke.
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Scott's still looking for his hotel room after talking to Shane Hollander. He finds Ilya Rozanov, instead.
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i've been stuck now so long (we just got the start wrong) by Anonymous
Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
2026-02-18
The second time Shane Hollander wakes up on November 16th, he has a panic attack.
The problem is — he tries to explain through gasped breaths after Hayden basically knocks down his door, shouting that they’re going to miss their flight — the thing is, Shane’s already woken up on November 16th. He’s already flown to Boston. He’s already been to practice, and he’s checked into the hotel, and he has lived this day before.
He doesn’t mention that he’s also already fucked Ilya Rozanov twice and had a fucking tuna melt that Rozanov made and drank the ginger ale that Rozanov bought specifically for him. He doesn’t mention that they’d snuggled on the couch watching TV like some kind of couple, like boyfriends.
He doesn’t mention that he fell asleep thinking about how Ilya — fuck, no, thinking about how Rozanov had called him sweetheart and Shane, and that, even now, he can’t quite get the cadence of Ilya’s voice out of his head.
Or: After the tuna melt fiasco, Shane Hollander wakes up in a time loop.
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I tried to hide the feeling (but it just won't go away) by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-18
"The league wants me to hate him. The fucking press wants me to hate him. My parents... I mean they do hate him." Shane stopped to take a few deep breaths, like he was trying to prepare himself for something.
"Hollander, you really don't have to tell me this-" Scott's frantic words were to no avail.
"I did hate him. Or like... at least I used to. I thought I did. Thought maybe that was why I couldn't stop looking at him, cause I hated him." He laughed once. A choppy, wet laugh that wasn't very funny at all. "I did hate him. But then he kissed me."
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Scott Hunter goes looking for his hotel room. He finds a drunk Shane Hollander, instead.
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but they bring their boys up different by Anonymous
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-18
Ilya knows what he is. He has always known what he is. The word for it in Russian tastes like something you'd scrape off a boot. The word in English is bisexual, which is a nicer word, which he has heard, which he does not use. He uses other words. He uses the word his brother taught him. He uses it on himself before anyone else can. He grows up. He gets good at hockey. He moves to America. He... falls in love. (Or, five times people fail to notice Ilya being queer, and one time they have no choice.)
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Clean hands, that’s him. All-American, good mentor, generous, easy with the rookies, liked by the vets, great in the room.
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You're The Risk I'm Gonna Take It by PumpkinPrincess22
Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
2026-02-14
In a world where Ilya and Shane are already friends by the time of the Draft, what if Ilya had kissed Shane in that hotel gym? And what if that kiss sparked the beginning of a real relationship seven years earlier than in canon?
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