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  1. After Ilya's plane crashes in the ocean, no one knows if the hockey star is alive or dead. Shane sets out to find him and reconcile their relationship.

    ***COMPLETE!***

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  2. He doesn’t mean for it to happen that way. He sees the asphalt before he reaches it. He thinks, Ilya. He doesn’t remember much after that. - SHANE HOLLANDER, CAPTAIN OF MONTREAL METROS, FOUND UNRESPONSIVE AFTER FALLING FROM APARTMENT BALCONY The incident occurred mere hours after rumors of the hockey star’s sexuality started circulating, stemming from an online video of a private conversation between the young captain and actress Rose Landry. There is no update on his current status after being moved to… Or, Shane gets outed and accidentally hurts himself, the world thinks he's tried to end his life, and Ilya struggles to come to terms with mortality in more than one sense of the word.

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  3. ‘I look forward to getting to know you more, husband-to-be.’ Ilya smirks, tongue wrapping around the last word with relish, a hand coming to trace the freckles dusted across his cheeks with a surprisingly delicate touch.

    Shane smacks his hand away with a snort, tampering down the blush threatening to make itself known to instead snap out a frosty retort. ‘In your dreams.’

    Except all Ilya, the Prince of Rozan, has to offer is a dark smile and wandering eyes. Shane can feel them burning through his clothes, his shoulders resisting the urge to curl inwards and shield himself from Ilya’s gaze.

    ‘Oh, but you already are. Am I not in yours, sweet prince?’

    or: Shane, Crown Prince of Hollaith hates Prince Ilya of Rozan with a passion. So the idea of marrying him is his worst nightmare - right?

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  4. The name of your soulmate only appears once your realize you are in love with them.
    "Shane Hollander" appears on Ilya's chest before the Sochi Olympics. He tells nobody, and then he disappears.

    Six months later, Shane gets a call from an unknown number. Ilya. In Montreal, and completely different.
    It doesn't matter, though, and the next morning there's a line of Cyrillic across his chest.

    Timeline goes back and forth.

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  5. Shane is upset with himself for potentially ruining what little time he and Ilya have together at the cottage, before the launch of the Game Changers camp, due to some stomach bug he can't seem to get rid of. ______ Or a year after the first summer at the cottage, Shane is spiraling once again, due to finding out he's unexpectedly pregnant. COMPLETED! 3.8.26

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  6. Warm hands suddenly encased his, pulling them away from his shirt collar and back down onto the table. Shane risked a glance at Ilya and saw only concern and confusion on his face, but he couldn’t keep looking at him directly, couldn’t look him in the eye. Couldn’t let Ilya see him lose it like this, in public, all because the shirt felt wrong. Because it felt too much like being five and ripping hand-knitted jumpers from his body because they hurt. Like needing seams in his socks to sit a certain way. Like a childhood spent tearfully pulling clothes off his body until his parents figured out what fabrics he could tolerate. It felt like being seven and unable to explain to teachers why the other children didn’t like him, why he hid under the tables when the classroom was too noisy.

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  7. I (26M) want to invite man I sleep with (26M) to my house to spend the weekend. Help me not ruin it. Or: Ilya Rozanov goes to the internet for dating advice

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  8. a weed called love by

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    Shane’s throat is scratchy, particularly when he has to face Ilya Rozanov. Surely, that is just coincidence.

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  9. “You’ve got to show Hollander,” someone laughs incredulously. Before he can really process what is happening, J.J. is shoving a phone in his face, the screen so close the picture that he is trying to show him is nothing but a blurb of a man and woman. “Look at this shit, can you believe it?” J.J. asks excitedly. “I don’t know what I’m looking at,” Shane cringes back, eyes hurting. “Rozanov is engaged.” And just like that, the world stops. Shane blinks, and then blinks again. Surely he misheard. _______________ Shane hears a rumor in the locker room that Ilya Rozanov is engaged. He breaks his own heart by believing it without asking Ilya if it's true.

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  10. That girl at the club meant nothing. Shane drunk-texting Ilya at 2 AM means everything.

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    A bandaid for my brain following the Club Scene in episode four.

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  11. Going to the club is the last thing Shane wants to do. But indulging what he wants is what got him here in the first place, and now he has to do his penance. -- This time, Shane does not leave with Rose.

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  12. Shane ignores the slow apparition of colours his sight was missing. Ilya does not understand why he keeps buying ginger beer. Or how to accept you are in love, one soulmark at a time.

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  13. “It’s one of your superstitions, right?” Hayden asked. “Like my hat. It’s your good luck shirt.” Shane felt a chill run down his spine. He hadn’t thought anyone would notice. In truth, he’d barely noticed himself. It wasn’t something he was actively doing. It wasn’t like his weight circuit or his diet or his night routine. It wasn’t meditation or yoga or cross-training. Those were all things he did with meticulous, painstaking purpose. This was just… this was something else. This wasn’t thought driven. If he was being honest, it barely had to do with hockey. It maybe was one of the only things in his life that didn’t have to do with hockey. If he was stressed, he wore the shirt and it made him feel a little bit better. It just so happened that most of the time he was stressed about something to do with hockey. That was it. It was just a feeling. A feeling of calm that came from Ilya Rozanov’s shirt. OR: Shane accidentally wore Ilya's shirt back to the hotel after it things started to feel Too Real. What if he kept the shirt? OR: 5 Times Someone Noticed Shane's New Favorite Shirt + 1 Time Shane Realized Ilya Still Had His Too

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  14. Shane Hollander is thrown back by the tone, the words, and the response as a whole Scott Hunter gives back. He panics, and does not know what to do. ----- Or, Shane spirals after the Scott Hunter fight, but at least his good friend Hayden is there to help him.

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  15. At the base of Shane Hollander’s throat is a dark red hickey. It’s fresh, no more than a day or two old, stark and striking against his otherwise unblemished skin. Ilya feels possessed. -- Shane shows up to the Montreal vs Boston game in ep4 with a hickey. Ilya takes it about as well as you'd expect. (In which they're definitely hatefucking because they definitely hate each other and definitely don't feel anything else towards each other. Don't worry. Nothing to see here. Especially not any tenderness or love. Nope.)

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  16. Ilya was still learning about Shane. What made him tick. What made him go quiet, what made him think. What made Shane's eyebrows scrunch, and what made him smile. After so many years, Ilya should have known all of this. But now he had the luxury of just watching Shane exist.He could study him in the morning, when Shane was waking up. He could watch Shane as he cooked, and as he relaxed into bed with some boring hockey book. Ilya was still learning Shane. And he never really wanted to stop.

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  17. shane knew two things: he'd never kissed anyone before, and he really could not stand ilya rozanov. (college!au with hockey rivals hollanov and virgin shane with forced proximity)

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